HELLO, MINNA! :D So here's chapter four. Wouldn't you think it's cute if Wendy had someone that she loves in the fanfic s well? Just an errant thought. But she still seems young to me. Lol. I've been trying to update really fast! But my foot hurts right now and it is injured. T.T So, I'll still try my best for you guys. So here's a part two of Failing at moving on. ;)
GRAY'S POV:
I so calmly stood there trying to be as indisputable as it is. She might not notice but I always anticipate her reactions when it comes to Natsu. When the idiot entered the guild sputtering nonsense about being excited on the mission it wasn't so hard to notice that Lucy wasn't looking at Natsu. She trembled where she was. And when the part where she said that Natsu was being funny hiding at the back of Erza she laughed. She was the only one laughing at that time. I haven't seen her so happy in a while that's why I was finally glad to see her precious smile. It turns out only Natsu can make her smile like that. I could probably never make her laugh like that. That's when I finally decided to dismiss my feelings for this girl. I'll just be with her as friend. That's all she expects from me anyway.
"GRAY!" The voice that I expected to hear for a while now Lucy, sat beside me with a troubled face. Without a warning she suddenly lowered her head on the ground.
"Hey, Lucy….what do you think you're doing?" Looking at her curiously. She just stared there for quite a while then fidgeted with her skirt.
"I'm sorry, Gray! I-I never thought that you'd feel that way….I wish I could love you….b-but—" She apologized and explained everything while lowering her head like that and it was just so cute.
"You don't need to explain. I get it. And I'm not mad at you." I murmured. She dared to look at me and all I gave her was a serious face. Then she began to cry.
"I-I'm so sorry, Gray…if I can choose…I will surely love you…but…I'm sorry." She held her hands up to her face and I tried to take it off but she wouldn't. It was really weird right now I don't even feel the least of the outcome but I was going to be lying if I said this wasn't difficult.
"Luce, trust me….you don't want to do that. I won't be even mad at you ever." I solemnly told her. She continued to cry and grabbing my free arm to hit herself. I just let her. That went out for a while until she finally got tired.
"I'm so selfish! I only did that so I won't lose you too! But it turned out I just hurt you more." She flabbergasted and put her arms around her.
"Are you feeling okay now?" That was the only thing I thought that was safe enough that won't make her burst into tears all over.
"Thank you, Gray. I swear I won't be liability no more. I feel like I've been babied by you too long." She concluded lying beside me.
"Hmmm." Was all I replied. And just by laying down there I felt at peace. I must be really stupid to tell the girl I like to move on and forget about my feelings for her.
NATSU'S POV:
I was glad that Lucy was finally acting quite herself. She's been acting weird lately that I thought she had problems that she hasn't been telling me. Happy decided to stay with Charles for now so that left me all alone on my way home when suddenly someone came running to me.
"Natsu-kun! " I turned around to see Mirajane waving at me to slow down.
"Mira…what do you want?" I asked her. She placed her hands on her chest catching up with her breath.
"It's Lisanna! She's throwing a fit! I thought you could help me solve it." She said worriedly.
"Let's go!" I urged her. And we ran back to their place. The first thing I saw was the couch which was abused badly. It had scratch marks all over it and the place looks like a tornado had passed. Then I saw a white-head sulking down a corner then I moved towards it.
"Lisa? Hey, what's the matter?" I crouched down and put my arms around her. Mira told us that she would look for Elfman and I only nodded at her.
"Natsu! You lied to me….you told me that it was only for Igneel's sake….but it's for Lucy-chan?" Lisanna shrieked as she pulled on the sleeves of my shirt.
"L-lisanna…..I…" I didn't know what to say. How could I possibly explain to her that all that mattered that time was that I wanted to see the Lucy I know back to normal. I never thought that she would take this hard.
"Lisanna, Lucy needed help back then….so I had to help her." That was the most reasonable excuse I had.
"Liar…liar..liar! It's more than that I know. Please, tell me you love me and that you care for me more than Lucy-chan." She humored. It was simple. All I had to do was tell her those lie so that she would feel better already but I couldn't make myself say those damn words.
"I-I can't say that Lisanna. You can't make me….say those." I finally muttered. Her face totally changed and her eyes widened since those were not the words she wanted to hear. She kept hitting me and I thought to myself that I would have never thought that she was serious when she told that she liked me. I always thought that this was only something that we played when we were little. Lisanna was my childhood friend after all. I cared for her….but not the way she wanted me to care for her.
"I'm sorry, Lisanna."
"Is it because you like someone else? LUCY?" She whispered. That caught me off-guard. Me like Lucy? Well, that hit a spot there. Why on earth would I like Lucy? RIGHT? Probably as a nakama but this kind os stuff I've never even thought about it. It's so corny and really girly.
