I m still having my paragraghs and stuff look weird but ill figure out some way to fix that soon.


A month and a half had gone by since Ichigo had been clued in on his situation and had fallen into a typical routine. Sleep for about an hour or for most ofthe day depending on how he felt, eat something (but not very much lately) and then spend the day with Orihime. Orihime had made it her job to visit Ichigobecause without Nel he was alone.

At first Nel tried to build up the courage to talk to Ichigo but she never got any closer than waiting outside his door forhours not even bothering to knock. But she had stopped coming all together so Orihime started coming bringing food or offering to take a walk with him tothe courtyard. Ulquiorra would watch them from a distance because he was still the guardian of Orihime but gave the two the freedom to go where theywanted whenever they felt like having some different scenery.

All of the times Ichigo was without company though he had to deal with the pregnancy totally on his own which made him a bit depressed. He had never inhis life dealt with something like this. His back hurt and he had to pee all the time but the worst was just seeing himself change so much in what felt like afew days.

His athletic body had dissolved and was replaced with a vulnerable soft one he never desired. Sleeping had become a huge effort too science heonly sleeps on his back but with his own weight crushing him he felt like someone was sitting on his chest as he slept. But recently he had taken the habit ofadjusting himself in his bed and with no one around decided to explore the massive unknown region; sometimes wandering into daydreams of what it wouldbe like if he and Orihime got back to Katakura town with his baby.

What would everyone at home think about him once they saw him? Or how would heexplain the entire story of becoming a substitute soul reaper then all of the events leading to his dad having a highbred granddaughter or grandson?Speaking of which what gender was his baby? If he could be more open with Orihime he could bounce some of these questions off of her but she seemed tohave changed.

She was still the cuddly innocent Orihime he had always known but when he found out about Nel's part in his capture and ultimately gettingimpregnated his hatred for Arrancar had grown and Orihime seemed to be getting close with Ulquiorra.

Ulquiorra Cifer, the fourth Espada in Aizen's army that is signified by the number four tattooed on his chest. He had been the one that Ichigo had fought andlost to ending up in Sazyel's cold doctor hands to be experimented on. Ichigo at the time thought someone so slender and despondent looking would be andeasy win but was wrong. Ulquiorra with his messy black hair with a bang falling between his harsh green eyes waited for the perfect opening to strike andended the fight with one fatal blow from his zanpato Murcielago. And as Ichigo lied bleeding and unable to move was told he was

"trash and unworthy ofbeing killed". That memory had come back days after waking up to Nel sleeping beside him in the room he thought would be his home till the day he died.

And this monster who at first seemed to not have any deeper relationship with Ichigo's friend than feeding her or informing her of updates in their plans wasgetting to close in Ichigo's opinion. Ulquiorra seemed rather intrigued with Orihime and gave a more human demeanor in her presence but none of that couldpossible be true. That Ulquiorra and Orihime had developed some loving bond. Or at least that's what he hoped for as he waited for Orihime everyday alonewith his baby and his thoughts of what the future could be holding secret from him.


~Orihime's POV~

Ichigo was expecting me a while ago but Ulquiorra hasn't come to take me yet. I hope Ichigo's not having his mood swings today because, well his attitudewas bad enough with plain teenage male hormones and lately he can go from a suicidal sadness to being so calm and quite I cant imagine what's goingthrough his mind.

Orihime took her time getting ready, gently placing her long orange-brown hair behind her ears and pinning it with her small blue checked herself in the mirror to see her reflection was accompanied by another with a frowning face and grayish skin

"Hello Ulquiorra "she smiled andwas returned with a nod. She had gotten use to him popping in without making a sound so now it didn't scare her out of her skin the way it had before.

Ulquiorra does not seem to be able to grasp the concept of human emotions so I've never seen him with more than a frown similar to Ichigo's signaturescowl. He claims he doesn't believe in emotions because they are something he can not see so they must not exist. To me that's just analyzing things tomuch and not using your heart but I don't know much about Arrancar so I'm not sure if they have a heart to use. That would explain Ulquiorra behaviorthough; he's cold as ice and the teal lines descending from his eyes that make him appear to be crying may be there because he can't cry himself. At least that's my idea.

"Are you ready for us to meet the soul reaper?" I nodded my head to him and rushed around my room to gather my items for Ichigo.

