DISCALIMER: I don't own CSI Miami and i don't make any money from it, but I do own Nero.
Down dooby doo down down. Breaking up and making up is hard to do.
"You are still married to him?" Jake Berkley said, looking at Calleigh.
"What do you mean?" she replied.
"What I just said," he answered.
"Married to Horatio you mean, how can you think that? We've been divorced for almost over two years," she said with sigh, the time had just flown by.
"Yes, but you still love him and you have the connection," he replied and handed her the wine bottle.
She took a sip and said, "That's all pointless… I mean with Kyle and all, why did you come back?"
"Missed you in a way," he said with a chuckle, he had just returned in Miami undercover again.
"Haha, cute," she said and took another sip.
"Did you ever miss me?" he asked.
"I did yes, you may be a trouble maker, but you are still a likeable guy. You are also reliable even if people do not thing so," she said with a sigh.
"Thanks for that compliment Duquesne, so wanna sing for me?" he asked and smiled at her.
"Down dooby doo down down, comma comma, down dooby doo down down, comma comma,, down dooby doo down down, breaking up is hard to do," she sang with a southern drawl not so sober anymore.
"Oh do that again," he said and found his camera to tape her.
"Uhm ok, but then I want playback," she said with a giggle and turned on the stereo.
"OK, you can start now," said Jake and pressed play as she sang and danced for him.
The next day Calleigh came to work a tad hang-over noticing everyone was looking at her smiling. She didn't get it, not at all. She was obviously missing something.
"Nat, why is everyone looking at me like this?" she asked confused.
"Well you sure know how to make yourself noticed," said Natalia with a giggle.
"Huh?" said the blonde even more confused.
"Let me show you," said Natalia and dragged her to the computer in the DNA lab and showed her a YouTube video of Calleigh from the night before which made Calleigh gasp and ask, "How many got it?"
"Everyone and Stetler too" said Natalia.
"Christ, I'm gonna kill Jake," she said, feeling even worse.
"It's not that bad everyone do stupid things when they drink," said Natalia.
"Hang on you said everyone got it that means Horatio too right?" said Calleigh swallowing hardly.
"Yeah I should think so why?" said Natalia.
"Hell!" she said and swallowed hard as she headed for firearms.
It was later the same day and Calleigh had still not seen or heard from Horatio. She didn't know if that was a good thing or not, as she felt she had messed up royally.
She startled when she heard a well know voice ask, "So breaking up is hard to do huh?"
"Nero, is that you, I haven't seen you in ages" she said, turned towards him and gave him a big hug.
"It is, so tell me since when did you start making music videos?" he asked with a grin.
"Well Jake and I were drinking last night and he taped me and now that pea brain sent it to everyone, I just hope hand….Horatio didn't see it" she said with a sigh.
"Poor little one, you know what you need right?" he asked.
"What?" she asked.
"A night out with me and Jake," he said smile.
"That can never end well, I'll have another hang-over tomorrow then," she said with a giggle.
"Do you really care, you already feel like crap," he said winking at her.
"What a nice thing of you to say," she said with another giggle.
"Come on dance with me," he said, took her hand and twirled her around, she followed his moves as she used to back in the days, and for the first times in ages she was smiling again like the night before. It was then Calleigh realized how much she had missed Jake and Nero.
He twirled her again and took a few steps back asking, "Do you still have it?"
"What?" she replied.
"The wedding ring," he said his hand on her waist.
"Of course I could never throw that thing out," she said.
"Without me and Jake, how many else did know?" he asked curiously.
"Think Eric may have found out way back and maybe Speed, but he's dead, but I didn't know until the other day that Jake knew, you told him didn't you?" she said looking into his blue eyes.
"I did, I was overjoyed and he was to of course, are you mad?" he asked.
"Nah, that's ok, I don't mind, I know you two wouldn't tell anyone, she said.
"Our secret little one. He's a good guy" she said.
"That he is," she replied with a heavy sigh.
"Why did you get divorced?" he asked.
"I got sick of hiding out and such and after what happened with John I don't know. I just couldn't anymore and lately it's like he don't care about me no more," she said leaning towards him crying. He just held her closely and stroked her back gently.
From outside in the hallway Natalia and Eric were watching Calleigh and Nero. Natalia couldn't help but see how handsome the brown haired man was and asked, "Do you know who he is?"
"Nero, he works for the bomb squad, Horatio recruited him for them at the same time he took her here, they are really close," said Eric, not too happy about them being so close, he didn't like Jake all that much either to be honest as he wanted to be with her himself.
"He's handsome, you know if they are seeing each other?" she asked.
"Not as I know, don't think she has been seeing anyone since Hagen, if she's not seeing Jake now that is…" he said.
"Hmmm, maybe I should be seeing him then," said Natalia thoughtfully.
