AN: hey guys, sorry for the long wait. I was just really busy with school and stuff… And I know many people have these excuses but I just think that school is very important too so no hate please. And I didn't have much time between school too. So sorry. Again.

APOV

I dragged Bella with me to the small café I mentioned.

''Whatever is free please.'' I asked the waiter.

He looked at me and then at Bella. When he Bella looked at Bella concern covered his face.

''Sir!'' I called out to him with a frown.

His eyes snapped back to mine.

''Uhm, yes of course.'' He turned to Bella. ''Should I get a glass of water for you, m'am. You look kind of pale.''

Bella could barely bring a nod out but she it did anyway.

''Alright, follow me please.'' The waiter said, leading us to a table.

When we sat down I looked at Bella again. She looked as white as a sheet and maybe with a tint of green. I was getting slightly concerned now too. I think she really was close to going in shock.

''Bella!'' I snapped my fingers in front of her face. Her eyes focused again. She looked down her lap at her folded hands.

'' You left.'' She said quietly. ''You all did.'' She continued. She looked up to my face. ''You were my best friend. You were my sister. I cried for all of you.'' She continued louder her eyes boring into my own. I was surprised she didn't scream it out in anger. It's probably what I would've done but I should know by now that Bella didn't hold grudges to anyone. But she has to understand why we left and that's maybe also why she wasn't angry. She only seems sad and empty. Hollow.

''Bella, I'm so sorry.'' I said, not really knowing what to say. ''You do understand why we left, don't you?'' I tried to reason.

''He doesn't love me.'' She said.

''Bella, come on! Edward meant what he said that day!'' I said to her, trying to get that thought out of her head.

Her eyes turned angry. ''Yeah, rub it in Alice!'' she said loudly and some people turned and stared at us.

I turned a little bit mad myself. ''Bella, what the hell. Does it even mean anything to you that he's trying to protect you? He has been devastated for years and I understand that you've been sad too but he left and that's harder. You wouldn't have had the strength!'' As soon as those last words left my mouth I regretted it. I saw the hurt in her eyes. Before I had the chance to apologize she cut me off.

''How dare you! I mourned for the family I lost. I wanted to go back in time to savor every minute I spent with him. With all of you! The day he left me alone in that forest, telling me that he didn't love me, I lost something. I've been desperate to find it back but that's hard. Alice, recovering is hard.'' Bella said on the verge of breaking out into tears.

But one thing she said got stuck in my head. She said that Edward told her that he didn't love her. What is Bella trying to say with this? Does she think that Edward saying he's leaving for her protection that he didn't love her? That doesn't sound like Bella at all. Bella is smarter than that. At least I hope so.

''Bella why do you think that he doesn't love you? He really was trying to protect you. He explained it, right?'' I said, getting suspicious now. '' Bella what did he tell you that day?''

''I don't like to talk about that.'' Bella said, casting her eyes downwards again.

Edward wouldn't have told Bella that he didn't love her, right? I asked him to tell her the truth and he promised me. But looking at Bella now I clearly saw that he didn't. I began to see red how further my mind processed it.

I need to have a talk with brother love when I get home.

AN: so this was it. Please tell me what you think