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Kai's POV
'Beep……Beep……Beep……Beep……'
What was that noise? What was going on? Where was I?....Was I….dead??? But then how could I have a consciousness, I didn't believe in god or heaven or even hell. Although I was pretty sure if I really was still thinking after I had died, I was probably in that last place. I only thought hell would be a lot scarier and lighter, I mean, the place was totally dark.
Okay, so maybe it was more like all I could see was a sort of orange darkness.
……
Oh crap. I really am in hell!!!! What I'm seeing is probably the glow of the fires. But, where are the fires? And where is everyone else. All I could see was the orange/black emptiness.
Great, so looking isn't getting me anywhere. But the only other thing I could notice was the beeping and………pain??? If I wasn't mistaking, and I hardly ever was, my side was throbbing and my head felt just a little too heavy to be comfortable.
Okaaaaay, that's just plain weird. I always heard you wouldn't be able to feel anything in death. Or maybe that's my punishment, that's what Voltaire (I refuse too call him my grandfather) always said anyways. Maybe he was right after all. All I'm good for is to do someone's bidding (translation: his bidding), and seeing I hated doing that, all I was ever really good for was getting punished. Ah well……Why am I so cool about this. Normally I'd be freaking out. Just thinking about a punishment makes me squirm…but not now………..What is going on!!!
'Beep……Beep……Beep…'
That beeping again. Why is it even there, to annoy the hell out of me?? What is it anyway? And why is my breathing so…so….constricted?? It feels like something's tied around my chest to keep it from moving, … rope?
Wait…….that……sounds familiar. Rope, rope…..
Suddenly a memory flashed through my head…
'My arms had somehow ended up behind my body and I felt something rough around my wrists. Rope.'
The fight…the knife…they really did kill me………oh man.
But, there was something else. Something that was important…or, at least, it felt important, it sounded important, and familiar.
Sounded?
Yeah, there was a voice…shouting…something. It sounded hurt, that wasn't good. Why wasn't that good, I didn't know, I just knew that I didn't want this voice to sound hurt.
But…that was impossible. That voice had been there, I heard it, right before I went to this dark place. And the only ones I cared about enough for me to want them to be happy, were…..the BladeBreakers.
Max…..and..Tyson. But….their voices didn't match. So….the one…who had been there…..was…..
"Ray? Are you still up?"
Ray…….he had been right there. Why….why didn't he help me. He promised….They….NO!!!
"Yeah. Wanna join?"
I felt like I was going crazy. Why did it bother me so much that they didn't save me. Why didn't I want to believe they had broken their promise. I mean, I figured out I cared about them…but..I trusted them as well??!!! The knowledge I had just wasted my efforts once again was painful, very painful. It felt like my heart was being pried at by long nails, slowly tearing it down to nothing but loose strands of hurt and betrayal. Something I swore to myself wouldn't ever happen again. And that other voice. There was no mistake, Tyson. So he was there too, huh. Fine, If the-
Hold. The. Phone!!
Where the hell was I that I was seeing nothing but an orange darkness and hearing Tyson talk, and that second voice belonged to Ray…..Where the HELL was this!!!! Why the hell couldn't I see them, I couldn't even move. My body just felt like a bag of potatoes, a very, very heavy one at that.
What kind of afterlife was this!???!?!?!??!?!?
I wanted to shout with all this frustration bottled up inside me. I tried opening my mouth and shouting my lungs out…but all that happened was my mouth not moving at all and a very weird and tired groan making its way out my throat. That….was unexpected.
"HEY! Did you hear that! Kai? Is that you?!!"
Ray again. Where was he? I should be able to see him…right?
"Ray, what are talking about? Kai's still…..sleeping"
TYSON!! I'm going to ki-
Okay, stop, rewind and play again. I'm what!!!!!!
That can't be right. Tyson, you stupid mule, I'm not sleeping. I'm dead!!!
But, if I'm dead.
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.
.
Than why am I still in my body, feeling things and hearing things like I would if I were alive. Why is there this stupid thump in my chest and why does my chest hurt every few seconds???
"No! I'm serious, he made a sound! Come one Kai, open your eyes already…Please!"
Why did Ray sounded hurt again. Why was he talking to me like that. I was dead…wasn't I.
But, Despite all the memories, the evidence laid out in front of me was leaning more towards the 'alive' than towards the 'dead'. And what did he say…'open your eyes'……..Oh fuck…….he's joking right, he's fucking JOKING!!!
My eyes are closed!!!!!!
Well, that would explain the vast amount of nothing in my line of sight. I couldn't see anything because I wasn't even looking!! Nice going Hiwatari, your ability to notice everything is still there! (sometimes sarcasm works better than the truth).
Okay. So this is the test. If I can open my eyes, I'm pretty sure I'm not dead. How the hell that happened is a question for later, for now…open.
That…..was a lot harder than expected.
I had to actually put some effort in the task of opening my eyes. My eyelids just felt like two pieces of unmovable lead lying on my eyes (why hadn't I noticed that 'weight' before??). But, after three or four tries light was suddenly registered by my slow working and tired mind…a whoooole lot of light. So much that I kept on blinking to get rid of the stinging in my eyes. The voices around me weren't helping my still highly confused state, but, I had figured out one thing; I wasn't dead.
