AN: Another new chapter! I finally found my notebook yesterday. I was able to finally finish chapters 3 and 4 of typing and finishing chapter 4 anyway. It has been a crazy time the last few months with all the added responsibilities at school and at home. But please read and review and I will try to do better at updating when I can during the remainder of my school break and when I can throughout the semester. This is the first chapter that will contain different level of possible triggers for people (specifically rape and self-harm and thoughts of suicide) toward the end of the chapter and will be explored more in depth beginning next chapter so proceed at your own risk. Though the situations are not directly talked about they are mentioned as having happened. The next few chapters will go into more depth as Angie talks with Dr. Rosen, Betty, and Oscar about what has happened both in the long term past and the more recent past of her undercover case. The scenes dealing with the issues will likely be a little awkward as I personally do not have experience with one of the events and the other I have dealt with in the same capacity as Oscar will in future chapters. I apologize now that the both Oscar and Angie will likely be out of character multiple times throughout the remainder of the story but that is the beauty of AU stories.
Chapter 4
(Angie's Apartment)
After she arrived at her friend's apartment and got the snacks set up on the table Betty finally addressed her friend, "Hey Ang, you need to sit down so we can talk about what has been bothering you lately."
"Fine, the problem is the day before the sting my cover was blown. That part of it I handled just fine, however, the part where a former friend showed up and decided to try to kill me is another thing." Angie finally confessed.
"Who else knows? I mean Dr. Rosen obviously knows since you have been seeing him since the incident." Betty asked.
"Just you, Boyd, and Dr. Rosen know. The guys will all find out eventually but for now I would like it to be just the four of us to keep the whole station from finding out." Angie replied.
"Are you really okay to be back at work? I mean after an experience like that I think I would either take some sort of leave or a little vacation."
"I was offered my choice between both but I don't want to do either. Both options would make the guys suspicious so I am just taking everything one day at a time for now."
"Is there something more to it than that? I know Mark will understand and Oscar is already suspicious that something is going on. He called me on my way over here to see where we were and he sounded confused by the fact you left without saying any form of goodbye."
"Oscar is a big boy. He can handle being left without so much as a goodbye, he will be seeing me in the morning anyway." Angie said as she poured herself another drink.
"He cares way more than you know. He cares more than a normal partner would. Look out the window and tell me what you see."
"I swear to god if his car is out there he is a dead man tomorrow when I see him."
"You know he means well. I know you like him in the same way he likes you. I have been married three times I know how to read the signs that you want each other."
"Of course we like each other we have worked so closely with each other for 5 and a half years. How could I not have fallen for his charm by now? I have no clue how he can't see it."
"To be fair you can't see the way he intends half of the stuff to come off. As for him not picking up your hints I think it is because of the fact that he is a male and blind to this kind of stuff."
"Betts, please we already made it clear that what happened between me and Lance during this case and in the past when he and I were together. He is dead now so neither Manny or I need to worry about him finding out anything about what happened with Lance all those years ago. I will tell you if I need anything especially if any of my past bad activities come into play. You have known me long enough to know when I am ready to talk or get more help than I already am I will do that and not a minute before!"
"You should really tell him about the important stuff that has happened so he knows why you are so blocked off when it comes to relationships. I feel like if he knows now it would be better than if he finds out by accidentally doing something to set you off."
"He won't do anything to set me off if I don't let him any closer than I already have."
"Why do you have to be so stubborn Ang?"
"Because it is a part of my charm and why so many people at the station love me…"
"Looks like I have a text from Vega...apparently he is indeed outside and wants me to leave so he can talk to you if you are willing to that is but I can't go home right now. I have had too much to drink so I will just tell him that I am going to go up to the guest room and go to bed so I will see you in the morning. Night."
"Betts are you crazy? Don't leave me alone with him. You know how I get when I have had this much to drink and he is pissed at me this time around."
~Time Skip~
"Hi Oscar, what do you need?"
"Ang I know you want to be left alone but your body language plus how much you drank at Toby's tonight concerns me."
"Everything is fine Oscar. Better than fine actually. The reason for my bad mood many days is now dead so I wanted to celebrate."
"Maybe we should wait to talk until tomorrow…"
"No Oscar I am fine to talk really I haven't had that much tonight. I have only had about 3 more than normal so it is not bad at all."
"Okay so where do you want to start?"
"I think I should tell you that the guy that died at the end of my undercover case was Manny's father. Manny knows that it happened and is as happy about it as I am. I know that sounds bad but he was a really bad person."
"So when did things get that bad with whatever his name is?"
"His name was Lance. We got together our last year of University and I tried to break it off when I didn't feel anything anymore and that is when things got thrown all to hell."
"Did what I think happened happen and that is why you wanted to break up with him?"
"Probably but I really don't like talking about that. So we will just skip over it to what happened at the end of the assignment. The same thing happened again so this time in self defense I killed him that is why Bloom is forcing me to see Dr. Rosen, because I killed a person and I went through something that put me into a deep depression almost twenty years ago. He wants me to tell the entire thing to someone that doesn't know so that I can work on moving on. Now what else did you want to talk about? I feel like I should tell you something else important but I want to hear from you first."
