Dad and I walked into the front door of our house. Cocoa was sobbing on the couch. The room felt weird like something really bad was up. I began to speak worried, "What's wrong guys, I stared at Dad, Dad?" "Nicki I think you better sit down," he said seriously but somehow calm. I did what I was told and sat on the couch next to Cocoa because there was nowhere else to. She put her arm around my shoulders but I just shrugged it off. "Dad tell me now, what's wrong?" He breathed in and sighed as he began to say something, "Nicki we lied to you about going on that business trip the last couple of days, I looked at him curiously before he started again, the reason why was we didn't want to scare you if the results were bad." My heart started to beat, "What results Dad, What results?" I said fast. "Nicki I just had a scan done over the last couple of day's for Pancreatic Cancer which is known better as stomach cancer, I got the results back on the way home this morning, tears began to well up in my eyes, Nicki I have 3 months to live." "I turned to Cocoa for the first time and fell into her arms. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I looked back up at Dad, "So what your dying, is that it, you can't be your not old enough, it's not fair, you can get better right, do Chemotherapy or something." Dad walked up to me almost crying himself but staying as strong as could be, " It's spread to far through my body Nicki, I can't be cured." I cried even more. I couldn't take it anymore I had to leave. I got up and ran out the door. "Nicki where are you going, Dad said calling out to me." I didn't answer I just kept running and running until I was far away as I could be. I needed time to process what I had just been told. My Dad was dying.

I stopped running as I got to the park. I sat down on a swing watching the little kids playing with their Dad's. It reminded me of what I used to do with my Dad. Tears began streaming down my checks again. I thought to myself, "why did this have to happen to me? Why did it have to happen to Dad? It wasn't fair." I looked up to the sky and heard thunder ripple through the clouds as rain started to poor down on me. I didn't care though I just sat there and watched everyone disappear into their cars. My hair shrivelled up around my face as I began to shiver. I got up and started to walk home as slow as I could. Eventually when I got inside the house Cocoa and Dad were sitting there on the couch. "Nicki your back, your soaking wet," Dad said fetching a towel for me. When he came back I just hugged him. "Dad I'm sorry for running off like that I should be spending as much time with you as I can now." He didn't say anything and just smiled.

I hoped into my bed after my warm shower. It was already 11.30PM. I found my phone on my bedside table flashing. I leaned over and grabbed it. 6 New Messages from Luke. I just cleared them, I didn't feel like talking to him about it just yet. Then I heard three taps on my door. I got up to see what it was. Luke was standing there, I had to tell him now. I opened the door. "Hey babe why haven't you been answering any of my messages, that's not like you?" I said nothing and sat down on my bed as he followed me in. Suddenly I just burst into tears. Luke came straight to my side comforting me, "Hey, hey what's wrong, why are you crying?" I found my voice as I tried to tell him. "Uhm my Dad is dying of Cancer he just told me today." Just like that it flowed out easier than ever through my tears. He pulled me into his arms kissing my head. "I'm so sorry Nicki, I don't know what to say." I looked up into his soft brown eyes as my tears stopped. "He has 3 months to live, it's gonna be hard, I don't even know how I'm going to do it." Luke wiped my eyes dry as he spoke, "I'm gonna be here for you every step of the way." I reached up kissing his perfect lips and letting out a small smile. "Do you want me stay the night?" Luke said willingly. I nodded, "sure, actually please can you?" He jumped on the bed patting the spot for me to lay on. I smiled at him again as I curled up to him in my bed. I didn't know what it was about him, but he made me forget everything that was going on in my world.

