Look Up As You Walk

A/n: yes I write author notes at the beginning and end. Anyway finally updated! Woo! I try to update every week for both my stories…but I've been kind of behind? Huh? I don't know. At least I updated this one now! One update done one more to go!

XD! I think this is one of my shorter chapters. It's either that or all my other author notes in the other chapters are WAAAY to long...

Enjoy!

Chapter 4: Hidden Lies

It had just rained, but the sun was shining through. The air smelled fresh and crisp, but the ground was muddy and mushy. Showing how ugly the day could have been. But the lake, the pale raven was staring at, showed how beautiful the day could have been. His face was soaked from the rain and his tears, but he didn't seem to care.

"Sasuke…" The raven didn't even move at the call of his name. "Is it true? Are you leaving?" Still, he didn't respond. "I heard what happened to your parents. I'm sorry."

The person moved closer to the sitting form and sat down next to him. Sasuke could feel the heat generating from him, but feigned not to notice. He didn't want warmth. More tears fell.

"Please don't cry…"

The eight year old turned to the blond next to him to realize he wasn't there. Sasuke wasn't at the lake anymore, but sitting in a massive puddle of blood. He screamed, smearing his bloody fingers on his pale cheeks and watched as Itachi slit their father's throat. Itachi looked his younger brother with dead, unfocused eyes, as their uncle Madara was smiling malevolently.

"Bring them BACK!" Sasuke screamed. Itachi's eyebrow curved in angrily. He stood and pulled Sasuke with him to their father, Fugaku Uchiha. His eyes open and face as pale as ever; Sasuke's hand feeling the skin, it was cold. His uncle whispering in his ear:

"You see Sasuke, they're dead; they are never coming back…"

Sasuke woke up crying in his sleep. The sun was shining through the windows to show that it was indeed morning. He could smell Kisame trying to cook breakfast in the kitchen. He sniffed and looked up to see Naruto staring back down at him. Naruto wiped away Sasuke's tears; Sasuke closed his eyes.

"I won't ask you what you were dreaming about." Naruto whispered. He wanted to though. For the past 15 minutes Naruto has been up staring at how pained Sasuke looked and the constant tears soaking up his shirt. He didn't mind the crying, it just showed how human Sasuke was, and how robotic he wasn't. Sasuke tried gulping down the lump in his throat.

"Memories..." Sasuke mumbled, and Naruto almost didn't catch it.

"Hey lovebirds, breakfast!" Kisame said, standing over the couch. Naruto smiled at Sasuke. Sasuke stood up and avoided eye contact with Kisame, heading into the bathroom. Kisame looked at Naruto, and Naruto yawned. He stood up and took a seat at the table, staring at the plate of…eggs and bacon?

'Uh…" Naruto said. The eggs looked burnt, but edible. But the bacon, it looked like charcoal, that's how burnt it looked. And it seemed the same way in the kitchen. Sasuke joined the table as soon as he got rid of the hint that he might have been crying. He wondered sometimes if the same memories graced Itachi's mind.

Sasuke took one look at the plate and replied:

"This looks like shit." Naruto coughed on his drink and Kisame frowned.

"Well sorry I'm no chef…I have to cook, and clean, and make sure that your blood sugar stays low and this is what I get! A slap in the face, that's what! Oh and take your shot!" Kisame yelled, a little too overdramatically and stomped up the stairs. Sasuke rolled his eyes, he already did.

"Are you eating this?" He asked Naruto, and Naruto shook his head no. If Sasuke could make something better... "Hn." Sasuke took both plates and scraped the food into the trashcan and then put both plates in the sink. He turned on the faucet and grabbed some soap, and a wash cloth. Sasuke did most of the cleaning, so he had no idea what Kisame was talking about.

Naruto stood up from his chair and went behind Sasuke, wrapping his arms around the raven's waist. Sasuke acted like they weren't there. That he didn't feel the slightest bit comfortable when they were.

"Sasuke, I need to tell you something."

"Hn?"

"But not yet, can I ask you something." Sasuke nodded his head. He was a little put off that Naruto wouldn't tell him the first thing.

"No matter what happens to me, you'll still care deeply for me, right? And that if I change…you know I still love you." Those were some big words.

