Hey there! Thanks for the greatest reviews ever I loved them all. Here's chapter 4 I hope you enjoy!!! I'm thinking about adding more poetry in what do you think?
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This day was so not going how she planned. Sparing her captain a sideways glance, he looked angirly upon her.

"Take a seat Olivia." he said cooly, sitting in his own chair. Numbly, Olivia sat down. "I honestly don't know where to begin with you. Usually it's Elliot I'm having this conversation with. What you did, it crossed the line. Big time. Should he press charges I have no doubt that you will lose your job." Olivia cringed.

"Sorry Cap." she whispered miserably. "I-I didn't mean..." she trailed off. Just exactly what did she mean to do? Looking past his anger, Cragen realized just how bad his detective felt.

"You lost your head for a second. It happens. That's why I wanted someone in there with you, so we could avoid this entire situation." he said softly, coaxing Olivia to look at him. She did not. "What he said to you in there...I'm not surprised you reacted the way you did. To be completely honest, I was half a second off him myself." Hearing this, Olivia looked at her boss in surprise. Cragen chuckled softly. "I'm not angry at you Olivia. He said some really harsh things back there especially that last part-"

"Yeah Cap I know." Olivia cut him off, trying like hell to forget the last 20 minutes. Well almost. She kept the few minutes of her cutting off Jenkins' air supply. "I'm sorry." she offered finally, noticing Cragen gazing at her warmly.

"I know. Sadly, our superiors won't see it that way. I have no choice really but to suspend you." Olivia nodded.

"How long?" she asked.

Cragen smiled. "I'd say a week. I need some time to smooth over some ruffled feathers." Olivia smiled back.

"Thanks for having my back Don." she said, standing up to leave.

"Thanks for choking Jenkins for me. It saved his life you know." Olivia laughed.

"Tell the boys bye for me?" she asked. Fin, Munch, and Elliot were trying to stall Jenkins' lawyer until Casey arrived with hopefully a damn good explanation.

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"I will." Cragen promised. With a small wave, Olivia was gone.

Recovering in the crib were three detectives.

"Why the fuck did you let her go in there by herself?!" Elliot yelled incredously. Munch and Fin sighed. Here we go they thought.

"We didn't let her do anything. She did it her damn self!!!" Fin snapped, rising to his feet. Elliot rose to meet him.

"Guys that's enough. Jenkins' lawyer seemed to believe our story, so we're in the clear." Munch interjected. Elliot snorted.

"Yeah Munch, that's just great-think about yourself. What about Liv huh? How is she in the fucking clear?" he roared.

"Elliot." Cragen said from the doorway.

"Cap?" Elliot answered sheepishly.

"My office. Now." Cragen ordered, voice devoid of the warmth he had just shown Olivia. Shooting Fin and Munch a glare, Elliot followed.

Taking a seat in the chair Cragen didn't offer, Elliot waited. Clearing his throat, Cragen pulled out Elliot's file.

"So this would be what, the millionth time you've lost your cool with a suspect?" he asked. Elliot sighed.

"Cap..." he started, but Cragen didn't give him a chance.

"Shut up." he ordered, taking a seat himself. "What the hell were you thinking Elliot?"

Elliot stiffened. "I was thinking I had to back my partner up. I didn't know that was a crime." he said.

"It is when you try to tear the suspect's head off!" Cragen barked.

"Oh come on you stopped me before it could get that far!" Elliot protested.

"Do you even care that you could've lost your job?" Cragen asked in disbelief. Elliot's face crumpled in thought.

"My job...Olivia's life...hmm..." Cragen rolled his eyes.

"You're exagerrating Elliot. She wasn't in any danger." he tried to explain. It was Elliot's turn to roll his eyes. "Don't be a jackass Elliot." Elliot grinned.

"But it's part of my charm." he said innocently. Cragen nodded.

"Suspension is far too good for you. And since you're already on desk duty, I don't have any ideas on what to do with you. You're like a bratty, smart ass kid who keeps getting sent to the principal's office. So you'll be riding a desk-and only a desk-until further notice. No interogations, no interviews, just you and the desk." he announced, enjoying the smile slowly fade from Elliot's cocky face.

"But-Captain..." Elliot sputtered, at a loss for words.

"You're dismissed detective." Cragen said, now looking over some paperwork.

"This is so fucking unfair."Elliot muttered, leaving the office. He didn't think twice about slamming the door behind him.

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"That bad?" Munch inquired, upon hearing Elliot slam his locker shut. Instead of cursing Munch out again, Elliot settled on a simple glare.

"You call me selfish Elliot, but have you once thought about Olivia?" Munch asked.

"Only about every fucking second" crossed Elliot's mind as an answer but he chose to remain silent.

"She's suspended for a week. But you already knew that." Munch informed. Elliot's eyes went wide.

"Where is she?" he demanded.

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"Beatiful night huh?" Casey asked, walking up to stand beside Olivia.

"Yeah if I wasn't in such a depressed mood." Olivia answered, looking up at the stars.

"I thought you wanted some time off." Casey questioned. Olivia smiled a sad, tired smile.

