I have to admit that I really love this story. It's not that I am egocentric or self-centred but I feel like the story is starting to breath on its own, that the characters are being brought to life. Thank you, RonisGirlSQ for your amazing beta-reader's skills, your ideas and help. We are making a damn good team.
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Sammie and Roni xoxo
Mary safely parked the car at the parking spot in front of their home. The drive was rather quiet because Emma was completely lost in her own mind and Mary didn't want to disturb her. They both exited the vehicle, Emma accepting her mother's hand to be lead towards the door.
Feeling like she has left something very important at the doctor's office Emma entered the house. Was it her heart that had stayed with Regina? It surely felt like it went missing. The meeting with doctor Mills went great and it left Emma feeling desperate for more time spent with the woman.
"Is everything ok, dear?" Mary asked when she noticed how frozen her daughter was. As if she was pinned to the floor at the spot where she has left her. Emma turned around following her mother's voice. It felt better facing the person she was talking to even if she couldn't see them.
"Is it wrong to feel this way about someone I've just met?" Emma asked lowering her gaze. If she could see she would probably be examining something interesting on the floor. Mary took both her hands into hers and gave them a gentle squeeze. Emma was glad for her mother's support and presence. If her friends weren't somewhere near by, Mary was usually the first person Emma shared her feelings with. She trusted her wholeheartedly.
"It's not wrong, Emma. It's just how the faith works sometimes. Why do we meet certain people? Isn't it because they were meant to be in our lives, because they were here to either give us a lesson or be a blessing?" Mary was amazing with words and she seemed to know what to say during any occasion. Emma listened to her knowing that her mother was a wise woman and always gave her the best advice ever.
"Do you think doctor Mills is a blessing?" Emma asked fishing for some sort of reassurance that what she was feeling was a good thing. Mary wasn't inside the office with her so she couldn't have known what happened between them. She only could have guessed according to what she saw in Regina's eyes and what her body language told her. So far she was certain that Emma really made a good impression and that this certain doctor was interested in her. Beyond being just another patient that is.
"It's up to you to find that out. I have a good feeling about this. Doctor Mills seems to know what she is doing and she may actually help you," Mary answered looking into Emma's eyes already imagining the day her daughter will be able to look into hers.
"I always jump to conclusions without waiting a little bit longer to get to know the person," Emma admits closing the distance between her and Mary. She wrapped her arms around her mother and hugged her tightly. Feeling vulnerable.
"Thank you, mom, for coming with me," Emma whispered into Mary's ear receiving a stronger hug from her mother. Mary smiled, "You know I am always here for you."
"I am really sorry you have to bear my sappy side," Emma smirked pulling away from her mother. She made it clear that it was time for her to go to her room to start working on a few things that needed to be finished as soon as possible. Emma worked as a radio host in one of the smaller radio stations in the Boston area. She loved music and books so this position was actually a dream come true for her. What better place to talk about her favourite activities than a radio show? The idea of inspiring people to pick up a good book or listen to music is indescribable. She may not have her sight, but she didn't need that to enjoy a good book, or good music. Reading and music had changed her life. If she could do that for someone else, just make one person's day better, then she felt accomplished.
She was supposed to go on air tonight so in order to not stress about it she needed to prepare herself. This was not the only reason why she wished for some solitude and quiet. A husky voice was filling her ears. Sounding a lot like a certain doctor. Her mind formed a to-do list of things she needed to do, and prepare for her show wasn't going to be the first thing on it. Regina Mills was for sure going to give Emma a hard time concentrating.
Emma kissed Mary on her cheek and left to hide in her room to get some work done. She needed to occupy herself, she needed to fill her days with things to do, people to meet, audio books to listen to, music to study for her shows. It was something that would make time fly faster. A week wasn't too long but for Emma it felt like eternity.
Monday evening was dedicated to music so Emma dived into the topic she wanted to talk about on tonight's show. Succeeding in staying focused on the task. Emma was able to prepare the whole episode of her show, excitement bubbling under her skin as fire was coursing through her veins. She was lucky. Meeting such an interesting person and also a good doctor in one human being was what she called luck. Emma took the headphones putting them on her head to get lost in the tones of the music, she closed her eyes. Every song she was listening to reminded her of Regina Mills. This wasn't fair. She had to wait till next week to meet her again and this wasn't helping at all. Music was supposed to take her mind somewhere else. Not back to her doctor from who she was trying desperately not to think about obsessively. Emma wanted to make today's show about her favourite band Of Monsters And Men so she inserted their CD into the player and laid down to listen to some more songs before she talks about them and their work. When the song 'Crystals' came up Emma couldn't keep the tears in. While listening to the chorus they didn't seem to be able to stop.
Cover your crystal eyes,
and feel the tones that tremble down your spine.
Cover your crystal eyes,
and let your colours bleed and blend with mine.
She loves her life. There is no question about that. She just can't help to feel like she is missing out. Her life has been in darkness for so long now. The hope of ever getting her sight back felt like a flickering flame. One blown breath and it would be extinguished. Never to be seen again. It's hard not to feel greedy when she's been given a chance to get that back now. Doctor Regina Mills, the only doctor so far who has given her a chance that she thought lost to her so long ago. Stroking the flame of fire in her.
The one called hope.
Her body was shaking at the thought of seeing the world around her. Emma felt the waves of excitement travelling through her whole being, raising the hairs on her skin. She was overwhelmed with emotions and feelings, her mind ran wild with imagination. There was too many things she couldn't wait to do when she got her sight back. Life in the darkness made her a better person. It showed her what she should be grateful for. She realized that it was the little things that made human lives colorful. Happier. Richer. Oh how much she missed seeing colors. Hoping that her own colors will blend with Regina's she hugged herself as if she needed to hold her body together and prevent it from falling apart.
I know I'll wither so peel away the bark,
'cause nothing grows when it is dark.
In spite of all my fears, I can see it all so clear,
I see it all so clear.
Emma felt like the darkness that she was living suddenly swallowed her even more. As if the darkness was a monster that wouldn't let her go, it loved her too much to give her freedom. She gasped. Her lungs needed more oxygen. Taking deep slow breaths Emma calmed down, fresh air filling her lungs partially saving her from falling even deeper into the darkness. Squeezing her eyelids even harder she focused on the bright things that were now happening in her life. An image of Regina appeared in front of her closed eyes. She had no idea what she looked like but using everything she has already knew about her made it easier to imagine her. Regina was there to remind Emma to not forget how to shine through the darkness, she was there to lead her to the light.
That fire that was inside her wasn't going to let the darkness consume her. It's been stroked again. Shining bright. Brighter than she can recall it being in quite some time. There was light in her world again. Flashes of colors she remembers seeing, fading but still there. She couldn't wait until she could see them again. Hopefully, with the help from Doctor Regina Mills, her world will never know darkness again.
TBC
