Alright, this is my try at A Twilight ItaSasuFem, I am not sure what I am going to do, but here goes a try. It might be slow updates.
THIS WAS REQUESTED BY uchihalover99
Twilight
Not This Time
A month had flown by since the accident.
The first dream Sasuke had ever had of Itachi had been dark, and heart pounding. Itachi always seemed to be out of her reach when she dreamt about him, but in this one, as she tried to chase him she couldn't reach him either. Moreover, as she reached out to see if she could touch him, she found a cold mirror reflecting her image back to her. Everything had changed so fast that she had no idea what it meant…The reflection of Itachi, and her, every time astounded her. He was always facing away from her, but he was there.
Sasuke had started to hate these dreams more than the dreams she used to have about her mother forgetting her, or of her about to be killed. She hated them more than the dreams she had of her entire family dead, and being killed by a crazy psychopath. Maybe it was not because unlike those dreams that rushed fear through her body, these dreams of Itachi left her even more cold and scared than she could imagine.
Maybe she needed to see someone about these kinds of dream. It could not be sane for someone to be dreaming of death and blood, and then of mirrors and one hot male. Sasuke could have scoffed at herself for being so immensely stupid. 'Remember why you came to live here, to forget the past and to forget about…him' Sasuke bitterly reminded herself. She threw the covers of her body and got ready to go to school.
For the past month though, Sasuke had been asked questions about how she was and Sai had apologize to her many times to count. She was just glad everything was back to normal. She had even asked people if they had seen where Itachi had been through the whole ordeal, but Sasuke found that she was the only one aware of Itachi at all times. She always found that she knew when he was in front of her, behind her, anywhere he was, she just knew he was there. Sasuke also noted that Itachi was always either by himself or with his family. People also seemed to avoid him.
Lee had become a little more attached to Sasuke, Sakura was also always near her, but Neji was there to, but a little more hostile. It was more than clear that Neji truly disliked Itachi, and he hated Sasuke talking about him. Therefore, Sasuke had stopped talking about Itachi around Neji and that seemed to have settled the Hyuuga down.
Still, what hurt the most to Sasuke was the fact that Itachi did not look her way anymore. In class even, he would sit there as if she was not next to him. He had not spoken to her for a whole month and Sasuke felt like she had so much to say to him but played the part of also ignoring him. Did he think that Sasuke was incapable of ignoring him as well? If it appeased him that she did not talk to him, then she would not. However, silently, and foolishly, she kept hoping for him to take a glance at her again. Sasuke had given up the first week and immersed herself in her work.
Still, she wanted to talk to him very badly, but since that intense argument they had in the hospital hall, she had not spoken to her. Neither had he. She was now just grateful that he had saved her, and she gave up even trying to think if he had saved her. She would leave it up to her imagination to be that incredible that just before coming face to face with death; she had imagined Itachi there before her. And that was when Sasuke had realized that she was becoming depressed with the lack of interaction with Itachi.
It confused her though, why would she imagine Itachi of all people when she was just about to die. First, there was her father, someone she always had respect for even though he was not there most of her life. There was her mother who always held her after her nightmares and who would always sing to her so she could sleep well. Maybe it was because now she resented her a little. There were her cousins, her uncles who always gave her candy, her aunts who always squeezed her to death, kissed, and bit her cheeks with affection. Cousins she fought with and sometimes shared secrets with, even though she only had a few close ones.
Maybe she had never really been close with anyone in her family.
Now, someone she was interested in sat just a few inches away from her and she could not bring herself to utter a word to him. Even if all she could do was stare at him from afar, she continued on watching the snow melt and the rain wash it away. As far as anyone knew, she was just fine and she was content.
Although, Neji was the scariest, since he looked overly pleased with the fact that Sasuke and Itachi were no longer talking with each other, but it could be shrugged off. Sasuke finished eating breakfast, grabbed her bag and rushed out the door to her car. The day was cool and cloudy, but at least there was no more snow or rain. It was an easy drive to school. When she got out of the car, instead of staying in the parking lot waiting to get a glimpse of Itachi she rushed into the school building to meet up with Sakura, Tenten and Ino.
"Hey Sasuke!"
"Hey" Sasuke responded back.
