Title: I Forgot to Remember to Forget

Disclaimer: see part 1

Sam Eddie made it to Eddie's SUV before either of them spoke. "Twins? Twins? I was just starting to get used to 1 baby." Sam blurted out. "How did we go from a maybe one night drugged hookup to twins?!?"

"Calm down, you heard the Doctor, you need to limit your stress. Breathe. What was that breathing technique you learned in your acting class? Cover your right nostril and breathe out the left?" Eddie told her in an attempt to calm her down, worried she was nearing a panic attack.

Sam used the technique, and as expected it worked. "You remembered that?"

"I remember everything." Eddie replied as he tucked her hair behind her ear. "Do you want to go to the office as we planned, or do you want to go somewhere else? I'm sure Berto can manage without us if he has to."

"Let's go to the office, I think I need some normalcy this afternoon. Maybe we could have dinner at my place tonight and have that talk?" Sam suggested.

"Ok, back to the office." Eddie replied putting the S.U.V. in gear.

"Eddie? I need to run an errand. I'll be gone about an hour, two tops." Sam asked as they pulled in at the office.

"I can handle things, but I'm worried about you. Are you O.K." Eddie answered, his concern for her evident in his voice.

"No, I'm not, but I will be. Don't get me wrong I'm excited, but I'm scared too. I texted my sponsor Tina. She is going to pick me up so we can talk. I need to use the tools I learned in Rehab. I promise I will be ok, and this is how I get that way. I love these babies, and I can't wait to feel them kick, and I can't wait to see who they are. I promise you and I will talk tonight, but I need to do this first. Do you understand?" Sam answered.

"I do. Just remember you aren't alone in this. We are all here, but especially I am here and I can't wait to meet these guys either. We will talk tonight." Eddie said with a shy smile as he moved his hand to her still flat tummy. They sat in his S.U.V. in silence for a moment until Tina pulled up.

"I'll see you soon, and don't tell Berto we are having twins. I want to be there when we blow his mind." Sam said with a grin as she got out of the S.U.V.

In a booth at a coffee shop down the street

"So, you want to fill me in on why you wanted to meet? You seemed to be doing well when we last talked." Tina began.

"Do you remember a couple months ago when I thought I might have slipped and had a drink?" Sam replied.

"Yeah, you said you were woke up somewhere with no memory of how you got there and later saw a photo of yourself with a drink in your hand, right?" Tina answered.

"Right. Well as it turned out I was drugged. The blood work we had done because we couldn't remember showed we had been drugged with something called 'Devils Breathe' and it made us forget everything for several hours before and after. I also had a Blood Alcohol level done and it came back clear, so I didn't drink. We found out who drugged us, and why but because of a non disclosure agreement I can't tell you anymore. Anyways we kind of just decided to put what could have happened out of our minds and move on, and we did. Things have been great, and I just kinda went into denial it even happened..." Sam trailed off.

"But something changed? And it's sent you spiraling." Tina finished.

"You could say that. Yesterday I found out I'm pregnant and that is the only time it could have happened. Then today I had an ultrasound and found out I'm having twins, and that's what has really sent me hard core wanting a drink. I wanted a drink yesterday but once I vocalized that I realized I didn't need a drink. That I'm stronger than that, but today. I'm feeling so many emotions and I knew I needed to talk to someone who has been there and that isn't part of all this." Sam replied honestly.

"How do you feel about all of this? Have you told the father? What does he think?" Tina asked.

"Yes I told the father, and while he was surprised and angry he isn't angry with me. He wasn't in control either, he was drugged too. We haven't really talked much about logistics, especially in light of this new development but we are going to talk tonight. I'm excited, but I'm scared too. I haven't been sober that long, I'm having a family with a man I've known even less time than I've been sober, and we aren't in a relationship. I mean we are friends, and partners but we aren't together, AND my probation is dependent upon my employ with him."Sam answered with her head in her hands.

"Ok, well I'm glad you contacted me. You know I'm here no matter what. It sounds like you have other support too. When was your last meeting?" Tina asked.

"Day before yesterday, before all this happened. Eddie has been amazing. He took care of me last night, even got me chocolate sauce when I had a craving! If things were different..." Sam started. "He's the kind of guy you'd want to be with." Tina finished.

"Yeah. When everything melted down with Dylan and I went off the rails so publicly I didn't think I'd ever find anyone who I could feel comfortable with the way I do with him. Now I wonder if it's all ruined." Sam said maudlinly.

"Ok, a couple things I would suggest. 1 - you need a meeting, even if you don't stand up, you need to be reminded of why you need to stay the course, and 2 - let yourself off the hook for this. You can't change it so you need to accept that you can't, and 3 - you need to be honest - with yourself and Eddie." Tina replied.

"Will you go to a meeting with me now? I already promised Eddie we would talk tonight and get everything out there, but I need a meeting." Sam asked honestly.

"Absolutely, and in case I didn't say it before, Congratulations. I'm proud of you for being honest with yourself and me." Tina said and they walked out of the coffee shop.

Eddie tried to get work done, but was distracted. Berto noticed it immediately but said nothing. He knew Eddie had taken Sam to the Doctor that morning and figured his distraction was related to having missed a half a day of work. After their time working together he decided it was best to leave him be when Eddie went in his office and closed the door. His suspicions were confirmed when Sam returned a couple hours later and immediately let herself in his office and closed the door behind her.

"I'm back, which I guess is redundant, you can see me so you know I'm back. Anyways as promised, I'm in a better headspace, and more certain than ever we need that talk. Think you can get out of here in the next hour or so?" Sam babbled as she looked at the clock.

"Honestly? I've read the same report 5 times in the last hour. I keep getting distracted and looking at this." Eddie replied sheepishly pointing to the ultrasound photo. "I don't foresee it getting any better in an hour. Give me 5 minutes and we can head out, if that's ok with you."

TBC - their talk should be in the next chapter.