It was finally Monday morning. Shabnam was up earlier as she wanted to be there when her daughter woke up.

Shabnam arrived at the hospital and went to the children's ward. The nurses were running about mad trying to hand breakfasts out.

"Has my daughter been woken?" Shabnam asked "Jade Green?"

"Oh no, we have left her. She didn't have a great night last night" The nurse explained.

"What happened?" Shabnam asked.

"Well, she had nightmare. One of the night nurses stayed with her last night. I'll go and find her for you" The nurse said and Shabnam nodded.

She crossed her arm and waited patiently. She noticed the nurse walking over with another nurse.

"Are you Jade's mother?" The nurse asked and Shabnam nodded.

"Okay, is there a reason you didn't stay with her last night?" The nurse asked and the other nurse looked at her giving her a face.

"What?" The other nurse asked confused.

"I don't have custody of my daughter yet. I have just found her after I gave her away when she was born" Shabnam said. "I can't stay the night with her, if I could I would have"

"I'm sorry" The nurse said. "I have just moved to this ward. I didn't know"

"Anyway, Jade woke up last night at about 2 am. She was screaming and extremely sweaty. I sponge bathed her and changed her sheets as she had soaked through them and got her back to sleep. She didn't want me to leave. So she is very tired this morning so we have left her sleeping for a bit" The nurse said and Shabnam nodded.

"You can go in but just be quiet" The nurse said and Shabnam nodded. She walked into Jade's room and sat down on the chair. About 10 minutes later, Jade started to wake up.

"Hey sweetie" Shabnam said as Jade rubbed her eyes. The girl just stretched her arms out to her mum. She just wanted to be held.

"Okay then" Shabnam said lifting the girl carefully into her arms. Jade snuggled up with her mum and almost drifted back to sleep.

"I heard that you didn't have a great night last night" Shabnam asked. Jade shrugged.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Shabnam asked.

"Not just now" Jade mumbled into Shabnam's chest. Her eyes were closed.

"Okay, just get a bit more sleep" Shabnam said as she softly rocked the girl. She was happy that the girl hadn't said a straight no. Shabnam hoped that meant she felt comfortable enough to speak to her.

"You be there when I wake up" Jade asked groggily. Shabnam smiled, she sounded so young.

"I will be right here baby girl. Do you want to go back to your bed?" Shabnam asked and Jade shook her head and grabbed her mum's top.

"Okay, then let me sit on the bed so it's more comfortable" Shabnam said. She lifted the girl up and sat down on the bed. She took off her head scarf.

Jade moved her hand up to her mum's hair and started twirling it. The girl knew that she wouldn't get back to sleep but she just liked being like this.

"Sleep baby girl" Shabnam said and Jade nodded moving her hand from her mum's hair. Jade was just drifting off to sleep when the door opened.

Shabnam put her fingers to her lip and the nurse nodded. She mouthed that she would be back and Shabnam nodded.

Shabnam sat with her daughter for almost an hour just looking at her, she looked just like her little boy. Jade had her ears too, just like her boy had. The tears appeared in her eyes and she wasn't sure what came over her but she couldn't stop the tears.

Jade's eyes jerked open. She got a fright at Shabnam crying and jumped up so that she was chest to chest with her mum. She throw her arms over her mum's shoulder.

"Don't cry please" Jade said.

"I'm sorry" Shabnam said.

"Why are you crying?" Jade asked.

"I just missed so much. I'm so sorry" Shabnam said.

"It's okay" Jade said. "I have you now"

Shabnam smiled.

"I don't deserve to be a mum. I couldn't be there for either of my babies" Shabnam said.

"You can be there for me now" Jade said and Shabnam nodded.

"Who was your other baby?" Jade asked.

"Zaair" Shabnam said.

"Where is he now?" Jade asked.

"Up in heaven" Shabnam said and Jade let the tears fall.

"How?" Jade asked "Was it CF?"

Shabnam shook her head.

