The waters crashed upon the bluff with such intensity, the loud 'Crowsh!' brought her back to her surroundings in the
beautiful coastline of Northern California. The sea soaked air was filled with the crisp aroma of seaweed, and she took it in deeply with every breath.
'What am I?' She asked herself, questioning her purpose and her drive. All was lost in that moment when she lost everything,
and everything pointed back to one person.
Castle.
As of late, her feelings for him grew violently passionate. She only realized this fully, by removing herself from the environs of New York, her home.
She shook her head in confusion, realizing that her 'home' was one big lie.
'Castle,
I'm sitting here writing this letter, thinking about everything that has happened. It's hard to put it all together.
I'm not as perfect as you may think, I'm flawed.
It's been so long since I've been normal, and having you around kept a semblance of normalcy. Or at least I thought it was.
I've been in this dark closet for nearly 13 years of my life.
I've never had somebody in my life that was a constant, and you were that constant.
I still don't know this feeling that I have stirring in my heart, the embers that became a roaring fire. What we are, I still can't define.
It confuses me.
I realize my actions were selfish, and I realize I may never get your trust back, but this time I need to be on my own.
I need to remove myself from this cloud of lies hanging above my head.
It hurt me that I did this to you, to Alexis, and to your Mother.
I don't know how long I'll be gone, but know this, I care for you deeply.
Be around for them, cherish them. Time is short.
Please don't try to look for me.
Kate. '