"So, have you heard of the dance?" Sakura asked, "I haven't been asked out to it yet, but I hope I do!" She grinned.
"I haven't heard of it" Sasuke responded. "And I don't think I'll go"
"Oh, are you sure?" Ino asked, "It's always the talk of the school, it would suck if you didn't go" Sasuke shrugged.
"I'm not fond of dances"
"Ah" Sakura said. "Well, I'm going to ask Neji out to the dance." Sasuke smiled at her at that.
"Good luck"
"Thanks" Sakura said and then turned towards Ino and Tenten "who are you guys asking out?"
"Well, I want to ask Lee to it, but I'm too scared" Tenten said.
"Eww" Both Ino and Sakura muttered. Sasuke glared at them briefly before turning to Tenten.
"I'm sure he'd love it if you ask him, Lee is a great guy" Tenten smiled at Sasuke. She never understood why people did not like Lee. Tenten had always found him attractive and to be a real person.
"Thanks Sasuke, but then again when am I going to get the courage to ask Lee out anywhere" She muttered.
"Well, I thought about it long and hard, I'm going to ask Sai" Ino shrugged.
"So, this is why we are meeting here quietly?" Sasuke asked she was a little amused at her friends. Sasuke was not sure when she had started to believe them to be her friends, but Ino, Tenten, and Sakura were their own personalities. Sasuke still liked Tenten better than the other two though.
"Well yeah" Sakura said "and then by lunch we are going to have dates!" She placed her hands on her hips and smiled brightly. "It's a challenge we all placed on ourselves"
"Oh" Sasuke said, a little surprised. After all, she was used to seeing boys asking girls out, not the other way around.
"Are you sure you don't want to ask someone out to the dance and go with them?" Ino asked a little concerned that Sasuke did not want to go.
"No, it's alright, you guys have fun" Sasuke shrugged again. That was when the bell rang and they headed for class. Sasuke easily met up with Lee in her first class, since he was always eager to be there and join her. He had said that it was not polite to let a girl sit alone. Either way, Sasuke managed to make it through all her classes easily, and by the time lunch came, she had on her iPod and one earphone in her ear as she walked with Sakura. She noted that the pink haired girl looked down for some reason.
'Did Neji reject her? I would have thought she'd be bragging about her date with him already,' Sasuke thought as they walked into the cafeteria and got something to eat. Sakura looked like she did not even want to talk to Sasuke as they sat down. Sasuke noted that she sat far away from Neji and more near her than before. It only confirmed to Sasuke that Neji had definitively rejected her offer to go to the dance with her. 'What a fool' Sasuke dully thought.
Throughout lunch, Sasuke also took note that Neji was also oddly silent. Sasuke played with the sleeve of her light sweater as she silently started to eat. For once, Sasuke was not looking to make eye contact with Itachi. When lunch was over, Neji walked with her to class like he had recently been doing a lot lately. For a moment there, Sasuke thought that the silence was going to continue, but it did not. Neji decided to speak. "So, Sakura asked me to the spring dance"
"Great" Sasuke said, "You and Sakura will have a lot of fun together"
"Well, I didn't accept it right away, I kind of told her I had to think about it"
"Why?" Sasuke asked, giving her best-confused look to him. She was just glad Sakura had not been completely rejected. Even though it was disappointing how dumb Neji seemed to be. They entered class and Neji still followed Sasuke to her desk. She sat down as she looked at his face, he looked nervous and a little flushed.
"Well, I was wondering if you wanted to ask me, I'd go with you" Sasuke shook her head.
"Sakura asked first, tell her yes and go with her"
"Have you asked someone?" Sasuke noted how Neji threw a discreet glance at Itachi. If only that would be true, but right now she was not going to be a fool and ask Itachi out when he clearly did not want to even speak to her.
"No, I'm not going at all. So Even if you would ask, I'd have to reject you," Sasuke said pointedly as she set her bag down as she brought out her notebook. "It's just the way it is"
"Why aren't you going?"
