Chapter 4: What to Live for?
As Subaru proceeded towards Roswaal and away from Emilia. Emilia tilted her head forwards onto her clasped hands and collapsed to her knees and began to cry. Subaru twisted his head to look at her.
"Emilia?" he looked at her confused.
"Su- Subaru don't go please, life was vastly more interesting since you arrived at the mansion, stay with Rem and Ram" she sobbed.
Subaru returned over to her and hunkered down beside her and placed his hand loosely on her shoulder.
"Emilia, I must go, there is so much I haven't seen" he told her tightening his grip.
"Take me with you then" she ordered him.
"I- I can't, you must stay in this country, you are a person of high profile, you lead a fine life her don't ruin it with me" he smiled.
"I'm nothing now, I have nothing to work towards, nothing to live for" she cried.
"Live for yourself, and if that's not enough, live for us. We will will be living for you" he proclaimed to her.
"I will!" she acclaimed.
"Wait for our letters, we will give you our address once we settled in some where" he told her.
Subaru helped her off the ground and with one hand on his hip he smiled and gave a big thumbs up. She smiled back him. Subaru finally went over to Roswaal who was watching from a distance and led the way for Subaru into his quarters.
"Subaru, you must leave Ram here with me" Roswaal demanded.
"What? You offered her freedom" he responded in shock.
Subaru knew something, he knew was strange of Roswaal to ask for something and even so is such a polite manner. Roswaal was awaiting his reply with blue tattooed white face. Now that Subaru looked at it up close, this world may be like an RPG but Roswaal really did look like a clown in his long purple tailcoat.
"Why, she seems pretty happy with us" Subaru replied after thinking for awhile.
"Do you really is truly happy?" he asked.
"Wel-" Subaru was cut off.
"Exactly she is scared of will happen to her without me to help with her health issue" Roswaal announced.
"What is her health problem" Subaru asked intrigued.
"A demon without their horns is doomed to die, especially after going into Oni mode" he revelled.
"Will she be safe? How long does she have?" Subaru asked nearly welling up.
"With my treatment, she will live as normal but twice a week she requires it" he told him.
"And there's nothing Rem can do?" he inquired.
"I'm afraid not, she must really decide if she wants to go with you two, for the risk of her life" Roswaal said with a sense of fear.
"There must something we can do" Subaru cried.
"I can perform a long-term spell but it will be painful, it may fail, she can never go into Oni mode again or she could die hence why I have never ever told her about it. If it does work she'll be paralyzed for a while" Roswaal told Subaru.
Subaru was almost paralyzed himself, he couldn't tell Ram this was an option is would definitely choose it and she could die. Subaru thought to himself but why isn't she thinking of herself.
"How long will she live with no treatment?" Subaru said thinking rapidly.
"No more than a year" Roswaal answered almost cowering his response.
If Ram knew this was an issue why did she choose to follow them.
"Is there any chance she knows of this spell?" Subaru asked continuing his questioning.
"No, it's my own spell, I have never written down" Roswaal answer deeply melancholic trying to think what Subaru was.
"Does she know how long she'll live without treatment?" Subaru thought.
"She may, or may not" Roswaal answer via telepathy.
"She is risking her life for the thrill I guess"
"Talk to her about it, if she really does want to go, I guess I have no choice but to go through with it"
"I will"
Subaru left the room closing the wooden door behind them. Subaru continued outside. The sky was clear, the grass was green. He walked down the stone paveway, the walk felt like a run around the mansion to Subaru, over at the carriage Rem, Wilhelm and Ram were chatting by the boxsit were the coachman would sit, for their carriage was Rem. Subaru started trodding towards the carriage he didn't want Ram to go against him and just stay for her treatment, but he wanted to go with them and also make her own choices. The three of them noticed Subaru slowly gliding their direction they glazed at them with the utmost confusion.
"Ram, do you really want to go with us?" Subaru asked as if he was obsessed.
Ram knew Subaru was asking about her health and missing horn, although she didn't know how long she would live, she wanted to go whatever the risk.
"My missing horn isn't a problem" she told him.
"1 year, only at most 1 year" he cried.
"N- No you must be wrong" she back away from him.
Rem and Wilhelm looked at their half attempt at a conversion in confusion. Rem had a slight idea of was going on but Wilhelm didn't even know Rem and Ram was of the Oni race.
"Ram please think of your health and stay here with Roswaal" Subaru said almost ordering her to.
"No, even it's only one year, I will experience the world" she cried.
"No no no, you can't do that, what will we do without you" he replied.
"Ram, please reconsider, I won't let you go" Rem told her catching onto the situation.
"Ferris surely he can do something" Ram said frantically trying to think of a solution.
"I wouldn't say so, Oni race is so rare these days someone as young as Ferris wouldn't even of met a demon" Wilhelm foretold.
Ram broke into which that could only be described as a mess, her dress was mucked by the ground. Subaru knew that this was strange
thing for the always strict Ram, he thought he would never see the sight before his eyes, Ram in a heap bawling her eyes out. She didn't want to die, but also she didn't want to be trapped in the mansion.
"Ram, it hurts me to see you like this" Roswaal appeared from behind Subaru.
Subaru looked at Roswaal in the eyes and slightly nodded agreeing with what Roswaal already had in mind.
"There's is another way Ram. I know a spell which will prolong your life but at many risks" Roswaal told Ram.
"Anything, please anything" Ram cried at him.
"Accept it as my parting gift and thanks for your service" Roswaal said holding up his hand in front of her as she was lying on the ground.
"Libera animam tuam" he chanted.
Ram began to scream with pain, a sealing circle formed around her on the ground, blood poured out of Ram's eyes as tears, ears and mouth. Ram entered Oni mode, and she attempted to grab her horn and covered her forehead where her horn was. Roswaal's fingers started leaking blood from behind his nails, he slightly flinched from the pain. Ram slowly got up and fell when trying to walk and spit blood on the ground. Ram suddenly punched the ground leaving quite the creator.
"She is also receiving some of my power, don't approached her" Roswaal yelled as Rem started moving towards Ram.
Crusch and Ferris with his sword drawn, ran outside to what all the commotion was about. A strike of lightning flew down from the heavens and stuck straight down through Ram's decapitated horn and; it along with everything else began to bleed, her hands were burnt from the strike and it went through her hands into head. Roswaal lowered his hand and the circle folded away and Ram collapsed unconscious.
"She won't live as long as would've if she stayed with me but close enough" Roswaal said looking down at Ram.
Rem ran over to her and help her up against the carriage and Emilia tried to stop the bleeding.
"We don't know how long she was going to live for anyways so we will never know how close" Roswaal continued.
Subaru barely moved after what he just seen, but he was slightly happy that Ram could come with them.
"Subaru, she can never enter Oni mode again" Roswaal told Subaru.
"I will make sure she doesn't" Subaru replied.
"Promise me you'll protect her, if she does enter Oni mode she will die once she leaves, and there's nothing Ferris or Beatrice or I can do if that happens" Roswaal reinstated.
"I will protect her, I promise" Subaru vouched.
"Now she also has something to live for, Subaru" Roswaal said as if it was the last time he was going to see her.
"She's not breathing" Rem shouted.
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