They never talked about it.
It had been a couple weeks since the incident, and Nitori was a wreck. Was he suppose to say something? Would Rin even want to talk about it? What would happen if they did talk about it?
All these questions rattled through his brain, and even though he truly doesn't know he still puts the same thing in his mind: No, Rin doesn't care. He's not talking about it because he thinks you're annoying.
This added more stress to Nitori, who was trying to deal with the pressure of doing good in the tournament. Day after Day Nitori found himself going to his medication for relief, and when the tournament came around he had run out. He felt like too much of a failure to call his therapist and ask for a different medicine that would help him not feel so anxious, and there was no way he was going to call his parents and ask them to refill his medicine.
Nitori thought he could handle all, but he should have known that once he started to have feelings for Rin Matsuoka that all his emotions would come running out and ruin him
The tournament was over, and Rin had made amends with his old friends and actually got to swim a relay with them again. For once in his life he could say he was happy and not lie about it.
But right now he was being reprimanded by the captain, and Rin always found Mikoshiba annoying.
"Hey, are you even listening to me?"
"Yeah, yeah," Rin muttered.
"You know you have to do something for me because of this, right?"
Rin groans, "You can't date my sister."
"That's not what I had in mind," Mikoshiba said, "And what the hell happened with Nitori?"
"What do you mean?"
"You're his roommate, and you don't know what's going on with him? He's been a mess these past weeks."
Rin sighed, knowing exactly why Nitori was acting like that. He wanted to bring up the kiss to him, but he had no idea what to say. Yo Nitori about that kiss, yeah we should do that more often. Rin was never been good with words, and he didn't want to screw this up.
"He's just stressed,"
Mikoshiba raised an eyebrow, obviously not believing him, "Go talk to him."
"Captain,"
"I will drag you there if I have to,"
Rin narrowed his eyes and mumbled something about the captain being stupid and walked away. He needed to find Nitori and fix this, but first he needed someone who had a better grasp of words to help.
"Makoto, I need help."
"Sure, Rin! What's up?"
"I kissed Nitori,"
"Go Rin-chan!" Nagisa yelled.
The rest of the group was surprised, and Makoto was confused about why Rin would come to him.
"I don't know why you're coming to me for help…."
"...I kissed him and he freaked out, and we never talked about it. He won't look me in the eye anymore. I wanna tell him I like him, but I'm just going to screw up like I did before."
"Rin you can't just kiss someone and then not say anything after." Haru said.
"Look it wasn't like that-"
"Haruka-senpai is right. Why didn't you say anything?" Rei interrupted.
"If you really like him is it really that hard to say something?" Nagisa added.
"I came here for Makoto's help. I don't need your input." Rin growled.
"Just tell him how you feel!" Makoto smiled.
No shit I have to tell him how I feel. Goddammit, Makoto.
"Rin-chan," Nagisa wrapped his arm around Rin's shoulder, "You can't just kiss Nitori and then act like it never happened. Can you imagine what's going through his mind right now? He must think you hate him or something."
Rin ran a hand through his hair; he was so stupid not to say anything, and he felt awful for doing that to Nitori.
"What are you still doing here? Go find him." Haru said.
"Good luck, Rin-chan!" Nagisa yelled as Rin left them.
Nitori had already boarded the bus and took a seat by a window. He closed his eyes and placed his forehead on the window in hopes to cool down. All he really wanted was to get back to his dorm and sleep.
"Nitori, I've been looking all over for you."
"Can we talk later, Senpai? I'm tired." Nitori closed his eyes tightly.
Rin sat down next to him and touched his arm but pulled away quickly when Nitori flinched, "We really need to talk."
No no no no I don't want to talk about this. I can't talk about this. "If it's about the kiss, I already know what you're going to say."
Rin let out a sigh of relief, "Oh thank god. I don't actually have to say it."
Nitori felt tears well up in his eyes and closed his eyes tighter to stop them from coming out, "Yeah, you don't. Now leave me alone, please."
"What's wrong? I thought-"
"Rin, just leave me alone!" Nitori shouted.
Rin was taken back a little bit but got from his seat anyway, taking a new seat towards the front of the bus.
Soon the bus filled up with the rest of the Samezuka team, and Mikoshiba made his way over to Nitori, taking a seat next to him, "You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