"Yeah like he would date you," they heard Ryan behind them.
"It's not impossible," said Natalia.
"Oh minding me, does anyone know who she broke up with that is so hard?" asked Ryan curiously.
"No idea" said Natalia, Eric shook his head to show he didn't either. He felt she knew more about him than the other way around.
"What are you all standing around here for, don't you have anything else to do?" they suddenly heard Horatio's deep voice say.
"Did you get the mail too?" Ryan asked Horatio.
"What mail?" asked Horatio.
"YouTube mail that has been going around," said Natalia.
"No, what was it about?" he wanted to know.
"Oh nothing, just some silliness," said Natalia.
"I see, well you are with me, you other two get back to work," he said stealing a glimpse of Calleigh and Nero wondering why she was so upset.
On the way back from the crime scene Horatio was thinking about Calleigh, it broke his heart to see her that sad and he wondered what had made her so. He quickly figured a guy dumped her or something like that, so he pushed that thought aside.
Instead his mind went over to his son Kyle, which now to his annoyance lived with Julia, he remembered the day he had found out all too well. That night he and Calleigh had ended in bed together, comfort sex, it came as a shook to them both.
Calleigh had been very upset since she felt he had hidden this from her, even if she knew about Julia… Horatio had finally made her see there was nothing there and he didn't know before either, which made him very much upset as he would have been there for him earlier if he had known.
The couple that night had made love because they needed too, holding on to each other for dear life, taking and giving equally.
Afterwards they had talked about that time year's back where Calleigh had though she was pregnant, but had later found she was not. It was a relief as much as sorrow as even if they hoped she was not they both wanted it. It had taken some time to deal with.
After the divorce they still had keep the close connection and he had helped her through Hagen's death and he had also saved her during work. They both still loved and respected each other a great deal and he knew she took it hard when he started seeing Marisol, not that she ever said anything, but he still knew. When they got married he had been overjoyed, but that didn't last as she got killed shortly after.
And when he came back from Brazil Calleigh was the one he ran to for comfort which she gave him, they for some reason always seemed to find their way back to each other… Why he didn't quite know.
What he was wondering about now was of course if she was seeing Jake or not, at least they seemed very close.
"Horatio, are you even listening?" he heard Natalia say and got woken back to reality.
"Huh?" he said as he looked out realizing they were at the crime scene and she had parked the car.
"What is with you lately you are way off. Julia isn't giving you trouble is she?" Natalia asked concerned.
"No we're good," said Horatio honest as they were.
"Mind if I ask a question?" Natalia asked as they got out of the car and started to walk towards the body.
"No, no, go ahead," he said.
"Are you and Julia thinking about getting back together?" she asked.
"No, we are just friends and plan to stay that way, an agreement we both are fine with," he said and smiled at her.
"She seems complex," said Natalia.
"That she is," he agreed.
"We better…" said Natalia and started on collecting the evidence.
That night Calleigh, Nero and Jake were out dancing and drinking, the boys were trying to get her to smile, which didn't seem to be that hard of a task at the time.
She laughed, took Jake's hand and said, "Come on cowboy dance with me."
"As you wish my lady," he said, and followed her out on the floor placing his arms around her waist.
"Jake, what are we doing here?" she asked.
"Dancing" he replied.
"No, I mean we always seem to have so much fun, but I need more you know," she said.
"I can't do that and I'm not right for you," he said.
"I need to call him," she said and grabbed for her phone.
"Not like this," he said as she wasn't to sober.
"Need to…" she said left him, found he phone and went outside, dialled his number thinking "Pick up, pick up, pick up".
"Calleigh," she heard in the other end.
"Where are you?" she asked.
"At Julia's watching a movie with her and Kyle, why?" he replied.
"Big happy family huh, just like you always wanted," she said in anger.
"Will you relax, we are not a couple and you know that," he said calmly.
"How should I know, you're there all the time," she replied.
"Well it's not like we're married… You made sure of that," he said.
"That don't mean that I…., why are you like this, you are pushing me away," she said.
"You do that too, where are you?" he asked.
"Out with Jake and Nero," she said.
"You're drunk aren't you?" he said with a sigh.
"Maybe, but that's beyond the point, I don't like that you are with her, you should be with…" she stopped.
"Oh so now you are telling me who I can and cannot see," he replied.
"She's not good for you," she said.
"Jeez will you listen to yourself, go back to your guys and do what you please, we are so over," he said and hung up.
"Stupid Horatio!" she said, and slammed her phone in the ground and went back inside.
"Horatio really, that wasn't very nice of you to do," said Julia right after he hung up.
"She started it," she said annoyed.
"You know sometimes you can be such a baby," said Julia shaking her head.
"Yeah dad, you two are acting like a couple of teenagers," said Kyle shaking his head as well.
