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This chapter is dedicated to the song "Hot Mess" by Cobra Starship. It's the inspiration behind it.
Warning: Lemon in this chapter...
I looked around at all of the guys, sitting there. I was in shock, obviously. Werewolves? It had to be some sort of joke. "Bella??" I heard Sam mutter. I didn't bother looking up at him. "Bella, what's going on in your head?" he asked, moving so that he was in front of me.
"I was kept in the dark about my BROTHER being a werewolf and then I am 'imprinted' on by Embry and all of a sudden the Elders tell me that all of you guys are werewolves. What do you fucking think is going on in my head?" I yelled, pushing away from Sam. I stood and jogged toward the water. I needed to clear my mind before going back and talking to any of them.
I sat on one of the pieces of driftwood and watched as the water reflected the moon's image. I listened as the waves crashed onto the beach and smiled at the familiarity. I remembered Sam teaching me how to swim in the ocean when I was younger, and then following him and his friends when they went cliff diving. When they caught me they would make me sit on the beach and wait for them to swim up. I sighed as I rested my head on my knees. I thought about what I had just found out. I was "meant to be" with Embry for the rest of my life. That part didn't bother me. What bothered me was that neither of us had a choice in it. "Deep in thought?" I jumped as Jake's voice penetrated the silence. "The group sent me to find you since they figured you would try to rip Sam's head off." he shrugged, sitting beside me.
"Why was this hidden from me?" I asked him, picking up handfuls of sand and tossing them away. "It makes me feel as though I'm not part of the tribe. Like I'm just an outsider." I whispered, tears on the brink of falling.
I looked up at him and saw that he was frowning. "You weren't allowed to know because we have to protect the tribe. The fact that we are werewolves has to stay a secret so the others don't go and gossip it to their friends. And as for why none of us guys couldn't, Sam ordered us not to. You see, Sam's the 'alpha' of the pack which means, when he gives us an order-we have to follow it. No matter what." Jake explained, laying back onto the wet sand. "Don't be too hard on him Bells."
"I can't promise anything." I mumbled, standing up. "I'm going for a walk. If anyone asks, don't tell them where I went." I told him, walking toward the tree line. I was sure that one of them would follow me, but it didn't matter. I still had to think things out. Sam didn't deserve my forgiveness just yet.
I walked around in the dark, thinking of ways to start the conversation with my brother. It wasn't as if I could just tell him I was okay with him being a werewolf. I picked up a large tree branch and broke it across the trunk of an oak tree. The resulting crack made me smile so I hit the branch against the tree again.
When I had broken the branch I continued my walk. There wasn't much to the forest at night but it did have a magical quality to it. It seemed as though everything was alive. I kept walking until my legs began threatening my body by shaking. I curled up on the ground as the rain began falling. It wasn't the fact that I was lost that had me frightened. It was the fact that I didn't know what was in the forest, other than a pack of giant wolves that consisted of my brother, imprint, and the other Res boys.
I shivered as it began to rain harder. I didn't even know what time it was. The last thing I remembered, before passing out, was a pair of eyes looking at me from the shadows...
I sat up, quickly, when I heard howls. I glanced around and saw that I was on an unfamiliar couch, covered with a large stack of blankets. I tried to place myself, but failed miserably. I rubbed my head, trying ease the throbbing headache. "We almost lost her, Jacob." I heard someone whispering. "Why didn't you tell us where she went, or stop her?" the person asked, voice growing.
"I couldn't!" I heard Jake reply. "It was the exact feeling you get when ordered by an Alpha, Sam. When Embry asked me I couldn't say or do anything concerning where she went." he explained. I could hear a glass break and groaned.
I threw the blankets off of me and walked to where the voices were coming from. "Hey guys." I smiled, noting that it was only Sam, Jake, and Jared. "Why all the yelling?" I asked, pulling myself up so I could sit on the counter.
"Why didn't you tell anyone that you were going into the woods?" Sam asked, eyes burning holes into mine. "And how were you able to order Jacob around when you aren't a wolf?"
"I wanted to be alone and I didn't order him. I just told him to not tell any of you guys because someone would end up bugging me. And how the hell do you know that I'm not a wolf? What makes you the one to decide that?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at my brother. "Where the fuck am I anyway?"
"You are at Embry's. He insisted that you rest here. He's in the store, working for his mom right now. But we are going home to discuss your punishment for running away." Sam grabbed my arm and lead me out to his car.
"Fuck off Sam." I told him, pulling my arm away. "I'm not going to let you boss me around anymore. I may have been naïve before, but now that I know what's going on, you can't treat me like one of your wolves." I watched as he growled and slammed the car door.