"Because, I don't want to, don't argue with me. I have my own plans" Sasuke firmly said and before Neji could even get another word out Sasuke gave him a sharp look as she said "Now, take Sakura and have fun, she asked first"
"Fine, you're right. I'll take her," Neji said reluctantly, even though he was hoping to please Sasuke in any way that he could. That was when Mr. Hatake came in and Neji quickly scrambled to his desk. Sasuke sighed and reached under her desk for the English book, since they were now working on the play of Julius Caesar. Mr. Hatake said that after they finished reading it, they were going to have to create a play of their own and video tape themselves. They were going to be placed in groups of six. As Sasuke flipped through the pages, she felt Itachi's eyes on her.
She looked over to him, to find his staring. His usually gray and vibrant eyes looked darker but there really was no emotion on them. He looked curious, but Sasuke wanted to look away and ignore him again, but she could not look away. For the first time in one month, Itachi was looking at her again. Of course, that moment was short lived as Mr. Hatake decided to call on Itachi. "Mr. Uchiha" Mr. Hatake said, and Itachi reluctantly turned to look at him.
Mr. Hatake looked amused, wondering if there was something going on with both his students. Of course, he would have already commented that Itachi and Sasuke were probably married to each other because they had the same last name. Still, he was the known school pervert, so he decided to keep his mouth shut. "Sure, Mr. Hatake" Itachi spoke.
"Good, since we have all the participants, you can start Itachi"
"Act four, scene one, Antony, Octavius, and Lepidus, seated at a table" Then another student began to read as Antony. Sasuke sighed, feeling that the moment when Itachi had looked at her was gone. Instead, Sasuke tried to find where they were in the book and just kept her eyes on the book. For the entire class Sasuke tried hard not to look at Itachi. Still, the way his pale long fingers moved across the page caught her interest completely. She was like a cat placed under the spell of something that would not stop moving.
She was glad when the bell rang and she was able to pack up, and place her book under the seat basket again. Sasuke had expected Itachi to leave as soon as the bell rang, but that was not the case. When Itachi said "Sasuke" Sasuke nearly jumped out of her chair and into the floor. Still, the sound of his voice was familiar as well as something that pulled at her heartstrings. This was insane as it was pathetic, at least to Sasuke.
Slowly Sasuke turned to look at him, with reluctance. 'I bet he thinks he's so great with that perfect face of his, and his perfect everything, just because he's Mr. Perfect in the flesh' Sasuke knew she was thinking too much. "Are you finally ready to speak to me?" She asked, with a minor glare in her eyes.
"No, of course not"
"Okay" Sasuke said, "then what?" Moreover, why was he even talking to her right now if he was not ready to talk to her at all?
"I'm sorry; I don't mean to not talk to you at all. It's just that it would be better that way." Sasuke stared at Itachi's serious face, a little perplexed by what he had said. Itachi wanted to pull Sasuke into his embrace at her confused face, and the hurt and lost look in her eyes. Still, Itachi noted that just like him, Sasuke was good at pulling in her feelings and hiding everything in the next second, making you doubt that there was ever something there.
"What do you mean better that way? Do you think I'm insane for what I said at the hospital?"
"No, I don't question your sanity Sasuke, but it's better if we're not friends" Itachi said in an even voice "Trust me" Sasuke's eyes narrowed.
"Sure" Sasuke said as she stood up "Let's not be friends, It's not like we ever were" and she started to walk away. She could not tell what Itachi was feeling right then, but she was just glad to get away from him. 'It isn't fair' Sasuke thought bitterly 'I guess my wish to never get another boyfriend finally came true'
Bang!
The wall was kicked opened and left to dust "Where the hell could she have gone? That damned bitch!" A tall male asked as he passed back and forth. His silver long hair swaying behind him like sparkling ice in the hot summer air of the city, a city that never seemed to shut up. Another male was there with him and so was a female. Both watched him pace back and forth.
"We don't know, but there is no one at her old house." The female said, "There seems to be no trace of her left behind"
"Well then, we'll have to find the bitch! Whatever you do try and Find her" Then he smirked, a wide smile coming over his white chalky skin of his face "No, better yet, I will look for her myself as well. Just make her the perfect price. Because, she is going to be my bride, whether she likes it or not, she'll be my eternal slave" He chuckled darkly.
