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P.S. im not sure if i told you the ages of everyone but they are as follows
Jason- 19 (graduated at 17)
Jacob- 19 almost 20
Embry- 19
Quil- 19
Paul- 20
Jared- 20
Sam- 23
Emily- 23
Leah- 22
Seth- 17
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Disclaimer: I do not own anything except my OC's
As we got closer to the house, Paul dropped his arm from around my waist and clasped his right hand and my left hand together with a grin on his face. I looked down at our clasped hands out of the corner of my eye and felt a small pang of pain in my chest, I ignored it and looked away from our hands and back at the house where Jacob stood, arms crossed. When we reached him, he glared at Paul and pulled me away from him.
"What are you doing?" Paul's grin faltered a bit.
"Showing him that I'm not a complete asshole" Jake scoffed.
"Right," he turned to me "don't do that again, got me?" I silently nodded and Jake's glare softened. Jacob nodded at my answer before pulling me through the house toward the car with Paul attempting to follow us. "Paul, stay" Paul glared and jumped in front of Jacob, blocking the front door.
"What is going on?"
"Nothing Paul"
"Bullshit, otherwise you wouldn't be so quick to leave your own house," Jacob growled.
"It's none of your business Paul, now move" Paul glared and then looked at me.
"Are you alright?" I pulled my hand from Jacob's grasp and walked toward Paul. When I was close, enough I gave him a light smile as I leaned into his ear.
"I'm sorry Paul" I whispered and when I pulled back a look of confusion crossed his face before I put my hand on his neck and pinched a nerve that caused him to fall asleep. I caught him and put him on the sofa beside the door. When I looked back, I noticed Jake already in the car, his head on the steering wheel. When I got in the car, Jake wasted no time in backing out and speeding back to the Cullen household. The car ride was silent, so I watched the trees pass in blurs of browns and dull greens.
"Am I a freak?" I quietly asked my brother.
"No" he replied without question.
"I feel like one"
"Jason," Jacob sighed before pulling the car over "don't, you're not a freak, you just have more abilities than the rest of us. Besides, everyone is a freak, there is not one person on this earth that is not in some way, shape or form a freak." I turned to him.
"I know that Jacob I'm just,"
"Just what? Scared? Hesitant? What?" I swallowed
"I'm just sick of myself" Jacob went silent as his facial expression turned to a combination of shock and confusion.
"What do you mean 'sick of yourself'?"
"I'm just a walking disappointment to everyone. Mom, dad, you, the pack, hell even myself sometimes"
"I don't understand"
"If mom and dad were alive how would I explain to them that they would get grandchildren from me? How would such straight-laced and traditional people that their son is gay? That he isn't attracted to the right sex? How did I feel, Jake, to be the older brother to someone who was picked on a teased constantly during high school for not doing normal guy stuff? I wonder how the pack feels about having to strip in front of a gay guy that could possibly lust after them? You don't understand, Jacob. It's not your fault. I choose not to burden you with my problems because you're under so much stress right now with Sam taking time off for the baby and wedding that you have to step in as alpha." Jacob's mouth hung open in shock at my outburst.
"Jason, what would make you think all that? That anyone has a problem with you?"
"I don't have to think Jacob, it's a given. I can almost guarantee you that most of the tribe and forks have a problem with homosexuality."
"That's bullshit, Jason, and you know it. The pack do not mind that you're gay; if they did, they sure as hell would have said something about it. If they had a problem then they wouldn't ask you to hang out with them, be their friend. They love you Jason, regardless of who you like. As for school, I didn't give a damn about them. If anybody badmouthed you, they were handled, no questions asked. I wasn't bothered by the fact you were different, you were and are my brother. Mom and Dad would have also accepted you as you are too. They would pick you over tradition any day of the damn week and you know it, so I don't know why you'd think that."
"You can't be sure, it's too late to tell them and them picking me being gay over tradition wouldn't happen." Jacob sighed, started the car and began driving again. The car was silent for a few minutes before Jake spoke up again.
