It's been over a week since the party and for some reason Gray has decided to not talk to me and I don't know why! Was it something that I said? Was it something that I did? Gray is such a shit for brains. Why did he have to punch me like that for no reason! Plus, what did he mean by "I needed to work out how to deal with people's emotions"? What utter crap!
I walk into class like every morning and take my seat next to Lucy. I take a look across the room and see Gray sitting with water woman next to him talking to her and I instantly feel jealous. Why does she get special treatment and I don't? Gray and I have been best friends for years, even when our Dads told us not to be, we carried on being friends anyway. We have had way worse fights than this so why is it this one in particular that is causing Gray to not talk to me. Normally we argue, we punch it out, call each other idiotic names and then we are back to being best friends again. This time, something has changed…
For the past week, Lucy has been my main source of company. We had both decided to tell my Dad that we started to date after the party like we had agreed and that we would "break it off" after the ball. It meant that I could have her over after school to talk since no one else would right now. My Dad was ecstatic when he heard the news! He could not be more delighted that I had finally "got on the scene" but as much as I pretended to be happy myself about it, my conversation with Gray kept bugging me.
Everyone else has seemed to have taken Gray's side since the party and all I have gotten for the past week are these sad looks, but no one will tell me what the hell is going on! Lucy and I went over the conversation that I had with Gray for the thousandth time today in science class. She had told me that it was linked to the spell that Gray and I did as kids but she would not tell me what that stupid spell meant! It was just us messing around as kids trying to stay best friends. There is nothing there to get so upset over!
When I got home from school, I laid down on my bed trying to find the smallest detail. Then something pops into my head.
"I thought that I was your mate ….. You don't realise the spell that you started do you?"
I absentmindedly got out of bed and walked over to my bookshelf looking at all of the books that I have gathered over the years that were to do with my magic and the history of dragons. I run my hand over one book in particular and open the book to the page I wanted. Most of it was garbage talking about the whole principle for dragons and dragon slayers to have mates and what it means to have a mate. Quite a few times it reinstates that once the ritual is complete, then it will never be reversible. I turn the page to see what looks to be instructions for the ritual to claim your chosen mate. My eyes widen as I look over the ritual and then I realise. It's very similar to what Gray and I did under the tree to be best friends for life.
The mating pair had to share blood. We did that.
They had to repeat promises to be mates for life, stating who they have chosen. We had done that too.
The pair's magic had to fuse together. We were very close with that before my Dad interrupted us.
Once that was competed, the dragon or dragon slayer had to bite the neck of the chosen mate and lick their blood to form their claim mark. I remember we both agreed that we did not want to do that but do the blood section only.
My eyes widen even more and my hands start to shake so much that I drop the book.
Oh Mavis. What have I done? I started to make Gray my mate when I was younger. What the hell was I thinking back then! I had no idea!
I threw my head into my hands trying to gather my thoughts on this situation. No wonder Gray punched at the party. I really did have no idea what spell I was doing! I was new to my magic and I was still studying it. I really did not have a clue that this spell was so life changing. Hell I remember skipping all of the writing at the beginning when I first thing saw the spell and wanted to go straight into making it so that I could be friends with Gray for life. When I read that it would make you 'mates for life', I thought that it meant 'mate' as in best friend!
I lie back down on the bed with my arm over my face to try and gather my thoughts. I wanted to shut the world out right there and then, and never see anyone again. I suddenly start to laugh as I thought about my situation. I am in love with my best friend and now I think I know why! I think in my mind I must have always loved Gray like that otherwise I don't think that I would have done that ritual! I sigh. Either way there is one thing that I need to settle.
I need to talk to Gray and get his side of the story. It's all well and good being in love with him but I need to know what he thinks of me.
The next day I decide to hunt Gray down. I find him outside the lockers near our history of magic class talking to his older brother Lyon.
"Oi. Popsicle!" I call out acting as if everything was normal. Gray turns his head in reaction to my call but turns his head back immediately when he finds out it was me.
That seriously cheesed me off. "Oi! Ice for brains I'm talking to you!" Again he ignores me, but his moron of a brother doesn't.
"Fuck off Natsu. Gray doesn't want to speak to you"
I feel my blood start to boil "I was not talking to you now was I" I turn to Gray "I need to talk to you. It's important."
"I already told you Natsu, Gray does not want to speak to you. Go away and leave us alone"
I move my face closer to Lyon's. Mavis this guy really gets on my nerves. "I don't care. I have something important to talk to freezer about and I need to talk to him now about it"
"Just go away Natsu" We both hear a small murmur from beside us. We both turn to look at Gray who is leaning against the lockers with his arms folded across his front. It's his nervous tick for when he is uncomfortable, but despite every fibre in my being, I ignore it.