Orihime's room was thesame as Ichigo's including a twin bed, couch, bathroom, closet and window. Aizen had also had the Arrancar go back to the world of the living to retrieve herstuff from home such as the shrine to her older brother.

Orihime walked side by side with her guardian in the vast hallways leading to her friends' room and glancing up at Ulquiorra she saw he was watchingsomething else. His green eyes with cat like pupils were watching someone stagger drunkenly ahead but placed a muscular arm in front of Orihime forbiddingher to run to be with the woman who she had identified as Nel. Not wanting to disobey she simply looked over her shoulder as they passed and Nelwandered with no particular destination , limping and holding the wall as she went.

" She went poking her nose into Lord Aizen's affairs and was is lucky he allowed her to live after what she tried to do." he said this in the indifferent tone he always used as he took her arm and lead her away notleaving time to consider what to do about Nel.

When Ulquiorra and I were just outside Ichigo's room he let go of my arm and nodded good-bye to me as he always did .I entered the room to find my friendsitting on his small couch watching a movie. I never bothered asking anyone how it's possible our TV's and electronics work here but there are bigger thingsto think about other than why I can watch my Saturday cartoons and listen to the radio in a completely different world.

"Hello Ichigo sorry for being a little late today Ulquiorra must have been caught up in something important." I put my bag down near the bed then sat on thefloor by Ichigo's feet. It didn't feel like the right time to be speaking about what I just saw.

"I don't know how you deal with that guy. Thinks everyone like usis trash but then again that's how all of them think of us isn't it?" Oh great he was in an angry moods .

"Ichigo you know that's not true…not is just thinking the way an Arrancar solider is made to think. Do as Aizen says and die standing your ground to prove Aizen's beliefs. Plus you don'tknow him the way I do. And Nel is a loving girl…she needs forgiveness is all."

Ichigo rolled his eyes and made a face of distaste "You sound like your falling inlove with that monster or something. And as for Nel I don't have to bother talking about her." the ending credits of the movie scrolled across the TV screenas I hide my blushing face from my hormonal friend.

It might be that I haven't seen a human of the opposite sex in months other than a very pregnant Ichigobut I have been having confusing feelings about Ulquiorra.

He treats me well; better than Ichigo thinks he does. I might be caught up in one of my implausible scenarios I cook up sometimes but I can admit to myselfthat I have tinny crush. Last night I even dreamed none of us had any of our strange powers and I was on a date with Ulquiorra. He was smiling at me reallyhard and told me I was beautiful before it got all crazy with him getting into a boxing match with Matsumoto. She crushed him with her chest making her theworld champ and blowing kisses to me in the crowed. Why am I so incredibly weird?

Ulquiorra isn't human but to me he is just shielding himself from the worlds sunlight by thinking everything about it is just more darkness the way things arehere. If he could find the emotions and heart he must have had before he became a hollow and then an Arrancar maybe he could see that. All the goodthings out in the world he's missing out on because he doesn't know how they're supposed to feel. I wish I could help him. If only I knew how. But maybebeing a hopeless dreamer really is hopeless when thinking about him in the loving way I do.


We waited as another movie started but I was afraid it would make Ichigo flip out into one of his hysterical emotions. It was an American movie about a teenage girl who accidentally got pregnant and what she did over the months leading up to the birth of her baby. We were really quite the whole time not laughing about one of the jokes or talking about how she must have felt; we just sat there the way bunnies do when they are trying to hide and trick you into thinking they are rocks by looking small. But when it ended Ichigo was still quite so I started making us snack and handed him a plate. He just put it on the couch cushion next to him.

"I'm not all that hungry." he tried avoiding my eyes and I could tell something was bothering him.

"What? Your usually starvingby now, did you eat a lot before I got here?" I looked at the pile of food Ulquiorra brings to keep up to Ichigo's hunger but it looks like he hasn't eaten that much the past few days and his shoulders look thinner like he lost weight.

"No I don't really want to eat is all" He looked nervous and uncomfortable so I put down my plate on top of his microwave and sat back down by his feet.

" I can tell your not telling me something and you know you can trust me." I put myhead against his knee because the space on his lap had gotten very small with his stomach talking up all of it.

"When ever I eat or move around a lot I can feel it move when I do and it's kind of …I don't know how to explain it… if you ate a watermelon and that watermelon would kick you in the ribs that's close to how it is." he still was turning away from me but what he said made me really excited.