"Lisanna…."
"Fine…I haven't been myself ever since you broke up with me. I've always felt jealousy and anger. This are not nice qualities to have. And I was even mean to Lucy-chan! I just couldn't help it." She said as she buried her face into shoulders.
"I don't know." Mira arrived shortly after with Elfman behind her. They both talked to Lisanna. Then Mirajane closed the door.
"I want to talk to you Natsu." She stated. I nodded and she led to the other side of the house.
"What is it?" I asked her.
"My sister likes you so much Natsu." I blushed at that and just nodded all over.
"U-huh."
"Do you like someone else?"
"I don't know."
"What do you think of Lucy-chan?" She asked suddenly. Why was everyone asking me if I liked her?
"Mira-san, I."
"You're confused huh? I see the way you stare at Lucy all the time. I've always knew that you liked her whether you admit it or not." Mira clarified as she grabbed my hands and smiled at me.
"I do care for Lucy. I'm not yet sure what it is though." I answered honestly.
"I see. I hope you realize it soon then. Thank you for helping my sister." I walked out of their house and thought to myself….do I like Lucy? I really am not sure how to clarify everything.
LUCY'S POV:
For some reason…I ended up staying overnight at Gray's house. I was on his bed. Last night was unbearable. He invited me to his humble abode and so we ended up partying all night. We shared stories about our lives and everything and here I was now sitting across as he ended up sleeping on the couch. Today was the day we went to Mt. Higerra.
"Gray, wake up!" I shouted delicately on his ear. He woke up with an annoyed expression.
"What the hell do you have to be so loud for?" He complained caressing his ear. I mumbled an apology and lifted him off the floor.
"Come on, Gray! Remember what Erza said? WE LEAVE EARLY TODAY!"
"Okay okay, MOM!" Gray bawled as he searched in dire for his clothes.
"Whoaa….where did you get a change of clothes?" He asked curiously staring at my newly fresh clothes.
"I woke up early and changed in my house." I answered.
"Then you came back here?" He asked glaring at me.
"Well, someone had to make sure you woke up right?" I told him as he wore his pants and looked for his other stuff. I entered his room and laid down there waiting for him to finish. That's when I heard a door bell ringing from outside.
"Gray, door bell." I shouted. The sound was making me feel restless.
"Alright." Gray replied as he opened the door to see an unexpected Erza tapping her foot with an annoyed look and Natsu behind.
"What's taking you so long? We've been in Lucy's apartment but she wasn't there. Have you seen her?"Erza asked as she invited herself in and Natsu followed otherwise.
"Grayyyy….who's there?" I asked peeking outside his room to see Erza and Natsu.
"LUCY?" Erza and Natsu hollered looking as surprised as I was.
"What are you guys doing here?" I demanded.
"We should be asking you that!" Erza shouted back. "What were you guys doing? Did you spend the night here?" Natsu joined in. I looked over at Natsu and decided to just act normally.
"Well, nothing happened ok? And it was already late so….." I explained stupidly.
"So are we leaving?" Gray asked all packed already. I looked at him and he didn't seem bothered by thr fact that I was caught here in his house nevertheless his room.
"I'm with Gray." I told them grabbing my stuff from his room.
"Well, okay…let's go." Erza still looked dubious but let it go. We headed off to the station and rode the train to our destination. I sat beside Gray and Erza was in front of me with Natsu beside her. I couldn't help but notice that everyone was quiet. Well, quite normal for Natsu who was punched again by Erza knock-out. We sat there silently.
"Wendy, was looking for you this morning. She said she needed to tell you something. She was rather eager." Erza told me.
"Really? I haven't talked to her much these days." I realized. I wondered what she was so eager to tell me.
"Yeah, that's when we found out that you were missing then you were with Gray." She stated. There was something off with Erza's tone that I didn't quite understand yet. We waited for two whole hours until we reached our destination in the town near the mountain.
"At last we're here!" Natsu grinned pumping his fists into the air.
"Are you alright?" Gray asked smiling warmly at me.
"I'm good." I answered back. Natsu glared in our direction for some reason and I saw Gray smirk.
"Are you people from Fairy Tail?" An old man appeared obviously talking to us.
"Yes. We are here for the mission." Erza spoke boldly shaking the old man's hand.
"Why…right….you may start whenever you feel like it." He said.
"Well, in that case the sooner the better. Please, kindly lead us to the mountain." The old man gave us our map and we started sooner than expected towards the mountains. It was freaking snowing and it was so cold!
"Lucky butt Gray! I bet this cold doesn't even bother you!" I managed to say hugging myself.
"Are you cold?" He asked.