"Be careful what you wish for." she said. Casey agreed silently.

"Maybe you'll be ok after a few days. You are pretty overworked. I would know, we work almost the same amount of hours." she said hopefully.

"Maybe. I guess I just need some time alone. You know, to gather my thoughts." Olivia said, a warm breeze cutting through her thoughts.

"I get the point. Call when you feel up to it okay?" Casey asked, walking towards the door. Olivia nodded. Once Casey was gone, she closed her eyes to relax. It was when she was alone that she could fully relax. She didn't have to worry about being the supercop, or keeping a smile on her face when she felt like falling apart. And boy oh boy did she feel like falling apart. Jenkins' speech was not in the least bit true, but it shook her to the core. Another breeze blew, this one colder than the last. Shivering a little, Olivia vaguely wondered if it was from the cold or from fear.

"Are you cold?" A voice whispered in her ear. Olivia jumped.

"Hey." She offered weakly, instead of explaining her thoughts. Elliot grinned truly for the first time that day.

"Hey." he said, wrapping his arms around her. "I missed you today." His arms around her were like a fortress, protecting her always. It was in his arms that she felt safest. Sniffling-taking a breath in, she tried to compose herself.

"I-ahem. I missed you too." she managed to get out hoarsely. Truthfully that was an understatement. Elliot frowned.

"Are you ok?" he questioned softly, pulling her closer, gripping her tighter.

"Where were you today?" Olivia asked, her voice low but a tad accusatory.

"I-um, Kathy called me. She wanted to talk." Elliot answered, feeling guiltier than ever for not being there when Olivia wanted, needed him to.

If she heard him, Olivia gave no indication that she had. "I'm suspended for a week." she said. Elliot froze. Something just wasn't right.

"I know...Liv I'm so sorry I wasn't there to back you up." he apologized. Olivia shrugged.

"I can take care of myself. Besides, it's not like you had to be there." she said, pulling away from his embrace to be met with the cold night air.

"Hold on Olivia...I know I didn't have to be there. But I wanted to. I know how much Jenkins gets under your skin so I wanted to be there, to keep it from getting as far as it did today." Elliot explained, baffled by his partner's behavior. "What did he say to you?"

"I heard you cussed out Munch and Fin. It's not their fault you know." Olivia pointed out, ignoring Elliot's question.

"Yes the hell it is. They should've been in there with you-"

"Why Elliot! Because I'm dangerous? Because I might lose control and hurt someone?" Olivia yelled suddenly, shocking Elliot. She had been trying to keep her emotions under control, but what Jenkins told her was a wound that ran too deep to be swept under the carpet.

"No of course not. Liv-" Elliot tried, but Olivia once again refused to hear him.

"Or maybe it's beacause you think I'm like my mother. She was out control alot, especially after a few drinks. She never could control her rage, maybe she passed it on to me." Olivia was crying now, knowing what she was saying was pure bullshit but letting it tumble out of her mouth anyway. Elliot stared at her with shattered eyes. He had missed out on so much today, and his partner was paying for his absence.

"Livia..." he started, but stopped, at a loss for words. Taking his silence as an agreement, Olivia continued on.

"You think it's true. You think I'm just like my mother. If you think I'm just like her, why don't you get a new partner then? I'm sure Dani would like to take my job-" Reaching out, Elliot pulled Olivia into a tight hug.

"Don't talk like that." He whispered, frightened at the possibility of her leaving yet again. "I would never ever compare you to your mother, or anybody else. You're my Olivia. Not Dani, not your mother, not Melinda or Casey. You're you, and I wouldn't change that. Not on my life." Crying softly, Olivia burried her head into his shoulder. She wanted nothing more than to dissappear forever. "Shh...it's ok. I'm here it's ok. Shh..." Elliot soothed, kissing her softly on the cheek. He didn't ever want to let go. Pulling away, Olivia stared at him. As if she had made a decison, she kissed him quickly on the lips. What she didn't expect however, was for Elliot to kiss her back. Slipping his hands underneath her blouse, he rubbed her back reassuringly.

"Elliot-" Olivia whispered breathlessly, pulling back for a moment.

"Shh...I meant what I said Olivia. It's ok." Elliot said, pulling her close and kissing her once more. Breaking free, he trailed kisses down her neck, savoring her scent. "You smell so good." he commented, working his fingers through her now long silky hair. "No offense, but I kind of liked your shorter hair better." Olivia started to laugh, but winced instead. "You ok?" Elliot asked worriedly. Olivia nodded.

"It's been a rough day." she admitted.

"Can I drive you home?" Elliot asked, unsure of Olivia's attitude towards him. Olivia smiled.

"Sure." she said, holding out her hand. Taking it graciously, Elliot led her off of the rooftop and into the building. They still had alot to talk about, mainly Jenkins, but that could wait until tomorrow. Right now, both detectives were satisfied with a simple ride home.

Some distance away, a shadowed figure watched the pair, also satisfied with their ride home. Now he could figure out just exactly where the infamous detective Benson lived.

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