"Naruto, what are-"

"Just answer…" Naruto breathed against his ear. Sasuke turned off the faucet and dried his hands. He moved the plates to the drying rack and turned himself around so that he was facing Naruto. His eyes widened when he noticed how serious Naruto's face had gotten. He opened his mouth to answer, but the intensity of those eyes made his tongue not work, so he nodded that made Naruto grin. "Thank you….NOW cook something, wife!" Naruto was on the floor, rubbing his nose. Sasuke mumbling something about idiots.

Xxx

"You're helping me study, right?" Shikamaru looked at Kiba and Akamaru, the dog was already running in Shikamaru's house and gotten comfy on the couch. Shikamaru sighed, heavily and shook his head. He really hated being smart sometimes.

"So bothersome." Shikamaru grumbled and walked inside, Kiba smiled and followed the lazy genius. "What do you need help with?"

"Nothing." Kiba said. "I just needed an excuse to come over." Shikamaru smacked himself in the face. "You talk to Naruto yet?" Kiba asked, sitting down on Shikamaru's beige sofa.

"No."

"Why not?" Kiba questioned, picking at his ear.

Shikamaru didn't respond.

"You know I was straight serious about what I said on AIM last night, summer IS coming up soon." Kiba smirked and added a wink. Shikamaru blinked a few times before looking another way.

"I really don't have time for this." Shikamaru was about to head back up to his room so he could sleep, but Akamaru pulled on his pant leg. "Stop Akamaru!" the dog wouldn't stop, and Kiba was still smirking from the couch.

"Hey Shikamaru, do you know anything about Sasuke?"

"Besides being a bastard?" Shikamaru sighed. "Why?"

"Like?" Kiba asked, totally oblivious to answer Shikamaru's question.

"All I know is that he is diabetic and that's it." Shikamaru said. Kiba smirked. Shikamaru looked back at his dog friend, and seen the evil glint in his eyes. Shit.

Xxx

"Naruto should take about three of these a day, and we can have a therapy lesson…next…well how bout Friday?" asked the dark haired psychiatrist.

"Friday is good, thank you Dr. Shizune." She nodded.

"Anytime Iruka."

Iruka was at the Uchiha residence. He stared at the darkly colored house, and got the chills. He remembered being there years ago, and staring at a broken Uchiha. He shook his head, and knocked loudly on the door. When the door opened, he was presented with Itachi. Iruka wasn't sure whether to like this man or hate him for all the hell he put Sasuke through. Although he did change, more than anyone in this neighborhood could have imagined.

"It's Iruka, I called last night."

"IRUKA!" Naruto shouted and ran to the door. Itachi slightly smiled and moved out the way. Sasuke was sitting on the couch, with a glass of water and plate of eggs.

"Naruto here, it's the pills. Dr. Shizune says you have a meeting with her this Friday." Naruto nodded. "Has it happened at all, did he…?"

"He didn't get a chance too, he disappeared."

"Well, take those anyway. I can't risk anything. I nearly had a heart attack when I heard that message. It made it feel so guilty for not being there." Iruka said in a motherly tone.

"It's okay Iruka; really, all I think I needed was…"

"Naruto." Naruto stopped talking and looked at his boyfriend. "I'm going to take a shower." Naruto nodded. "Are you leaving?" Naruto looked puzzled. "To change?" Sasuke added and Naruto laughed nervously.

"Oh yeah…I'll come back to pick you up. I want to take you somewhere." Naruto said smiling and Sasuke shook his head in annoyance, and then looked at Iruka.

"Morning Mr. Um-"

"Iruka, Mr. Uchiha." Iruka said, smiling, and Sasuke smirked. Then headed upstairs, Naruto watched him, grinning. Iruka smacked him. "Don't stare at him like that!" Iruka yelled, blushing.

Itachi and Kisame were on the couch and looking at the television now. Naruto turned towards them.

"See ya soon." Naruto shouted happily. Itachi nodded and Kisame laughed. Naruto corked an eyebrow as he left. Those two were really weird nowadays.

The drive back to his house wasn't that far, it was about two blocks and then a left turn. Naruto seen Sakura, Hinata, Neji, and Chouji sitting on the sidewalk at Chouji's house; he slid down in his seat, not to be seen, and Iruka sighed.