"Why are you being so stubborn? Do you think that I enjoy punishing you when you get in trouble?" he asked, gritting his teeth. I could tell that he was having a hard time keeping his anger in check. "I hate it when I have to punish you because it reminds me of our father. You think you were deprived because I didn't tell you about the wolves, but what about me, huh?" he asked. "Joshua left when I was just a kid and then mom killed herself six years ago, because she couldn't handle taking care of you. Do you realize that I had to grow up to take care of you long before I was ready? But I didn't complain. I did what I had to." he yelled, making me take a few steps back.
"So I have made your life miserable..." I whispered, looking down. Without another word I turned away from him and began jogging toward Forks. I knew that he was going to come after me, and that he was probably faster, but I didn't care. I needed to be away from it all for awhile. It took me a half an hour to get to Forks City limits and another twenty to make it to the main road.
There was nothing too important that I had to do, but I could look around and meet some new people. I shuffled along the sidewalk as everyone bustled around me. It was as if I didn't exist to any of them, and I didn't care. I walked around until I found my way to a park where people were sitting with each other and dogs ran around, playing with whatever toys their owners were throwing.
I sighed as I sat on one of the benches in the middle of a grove of trees. My attention wasn't on anything around me. It was on what Sam had said. My mom really didn't want me, and I suppose neither did my dad. And since Sam was mad at me for making him "grow up," he resented me. I felt the tears fall and I didn't make any move to wipe them away.
After awhile, I stood and walked until I found a convenience store. I quickly walked in and pulled out my wallet. I smiled when I saw three twenty dollar bills in it and tugged out my fake id. I'd learned how to make one after studying my license for months. I only had another three years to wait to buy alcohol legally, but I figured, why not get it earlier. I walked down the liquor aisle and grabbed three bottles of José Cuervo and walked up to the register. I handed the man my id when he asked for it and smiled inwardly as he accepted it. I paid for my alcohol and carried the bag outside.
I walked until I reached the Res limits and walked into the woods, intending on getting lost. When I had successfully become disoriented, I found a place to sit down and opened the first bottle. It only took me a few minutes to down it and begin the second one. By that time, everything was beginning to sway. I smiled as I kept gulping down the amber colored liquid.
By the end of the second bottle, I was long gone. I couldn't see clearly and the rain had begun to beat down with heavy drops. I giggled as the water hit my skin. In moments I was drenched. I didn't bother moving. I was already going to be wet and cold so why hurry? I opened the third bottle and took a large swig. "Fuck them a-all." I hiccuped, taking a second gulp. "They, they, they are usheless." I threw one of the empty bottles and laughed when the glass shattered. My thoughts began straying from Sam to Embry. I smiled as I imagined him, without a shirt, at the bonfire. I took a few more gulps of my tequila and looked around.
There was something off about my surroundings. I stood up, wobbling, and squinted into the darkness. I couldn't see anything so I staggered in a random direction, hoping to find the road. It took me a few minutes to set a decent pace, that I could handle, and I kept walking. As I walked, I heard leaves crunch and twigs snap behind me. This made my heart start pacing and sweat poured down my neck. "Bella....." I heard something whisper, making me gasp.
I kept stumbling, tripping over a few roots. "No!" I yelled, half-jogging, half-walking. "No, no, no!" I doubled over, throwing up. I fell into a small valley and rolled to a stop by a tree. I looked up at the sky and noticed that the moon wasn't out. I shivered as I listened, waiting for whatever was following to pounce. I heard heavy breathing and began panicking. "Don't hurt me!" I yelled, shaking my head as the breathing got closer.
I watched as a large figure emerged from the trees at a quick pace. "Bella..." I heard it whisper as it kept walking. "Bells." I looked up when it had reached my tree and saw that it was Embry. "I've been so worried." he whispered, sinking onto his knees and pulling me into his chest. "Where have you been?" he asked, tilting my chin so I was looking up.
"Sam's fault..." I answered, pulling away. I sat at the base of the trunk, looking at him. "I love you, Embry." I looked up at him through my eyelashes and blinked. Before I knew what I was doing, I had him pinned onto the ground and was kissing him.
"Bella.." he mumbled, kissing me back. "I love you too." he cupped my cheeks, making them turn red from the heat.
"I want you." I slurred, pulling my hoodie and shirt off. I guided his hands up so they were on my chest and smiled when he began molding my breasts, through my bra. I moaned and and quickly removed my pants.