"Call her and apologize," said Julia.
"No," he said in a demonstrative way.
"Call her," they both said.
Horatio sighed realizing they were right, picked up the phone and called her, but just got the answering machine of course. He turned to Julia and said, "What do I do… machine."
"Did she sound drunk?" she asked.
"Not sober, not drunk," he answered truthfully.
"You have a key to her place still?" Julia wanted to know.
"Think I do somewhere at home," said Horatio honest, as he never threw it away even after it was over.
"Wait for her at home," said Julia and nodded towards the door which made him leave.
Horatio somehow managed to fall asleep waiting for Calleigh, but woke up when he heard the door open and he heard Jake said, "You know you shouldn't have been drinking that much, we better get you to bed."
"No, no, wanna party all night long," she said, the next thing Horatio heard was a crash and Jake say, "Christ Calleigh, you're even worse than me sometimes."
"No, no, so you guys wanna do me?" Horatio heard her ask.
"The only thing we are doing to you is getting you to bed," he heard Nero say.
"That's no fun, ohhh you're real strong emperor Nero," she said with a giggle.
"Can you manage on your own I have to get up early," said Jake.
"Sure thing, talk to you later, now you're going to bed princess," said Nero in a calm tone.
Horatio heard the door close and footsteps coming towards the bedroom, the door opened and he saw Nero holding her, she got her eyes slightly closed as Nero said, "There's a guy in your bed."
"Cool," she said tiredly as he put her down and said, "See you later little one, she's all yours."
"Handsome" Calleigh said, before she drifted of as Horatio just shook his head at her.
It was early the next morning when Horatio woke Calleigh with a kiss and said, "Time to wake up sweetheart."
"Ugh, wanna sleep… Hey, how did you get here?" she said suddenly aware that he was really there.
"Drove over last night after I talked to you as I couldn't get a hold of you," he said.
"I think I wrecked it, I was upset. You were stupid" she said.
"I know I'm sorry," he said looking down.
"Why did you say that?" she asked.
"I dunno, it's just hard thinking of you with Jake and Nero and everything. I just miss you…us," he said honestly.
"I miss you too, we should never have split up, I'm so sorry. It's just that after Hagen, I didn't want to," she said with teary eyes.
"I know I found you remember," he said as when he had finally managed to get in she was on the floor clinging to an empty bottle of whiskey, crying and shaking. He had immediately sat down next to her trying to calm her, but she had then found her gun treating to kill herself as she felt that she didn't deserve to live anymore.
After a lot of talking he had managed to talk her out of it and carried her to bed where he gently put her to sleep.
"You saved me," she said.
"No you saved me," he replied.
"So what do we do now, keep going and drift apart or get back together?" she asked.
"I think we should get back together and get married again, but the right way this time, no more hiding," he said.
"No, but what about children, do you still want that since now you got Kyle?" she asked.
"I do," he said.
"Wanna try to make one now?" she asked.
"I guess we could," he said and bent down and kissed her deeply.
It was about one year later and Calleigh was trying to get ready to marry Horatio for the second time. This time it was a church wedding and she was nervous, really nervous, in fact she was panicking. She looked towards the window in the room she was in when she heard Jake say, "Oh no, you are not running away."
"I…I can't do this, this is too much, too many people out there," she said at the verge of start hyperventilating.
"Easy, of course you can," said Jake calmly holding her hands in his as Natalia and Nero came into the room and Natalia said, "Oh my, you look so beautiful."
"I can't, seriously, this is…" she said looking into Jake's eyes ignoring the two others.
"Calleigh, listen to me," said Jake in a firm tone.
"But, but, but," she started.
"Shhhh, okay I want you to answer some questions can you do that?" he said.
"I think so yes," she said.
"Do you love him?" said Jake.
"I do," said Calleigh.
"Do you wanna spend the rest of your life with him?" said Jake.
"I do," said Calleigh.
"Then what is the problem?" said Jake.
"You don't get it do you," she said.
"No" he replied as the two others were watching them. Nero was holding around Natalia's waist head on her shoulder.
"Because last time it was just me and him and I wasn't afraid to mess up because no one was watching. This time however it's a whole church watching and I'm afraid if I fall or something walking up the isle or if I say something wrong during the vows and everyone will start laughing and he'll think I'm really stupid," she said, and looked down as Jake looked over at the two others.
Natalia smiled warmly at Calleigh and said, "Calleigh it will be okay, and it won't matter if you do mess up, he won't care, he still loves you and you know he's just as nervous as you are right now."
"Really he is," she said feeling a bit better.
"Uh-huh just came from where he is, he's a wreck," said Natalia.
"Ok, I can do this, just need a moment OK, like a couple of minutes," she said. The others nodded and left her.