"I don't understand how it is that embarrassing that you live with me, Sasuke doesn't seem to mind."

"That's because it's Sasuke, he doesn't care." Naruto defended. Iruka clicked his tongue and continued to drive down the street.

"Lying to them about where you live is one thing, Naruto. I don't understand why you just won't tell them the truth. You live with your homeroom teacher…bam!"

"Bam? That's not how it works…unless that bam is actually a punch in the face."

"They're going to find out sooner or later, Naruto…"

"Well, I'd like it to be much, much later. Like until school is over. I've been keeping it a secret for this long…" Iruka sighed while pulling into the driveway.

"I know, but you should learn to accept things, Naruto. If they don't like one thing about you then they aren't really your friends, hm?" Naruto rolled his eyes and opened the car door.

"Yeah, yeah, Iruka."

"Hey Naruto, you forgot something?" Iruka nodded his head toward the white bag, and Naruto narrowed his eyes. He never thought he'd have to take those dreaded pills again. He stared at the white paper bag and frowned. Iruka slowly lifted up the bag more and Naruto grabbed it quickly before turning away. "I'll be back later…make sure you take two of them, three times a day, okay, Naruto?" Naruto nodded and Iruka pulled out the driveway and made a left turn.

He sighed as he watched his homeroom teacher, then went to the front door and grabbed the key underneath the mat. It wasn't like he didn't want to tell his friends, it's just…he didn't know how they'd react, especially now that Naruto has a high grade in Kakashi's class and everyone knows that Kakashi likes Iruka. Naruto had gotten that high grade because he did his best, not because of living with Iruka. Of course they wouldn't believe that, now would they?

You have one new message…

Naruto checked the messages on his cell phone before he got into the shower. It was from Shikamaru.

Naruto…uh…what type of diabetes does Sasuke have? I think Kiba is going to do something tomorrow…and I don't think…: sigh: just call me back.

End of new message, to re-hear this message press one, to save in your voice mail press seven, to delete press nine.

Naruto didn't press anything. He narrowed his eyes and called Shikamaru back, leaving the pills on the floor.

Xxx

"Sasuke, what are you wearing!" Sasuke didn't know why he was wearing what he was, but he just assumed that Itachi wasn't going to say anything. And he still didn't. Ever since last night when Sasuke yelled that Itachi wasn't a father figure over him, Itachi didn't talk to him at all since then. "Itachi, you aren't going to say anything…"

Itachi looked around with a blank expression. It wasn't like he could see anyway.

"What exactly is he wearing, Kisame?" Itachi said. Sasuke was about to jet back upstairs, but nothing happened. Itachi didn't seem mad at all. "Kisame, if he wants to look like a slut then let him."

"Itachi?!" Kisame yelled. Itachi didn't seem at all fazed by the comment he made about his little brother. He just stared at the television some more. "You aren't…"

"Sasuke come here!" Sasuke slowly walked over. Once Itachi felt Sasuke's presence was close enough to him, he reached for his brother's wrist and used his other hand to see what Sasuke was wearing. "Belly shirt…little to high…tight jeans…but they are showing too much…thigh…" He moved towards his face, and felt the stuff on his lips and around his eyes. His grip tightened on his wrist, bending it back slowly.

"Itachi, you're going to break his wrist!" Kisame stood up and yelled, but Itachi ignored him.

"Explain now." Itachi's voice sounded unstable. Sasuke didn't care about his wrist or that Itachi was mad, he didn't have to explain anything to Itachi.

"I DON'T –SLAP-" And at the same time Sasuke grabbed for his wrist. He silently whimpered.

"Don't you ever talk to me like that, foolish little brother…" Sasuke tensed. "After all I did to protect you from that, you still act like a bitch. You still believe that those fucking monsters are your saviors!" Itachi had spoken. "Well you know what…you're fucking GROUNDED! No computer, no phone, no television, and you can't see Naruto a week after you're off punishment."

"WHAT!" Sasuke yelled. "You can't…"

"SHUT THE HELL UP! And get upstairs, I want that cell phone NOW!" Itachi screamed and Sasuke sniffed again, not looking at his older brother or Kisame. He went up the stairs into his room and looked at the black cell. A part of him told him to call Naruto.