"No sweetie, it just happened" Shabnam said.

"That's not very fair on you" Jade said and Shabnam smiled.

"You don't have either of your babies but you will get me soon" Jade said and Shabnam smiled.

"I'm glad that I'll have you" Shabnam said.

"Was the baby still in you when it died?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded.

"How did it get out" She asked and Shabnam sighed. She wasn't sure how to explain it to her 7 year old.

"Well, the baby comes out of your bum" Shabnam said and Jade made a face.

"That must hurt a lot" She said and Shabnam giggled before nodding.

"It did" She said.

"Did I come out that way?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded.

"I still can't believe you are my mum. I lived in your tummy" Jade said and Shabnam smiled and nodded.

"Did you hold me when I was born?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded.

"I did, I held you and a whispered to you" Shabnam said.

"What did you say?" Jade asked.

"La Ilaha Ill Allah Muhammadur Rasool Allah" Shabnam said as she whispered it again to her daughter. Raising Jade towards her.

"What does it mean?" Jade asked.

"It means there is only one true Allah and Mohammed is his messenger" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

"What happened after that?" Jade asked.

"I was very silly and I left you on my aunt's doorstep" Shabnam said. "I knew that she would take good care of you. I thought you got adopted"

Jade shook her head.

"No one wants a sick girl" Jade said. "I just get moved about a bit. I don't know how long I will be at Jonathan and Annette. They say I am too much work"

"Oh sweetie, you are not too much work. I will try my hardest and give you everything I have got to get you back home with me" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

The door opened and both Shabnam and Jade jumped.

"Hi Jade, you need to eat your breakfast. Remember to take your tablets first" The nurse said and Jade nodded.

Shabnam moved to sit in the seat and Jade sat up. The nurse stayed until Jade had taken her tablets and then left.

Shabnam sat with Jade. Jade wasn't a great eater and tended to faff about after a while. Shabnam had left that if she spoke to the girl and joked about with her then the girl was more likely to continue to eat.

The door opened and a man walked in. Jade looked at the guy, she didn't know who he was.

"Shabs, you forgot your phone" Kush said walking over and handing it to her.

"Thanks" Shabnam said she kissed Kush.

"Arg, that's disgusting" Jade said and Shabnam giggled.

"Jade, this is my fiancée Kush" Shabnam said. "Kush, this is Jade"

"Hey, Jade I've heard a lot about you" Kush said and Jade nodded.

She smiled but didn't say anything.

"Well I better get off now" Kush said and Shabnam nodded.

"I'm here all day but I'll see you tonight" Shabnam said and Kush nodded.

"That's fine" Kush said.

By the time Kush had left, Jade had finished her breakfast.

"Do you want to get dressed now?" Shabnam asked.

"I usually just stay in my jammies all day" Jade said.

"Well, I thought we could go outside to the playground later" Shabnam said and Jade smiled.

"Really?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded.

"Okay, can you get my clothes?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded. She walked over to the wardrobe and got a pair of leggings out for the girl. She also grabbed a nice top.

"Do you like this?" Shabnam asked and Jade nodded.

"Put it on then" Shabnam said as she got out pants and socks. Jade got changed and it didn't even cross her mind that Shabnam was seeing her naked.

"Can we go out now" Jade asked as soon as she was dressed.

"No, go and brush your teeth and then I'll do your hair" Shabnam said and Jade nodded. She grabbed her tooth brush and headed to the toilet. She returned and stood in front of her mum.

"Do you have a bauble?" Shabnam asked and Jade nodded. She handed one to Shabnam.

"How can you do my hair?" Jade asked. "You have short hair"

"I used to have very long hair when I had you" Shabnam said.

"Really" Jade said as Shabnam brushed her hair and put it into a ponytail.

"You're good at that" Jade said and Shabnam smiled.

"Go and play for a bit" Shabnam said and Jade nodded. She ran over to the games.

"I'm going to draw a picture" Jade said and Shabnam nodded.

