Okay Chapter 4 is here. Two chapters in 3 days, YAY! I'm not sure when their twitter status's changed but for the purpose of this story, it's the beginning of 2011. Thank you guys for all the reviews, it means a lot. I will hopefully have chapter 5 up tonight, apologies if I don't make it.
Harry's POV
I am so humiliated. I feel like my insides have been ripped out and laid bare for everyone to see. The one person I wasn't ready to tell now knows and probably hates me for it. Why did everything have to get so screwed up?
I did my best to avoid Dougie for the rest of the day and every time he started to come near me Danny would step in as a barrier. I really appreciated Danny through all of this. I know a lot of the time some people don't think he is very swift, hell we think the same thing sometimes. But Danny is smart and compassionate where it counts and he's a great friend to have and lean on. He'd probably give you the shirt off his back if you needed it.
For the rest of the week I managed to keep a safe distance from Dougie and Danny was there making sure I was alright. I made it through all the promos and radio interviews and was able to put on my 'everything is okay' face. Dougie finally stopped trying to talk to me and just left me alone. If there was one thing we were not going to do it was that we were not going to allow this to damage the band.
I did go on my twitter though and changed my status from Dougie's Boyfriend to Drummer in Mcfly. Just wanted to keep it simple and try not to cause too much chaos in the fandom. The day after I did that, I noticed Dougie had changed his status from Harry's Girlfriend to Bass Player in Mcfly. After that, Twitter and Tumblr blew up and I tried to just pass it off as moving on in my replies and hopefully made it sound like it wasn't a big deal. I really love our fans, they are crazy and nosey but they do care about us and support us through everything.
Friday night rolled around and Tom was still not sure of what was going on but he was trying his hardest to keep us together and wanted us all to go out.
"Maybe tomorrow night mate. I'm just not into it tonight." I tried to let him down easy.
"Do you want me to call it off and I could just hang out here with you? We could have a Fludd night." he laughed.
"No that's okay," I snickered back, "the others probably want to go out too. You just go out with them and have some fun. I'll be alright."
"Are you sure?" he narrowed his eyes at me.
"Yes, I'm sure. Besides, I think it may be a little awkward there and I don't want to cause any tension in the group tonight." I told him.
"I really wish you guys would fix whatever is going on. I know something happened but none of you will tell me what it is." he said sounding frustrated.
"I don't really want to talk about it right now, maybe some other time." I replied.
"Okay, fine. My offer still stands for tonight though." Tom said.
"Thanks mate." I smiled at him.
I closed the front door after he left and settled down onto my couch for a night alone with some movies and popcorn.
Dougie's POV
Danny and I were on our way to the club to meet to Tom and Harry and it was a very strained car ride. I could tell that Danny was still upset with me but at least he was still talking to me. We were taking a cab there because we were pretty sure we wouldn't be able to drive back and Tom was driving anyways so he would be the designated driver tonight.
"I'd really like to try talking to him tonight so can you do me a favor and not block me this time. I'm trying to make amends and I can't do it when you are getting in the way." I said to Danny.
I had to say it fast and get it all out before he had a chance to stop me. That's all he has been doing since this whole thing started even though he was the one who told me to fix it.
"I know mate but he needed his space and some time to process the fact that you know something that he wasn't ready for you to find out yet. He wasn't sure if he was ever going to tell you." Danny replied.
I wasn't sure how to take that, it would have been better had I not heard anything and we would still be best friends. I wasn't sure why I was about to ask this but the morbid side of me needed to know, the side that liked to be tortured.
"How long has he known?" Simple, easy question that had a loaded answer I'm sure.
"Are you sure you want to know that?" asked Danny
"Yes." I assured.
"He told me about it almost a year ago." Danny answered.
"A whole year, that long?" I was surprised.
"No, I said that's how long I have known. I really shouldn't be telling you this stuff. This is stuff you need to talk to Harry about." Danny said quickly.
"So longer than a year, just tell me." I pushed.
"No, we are here. Let's get inside." said Danny.
We both got out and I paid the driver before heading into the club. I scanned the room for Tom and Harry but saw no sign of them.
"I found Tom." said Danny.
We made our way over but there was no Harry.
"Where is H at mate?" asked Danny before I was even able to open my mouth.
"He stayed home, said he wasn't feeling up to it tonight." explained Tom.
Danny gave me a worried a look and then went to get a round for us.
"I'm really worried about him, he hasn't been himself lately." said Tom.
"I know…it's mostly my fault." I told Tom.
He frowned at me with his 'what did you do now face'.
"Can someone please tell me what happened?" asked Tom.
"Not yet, let's just say I said some things that were uncalled for and out of line about Harry." I tried to explain to him.
Danny came back with our drinks and we just sat there sipping at them.
"Okay, I'm going to go, sorry guys. Danny explain to Tom what the hell is going on before he has a melt down. I need to go make this right." I said to the guys and threw some money down on the table and left. I had the doorman call a cab and I waited outside.
I was going to fix this. I was going straight over to Harry's and get my best friend back. I just hoped he could forgive me and be okay with us just going back to normal. I didn't really know how I felt about him having feelings for me but I would deal with it. He was still my best friend and he was still the only person I felt the closest to out of everyone in my life.
The cab pulled up and I gave him the address and got in. Twenty minutes later I was standing outside his house trying to come up with something to say to him. I could tell he was in the living room, I could see the light from the television. I took a deep breath and made my way up the front walk and stood in front of the door. I rang the doorbell and stepped back to wait for him. I could hear is foot steps come up to the door and stop.
"Harry, I know you're there, please let me in." I pleaded.
I could hear him sigh on the other side and heard the lock click.
Harry's POV
What is he doing here, I thought to myself as I opened the door.
I took a deep breath and stepped back to let him in. Might as well get this over with. He walked in and stopped in the hallway.
"Can we talk now please?" Dougie asked quietly.
"Yea." I said softly. I walked into the living room and sat down as he sat opposite me in the recliner.
"I'm not sure where to start." he began, "but I do want to apologize for what happened the other day. It was not okay for me to say those things. I'm also sorry for avoiding you, I could have handled it in a better way."
I just stared at the floor, not sure how to respond. My mind was racing trying to figure out how I was going to explain myself.
"Can you look at me please?" he asked.
I lifted my head up and looked at him, searching his face trying to see if he showed any signs of disgust.
"I'm sorry I caused all of this," I said to him, "I should have just kept silent and dealt with it on my own."
"No, don't be sorry. I understand, you needed someone to talk to and I realize it was something you couldn't come to me with." he said still looking at me.
"It wasn't something I was ever going to tell you." I said, averting my eyes.
"Well tell me now please, " he asked, "I promise it won't change my opinion of you. I know I reacted badly before but please give me a chance. You are still my best friend Harry, no matter what."
I guess now was the time to tell the truth. I took a deep breath and decided to start at the beginning.