It rang about four times before he answered.

"Sasuke?"

Sasuke sniffled, and wiped away his tears. His throbbing wrist placed in his lap.

"Don't bother getting me, I'm grounded."

"WHY?!" Naruto whined, practically screaming in Sasuke's ear.

"Because somehow I'm always pissing Itachi off…and I can't even see you after I'm ungrounded, I have to wait a week."

"FUCK! What the hell is Itachi's problem?!" Naruto screamed, and Sasuke looked at his door.

"Hn. I'm so confused." Naruto heard the change in Sasuke's voice, his tone sounded sad.

"Sasuke?"

"Forget it."

"Um, so I'll see you in school…tomorrow right?"

"Yeah."

"Sasuke?"

"Hn?"

"Please remember what I said earlier, okay?"

"What?"

"Sasuke, are you on that phone?" Sasuke heard footsteps.

"I have to go Naruto."

"I know…" Naruto trailed. Sasuke hung up and through it across the room before Itachi opened the door. Kisame, who was right behind him, looked at Sasuke with a questioned look.

Xxx

(Monday)

"Did you get the stuff?" asked Kiba, looking between Neji and Sai. Sai was smiling and Neji nodded. Kiba grinned.

"Excellent, Sakura or Ino didn't see you, right?"

"Of course not, I told Hinata to distract them both, while Sai switched his cupcakes with hers that she made for the bake sale today."

"Sakura always makes her sweets extra sweet." Sai added. "So who's going to deliver the cupcakes to the duck butt?" asked Sai. Kiba shrugged and looked off.

"HEY! KIBA, SAI, NEJI! What the fuck are you doing with my cupcakes?!" Sakura's eyebrows curved in angrily. She was about to attack.

"Shit." Kiba mumbled, and jetted. Neji walked away slowly the quickened his pace. Sai just stared at Sakura before smiling and handing back the cupcakes.

"STEAL MY CUPCAKES AGAIN AND I'M GOING TO KICK ALL YOUR ASSES!" Sakura shouted so loud that people all over the world could hear, okay, maybe not all over the world, but it was pretty damn loud. She snatched the cupcakes from Sai and stormed off, although she did stop when she heard Sai speak in a low tone: "I'd like to see you try" She slowly turned her head and narrowed her eyes at the teen who was still smiling like he didn't say anything at all.

Sakura continued walking with the cupcakes, frowning, then smiled.

"Sasuke! Oh my God, its been forever since we've been alone like this." Sakura said leaning on a locker. Sasuke looked at her and then grabbed more books out his locker. "So when you'd get here?"

"Now."

"Yeah, I've been here for awhile too…so…I made cupcakes for the bake sale, I just love sweets."

"I hate sweets."

"I hate them too, the sugar in them is so nasty, I don't even know why I'm holding these plate of cupcakes." Sakura said, laughing nervously. She was doing worse than Ino.

"Hn." Sasuke wasn't even looking at the pink haired person; his locker was kind of blocking her face.

"SAKURRAAA! Oh my cupcakes!" A flash of green appeared, and Sakura was looking at the bushy eye browed teen. "Oh morning Sasuke!"

"Morning Lee." Sasuke replied, shutting his locker and looking around for Naruto. He asked him if he was going to school, didn't the blond?

"Shut up Lee, I'm trying to offer Sasuke cupcakes…Oh my Gosh Sasuke what happened to your wrist." Lee gasped.

"Just like Gai-sensei says, the youth should never get injured…what happened to my dark youthful friend?"

Sasuke looked at both of them and shut his locker.

"It's a sprain, no big deal…" He walked away totally avoiding the question.

"OKAY! Bye Sasuke! I'll see you in class!" screamed Sakura. Sakura turned around, walking the other way, forgetting Lee. Lee just stood there and then ran after Sakura to get a cupcake.

Sasuke rolled his eyes. He didn't like Sakura; honestly, he'd rather be bothered by Ino sometimes. Sasuke always had a feeling that the only reason sometimes that Ino liked Sasuke was to bug Sakura; then again, maybe she was just less annoying around her crushes than Sakura Haruno.