"Oh Ichigo could I feel it!"

He snapped his head around to look at me as if I asked to borrow his kidney for the weekend. I felt a little stupid for asking but I wanted to feel it. Ihadn't ever known a pregnant person before so this would be my first time feeling a baby move. But Ichigo had never let me see his stomach really so I don't know if would let me touch it. When we are in his room he always sits with a pillow in front of him and when we go for walks he stays behind me like he's afraid I am judging him.

I looked up at him and asked again "Well Ichigo would it be ok? But its alright if you don't want me to really I understand I mea-" he took my hand as he inched the pillow away.

"Just this once so make it quick."

He lifted up his shirt and put my hand on his skin that was silky with tiny red stretch marks covering it. Then I felt it underneath my finger tips. A flutter of movement and life. To feel it with both hands I moved onto my knees and put my face closer to his stomach and I could see a hand push against his skin like he or she were going to wave hello. "Wow" was all I could manage to say and he smiled the first genuine smile I had seen in a long, long time.

"Is it really that amazing to you?" I kept one hand on him as I answered circling it with my index finger.

"Yeah! I know this is something you never really planned on happening to you but think about it this is really cool!" I moved to sit next to him on the couch and lean against my close friend.

"Aizen might have put the baby in there but it's still your baby and you're still its dad Ichigo. Even though it seems impossible the three of us are going to make it home one day soon. You, me and baby are all going to go back to a new crazy wonderful life."

It would be nice if he believed a word I said but he probably didn't. We stayed that way for a couple more minutes till he decided to eat his weight in foodthen had to go to sleep. He still sleeps on his back but I bet he doesn't breathe very well that way with his belly squashing his lungs but watching his stomach go up and down as he breaths is funny. It's a big hill underneath his biggest t-shirt (which still isn't big enough to cover everything) that's plopped right on top of him.

Back in my room I found Nel waiting for me sitting on my lime green rug with her legs crossed. "Hi Miss Hime Nel has been waiting here for you. Nel's got

something real important to tell you .Come sit down." she patted the spot next to her indicating that's where she wanted me to sit so I did "Nel would this

have to do with what Ulquiorra told me about you were getting into trouble with Aizen?" she had bruises on her cheeks but seemed to have recovered more

science I had seen her earlier today. "Nel was only doing what she had to do to try and make Its- Ichigo less mad." She started looking really disappointed

in herself and she fiddled with the hem of her uniform "Nel can never forgive what Nel did to him. So if he hates Nel till he dies that is fine as long as Nel can

help him and you."

I always had the idea that she cared a lot for Ichigo and it showed in how upset she was over him. I remember being in this exact spot when I told her

exactly what she had done. She started crying as she slumped to the floor and the smile she was wearing as she entered my room was covered by her small

slender hands. Doubled over her guilt filled tears ran down her cheeks onto my rug making the color run to a lighter shade of green. At first I thought she

knew what had happened already but when I became she didn't I felt bad for the girl. She isn't like the other Arrancar I can fully believe she has a heart and

Ichigo stomped on it from his feeling of betrayal.

Nel told Orihime how months ago she and Ulquiorra had been planning a way for Orihime and Ichigo to get back to the world of the living through the

barrier. Ulquiorra would sneak glances at Sanzyel's reports while Ichigo was having his operations and yesterday Nel tried to take the files where all the

plans including the Hogyoku and Ichigo's child would be kept but was caught by Sanzel at the last second. She had enough time to read that the barrier

worked both ways of not letting Soul Reapers from the Souls Society or world of the living in but hallows and Arrancar could not leave either without Aizen's

using his zanpato to open a path. In the time Ichigo and Orihime had been gone not a single hallow had been able to leave but Ulquiorra knew enough

about Orihime's power to think that if she was able to get into the room where the barrier comes from she could use Soten Kesuu to weaken it long enough

for them to get through. And because if they waited any longer Ichigo would probably not be able to stand the trip it was necessary for them to leave that

night. Nel left a note where Rukia was bound to find it when she came to get Ichigo's furniture. The note told Rukia and the others exactly what they were

planning and to make sure they all were prepared at anytime for them to make a bumpy entrance at any location between Urahara's shop and the school

because they couldn't be exact about where they would be .The problem though was that Orihime was only allowed out of her room once to see Ichigo so

she couldn't explain things to him and it was unlikely he would believe Ulquiorra so that left Nel ,who reluctantly was left Orihime to go to Ichigo's room.


