Chapter 4

I bit my lip to hold my conscience back as I drove off. The school faded into the traffic and I didn't look back. I gripped the steering wheel until my knuckles where white. I had one thought: escape. My neighborhood rose up quickly and I squealed the tires turning onto the gravel drive way. The house was empty cause mom was still gone with my truck.
I ran to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of cheap wine. Unscrewing the top I took a long drink from the bottle. Then I ran to the pantry and threw open the doors. Sitting on the shelf was my moms heroin. I grabbed a needle and stabbed it into my arm.
Soon the room spun, I heard a crash but I was busy examining my fingers which had turned various shades of purple. I laughed and fell backward banging my head against the table before settling into a heap on the floor.
I'm not sure how long I lay there but a while later I heard the door open. A woman's voice drifted to me and a deep mans voice answered. The woman laughed and then I heard them go upstairs. My high brain didn't know nor did it care who they where. But soon the door opened again and I heard someone gasp.
"No! Beck tell me this isn't Jade's house. Oh God please don't let it be."
"Tori. You didn't know her laugh is like this? Why do you think she dresses like she does?"
"I don't know." Their footsteps got closer and suddenly I didn't want to be seen. I struggled to move but the world was tie die and I couldn't make sense of anything. I looked around. The couch was bright red and orange but I crawled to it. I collapsed onto it and pulled a blanket over me.
"Tori! She's over here!" I heard running footsteps and another gasp.

"Jade! What have you done to yourself?" but I held up a purple finger and said "Shhhhhhh. She's talking to me." I could here a faint voice that was mumbling something to me.

"Beck! What do we do?" I smiled and laughed a high pitched shrieking sound. "Oh Jade! Please Beck we have to do something!" That voice. The girl was crying. Why was she crying? She shouldn't be crying.
"Be happy." I mumbled.

"I am!"

"No you ain't. You is sad. You is crying!" She didn't answer. I sighed and closed my eyes. I felt something poke my side and I drifted off to nothingness.

I opened my eyes to a splitting head ache and the blaring or blaring to me sound of the TV. The show was Myth Busters. "I hate this show" I murmured. The person in front of me jumped and turned around.

"Jade! Your up! How are you feeling?" Tori asked. Beck who sat next to her turned around.

"I have a headache and I hate this show." Both of them cracked grins as they stood up. Tori changed the channel to some talk show and then went to the kitchen. Beck sat down next to me and started rubbing my shoulders.

"Tori! If your getting her Advil she needs something to eat, if its Motrin still get her something to eat." I chuckled and shifted uncomfortably. His hands felt scratchy, and he was hurting my back.

"Stop. Please Beck just stop. Your hurting me." He pulled back his hand and looked hurt but I didn't care anything to have his hands off me. Tori handed me a sandwich, a glass of water and two small pills.

I sat up and ate the sandwich. I downed the pills and water and then leaned back against the back of the sofa. "Ow" I muttered. I sighed and looked over at Beck. He was watching me like I might explode. "What? What you starring at me for?" I demanded.

"I'm not staring at you!"

"Yes you are! You were lookin at me all funny." Tori chuckled and Beck looked confused.

"I wasn't looking at you." I rolled my eyes and looked away. I watched Tori as she smiled at the TV. And I wanted to reach out and pull her close and hold her head against mine and kiss her pretty lips.

"Damn it! Why are you so good looking?" Then I realized I'd spoken aloud. Both of them looked at me.

"Um Jade? Which one of us?" But I pretended my shoes where the most interesting things in the world. Hours passed and Beck finally had to leave. Tori agreed to stay with me through the night and make sure I was alright. As soon as beck was gone however Tori turned off the TV and sat next to me. She took my hands and looked me in the eyes.

"You don't love Beck anymore do you?" I nodded, agreeing with her. "And I'm guessing its because you love someone else. Right?" I nodded again. "Well, who is he?" I flushed and looked down.

Not he! I don't like a he! I like a she! I wanted to scream but I didn't. She'd laugh. And then I'd lose her forever. I sighed and stood up and broke her grasp. I began to pace. "Tori! I don't understand it! I don't understand the feelings I have and I don't get what I'm feeling." I was marching around the room in exasperation. I turned and looked at Tori to find her smiling.

"You're not in love with a guy are you?" I gasped.

"I'm not! I'm not! I promise I'm not!" I cried. And suddenly I was sobbing. She held out her arms and I turned and climbed into them. I sobbed into her chest and she held me close. I turned and looked up at her. She lowered her head and placed her lips on mine. I kissed her back and relaxed into her embrace. Her tongue poked at my lips and I opened them a little letting her in. And for that one moment I believed everything was alright. But then that moment ended.

Hey guys. I hope you like so far. I'm having fun with this so I hope you all like it as much as I do! Ooh! I just love Christmas music. You all are lucky I'm listening to it cause I decided to add the kiss. ;D But just wait till next chapter. Oh and enjoy this chapter a day thing cause soon it'll been Monday and the I have school so I cant camp out in front of the laptop! Darn. Any way. Let me know if you don't like something or if you'd like to see something in up coming chapters. And please please review! XD