Weeks drifted by as I came in and out of every appointment at the hospital with my Dad. Eventually he got sicker and sicker and could no longer walk. He had to be put on drugs in the end to ease the pain. As I sat there beside the hospital bed hand in hand with my Dad all the memories and all the fun times we had circled my mind. I had grown so much more closer to Cocoa than I ever imagined was possible. There was more to her that met the eye. She sat there everyday with me beside Dad. Personally I thought she would run when everything got tough but she stayed right beside him the whole way. A knock on the hospital room's door interrupted my thoughts. I looked up to see Mum watching us. "Mum!" I yelled as I ran up to her giving her the biggest hug ever. "Hi Nicki, how's your Dad going?" I saddened again, "Not that great the nurses said he would be gone soon." Mum began to get teary eyed as I brought her to sit with me next to the bed. I sat there watching Dad's stomach go up and down. Then it happened his stomach went down and never rose again, after taking two long breaths he was gone. The heart monitor beeped flat as Dad's hand fell out of mine. I turned to Mum as she pulled me into her embrace. I couldn't cry that was the weird thing but Mum and Cocoa were balling. "That was it I thought to myself, Dad just died."

The following week came as we readied ourselves for the funeral. The hurse pulled up outside the house as Mum, Cocoa and I followed it to the church. When we got there his favourite song was playing, "Living on a pray" by Bonjovi as more and more people filled the church. I walked in with my speech I was going to say and sat down at the front. I saw Gina, Beau, Rhiannon, James, Daniel, Jai, Ariana and Luke walk in as I turned around I got up and went to see them before the ceremony started hugging them all. All I wanted was Luke's comfort though. "Thanks for coming, I said trying not cry, you guys are true friends. They smiled up at me as I had to go back. I sat there in my seat staring at his coffin. The priest began the funeral. Before I knew it, it was my turn to talk. I walked up to the microphone shaking like shit as I already began to cry. "Hi everyone thanks for uuuhm thanks for coming to Dad's uuhhm funeral. I just wanted to say a few words about an awesome Dad I had. I looked out to the crowd and saw Ariana and Rhiannon already starting up. I bit my lip to stop the water from falling out of my eyes. I couldn't do it, I just looked at my paper and broke down. Luke came running up to stand beside me. He Whispered in my ear, "Babe I'm here, come on you can do this." He grabbed my waist as I began to speak. "Dad you've been the most amazing father any girl could, co-u-ld have," my voice started to choke up more tear's came I couldn't do it." Luke began to read it for me. I buried my head into his shoulder while his hand was still around my waist as he said the last of the words. Instead of sitting back down where he was he came to sit with me. The ceremony finished as we carried Dad out to the cemetery. I chucked a rose down on him as he began to get lowered. "No more pain now Dad," I said under my breath. Suddenly I felt a shiver trickle up my arms and then knew it was Dad telling me he was in a better place now. I let out a sigh of relief as I walked back up to Luke, "Thank you so much Luke I couldn't of got through it without." He just hugged me. As he let go he saw a smile that spread across my face. "Now there's that smile I know and love," he said as he gave me a small peck. I went and saw Mum and Cocoa who were getting along way better than expected. "Hey Nicki, Dad would of been proud," Mum said wiping up the last of her tears. She began to speak again, "Nicki, Cocoa and I have been talking and she's going to be moving to Sydney so you're going to have to move back home to New Zealand with me. My jaw dropped. I was shocked, "Mum are you serious, I've only just settled down here, I have a boyfriend I won't leave him Mum, I won't." "You can't live here alone you've only 16 years old, Mum replied." "I'm 17 soon," I said impulsively. "I'm leaving in half an hour, I have to get back to work but Cocoa is leaving in 2 months so you can stay with her for that time to pack and then you will be coming home ok." "I don't want to go please don't move Cocoa." "I'm sorry Nicki I've had a really good offer in Sydney." I became angry and snapped at Cocoa. "So what about offers I bet you just because Dad gave me all his money you have none and you only want another boob job don't you? Mum had already gotten into a taxi so she didn't hear what I said. I walked over to Mum in the car. "See you later have a nice flight," I said trying to sound happy. Mum waved at me as I walked away pissed off.