Sasuke turned a corner, feeling eyes of others staring at him in disgust. He didn't pay any mind to them he was pretty sure he knew whose eyes were looking at him. He suddenly felt a massive pull on his arm and was face to face with Shikamaru.

"I have to get…"

"Yeah class, don't we fucking all." Shikamaru grunted out. "Naruto wanted me to tell you to meet him in the bathroom in like two minutes…of course he told me that like…two minutes ago -yawn- oh yeah and your welcome. If Sakura didn't find out who took her cupcakes…you would have been eating them…better watch your back, Uchiha." Shikamaru raised an eye at the bandage, and then he disappeared. He couldn't be seen talking to Sasuke. He wasn't Lee, Sakura, or Ino. Sasuke was stunned to say the least, but it soon passed as he realized he had a new destination to be.

He opened the bathroom door and stepped inside. It didn't look like anyone was in there.

"Nar-"

"Sasuke?" Naruto came out of one of the stalls and grinned. He looked at the raven and noticed the bandage, but didn't say anything. It was better not to ask Sasuke, who would avoid the question. "You didn't eat anything, did you?"

"Yeah…breakfast."

"DO YOU NEED WATER?! I'll buy one just in-wait…did you say 'breakfast?'" Sasuke smirked, but nodded his head. "Nothing sweet? No bugs…candy?"

"No, you idiot. Sakura got her cupcakes back…because of Nara." Sasuke explained and leaned on the sinks. "Bugs?"

"Kiba got Shino to rig the inside of your desk with cockroaches…I suggest you don't sit in your seat." Sasuke rolled his eyes.

"Immature freaks. If they have a problem then they should just fight me or something." Sasuke grumbled angrily.

"You'd rather them JUMP YOU?!"

"Jump?" Sasuke's eyes looked straight into blue. It sent a shiver down Naruto's spine, and not in a good way.

"Uh…yeah?" Sasuke smirked again.

"They can't even jump a fence. I'd like to see them get me into a dark alley." Sasuke replied. Naruto snickered and looked out the window.

"I bet I could." Naruto said while wiggling his eyebrows. Sasuke clicked his tongue and rolled his eyes. He's been doing a lot of that lately.

"We're not doing anything in this dir-"

The bathroom door opened.

"BASTARD!" Naruto yelled.

"Heh. Is that all you can call me, dobe!" Sasuke exited the bathroom, not looking at Chouji who just walked in.

"You didn't have to act, Shikamaru already told me." Chouji said. He stuffed another handful of potato chips in his mouth and Naruto sighed.

"Seriously? And you're…"

"Mad? Psh, no. I've been waiting for the two of you to get a long…but Kiba and Neji...I don't think they'll be happy about it."

"Have you talked to them at all?"

"Well…I was hanging with Neji over the weekend had to study, but Shika told about you and him on Friday…I was at my grandmother's house…"

"Study for what?"

"Kakashi's test today. You forgot, didn't you?"

"Hell yeah!" Naruto shouted, smacking himself in the head. All that time we had yesterday after Sasuke called him. Now he knew why Iruka keep talking about his math textbook when he got back. "Man, this sucks..." Naruto sort of lied. Naruto knew he'd do alright anyway, so he decided to change the subject. "Anyway, I think you two will be the only people that know..." Chouji nodded and smiled.

"You know Naruto... I think you should go find him instead of talking to me."

"Ah, Sasuke is probably already in class by now." Naruto said. "That or the other bathroom…besides Iruka said I to have to take my pills any-Oh." Naruto looked at Chouji, whom was waiting for Naruto to continue his sentence.

"Pills? Iruka? Naruto what are you hiding from us?"

"Uh…"

Naruto ran out the bathroom and booked down the hall. Of course someone had to get in his way and they both crashed to the floor.

"Naruto, get the hell off of me…We have to get to Iruka's room." Naruto opened his eyes to see that Sasuke was under him and frowning. Naruto smirked, and decided to say something lame.

"Oh wow, I always seem to be knocking you off your feet, eh?" Sasuke groaned in frustration. Naruto stood up and helped Sasuke up. Naruto frowned and looked at Sasuke, not without taking a look back at the bathroom. Chouji watched him, and then walked off, either to class or to tell Shikamaru. "Hey, Sasu, do you have water I can use?"

