NAGUMO'S POV:
I brought her home, her parents knew of course exactly what to do, and took her to bed. Me against it was still in shock.
Shirina had brought me a cup of tea to make me more relaxed and they said it had happened often and they were very grateful to me, but I was only relaxed when Suzuno could just talk to me again. After a while on the sofa, I sent a message to Atsuishi to keep him informed...
From: Nagumo Haruya
To: Atsuishi Shigeto
Hee Heat! Hurry up to Suzuno's home, something happened on our way and I think she likes to see you when see awakes...
It didn't take long before I got a message back...
From: Atsuishi Shigeto
To: Nagumo Haruya
WHAT HAPPENED!? I'm on my way! I'll be there in a half hour! Just tell me if she is fine!?
From: Nagumo Haruya
To: Atsuishi Shigeto
She is fine now, everything is in control... but I think she needs you now! So hurry up, and be here before she wakes up dude!: P
From: Atsuishi Shigeto
To: Nagumo Haruya
Okay glad to hear she is fine, that's a relieve! I'm on my way, if she wakes up, tell her I'm coming! Thanks Nagumo for informing me!
From: Nagumo Haruya
To: Atsuishi Shigeto
Don't worry bro! That's where friends are for..
And after that I put my phone away.. and I started thinking.
'I just confessed to her, and she will probably choose for Heat, but what if she don't? Heat is my best friend, why did I do this? Why would I confess to the girl my best friend is dating? That is just wrong.. I'm such a asshole sometimes.. and what about Gazelle.. she has to choose, knowing she will leave one of us heartbroken.. I'm a real wimp to do it this way, when she wake up, I will tell her I'm sorry and that I want to stay friends..'
So I stood up.
"Nagumo? What are you going to do?" Suzuno's mother asked me..
"I'm going upstairs to Suzuno, I don't want her to be alone when she wakes up, I promised her I won't leave her alone, so..."
"Nagumo can I first talk to you in private?" Shirina asked, I nodded and we walked to the kitchen.. we came in, and I noticed that there was a strange smell, but I ignored it because the look on Shirina's face looked very serious.
"Nagumo? Did you... confessed?" she then said, what made me quite surprised. "How did you know?" I asked her in a low and soft voice, it almost came out as a whisper, and I stared at her..
"Because you two are made for each other, that's why." She answered.
"But she's dating Heat..." and I looked down, and the fact itself made one tear stream down my face.. "I don't want to be a bad friend for both, but I was just breaking inside, but now I confessed everything is even worse than before, I hurt her and Heat.."
She lay a hand on my shoulder, and looked me straight in the eyes..
"You didn't do anything wrong Nagumo.. you simply just let out a few words, that were haunting you inside, and Suzuno likes you too, but I think she also likes Heat, so give her some time, and then everything will be alright, as long as you don't give up, and if Heat really loves her, then he wants her to be happy if it's with him or with you doesn't matter, love somebody means very simply, that you want your love to be happy from the depths of their hearts.. and if you explain him everything then I'm sure he will forgive you.."
"You're right." I whispered and I wiped off the tears from my face and gave her a weak smile..
"Thanks!" I said to her, and she smiled back at me.
I walked up stairs and entered the second door on the right, I slowly opened the door and peeked inside, where Suzuno was sleeping on her bed, in the left corner of the room.. her room was quite boring, grey walls and a wooden floor, she had a desk on the right and a big closet next to it.
I walked in and softly closed the door. I walked over to her bed, and looked at her peaceful sleeping face..
'She is so beautiful.' I thought and I kneeled down next to her and leaned with my elbow on her bed next to her head, and with my other hands I caressed her head and went with my fingers through her hair..
"I'm sorry Suzuno, I didn't meant to hurt you, I'm so sorry!" I said.. but of course there was no reply, so I pressed a soft kiss on her forehead and then I stood up. I looked around the room, and walked towards her desk to grab the chair, but when I arrived a noticed a blue book with the word: 'Dairy' in it.. I gave Suzuno another look and then I went to sit on the chair and grabbed her dairy..
I know it was wrong to look in it, but all my answers could be in it, and that will change everything..
So with a slight hesitation I opened the book..
On the first page stood something from when she was six...
Dear dairy!
Today I met two really nice boys in the park! And we played soccer together, they are really good..
One has red hair, his name is Nagumo Haruya, but he told me to call him Burn.. he had really beautiful eyes, they were GOLD! I never saw someone with golden eyes before, it was really pretty.
And the other had white hair, his name was Atsuishi Shigeto, and I had to call him Heat, if was really kind...
I hope I can play with them together, I really like them, they are very nice to me! and I like playing soccer with them.
X
There appeared a smile in my face while I read that.. it was weird because I felt the exact same thing that time.. then I read on, most of the pages went about her life, what I already knew.. then I came on a page with a poem on it:
You are my best friend till the very end
Cause best friends don't have to pretend
You need a hand, and I'm right there right beside you
You in the dark, I'll be the bright light to guide you
Remember the times sneaking of the house
All of the times that you had the doubts
And don't forget all the trouble we got into
We got something you can't undo
Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you
I know I drive you crazy, mm, sometimes
I know I called you lazy, and that's most times
But you complete me, and that's no lie
You are my tuxedo, and I'm your bow tie
We in the car singing our song
Rocking the building, tear it down, like we king Kong
And in my eyes, you can't do no wrong
You got the best friends sing along
Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you
Yeah... This is my oath to you...
I wondered for who she wrote it, it was very well written... then I read on.
Here she was sixteen, this is a year ago.. I kinda shocked when I read it..
Dear Dairy,
I looked in the mirror last time, but I way too overweight.. I'm fat!
So I made up a plan to lose some weight, I will practice more and I can only eat a banana.. and drink water.. I also got some pills but I won't use them, until I need it.. Heat asked me to be his girlfriend btw.. I said yes.. I didn't know what to do, I love him, that for sure, but I also love someone else, maybe more than him.. but those cute puppy eyes he put on, I couldn't resist, and my real love doesn't love me. so..
I was really embarrassed last week, Nagumo and Atsuishi went swimming and they asked me to, but I'm too fat for a bikini, I want to impress them ,not scare them.. so I said I had other plans.. I really wanted to swim I just don't like it when people can see me like that, I really hate myself sometimes, I'm know as the tomboy, so see me in a bikini is a quite shock, I may be changed but I'm still me..
I hope one day someone except me as me.. as Suzuno Fuusuke, and not as the girl I pretend to be.. Nagumo really helps me with it, I can be myself with him, even though he don't know.
Well that was what I wanted to tell..
X
"Fat? Suzuno your not fat! What are you thinking!? You way to skinny.. I never knew you were doubting yourself so much.. why didn't you... tell me!" I said to myself, and when I continued reading, the same thing repeated itself, even last week she wrote she was fat..
Then I came on a page were one line stood.. my heart stopped beating..
I know it for sure,I'm in love with my two best friends!
Me and Heat were her best friends, does that means she...loves me?...
That was it, and please leave a review!
I hope you like it, and sorry for the extreme late update, I'm also working on a new chapter from She will be loved, if you are waiting for it, I think I got it ready in a week.. so... I'm sorry!
I'm just extremely busy!
Well thanks for reading, see ya!:D
