Chapter 4

Jacob's POV

All the while Bella was telling me her story I just sat there, mouth open unable to even form words to interrupt. I couldn't believe what she was saying, what she had been through. The secret life of Bella Swan. When I had first phased and learned the truth about that fucking leech Eduardo or whatever his name, I felt sick knowing that she had dated him, but she had known the whole time. Well, until I told her that is! Me and my fat-ass mouth! When she showed me where that other leech had bitten her I almost lost it.

"Jake are you okay?" she asked carefully, reaching out for my trembling hand. I immediately flinched at the cold touch of her skin on mine.

"Sorry," I mumbled trying to keep my anger under control.

"...So that's what really happened in phoenix... huh!" she gave me an uneasy smile.

We had moved the conversation outside just before she started telling me what had happened in her life over the past year. It was a sunny day and Bella's skin was sparkling in the sunlight like diamonds. I had never seen anything like it. Although a little creepy, she was still beautiful.

"Yeah so that's pretty much it. You were there for the rest," Bella finished.

I was still amazed and speechless. I couldn't believe all that my Bells had been through. How could she be so stupid, hanging out with vampires, let alone dating one! It made me sick; did that mean that she had kissed him... or more? I decided to stop that train of thought immediately, firstly it was none of my business and secondly I didn't think my stomach could handle it.

"So... what do the pack think about you looking after a vampire? I can't imagine they're too pleased." She asked shyly.

"Well not exactly... Paul and I got into a fight over it actually... and Sam isn't pleased but I think he understands, not that he would admit it... You're my friend no matter what you are. I at least owed you a chance to live..."

"A chance to live?" she cut in.

"Yeah...um...They wanted me to 'take of you'..." I felt ashamed.

"Oh." She stated simply, when she realized what I meant.

"But I refused; I wouldn't, I couldn't... so that's why I had to bring you here. Not to mention I thought it would be best for you not to be around people for a while."

"I'm so sorry Jacob..." Typical, she's blaming herself.

"Bells you have nothing to be sorry about, okay! It's not your fault; it's that fucking leech's. I swear if I ever see him..."

"Please, stop! It's not his fault either; he didn't know that this would..."

"That, this would happen?" I said pointing to her "...what the fuck did he think would happen when he left you here, alone, unprotected!" She flinched. I couldn't believe she was defending him after all he put her through!

It stayed quiet, apart from a few whimpers from Bella, who was not able to cry. Then the silence became unbearable.

"Look Bells..." I started after calming down "...when I promised I would never leave you, I meant it... I care about you Bella... a lot," I looked into her eyes; I missed the chocolate brown that had been replaced by blood-shot red. I pleaded with her to see things correctly.

"...Nothing can or will ever change that... I love you Bells." For a split second I thought I saw something in her eyes but wasn't sure whether it was longing or pity or both. Then she spoke up in a strong voice.

"So what now Jacob? Are we going to stay here, live happily ever after?! Besides the fact that I could kill you, what kind of life could we possibly lead? And what happens to Billy? Your friends back home, the pack? What happens to Charlie?

"...As much as this kills me to say Jake, I can't stay here with you we don't belong together... this could never work... I'm sorry."

I felt like my heart was bleeding I knew she was just lashing out, being stubborn as usual but it hurt. I had loved this girl ever since I could remember. She started walking away.

"Bells, where are you going?" She stopped to speak but didn't turn around.

"I don't know... but I have to leave Jacob... you deserve so much better... You deserve someone who you can love and share your life with, someone who can be there for you the way I can't, you deserve someone who can love you the way I can't...

"...you're amazing you know that? After he let me... I was broken, hollow... you put me back together Jacob and for that I will be forever grateful... but I can't take anymore of your sunlight away from you... there are so many things I want to say to you, to explain how much you mean to me, but no matter how many words I use, it will never be enough... You're the best friend a girl could ask for.

"...Go home Jake, take care of Billy, take care of your people and take care of Charlie for me... make sure he knows how much I- how much I love him."

I couldn't take it anymore I closed the distance between us and spun her around to face me. Then without a second thought I crashed my lips to hers. There were cold, she was cold, but I was warm enough for the both of us. She whimpered against me, but then she was kissing me back. Our hands tangled in each other's hair, body pressed together. I poured everything I had into it, my passion, and my love. However, like always it wasn't enough and she pulled away.

"Bella please," I begged "... don't leave me. We can work this out, get though it like we always have. I can make you happy."

"I love you Jake... I'm sorry."

She went to turn away again and I grab her arm. The next thing I knew I had been flung backwards, across the clearing and into a tree. At first I was shocked, then became dizzy as I felt a wet sensation trickle down my neck. I looked over to where Bella was standing. Obviously her reaction was just as much of a shock to her. When the breeze shifted to her from my direction she froze and her eyes turned black. She immediately covered her mouth.

Before running away she spared me a glance, although deranged I could tell it was meant to be apologetic.

...That was the last I saw of Bella Swan.

A/N: So what do you think??? I know people are reading this coz heaps have added it to story alert/favs. That being said I would love to hear your opinions so far. And don't be shy review I need motivation!

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