"Boss, I know that you were obsessed with her when she came to our all boy school pretending to be a boy, why are you still obsessed with her now? She isn't that great," the other male said, defiantly, as he glared. "Just let her go and get someone else"
"No" He snapped and then he laughed, "Because, her blood just smells so warm and tender, I can't help myself," The leader laughed again, "I'm addicted to her scent and her taste, I shall forever have her and freeze her for all eternity"
Sasuke silently walked over to her car, glad that school was over. She had torn the court today in Gym, since they were now playing basketball. She had needed to get her anger out one way or another. She was feeling a lot calmer now, but as she walked over to her car, she was stopped by Lee, who smiled brightly and shyly at her. "Hey Sasuke"
"Hey Lee"
"Um, I was wondering if you'd go to the dance with me?"
"I'm not going" Sasuke said. She knew that neither Tenten nor Ino had the courage to ask the boys they had set out to ask. Tenten was shy, and she was a bit of a tomboy. Ino, well she got into arguments with everyone that she lost track of the conversation she was meaning to have. "Sorry, why are you asking me though? A lot of girls seemed to be asking the guys"
"Oh, its girls' choice, but I just wanted to see if you'd go with me"
"Oh, sorry"
"That's alright"
"I'm sure someone will ask you Lee" Lee shrugged. He felt like this really was somewhat lame, but he was hoping to go with someone new, if not for the first time at all.
"No one really asks me out anywhere"
"Oh" Sasuke said and then smiled "If it makes you feel better, I'm not going at all."
"That's silly, you're pretty. You should go"
"Thanks Lee, bye"
"See you later Sasuke" Sasuke waved at him and kept walking to her car. She was glad that she was finally going to be able to get home. She got into her car, and sat there for a moment, away from all the voices of the students around her. Just silence and a moment for her to take a deep breath and set her head straight. She was not going to pull out until she knew that Itachi was going to be gone. She was tired of all feelings he stir deep within her that she could not name. Nothing had ever felt like this before or this hard.
She ran her fingers through her short raven hair and messed it up. She did not care. Once she felt calm, she turned on her car, the parking lot now practically empty and she smoothly pulled out. She then left and once she reached home, she decided to make something to eat. She needed to do something, anything, just to get her head off Itachi.
Damn, why did he have to talk to her!
Sighing and getting out every ingredient she needed to make just about any kind of food, she really did not have something in mind. By this time, she felt hopeless and just wanted to cry, but she did not. 'He must really think I am insane to not want to be my friend' Sasuke sadly thought. She felt a slow shiver slide through her body when she remembered his pure warmth pressed to her. 'Itachi is truly nothing like…him'
Sasuke started to cut up some vegetables for a light chicken soup. It was odd; how she had always managed to attract trouble to herself, back in the past, but it was all because she went out looking for it. She had once seen a boy and stalked him like a young foolish girl that she had been, but she had learned her lesson the hard way. Then that happened…well, she found out. Sasuke tilted her head. Yeah, Itachi was different.
Her last boyfriend had been cold, harsh, and merciless. He was charismatic and controlling. Itachi on the other hand, was more passive. He was charming, mysterious, brilliant, and so, so warm. Sasuke shivered again. As long as she had been in his arms, she had been safe. Hot and cold…
She looked at her own flesh of her hand. She was warm to, and so was her father, she was alive after all. Everyone was alive…her heart beat, her pulsating blood, her working organs. She was alive, and if she recalled, Itachi was just as much as alive. She could not understand though. Well, in the end, maybe it was better this way. She might as well end up dead one of these days, if he ever found her.
Itachi deserved better.
Sasuke placed the knife down, and then pressed her wrist to her mouth. This was all her mother's fault.
Yeah, she was better off dead.
"Sasuke!" Sasuke jolted, her hand slamming down hard onto the top of the table. Her father stood there, with shocked eyes. "What do you think you are doing" Sasuke looked down dejectedly.
"Nothing, just cooking dinner" She said, turning back and picking up the knife. "It should be ready soon" Madara sighed, and shook his head heading for the refrigerator. "Dad"
"Yeah"
"I feel trapped here, do you know somewhere I can go and just find a book store or something?"
"There's a library in town"
"I want a book store" Madara sighed.
"Just half an hour from here, a small town call mist has huge malls and should have a book store" Sasuke nodded. "Are you sure you are alright"
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
"Have you been asked to the dance" Madara was overprotective of his little girl, but he gave her leeway if need be. Sasuke laughed.