I lean away from Lyon and turn to look Gray directly in the eyes. I manage to catch his dark eyes in mine as I put my point across. "Gray" I say softly "Please I need to talk to you. It's important" That caught both Gray and Lyon off guard. I never say please! Why should I? I'm a bloody dragonslayer! I shouldn't have to say please for anything.
As I watch his face, I notice that something inside clicks and he sighs heavily. He turns to look at Lyon "I'll see you at lunch." and starts walking down the nearest corridor. I follow immediately, not wanting to lose where Gray was heading. I knew exactly where he was heading to.
There is a section towards the side of the school building where it is known by the kids to be the best place for privacy. Most love confessions, smoke breaks and make out sessions are known to have happened there, but I knew that nothing of the sort was going to be happening here.
We finally reach the side of the school and Gray leans up against the wall, his arms folded across his chest.
"Go on. What is so important" His snaps showing off his icy exterior that I know for a fact he is hiding behind.
I take a deep breath. Here goes nothing. "I'm sorry"
Gray looks at me shocked. I've never apologised to Gray, let alone anyone, for anything before so this was something definitely new. "I'm sorry Gray." I repeat
He overcomes his shock and leans back on the wall again, his arms still folded across his chest. "What for?"
"I realise that I hurt you last week at the party and originally for the life of me I could not work out why you were so mad at me. Then I remembered what you said about the spell we did when we were kids so I looked it up and I now realise my mistake. I had no idea what the spell meant at the time and now I do. I have no idea how to fix it but I will find a way. We only got half way through it so it's not official or anything. So what I'm trying to say is.. I'm sorry Gray for making you go through that when we were kids"
Gray shakes his head. "It's a start flame brain, but you don't get the point of why I am so mad at you"
I look at him puzzled. What else could he be mad at me for?
Gray sneered at me. "Because of your 'mistake', we have to pretend to hate each other around our families. You are meant to be my best friend and I can't even admit it to anyone! My Dad was telling me the other night that he and your Dad used to be best friends as well until your 'mistake'! Ever since I found out what the spell really was about, I have had to walk around for years thinking that I was your chosen mate and because of that, I have lost multiple opportunities to have normal relationships! I could have had any girl that I wanted at this school! I could be with even fucking Juvia right now, but what pisses me off the most is that because of some stupid spell, I have to accept that I am forced to be in love with my best friend! I could be normal right now. I could be going on dates, I could be holding hands and kissing any girl in my sight but no! I have to accept that I want to do that sort of shit with you and I also have to watch you walk around, thinking that you don't give a damn about me in that way when you don't even realise how much you impacted on my life because of your 'mistake'!"
All I can do is stand there wide eyed at Gray. He loves me? He wants to hold my hand? He wants to KISS me? Although on the inside I am screaming with joy to the rooftops, my heart sinks and a realisation hits me. He thinks that is forced to love me because of the ritual and that it something that I was not prepared for.
"Is that really how you feel?" Is all that I can ask
"Of course that's how I feel you bastard! I wouldn't be lying to right now would I?" Gray snaps
"So…." I start shifting uncomfortably. I did not expect things to turn this way "You think that you are forced to love me?"
Gray freezes but after taking a deep breathe, he seems to calm down a bit. "Well.. yeah. I mean how else is it possible? We both started a spell that makes me your shitty-slayer mate for life. I don't want to be forced to be anyone's mate! I want to be able to choose who I end up with for the rest of my life. I don't want someone deciding that for me, and above all, why does it have to be you! It could have been a girl and I would have been fine with it! Not you! You're a guy! How am I meant to love a guy? It's not like you like me back! Is it?" My eyes widen in shock at the notion. It has never occurred to me that being the same gender had any effect on things. I always thought that that was how it went. Who you loved was who you loved and that was that.
I turn to look away in response before Gray can notice my ever reddening face, frustrated with myself that I can not bring myself to say the words that I have been wanting to say for a while. But now that everything has now come to light, how is this not the perfect time to tell him that I do like him back. That I want to hold his hand and kiss him and date him and spend every waking moment with him. I try and think of the best way to say it to him and by the time I lift my head and open my mouth to speak the words that I had mustered in my head that resembles something like what I want to say to him, the school bell rings breaking us out of the moment.
Gray sighs and turns his head away. "I guess not then flame brain."
"Gray…." I start feebly protesting
"I think it's best that you just leave me alone from now on." He says walking away before I get a chance to say anything.
Oh I am mean aren't I lol They got so close! Don't worry guys. All in good time ;)
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