"I need it."

"Yeah, well, so do I…"

"Use a water fountain." Sasuke yelled as he dusted off his pants. Naruto didn't respond. Sasuke looked up to see that Naruto was rubbing his forehead.

"Look Sasuke, I really need to take them…or he'll…"

"Take what?"

"JUST GIVE ME SOME FUCKING WATER!" Naruto screamed and grabbed Sasuke's already injured wrist. Sasuke flinched and dropped his backpack. He whirled around and kicked Naruto in the shin. "AH FUCK! SASUKE! You really do know how to be a bitch sometimes…it's not like I'm asking you for 10 gallons of water."

"I want to know what's going on, what do you need to take?"

"Oh now you want me to tell you about myself. What about you? What happened to your wrist? What memories make you cry? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS A BASTARD! You always make it seem like you're the only one who was hurt…well…I didn't have any parents…I was an orphan until IRUKA TOOK ME IN!"

And the true colors all come out…huh Naruto? Is he the perfect little lover that you dreamed about?

"SHUT THE HELL UP KYUUBI! YOU'RE NOT FUCKING REAL! AND HE IS EVERYTHING I DREAMED ABOUT! YOU'LL NEVER HAVE HIM!" Naruto screamed and leaned on one the lockers. The bell rang, class already started. Naruto closed his eyes and slid down to the floor. He felt someone next to him, but didn't open his eyes. "And then I have to deal with him…"

Who me?

Not talking to me? It's not my fault Sasuke got you mad…maybe if he wasn't such a screwed up bastard…your love could be all puppies and rainbows! Instead you're trying to have a normal relationship with someone who isn't normal…to abnormal people…equal-

I will get rid of you…

Iruka gave you those pills yesterday…correct? And you still haven't taken them. Yeah... you're really trying…

I was worried.

Worried, because if you took them…you'd just watch as Kiba hurt him, and you'd have to suffer…because you couldn't protect him, you can't fight Kiba on your own. You can't fight ANYONE on…

Sasuke put his head on Naruto's shoulder.

your own. You're pathetic…you live behind lies. One day those lies will be your downfall. And then you'll want to change. You'll want to be me. And even more asshole than that bitch next you…

You will need me Naruto…once I'm out…you'll never go back to the person you were. No one will EVER look at you the same way again…you'll soon be alone…

"Here..." Sasuke put the water bottle in Naruto's hands. Naruto slightly opened his eyes.

"I think we should talk." Sasuke nodded.

"We're skipping?" Sasuke asked while yawning. Naruto nodded.

"Sasuke can you reach into my back-you're so weak…- pack and get –pills can't ruin me Naruto. All you're doing is destroying yourself- and get a white paper bag out." Naruto ignored the thoughts. They weren't real; they weren't coming from his head. They were coming from thin air. He closed his eyes again as he felt Sasuke lean over him and pull the white bag out and onto his lap. Sasuke seemed to be going into slow motion. Naruto opened his eyes and watched him; Sasuke's eyes were half open.

Naruto shook the water bottle, it was almost gone. Sasuke leaned again on Naruto. Naruto reached inside the bag and pulled out the bottle of pills. He popped the cap and put to in his mouth then opened the water bottle and drank some water. He swallowed the water with a look on his face, the water tasted funny. It tasted…sweet, a little too sweet? Crap.

"Sasuke, what did you have for breakfast?" Sasuke yawned again.

"Kisame…money to get waffles here…syrup…"

"Waffles have sugar with syrup too!"

"No duh, moron-yawn-but I wash it down with water."

Kyuubi laughed. Why weren't the pills working? Naruto shook his head.

"Sasuke, where did you get this water bottle?"

"Hn…dropped…cafeteria…" Sasuke opened his eyes slightly. "It's blurry…" he mumbled. "It hurts…"

"What?!" Naruto yelled. Kyuubi's laughter kept ringing in his head. He just wanted it to stop.

"It's beating too fast…"

End Chapter Four

A/n: I hope no mistakes! (I know I do...I'll go back if I do) I know another cliffhanger…and Kyuubi is making his appearance again! Oh nos! And what is up with Sasuke? Yeah…I have things to explain, huh? Anyway…

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