~Nel'S POV~

Nel stood outside Ichigo's door with her hand inches away from the door like she had done many times before but just couldn't knock. Ichigo had been the

first person she had felt this way about. A feeling of pure longing to be with that person no matter what and feel pain that for once wasn't physical but that

hurt just the same when she saw he was in pain. She had to push her self but she opened the door and stood with confidence as she looked into the brown

eyes she felt so much affection for but was returned with one of hatred. She is much more mature, composed, logical, sophisticated, and intelligent than her

child form but she choose to use the personality Ichigo had meet her in to keep their relationship the same but now she was reliving that it changed all on

its own from the moment they meet and she brought him to Las Noches. He felt betrayed by her but didn't care she hadn't known she was doing it at the

time but all of that had no significance right now. She had to get him ready to leave whether she forced him to go or he was willing to listen.

"Get your things together we are leaving right now." Ichigo frowned "Who do you think you are all of the sudden barging in here acting like you're my fucking

mother?" Nel walked in and started bagging his things "I said we are leaving and if you don't get up and move yourself I will pick you up and make you move

Ichigo Kurosaki." He stood up from his bed and saw her eyes look directly into his as she moved inches from his person "I will not repeat my self Ichigo I am

trying to get you out of Las Noches and if you want to go home it is best that you trust me." It was hard for him to get past the fact she wasn't lisping or

saying Nel when referring to herself. She was serious and called him by his full name again ordering him to do as she instructed "Why should I trust you? I

get that you didn't mean for this to happen to me but it did because of you and I don't think I can get past that. I protected you Nel and stopped thinking of

you as the enemy and ended up getting stabbed in the back."

He isn't listing to me and we are running out of time. There are so many things I wish to tell him but with him hating me so much I'll never get through his

stubborn head. She put her arms around his neck hugging him in the small moon light room feeling his stomach pressed between them. This may be the last

opportunity I have to pour my heart out to him and hopefully he will understand and leave this world behind.

"I appreciate all of what you've done for me Ichigo. You're my first friend for me to have in my life but I've found out things about you that have made me

want nothing more than to be with you forever and always. The way you're so compassionate or how you wish for strength to protect those close to you are

just two on my list. But I'm not sure that the relationship I wish for can ever be true. It may be that you are a Soul Reaper but you will always be a human

and what you are and what I am are never meant to be connected." She chocked her tears back not wanting their separation to be remembered as a sad

moment but instead as a new beginning that started there in Las Noches.

"I would give everything I have to create that connection. So if I there is nothing I can ever do for you at least this one time allow me to protect you, the only

person I can say I loved with all my heart." She could feel Ichigo's heart beat a bit faster and she pulled him closer placing her head beneath his chin "I don't

know why I'm so powerless to you but I am and I don't know how I fell in love this way but I cant escape and I don't want to Ichigo so whether you can ever

tell me I'm forgiven and mean it or not I still-Wait no I am still IN love with you. So please please leave me so the holes in my heart from your departure will

be better than knowing our baby is being used for something evil."

Ichigo had been standing with Nel draped around his neck with his arms hanging at his sides useless. They just swung by his sides not knowing if they

should hold her tightly back or push her away. No one had ever said they were in love with him till now. Sure his friends and family had told him they loved

him like the time he saved up to buy his sister Yuzu a doll she had been looking at for months and Karin a new soccer ball endorsed by her favorite player.

Nel said she was in love with him though which a different version of love was. It meant she didn't care he was easy to anger , sometimes hurtfully

outspoken or impulsive. In fact she was saying she adored all the negative things that came with being with him. But it donned on him what she said last

and he took her by the shoulders making her release him from her grip "Whoa what do you mean OUR baby?" Nel looked confused "Oops did Nel forget to

say that earlier Itsygo?" She smiled a big awkward smile realizing she had forgotten all this time to give him this important information. She started stroking

his orange hair as he put his head on her shoulder and laughed a little bit " What the hell is wrong with you ?You have to be the most childish ,air headed,

crazy girl I've ever meet you know that?" She kept stroking his hair happier than she thought was possible for a solider of Aizen's army "Nel knew you were

in love with her!"


I tried a love scene sorta thing so if it was chessey or something Im sorry but thanks for reading and remember comment comment comment please!