Next question; how the hell was I still alive???
But just as I was getting a little used to the light, two big blobs blocked it. Come to think of it, those blobs looked rather familiar.
"Ray…..T-Tyson……Ho-how……"
I kinda trailed of there, 'cause damn, even talking was hurting me. Not to mention the fact I sounded like an eighty-year-old smoker on a bad day.
But…my thoughts were cut short as one teeny tiny fact made its way into my head. Ray and Tyson, were now half on and half off of me, had their arms around me, and were hugging…me!!!!
Something close to a gasp left my mouth as I was momentarily paralyzed. I was coming up totally blank as to how to handle this. People usually hugged you when they wanted to show affection or to 'fool around with friends'. And somehow, I couldn't wrap my head around either of those ideas, they let me go, they didn't come looking for me, so why were they hugging me??? I mean, they didn't care, they broke their promise, just like everyone always did…right?!?!
Than, I could hear muttering, words…sentences. They became clearer and the weight went away. Somehow, this left me feeling……empty.
I realized someone was still talking and what they were saying sounded vaguely familiar. They couldn't be..talking…..about……… huh???
"… and she asked me what was going on and I told her and than the ambulance showed up and they put you in and we went with them and you were bleeding really bad and you weren't conscious and all I could think about was what you said before you left and how I really wanted to prove you wrong and than at the hospital we had to wait really long and we couldn't stop worrying and crying and when she said you were stable I felt so relieved but when she said it was a question if you'd wake up all that joy was gone and you've been sleeping for two weeks and I've never been so sacred before in my life……god damned Kai I thought you were going to die!!!!!"
I was still staring at Ray trying to process some of the information I did actually hear throughout his rant. What I understood, however, confused me.
They were with me in the ambulance??? Wait…but that would mean…….they'd been there?? Why!??!
As I looked from Ray to Tyson and back I noticed them staring at me as if they expected me to say something.
I decided to ask the one thing that was confusing me completely.
"Y-you were t-there?"
"Do you mean the park?" Ray asked me with a hint of confusion shining in his eyes.
Still a little dazed and not quite getting the confusion I just nodded.
"Yeah, we were there Kai. And you have Ray to thank for that. I mean, we all wanted to find you but Max and I had no idea of where you could be. Ray was the one who lead us to the park…….to you."
I could see tears in Tyson's eyes as he got to the end of his little explanation.
"Wait! Max!! I promised I would wake him up if something changed. I'll be right back."
That last part had been directed at both Ray and me and Tyson quickly dashed out of the room, to go get Max no doubt.
But one little word he had said made me feel angry and upset again. Damn, I hated painkillers, they always made your mind fuzzy and it was harder to put up a mask. They also made it impossible so repress feelings which was why Ray was now looking at me, and I mean looking at me. I felt like he could read my mind or something, and for the first time ever, I wish he could.
'Cause, even thought I know promises are meant to broken, it still hurt to be 'betrayed' by people you trusted. It still stung to know that even my friends made a promise and broke it, to know they didn't care.
.
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FRIENDS!!!????
Where the fuck did that come from???
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And that's when I understood. I finally got why it stung so bad.
I still cared.
No matter what they would do, what they would say, I had let them into my heart and now…they'd never go again. I will always care about them. I was furious and hurt, but I still cared. And that stung…real bad.
"I think I sorta get it Kai, but there are some things you'll have to help me with, I don't get all of it."
I blinked and felt something wet roll over my cheek. I inwardly cursed as I made the connection and figured that that had just been a tear. And somehow, Ray looked alarmed because of it.
"Kai?! I…" Ray sighed and suddenly looked beat. "I hope we're not too late, but…I mean, I know we were almost too late. But…I hope…that you get it now. We came after you, because we promised we wouldn't loose you. And when we found you…I…..All I could think about was what you had said right before you left. And…and all I wanted, the only thing I prayed for was…for you…t-to wake up a-and stay."
I felt my eyes sting at the enormously hurt tone Ray was using, I was also a little baffled at to why Ray had tears slowly making their way down his cheeks. I followed them until the dripped off of his chin and onto the sheets. My gaze then went back up and I looked Ray in the eyes yet again. He had now quickly brushed a few more tears away and stared at me with a determined gaze.
"I know we hurt you…I can see it in your eyes. But you have to understand that we didn't mean to. We never wanted to hurt you and we just wanted you to be our friend. Because whether you like it or not, that's just the way it is. You're our friend and nothing's ever going to change that!"
I was still staring at Ray slowly becoming aware of the fact my mouth was open, and so I quickly closed it. I didn't know what to say anyway.
They actually came for me??!! They found me and saved me?!!! But…..I…….They…….
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…..I'm confused……
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But….if they came to find me than that would explain why I heard Ray just before I blacked out. If they really had been there, and saved me, than that would finally explain how I could still be alive.
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As Ray was still looking at me pieces of the puzzle started to come together. Everything added up. All the things he had just said were true, or at least, the part about the accident.
But, if that was true than…the other part was true as well…right?!
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Holy mother of hell.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooo whatdy'a think *uses big brown puppy eyes* I know it's not one of my best and it was more a filler than anything else, but please...REVIEW!!!!!!
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