When I got home it felt empty not seeing or hearing Dad anywhere. To be honest I was still in shock from his death. I looked around the corner to already see Cocoa packing. "Nicki your home, look I'm sorry this is the way it has turned out but I really have to go to Sydney it's a once in a lifetime opportunity." I nodded rationally at her before speaking. "I'm sorry for what I said earlier but I can't leave Melbourne, not now." Cocoa replied, "Look if you can find another way around this I won't stand in your way but I am going to be moving to Sydney in 2 months ok." I nodded, "Ok Cocoa. She smiled as I went out to Luke's house. I didn't know how he was going to take it.

I opened the door to see everyone inside. When they set sights on me they all became dead silent. Of course I was grieving so much, I mean I just stuck my Dad in the ground today, but I had to tell everyone what I had just been told. Gina came up and rubbed my arm as she talked, "Look honey if there is anything you need just say, you've been through enough already." Tears began to fill my eyes slowly but I just wiped them away, I had been doing enough crying lately. I went and sat next to Luke as he put his arm on my knee. "Guy's I have to tell you something and I hate what I'm about to say, but I've just been told that I'm moving back to New Zealand." A small drop of water ran down the side of my check. I didn't want to leave I couldn't. I was pretty much inlove with that one boy and my friends are one of a kind people. I turned to look at Luke's expression. It was plain like no one was home I could see he was shocked. Everyone looked shocked. "What, why?" Ariana said looking confused. "Well I have no where to live, Cocoa's leaving in two months to go to Sydney for her new job. Believe me I was shocked when I got told, I just can't go, I don't won't to," I said grabbing Lukes hand. Gina came in over hearing what we were talking about. "Hey what's this your leaving?" "Yeah unfortunately," I looked up sadly. Suddenly Ariana piped up. "Oh my gosh you can live with me, I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner, no ones hardly ever home it's usually just me and my brother Frankie, I'm sure my parent's won't mind they couldn't get enough of you the last time you came over." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "Are you serious?" I asked looking over to her. She nodded smiling. We both got up and screamed happily running towards each other before hugging each other tightly. "Oh my gosh thank you so much Ariana you don't know how much this means to me." "It's alright, besides where going to have the best time ever living together and we can invite Rhiannon over tonnes if she isn't busy you know. We looked over to Beau and Rhiannon snogging each other already. "See what I mean?" Ariana said Jokingly. I turned to Luke who had resumed back to his happy self. He held out his arms to me. I went over and sat on his lap hugging him at the same time. "I'm so glad your staying I don't what I would of done if you had left me, luke said running his hand up and down my back, I love you." I froze for a bit "did he just say he loved me for the first time?" I thought to myself. I kissed him. "I love you too." We both smiled into each others eyes before kissing again. It was official I was inlove and so where Beau and Rhiannon. "Wow guy's get a room like literally your all over each other," I yelled at them. Beau replied, "Atleast your not next to my bedroom at night, you'd have to where ear plugs." I laughed at him. Luke nodded at me. "It's true I use them most nights haha." Rhiannon spoke putting her hand over Beau's mouth, "Geez Beau don't tell them what we do." Beau and Rhiannon giggled to each other acting like no one else was in the room. "Anyway it's getting late you guy's might not of known it but you cheered me up so much just now especially Ariana." "No worries, I can't wait for you to move in, in 2 months," she said excitedley. I smiled like a weight had been lifted of my shoulders. Luke and I reached the footpath and starting walking back to mine. "You know I really do love you?" I replied to what Luke just said, "Of course I do you told me tonight." "Good your the best thing that's happened to me in a long time and your the strongest person I know. What girl could go through her own fathers funeral and still be smiling at the end of it all." I stopped as Luke followed. "I suppose I was ready for it to happen over these last 3 months, but I know he's in a better place now." Luke pulled me in for a kiss before speaking, "your amazing you know that." My heart fluttered at his compliment. I got to my house seeing the light's still on. I kissed Luke again," I'll see you tomorrow, first day back to school of our last year." "Yeah fun," Luke said sarcastically. I walked into the house watching Luke dissapear into the night. Cocoa sat there watching t.v. "Hey guess what I'm going to be moving in with Ariana, I just have to ask Mum. She spoke sounding the least bit interested but still happy for me. "Cocoa are you alright?" She looked at me and burst into tears. "No I miss your Dad." I began to well up, she really did care about him. I sat next to her awkwardly trying to comfort her. "It's alright so do I Cocoa, so do I. "She cried into my shoulder before looking up. "Your a good girl Nicki, I'm sorry for ever calling you Lil Bitch." I actually started to laugh, "haha it's fine Cocoa I'm sure I've done worse." She smiled wiping her tears away. "I'm going to bed ok." I gave her one last comforting hug before going to my bedroom. Cocoa and I had become something more than enemies since this thing happened with Dad. We've gotten to know each other and realize that where not as bad as we seem to each other. As I got into bed I spoke aloud to myself. "I know your watching down on me somewhere now, but I just wanted to say I love you and I'm going to be just fine." With the last word I fell asleep.