Calleigh let her hand gently stroke over her belly and said, "We're gonna marry your father today little one, which reminds me we should probably tell him about you later, you think he'll be overjoyed, yeah I think so too. I better get in there before he thinks I have run of or something."
Calleigh and Horatio had just kissed each other and put the rings on when Jake came up to the alter and said, "Ok we got a surprise for you Calleigh."
"Oh really, do I wanna know," she said.
"Probably not, but we're gonna do it, Nat, Val, Julia, Kyle, Nero guys, get up," said Jake and did sign that the organist was gonna start playing.
Natalia, Julia and Valera got up on one row and Kyle, Nero and Eric on the other and started to sing breaking up is hard to do along with Jake as Calleigh's face turned redder than a tomato and Horatio looked confused at her.
When they were done Calleigh looked at Jake and said, "I'm so gonna kill you."
"Lucky for me you don't have a gun on you right now," he said and chuckled.
"Uhm sweetheart what am I missing here as I thought this was a day for makeup not a breakup," said Horatio looking at his wife.
"Oh that's right you never saw the video," said Jake with a sly smile.
"Jake, you are so not showing that here in church," said Calleigh in a warning tone.
"Oh come on he's your husband he deserves to see it," said Jake.
"If you do that, I'm walking out that door right now," she snarled.
"Not without me, I wanna see," said Horatio curiously.
"Ok, but remember this was taped way back, Calleigh and I were getting drunk and she decided to sing and as the nice guy I am I taped it and sent to everyone," he said and smiled at them.
"Haha, very funny," said a very annoyed Calleigh as Jake hooked up a laptop to show Horatio as the rest flocked around them to see the video again.
Jake pressed play as Calleigh sent him a you're-so-dead look. Horatio watched along with the rest and frankly he looked quite amused by it and when it was done he said, "You're so cute, I have to get you drunk much often."
As everyone laughed a very upset Calleigh left the church without him, she did however know he would come after just as he knew where she ran off to.
It was the next day and Calleigh was morning sick, she had been that a lot lately and she had also left before Horatio so he wouldn't find out. This time she didn't care too much about hiding it.
"Sweetheart, are you all right?" he said concerned, standing in the door to the bathroom.
"I'm fine," she said and puked a little bit more before looking at him with tired eyes.
"You had too much to drink last night huh?" he said.
"No, I didn't drink other than water and soda," she said honest, she wouldn't wanto risk hurting their baby.
"You didn't, but I though" he said confused.
"That was you," she said with a giggle.
"But why?" he asked.
"Uhm, I got a surprise for you," she said wage smile.
"What?" he asked curiously.
"We're gonna have a little one," she said.
"Really we are. That's wonderful, how far along are we?" he asked excitedly.
"About two months, I didn't want to say anything before, because I was afraid to lose it and because I wanted to surprise you," she said honest.
Horatio walked over, sat down next to her and gently put a hand on her belly where his unborn son or daughter was growing before gently letting his lips lock with hers.
She at once could feel where he was going, but she wasn't feeling up for it right then so she said, "Not now, too tired handsome."
"I'm sorry, I'm just so happy," he said smiling at her.
"I know you are and we can celebrate later, but right now I need some rest," she said honest.
"Ok," he said, lifted her up and carried her back to their bedroom, she gently leaned on him.
It was a year later and Horatio was pretending to be a plane as he was steering his little girl back and forth into the air while she giggle happily before he took her down for landing and let her settle in his arms.
He looked down at her; she looked exactly like her mother, which right now was sleeping over her laptop at the dinner table and after what he could see over the letter H.
The little girl looked down at Calleigh reaching her arms out for her, but Horatio shook his head and took her out on the terrace, the little one was now five months.
Horatio started thinking about the last year, it had been a big change for both to be married and that everyone knew, but he had again spoiled his wife at any occasion he got even when she had been in a bad mood because of her pregnancy.
That sure had been a challenge, as she had been in all kinds of moods and also had been ill much more than what was usual. The real challenge had however been the birth itself that had been very hard on her.
The months after had however been very joyful even if it meant less sleep at night, but they were used to that by now. Yes little Danielle Marie was in deed a night person completely opposite of her parents, but that didn't mean they loved her any less.
Natalia that now was pregnant to and married to Jake (how that came to happen no one quite knew as she seemed to be head over heels with Nero) used to say that little Danielle had to be the most loved child that was in Miami and she was probably right.
Her parents spoiled her to bits in every way they could and it was rarely you saw them without her as she was with them at every hour.
Horatio was wondering if Calleigh's fatigue lately had to do with her being pregnant again, but she hadn't told him anything of the kind so he didn't really know.
He did however know she wanted a lot more than little Danielle and so did he, but right now he didn't think much more about that he just looked out over the sea holding his little girl that looked out over the sea just the same way he did.
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