"Are you sure?" he asked, moving so that I was laying beneath him. "Because I want you to be sure that this is what you want..." he rambled. Instead of answering, I pulled his head down and kissed him.
He kissed a trail from my mouth to my ear, then down to my neck. I moaned at the contact and pulled at the waistband of his shorts. I slid them down with my legs and grinned as his hips involuntarily bucked forward. I lifted my hips as he pulled my panties off and helped him when he had trouble with the hook on my bra.
I smiled when he lifted me up and put our clothes underneath me. When I was back on the ground, I hooked my leg around this thigh and pulled him closer to me. I could tell that he was ready, from the way he was sucking my neck. He lifted my arms above my head and kissed me as he plunged into me. I let out a groan of pleasure and arched my back. I dug my nails into his back as he began moving and lifted my hips to match his thrusts.
I could feel the effects of the alcohol wearing off but paid no attention to it. I wrapped my legs around his waist and held him to me as he kept moving. He dipped his head and nibbled on my ear, making me gasp. My body shivered as the sensation moved into my lower belly. "Faster." I whispered, knotting my fingers in his hair. He grunted as he complied, moving so his mouth was around my breast.
By that time, I was already climbing toward my climax. I began moving faster against him and dug my nails into his scalp. "God.." he moaned, thrusting harder. "I can't hold out much longer." he whispered against my skin.
I couldn't speak as my orgasm washed over me. My body shook as Embry began slowing down. I laid there, breathing heavily as I watched him climax. When he was spent, he gently laid beside me and pulled me into him. "So warm..." I whispered, burrowing into his hold. I had only just started becoming aware of the rain pelting us and the cold wind blowing.
"Come on Bells. We have to get you someplace warm." he pulled me up and helped me get dressed. I smiled as he stuffed my bra and panties into the pocket of his shorts and shook my head. I leaned into his side as he lead me out of the forest, toward the Res. "I know what you and Sam were fighting about." He started as we reached the road. "I talked to my mom and she said that it would be fine with her if you wanted to stay with me."
"Thank you Embry." I smiled, getting into the waiting car. I hadn't noticed it before, but it looked as though he had borrowed it from Jake. "That would be perfect since Sam made me mad." I was still a little tipsy, since alcohol made me drunk early, but let me sober up faster than anyone else that I knew. I stayed curled up next to him until we reached his house, since the heater in the car seemed to be broken.
When we got to his house, Mrs. Call was sitting in the living room, phone in hand.
So, below are the lyrics to "Hot Mess" by Cobra Starship. If you want to listen to the song while reading, feel free. But I thought I would include the lyrics so you guys could (hopefully) see how the song influenced this chapter. Thank you to the reviewers. They make my day. I'm hoping to get more reviews than three for this chapter because I made it extra long. A whopping six pages typed while the others were usually only one and a half. Hope you enjoy.
You were a problem child
Been grounded your whole life
So now you running wild
Playing with them good girls
No that ain't your style
You think your hot shit
You cool, I love it, I love it
Yeah, yeah
Stumbling but yeah, you're still looking hella fine
Keep doing what you're doing and I'ma make you mine
Well, you're a hot mess and I'm falling for you
And I'm like hot damn let me make you my boo
Cos you can shake it shake it shake it
Yeah you know what to do
You're a hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes
I've been hypnotized
The city's your playground,
I watch you take a bite
At 5am roaming in the streets
Drunk all night
You think your hot shit
You cool, I love it, I love it
Yeah, yeah
Stumbling but yeah, you're still looking hella fine
Keep doing what you're doing and I'ma make you mine
Well, you're a hot mess and I'm falling for you
And I'm like hot damn, let me make you my boo
Cos you can shake it shake it shake it
Yeah you know what to do
You're a hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes
You're a hot mess and I'm falling for you
And I'm like hot damn let me make you my boo
Cos you can shake it shake it shake it
Yeah you know what to do
You're a hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes
If you're dancing up on tables
You go you go, you got it girl
Say that you're unstable
You go coco, you got it girl
Dancing up on tables
Say that you're unstable
You're a haha haha ha yeah you're a hot mess
Haha haha ha we're singing hell yes
Well, you're a hot mess and I'm falling for you
And I'm like hot damn let me make you my boo
Cos you can shake it shake it shake it
Yeah you know what to do
You're a hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes
You're a hot mess and I'm falling for you
And I'm like hot damn let me make you my boo
Cos you can shake it shake it shake it
Yeah you know what to do
You're a hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes (hell yes)
Hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes (hell yes)
Hot mess
I'm loving it, hell yes