"Yeah, I rejected them all though"
"That's my little girl," Madara said proudly as he placed his drink on the table. Sasuke rolled her eyes.
"Hey, I can date whenever I want"
"I never said you couldn't" and with that he went to go sit in the couch and wait for dinner. Sasuke sighed. She kept cutting up the vegetables. News around here spread fast and it seemed her father was well informed on school events. She was just glad her father did not mind her rejecting every single boy that came her way. In fact, he encouraged it. 'Wish he would have been there when I met…him'
The next day at school Sasuke had been rushing that she ended up bumping into Itachi. Sasuke was startled when her heart nearly jumped out of her chest. It was odd, to feel like her soul was being sucked out every time she came into the slightest of contact with Itachi. Moreover, because she gasped and jolted back, the books in her arms ended up scattering around her.
This is the person she was trying to avoid, the reason she came late, and here he was…holding her books in front of her already. "Wha…how did you..."
"What's wrong Sasuke?" There was a smile in his voice.
"My books fell, how did you get them so fast" Itachi shrugged, and then smirked.
"Are you hallucinating again Sasuke" Sasuke felt anger rise in her; it was as if he was playing with her mind!
"Well, when I bumped into you right now, you were pretty solid for a hallucination, Itachi" She remarked.
"Look, Sasuke, it's not my fault you don't look at where you are going"
"Who says I'm not looking at where I am going, you are the one appearing out of nowhere just to bug me"
"Why would I want to bug you?" Itachi asked and Sasuke gave him a sharp glare. Itachi sighed, and crossed his arms. Something told him Sasuke was about to come back with a nasty remark to him.
"Aren't you supposed to be pretending I don't exist? Instead of bothering me and talking to me right now?"
"I'm not pretending you don't exists" Itachi defied; there was something about Sasuke that brought a childish side to him. Sasuke glared. She side stepped him and intended to leave Itachi just standing there, but he grabbed her hand, "Wait" he said once again making her heart jump. She turned towards him, and snapped.
"What?"
"You're books" She stared at him, blinked and Itachi was amused by how her eyes then focused on her books as if she just remembered them.
"Oh" Sasuke shook her head "Sorry" she grabbed her books from him. She felt a bit embarrassed and that was new for her. She never felt embarrassed before. "And thanks for getting my books" She looked up at him to meet his eyes.
"No problem, besides, I wanted to ask you something" Sasuke stared at him, captivated by Itachi's incredible eyes.
"Why would you want to ask me anything?"
"Please, just listen and don't question" Sasuke sighed and then nodded her head.
"Sure, alright, what is it?"
"I was wondering if next week, Saturday, if you'd go out on a date with me" Sasuke's eyes widened as she stared at Itachi in complete disbelief.
"Date?" she repeated, and then quickly said, "You are joking around, aren't you?" she was looking down again, unable to believe that her own cheeks had flushed. She was trying hard to will the redness in her cheeks away. She did not want him to know how she felt yet!
"Do you hate me Sasuke?"
"Of course not! You are being ridiculous," Sasuke automatically said looking up at him with more confidence, but then bit her lower lip and looked to the side. "Still can't figure you out though, we can't be friends, but you want to date?"
"Well, yeah, being friends is a lot more different from being my girlfriend, and there's nothing wrong with being friends. I just want to make sure that you know who you want to become friends with" He reached out and touched the front bang from Sasuke's face "I can't seem to stay away from you, Sasuke" he whispered and then crossed his arms again and the bell rang. Sasuke stood there frozen before him before she turned away. Itachi arched an eyebrow; sure, that he had caught a smile.
"Sorry, I got plans already, maybe next time," Sasuke, said, then she looked over her shoulder. Itachi swore her eyes were laughing at him, but he did not understand why. Smart was all Itachi could think.
"See you in class, Sasuke"
He smirked. Sasuke was something out of this world, and he wanted to know more.
Sasuke on the other hand, sighed. Her heart was pounding so loudly in her ears. She already could not wait for English class and see him again.
Well, my computer is back, class is hell, and well. Im trying to get back in the flow of writing my stories. Hope this wasn't to bad, for my return lol. Ah well. See you guys!
