A/N: This chapter was a little bit challenging to do in Jade's POV, but I hope it's okay! Enjoy and please review!

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CHAPTER 4: Permanently Crazy

Cat and I didn't pay any attention to 'Sleeping Beauty'. We just talked through out the entire film. Suddenly, my phone vibrated and I had a text from my friend, Jenna.

"Who texted you?" Cat was curious.

I quickly read the text and replied.

Jenna: Hey Jade! New Jersey misses you! Any plans on visiting yet?

Me: Oh hey! And no not yet sadly. I miss you so much! But I wouldn't get near New Jersey if the bitch Becca is still there.

"It's my friend from New Jersey..." I said casually. My phone buzzed again, and I turned it away from Cat because I saw the word 'bi' in the text.

Jenna: miss you too! And Becca moved! :) So any crushes yet? Any cute guys... or girls, unless you're not bi anymore.

I wanted to reply with 'Actually theres a beautiful, perfect, and amazing girl that I'm fucking in love with', but I decided not to. It was a little too much to say, and I don't know if I'm ready to say it aloud yet. So I responded with something else.

Jade: Umm...well actually yeah. Only one though. The school here sucks. There are so many fucking whores and bitches!

Cat was begining to worry when I wouldn't let her read the text's. "Jade? What's going on?"

"Nothing Cat, just watch the damn movie!" I didn't mean to yell at her like that. I looked at her and she had tears in her eyes.

My phone buzzed again and I resonded before looking back at Cat.

Jenna: Are they worse than Becca? and girl or boy?

Me: WAY worse! I want to bitch slap all of them! And it's a girl, all the guys here are dicks! ..but it's awkward to talk about it 'cause she's like my best friend here.

When I turned to face Cat again, she was looking up at me with puppy dog eyes. She found my weakness. It was her eyes that always made my knees go weak.

"Ugh, alright Cat! But you can't tell anybody!"

She smiled and said "Who is there to tell?"

I knew I could trust her, but I still wasn't ready to tell her about my feelings. It was just to soon. Plus, I'm not even sure about them. I'm almost positive that I'm in love with her, but I don't know how to handle it. I've never been in love before.

It's weird for me to say love because I absolutly hate the word, but when I refer love to Cat, it means so much.

I finally got the courage to spit it out and before I knew it, the words exploded out of my stupid, damn mouth. "I'm bi..." As soon as it came out, I examined her face closely. Cat's look of shock turned into a wide grin. "Umm...Cat...Why are you smiling?"

"Oh...Well...I'm bi too..." I just looked at her in surprise. Does she even know what bi means? A flutter of butterflies exploded in my stomach. I tried not to smile. This meant that I could possibly have a slight chance with her. I had to make sure that she wasn't joking around though.

"Really? You don't look like you'd..." I paused, she looked dead serious. Cat was never this serious with anything.

Our eyes met and we sat there in a trance for a few minutes. I felt my head start to move forward slightly. Cat's seemed to move a little as well. I wanted to close the gap between us and just kiss her, but I was afraid.

What the fuck is making me so scared right now? I'm being a fucking pussy! Just lean in and kiss her you wuss!

I can't do it... what if it messed up our friendship? What if she slapped me afterwards and never wanted to see me again? I just can't do it, not now at least.

I quickly stood up before my lips could dissobey my brain. "Ummm...I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be right back." I looked at Cat before I dissapeared around the corner. She seemed upset, but I didn't know why. It couldn't have been because she wanted to kiss me, could it? Ugh, I need to stop getting my fucking hopes up.

I closed myself in the bathroom and just looked in the mirror. Whenever I get my hopes up for someone I like, it always turns into my heart aching. With Cat, I know my heart won't just ache, but it will shatter into a million pieces.

I doubt Cat's going to like me back if I told her how I felt. I can't tell her that I'm hopelessly in love with her. She'd think I was a fucking obsessed lesbian. Am I lesbain? There are no guys I want to be with. I just want her. Ugh, since when do I care about labels? I need coffee...now! Coffee's not going to help anything. I'm permanently crazy about Cat.

She probably already knows. I making it way too obvious. I need to lay low so she doesn't suspect anything. I'll just stop being so sweet to her. I'm not going to be just straight up rude though, that'd make me a huge bitch.

See what love does? This is why love's not needed in the world. It only messes people up and breaks hearts.

I better get back to Cat, she's probably worried about me.

I opened the bathroom door and walked towards the couch where Cat was waiting for me. When she saw me, she smiled and started giggling. "What are you all giggly about?" I asked her suspiciously.

I sat down next to her and she attacked me with a huge hug. I tried to act discusted, but it was just so hard! She smelt so good and gave really amazing hugs.

Okay, so maybe love isn't THAT bad. I can't see myself being in love with anyone else from now on.

When Cat pulled away, I grabbed my phone to respond to Jenna.

Jenna: ooooh...What's her name ? :)

Me: Cat Valentine...