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If only I wasn't meant for you

Chapter 4



Rukawa

She walked past me.

There was no 'Hello'.
There was no 'How you feelin''
There wasn't even a smile.

It was like she couldn't even see me.

That was like pure torture.

Ayanami

I met Rukawa again today.
He sorta stared at me as I passed him by.
It was a long hard stare and time seemed to have stopped for me as I walked past him.

My arm brushed against his but none of us reacted to it.

Ayanami and Rukawa

Maybe his/her life would be better without me in it.

Ayanami

I just want him to forget me.

Rukawa

I want her to be happy.

Ayanami

I walked towards the bathroom and and leant over the toilet seat.
I started to throw up.

I didn't want to do anything.
I closed the cubicle door and sat on the toilet seat.
Warm tears ran down my face.
I left them to run wild down my cheeks, I didn't wipe them away because I was too tired to.

My mouth still had the sourish, stale taste of barf.
What's wrong with me?

Crying over some lame guy...
I never used to be so head over heels over a guy.

Why?

why?

Why...

Rukawa

Ayanami didn't turn up for class today.
It was strange, I never thought she was the type to cut class.
I don't even do that anymore.

I actually copied some notes in class today.
It kept my mind off her.

The history teacher was actually gapping at me when I took out a pen and started to scribble.

Fascinating, isn't it?

I thought so.

Ayanami

I tore out a sheet of paper from my scrapbook and wrote a note to Rukawa and telling him to meet me at the Sakura tree outside the school

I passed it to Sakuragi and he seemed pretty surprised but he agreed to help me give it to him.

Rukawa

Sakuragi came up to me after class and passed me a note.
A pink one.

"I'm sorry I'm not interested in you."I told him

I saw him scowl.
"Its not from me baka kitsune! Ayanami told me to give it to you."he said.

Well, that was quite civilized for someone like him.

"Oh..."

He was about to walk away but he turned around and asked.

"Is she your girlfriend?"

I shook my head.

"Well, okay then."he said quietly.

Now THAT was weird!

We actually had a conversation which had nothing related to basketball whatsoever and we didn't even fight.
I guess, maybe time does make a person change.

"Sakuragi."I called.

He glanced and me raised an eyebrow.

I raised the note up.
"Thanks..."I mumbled.

He shrugged and walked off, whistling that awful 'Tensai' song of his.

Ayanami

I sat under the tree and pulled my knees up to my chest.
I looked at my watch and it was already 20 minutes after school had ended.
He still wasn't there.

I got up and made my way home.
I suppose this was the real ending of the both of us.

If there ever was an 'us'.

Rukawa

Oh gawd!
She wanted to see me after school.

What time was it?
15 minutes after school...
I was so late!
Oh please let her be there...

When I reached the tree, I saw her leave.
I tried to run after her, but she was so far off.

Looks like I'll have to talk to her tomorrow.

I just didn't realize how wrong I was.

Ayanami

When I reached home, I saw my dad packing his bags.

"What's going on Dad?" I asked.

"Quick girl, pack your bags! We're leaving for the States now!"He said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Your mother was in a car accident. She's currently in a the emergency room. I don't know how bad it is but its better if we get there as fast as we can."He said.

I knew mom had a job in The USA that's why we lived seperately.

And now she was in an accident.

I can't believe how screwed up my life was!

Rukawa

Ayanami didn't turn up for school today.
She hadn't turned up for a week.

The teacher said she had some family problems and had to leave for the States.

I was hoping that she would return but she didn't.

And I missed her.
I want her.
So badly... but she's far beyond my grasp.

Ayanami

I kneeled down in front of my mom's grave.
I can't believe she was gone.

Mom was gone.
I cried and cried and I hugged the flowers which I was supposed to put at the grave.

Dad put his arms around me and gave me a hug.
I knew he needed one too, so I hugged him back.
And we cried in each other embrace.

I didn't want to let him go because he was the only person I left.
There was no Mom.
There was no Rukawa.
There was no more life for me anymore.

I wanted to die.