"They knew." My heart skipped a beat and I snapped my head toward him.
"w-what?"
"The day after you told me our senior year graduation, while you went out. I told them because they deserved to know, and they told me that they had already known; that it was something they just knew. They died before they could tell you that they were alright with it." I sat in my seat in a daze. I nodded and looked out the window again trying to leave behind the conversation. I didn't want to unload my problems onto him, they were my problems, and I needed to deal with them. It wasn't far too just take advantage of him by forcing him to listen to me. We pulled up to the Cullen's drive way and Emmett, Jasper and Carlisle took our stuff to our respective rooms, to which I locked myself in mine hoping no one would bother me. A knock came from my door and I internally groaned. When I opened it I was greeted to Alice's smiling face and I let her in.
"So, how are you holding up?" I shrugged my shoulders and took a seat next to her on the brand new plush white bed. An idea struck me.
"Hey, Alice, can you see my future?"
"Let me see," her eyes took on a faraway look making them look black and she gasped, her eyes returning to their normal honey color. "I can! And-and I saw Jacob!" I panicked, my heart beating a mile a minute.
"Is-was he," I trailed off afraid of her answer.
"No," I sighed in relief "I can only see him when you're around, which is odd" She began asking me what exactly happened the night I was attacked and I told her I was bitten and turned to a hybrid. She must have noticed the look I had when I told her about mine and Jake's conversation not too long ago, so she changed the subject about the mall and the pack.
"No Alice, I'm not with any of the boys" I laughed and she pouted.
"Aww, no fun! We need to get you a man," she winked at me making me laugh nervously and refusing. "There must be someone you're interested in!" my mind went to Erik and I smiled softly. When I realized whom I was thinking of I frowned and thought of Paul, which brought on the same reaction. What that meant I had no idea. Jasper knocked on the door and came in carrying a plate of food for me, the ever classic spaghetti and meatballs. I followed Alice and jasper downstairs to the kitchen, for a drink, where I saw Emmett and Jacob making cutesy faces at each other while Emmett occasionally fed Jake his food and kissing away the left over sauce. I felt an even stronger pang of pain in my chest, after grabbing my drink and rushing back to my room, desperate to get away from the couple. I spent the night in my room, unable to sleep, staring at the dark forest in my oversized window. I opened it slightly and felt the warm breeze come through and grace my shirtless chest. I began to wonder what happened to Paul after he woke up, did he try looking for me? Was he mad? Did he even really care? I heard a howl in the distance and knew they were switching up patrols, Jake would be leaving pretty soon and I'd be stuck here alone since I was taken off patrols until I fully understood my ability or abilities. I heard footsteps quickly retreating and knew it was Jake leaving. Finally sleep seemed to come and claim me as its next victim because my eyelids were beginning to feel heavier but before I fell completely asleep I heard a growl from the forest. I woke up, from what I guessed, an hour later, seeing as the forest was a bit darker than earlier, and felt a familiar presence. I got up and began walking toward the kitchen, with my throat suddenly dry. I went in and grabbed myself a glass of water after dropping off and cleaning my dinner plate. I spilled the water on myself, leaving a large wet spot on my fresh nightshirt and pajama pants, when I heard the loud banging in the living room. I put the cup in the sink, walked into the living room, and saw it in chaos. The couch was thrown into the stairwell leaving a large hole on the concrete railing, the front door was shattered, the love seat was torn in two, and the 72' plasma TV and glass coffee table were left in pieces. I was about to call out for one of the Cullens when Emmett was thrown into the room on his back grunting in pain while the rest of the Cullens filed in hissing at the intruder at the door. I soundlessly gasped at the unknown person.
"WHERE. IS. MY. MATE?!" with that he was tackled by Jasper back outside with Emmett, Carlisle and Rosalie following. All I could do was sit in a shocked stupor with Esme and Alice beside me trying to get me moving.
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