Shabnam sat watching her daughter. After 10 minutes, she looked over to see what Jade was drawing.

"What is it sweetie?" Shabnam asked.

"It's my family. It's me, and you and Kush and then Zaair is in the sky looking down on us" Jade said and Shabnam gave a watery smile. The death of her son was still fresh in her mind so that was slightly upsetting.

Shabnam didn't say anything. She needed to sort out everything that was going on in her head.

"Jade" Shabnam said from her seat and Jade looked at her.

"Come here a minute please" Shabnam said and Jade nodded walking over to her mum.

"Are you ready to tell me what happened last night?" Shabnam asked and Jade bit her lip.

"I had a nightmare" She said quietly.

"Why?" Shabnam asked.

"Because I was scared that you would leave me and I would die alone" Jade said tears in her eyes.

"Hey, why did you think that?" Shabnam asked pulling the girl into her arms.

"Because everyone leaves me" Jade said.

"Now listen to me baby, I will never leave you again, okay?" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

"Now, what is it with dying?" Shabnam said. "You are only 7 and I know that CF is serious but we are managing it well, you are stable"

"But, when I was at Dean's, him and Shirley were fighting and they shouted about his brother dying of CF, it scared me" Jade said.

"I know it's scary but things have changed a lot since then. I was looking things up the other night. The life expectancy has risen to about 50 years. The main thing is that you keep your weight up especially as you are going through adolescence"

"What does adolescence mean?" Jade asked.

"When you are a teenager" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

"Why is it important then" Jade asked.

"Because there is a lot of changes people go through then" Shabnam explained and Jade nodded.

"Okay, can we go outside now" Jade asked. Shabnam nodded.

"Come on then" Shabnam said as she stood up. Jade was excited and jumped about in front of Shabnam.

"Quick this way" Jade said.

"Let me tell the nurses first" Shabnam said and Jade sighed.

"Okay but be quick" Jade said.

Shabnam quickly found a nurse and explained where they were going.

They walked outside to the playground. Jade jumped onto the swing. It was a large swing that was for children in wheelchairs.

"Be careful" Shabnam said.

"Push me please" Jade said as she lay down on the swing.

"Okay" Shabnam said. She started pushing the girl gently.

Jade loved that. After that she went on the rest of the equipment.

"I'm hungry now" Jade complained.

"Okay, let's go to the canteen" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

"I just need to get some capsules from the nurse" Shabnam said and Jade nodded.

They walked passed the nurse's station and Shabnam explained what they were doing.

"Okay, Jade has a tub of tablets in her room I'll get them for you" The nurse said and Shabnam nodded. She was slightly nervous to be in charge of the girl's medicine.

They headed to canteen. They collect the food that she wanted. Jade got macaroni.

"Can I get a cake please?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded.

"Really" Jade said and Shabnam nodded.

"Thank you so much" Jade said as she picked one.

They found a table and Shabnam did a quick calculation and decided to give the girl 4 tablets.

"Is that right?" Shabnam asked and Jade nodded. Shabnam smiled, she managed to give the girl the right dose of medication.

They sat and spoke for a while and then headed back to the ward.

"Thank you for today, I really enjoyed getting out of the ward" Jade said.

"It's okay" Shabnam said. They walked into the room and got seated.

They sat down and started playing snakes and ladders. The door opened and both of them jumped.

"Hello Jade, how are you feeling today?" Doctor Johnston asked.

"Fine" Jade said.

"That's good" He said as he walked over to the cupboard. He wrote down the stool counter and then walked back over to Jade.

"We'll do your physio first, shall we show your mum what to do?" The doctor asked and Jade nodded.

"PEP first" He said holding the device to the girl. Jade nodded and did her breathing exercises.

"Jade knows exactly how to do this one you just you have to watch her" The doctor explained and Shabnam nodded.

"Cough" the doctor said and Jade did as she was told. Shabnam hated hearing the girl cough so much and such deeply.