School had been going for about 1 month now and we were back into the usual same routine again. I missed my Dad Like crazy but I handled it. Cocoa and I were somehow closer than ever and me and Luke were so much inlove we spent every waking moment together. Mum said I could live with Ariana as long as I wanted to and I did so much if it meant I would get to see that one boy's gorgeous face everday. As for the Janoskians they had reached 400 000 subscribers and were making videos and mocumentary's like crazy. Their fan's were loving it and they had been holding meet and greet's the first one having over 9000 people at Luna park. They have also signed with sony releasing a hit called "Set this World on Fire" I loved it and to make things better they have there own Janoskians sessions out on MTV. The Janoskians really were becoming a hit around the world.

Luke ran up behind me while I was sitting next to Ariana and Rhiannon at Lunch in the school Cafeteria. He covered my eyes playing the whole, "who's this trick" I took his hand's away laughing at him. He sat down next to me. "So how's it going Mr famous fella?" I said jokingly at him. "Pretty good The Janoskians are doing real good, we're gaining fan's day by day." I smiled at him. "That's great babe, I'm proud of you." He put his hand on my back as if to say thankyou before taking a bit out of his sandwhich. "Hey it's your birthday tomrrow on Saturday Nicki I almost forgot." "Yeah I'm gonna be the same age as you the big 17," I said sarcastically. Beau and Jai came to sit down beside their girls. "Did I hear birthday Nicki, this call's for a party," Beau said opening his bottle of water. "Please you don't have to make a big deal out of it." Rhiannon talked, "Yeah we do your turning 17 and any excuse for a rage I'm there. "Ok then what the hell I'm in, I'll see you there tomorrow night," I said as Luke pulled me up of the seat to go to class. Just as I stood up in the corner of my eye I saw one of Ariana's cheerleading mates Bianca with maddison winking at Luke in a weird way. "What was that all about?" I said to Luke playing with one of his buttons on his shirt. "I dunno she's been doing that since we started back to school, I get creepy vibes off that chick." "I hope she doesn't go stealing you from me." Luke looked at me. "I'm just kidding, I trust you Luke." "Good babe I would never go with someone like that." I laughed as we walked to class.

The night of my party was here as I got to Rhiannon's house. She was already at the door as I went to open it, drinks in the ready for me. I music was pounding so loud through my head. I just knew this was going to be a great night. I looked around trying to find Luke. Maddison walked up to me unexpectedley and began talking to me like we were friends. "Hey Nicki, happy birthday, come with me," she said almost weirdly. "U-u-u-h-h-h-m ok," I said curiously. We walked past Daniel and James staring at something that looked like was shocking them. I spotted what they were staring at it. My heart snapped into 1 million pieces. I looked over to see Bianca with her tongue down Luke's throat. I dropped my drink and ran out as of the house as fast as I could. I couldn't look another second.