"N-not r-really." My teeth chattered. Then suddenly Natsu kicked of snow everywhere and he suddenly looked pissed.
NATSU'S POV:
Heck. I should probably keep my cool but I couldn't help it. Whenever that icy bastard would go near Lucy I feel as if my head would burst with anger. I didn't really know why but it really annoyed me. Erza was leading the way in front and the two lovebirds were trailing off behind. I'd expect ice-boy would be in front but he escorted Lucy since she was having a hard time getting though the cold. I would have used my flames to warm her up but not with that jerk with her.
"I think we should stop here and rest for the night. We need to set up our tent before the cold kills us." Erza instructed rolling up the map that she was looking intently to.
"I agree! It's getting really c-cold…" Lucy complained. I didn't even realize that we were walking for hours now.
"Why didn't you use your spirit friend Hologum if you were so cold?" I asked her. She looked taken aback but otherwise answered.
"I-it's H-horologium N-natsu! I-I didn't b-because I w-wanted to save e-energy." I noticed she was really having a hard time talking with all this cold.
"Gee, Luce! I didn't know you were THAT cold." I looked at her worriedly. I doused off my scarf that was wrapped around my neck and tossed it to her. She caught it and look questioningly at me.
"Umm….thanks, Natsu." I smiled back since she was able to say it without her teeth chattering. And she covered herself with it.
"Didn't know you removed that thing." Gray scoffed. I glared at his direction really annoyed now.
"Whatever, popsicle. At least I wear clothes." I retorted.
"Really now? Not my fault there's nothing to SHOW-OFF there." He said looking at my body.
"Oh, yeah?" I yelled at him.
"Are you gonna help set the tent or rather get a serious beating?" Erza warned in a deadly velvet voice. And we did not need any other forewarn as me and Gray hurried off to help her. And that night we decided to sleep all four of us together. Since there was no way I would sleep with Ice-brain. So it totaled out with Lucy beside Erza followed by me and Gray. I complained as to I still get to be beside Erza and suddenly she sharpened one of her swords.
"Do you want me to help you sleep?" She offered smiling visciously at me. I told her a 'No, thanks, ma'am.' Then hurried off to sleep
LUCY'S POV:
I woke up early that day. I stretched out my arms and yawned. I cranked my neck over to see Erza, Gray and Natsu still asleep. I smiled over to them and took the liberty to scan the place by myself. I unzipped the tent and was glad to see that it has stopped snowing. It was still cold but at least no sign of blizzard as tiny droplets of snow fell. I scooted over to get a better view and sighed. But it was too cold so I decided to stay inside the tent and open the zipper to glance outside.
"L-Lucy. I'm sorry! Are you mad at me? Please, tell me you aren't." A voice spoke out of the sudden and I turned hearing Natsu's voice. He kept talking and giggling like an idiot for a while but relief crossed over me when I saw that Natsu was sleep-talking! It was so cute. I scanned to check if either Erza or Gray were awake to see that they were sleeping contentedly. I didn't realize that they were such heavy sleepers! After making sure I moved over to Natsu's side.
"You idiot. How can you ever make me mad at you? Warm as you are." I whispered squeezing his cheeks slightly. I never got the chance to look at his face for a while now. Since he was sleeping all signs of stress was removed. I have seen him angry, happily smiling, shy, sad but this was the first time that I saw him expressionless. He was always so energetic that I wouldn't get the chance to look at him better.
"Y-you're so warm." I murmured. Then remembering that I still have his scarf my hands automatically went for it and the reason that I didn't get cold at last night was because I was wearing. Now that I realized it he never seems to take it off. He says that it was given to him by Igneel and he wouldn't borrow it to me before.
"You know what? I've been trying really hard to forget about my feelings for you. I thought that I could easily ignore it if I moved on with someone else. The selfish me even thought that I could use Gray. But I ended up hurting him. I must be really stupid….. It looks like I won't be getting rid of these feelings soon. And now at least you're happy with Lisanna. You're happy right N-natsu? And that's all that matters. As long as you're happy….then I will gladly support you and with everything that will make you happy!" At that point I was finally telling him everything that has been built inside of me. "I love you, Natsu! I-I really do!" And I put my hands over my mouth at how stupid I must have seemed.
I looked over to the still sleeping figured of Erza and Gray and one last look at Natsu before I crawled out of the tent and ran away to get some air. And at that moment the sun has risen to it's highest extent and I smiled to myself. "Mom! I finally think I can get over him. Even though he will never know how I feel for him! But I love him so much Mom!" I shouted at the hills over the horizon my voice throwing back echoes. And I was finally at ease as I was able to release what was killing me inside. Sure it hurts when the one you love doesn't love you back but that's life. I'm sure that someone out there probably will love me back. I'm sure.