"Another good one, is to gently hit her back like this" The doctor said showing Shabnam. Shabnam nodded and did what she was shown. Again after the exercise, Jade was told to cough.

They did some more exercises and Shabnam was shown exactly what she was to do.

The doctor then did Jade's IV before asking some questions to the girl.

Just as the doctor walked out the room, Susan walked in.

"Hi, how are you both" Susan asked.

"I'm good" Jade said and Shabnam nodded.

"Did you have a good morning with Shabnam?" Susan asked and Jade nodded

"It was so much fun, we went outside and then to the canteen" Jade explained and Susan nodded.

"I'm glad you liked it" Susan said and Jade nodded.

"It's been so boring this weekend" Jade said.

"Did you get out at all?" Susan asked and Jade shook her head.

"The nurses were all really busy" Jade said. Shabnam left really bad.

"Oh well, I'm back now. I'll take you out" Susan said and Jade nodded.

"I heard you had a difficult night last night" Susan said.

"It's fine, we spoke about it" Jade said and Susan nodded before looking at Shabnam and smiling at her.

"I'm just going to the toilet" Jade said as she jumped up and ran out of the room.

"How was today?" Susan said and Shabnam smiled.

"Really good" Shabnam said.

"What was the nightmare about?" Susan asked.

"She was scared that I was going to leave and she would die alone. When she was with Dean, she heard about his brother and it scared her" Shabnam explained and Susan nodded.

"That poor little girl, at least she felt she could speak to you" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

Jade then return, she nervously opened the door before running over to Shabnam and jumping into her arms.

"You're not leaving me are you? Is it because I had a nightmare?" Jade asked nervously.

"Hey, no sweetie. I'm not leaving you. Don't you ever think that I will again" Shabnam said. "And I don't care if you have a nightmare. I love you no matter what?"

Jade nodded.

"I want a cuddle" Jade whispered. Shabnam smiled and pulled the girl into her arms.

"Hair" Jade mumbled and Shabnam giggled before taking her head scarf off. Jade started twirling her mum's hair.

"I wasn't expecting you to have short hair" Susan said.

"Everyone gets a shock at first" Shabnam explained. Jade held onto her mum for a while before relaxing. She listened to Susan and Shabnam speaking.

"Dinner time" The nurse said as she walked into room. Jade jumped off of Shabnam's knee and sat down on the bed. She took her meds and started eating. She usually made a bit of a fuss so this was an improvement.

Jade finished her dinner and was starting to get tired.

"Shall we watch a film?" Shabnam asked and Jade nodded.

"Annie" Jade said as she put it in the DVD player.

"Can you cuddle up with me please?" Jade asked and Shabnam nodded. She lay down on the bed with her daughter. Jade curled into her mum and they watched the film. By the end of the film, Jade had fallen asleep.

Shabnam and Susan waited until Jade was definitely asleep before leaving.

"You did amazing with her today" Susan said and Shabnam smiled.

"She is great" Shabnam said.

"It's up to you but I think Jade would really appreciate it if you came on Wednesday to see her" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

"I'll be there, I'm not working on Wednesday so it's fine" Shabnam said and Susan nodded.

"Just come whenever you want" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

"I trust you a lot with her" Susan explained.

"Thank you" Shabnam said.

"Would you be able to come to my office on Friday so we can go through some more things? Hopefully get the ball rolling" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

"I'll be there, what time?" Shabnam asked.

"Em 11 o'clock. Then we can go to the hospital" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

"Shall we speak to the nurses about Jade getting out for a couple of hours on Wednesday?" Susan asked and Shabnam nodded.

"It would be good if you could take her to your house and let her meet your family" Susan said and Shabnam nodded.

"That's fine" Shabnam said. They spoke to the head nurse who said it shouldn't be a problem and that she would just speak to the doctor and tell them if it was a no.

Hope this is okay :) I'd really appreciate some more reviews. I don't seem to be getting many :( please review and let me know what you think :)