It made her chest hurt looking over at him, seeing him talk like that to the others.
"Ohh Mary-chan you're so cute~"
She had to tear her eyes away from the scene that made her heart drop to the bottom of her stomach, it wasn't like he was particularly doing anything just talking to the others but he was being a little extra flirty today and she hated it. Seeing him be like that with the others.
He's called her cute before but he was just always joking wasn't he?… she wasn't cute not like Mary, Momo, Ene or… Onee-chan. It made her terrible thinking back to those days where he spent so much time with her and feeling jealous, those days they'd spend together without her and she was left alone because Seto was working and their dad just hadn't been himself since the death of their mother. The one who she'd always counted on too be their for her whenever she was upset to help her from disappearing wasn't around having someone he wanted to hang out with more than her. In those days Kido felt like she was going to disappear more than ever.
No why was she thinking back on these times now it would just make her feel worse, so Kano preferred other girls, it shouldn't make her feel so hurt inside but she couldn't hide it from herself any longer she had feelings for him, she'd had them for a long time, feelings that go beyond that of friends but she knew he didn't like her in the same way.
It's time like these that made her remember her biological fathers words. You're useless Tsubomi, I wish you'd never been born, No one wants you.She never usually let these thoughts come to the surface and had pushed them far back in her mind but sometimes they would just crop up and she started to believe them, why would Kano ever like her.
Her hands curled up into fists trying to control herself and her mind, she couldn't look so down in front of the others, she couldn't show her weakness especially over something so stupid. Kano could never know.
But it was hard to keep her feelings in check. Looking over at the others once again she saw him laughing and smiling with the others then he winked at Ene. Even if she was a cyber girl it still filled her with overwhelming jealousy, she just couldn't stand to be in the same room as them all anymore and rushed out of there quickly.
Kido dashed into her room and immediately crashed onto her bed and cradled a pillow to her chest, her thoughts just wouldn't escape from her. Kano would never like her, she wasn't pretty, she was useless, he preferred the others to her the girl who just makes his life a pain, right?
It had been a while since she had last cried but silent tears fell onto her bed sheets, it hurt, it hurt so much. She loved Kano so much but he didn't like her in the same way, she didn't think this pain was ever going to go away, not ever.
She continued to cry against her bed then a knock came on her door from the person she least wanted to see right now, stupid idiot he must of seen her run from the room.
"Kido i'm coming in alright?"
Great, just what was she going to say to him…
