Heres chapter 4! enjoy!
be warned, this chapter contains rape!
Up In Flames
I was sitting there just enjoying my high. When I heard a small knock on my bedroom door.
"Bella, can I come in?" came the voice of my little sister Ashley. She had just turned 7.
I pulled down my sleeve and put my 'friends' away. "Sure. What's up?" I ask her as she sits on my bed.
"Mom told me to tell you that Jerry is coming over for dinner tonight." She told me while looking at one of my books. "Can you read this one to me? It looks funny."
My body froze. Who was coming over? What did she just say? Jerry? WHAT THE FUCK? Why was he coming here? It's been years since he's been here. Why is he coming now?
"Oh and mom said he's staying for a few days till he finds a new house." She said while getting up. "And she wants you to get the guest bedroom set up. And to clean up your bathroom, you have to share with him." With that she made her way out of my room and back down stairs.
So now he was staying with us? In the room across from mine? On the adick floor? Where it will be just me and him. While my parents and little sister, are down on the second floor? A whole empty floor of my house between us? Just perfect!
I just sat there staring at nothing. 20 minutes later my mom came up to see if I had done what I was asked to do.
"Bella, can't you at least try and help me out every now and then? I have so much to do already and you're just adding to it! You better start helping out this family and get rid of this attitude. I'm sick of it!" she slammed my door, and went to go make up the guest room.
About an hour later Ashley came back up to tell me dinner was ready. I walked down with her and took my seat beside her, and sat across from the devil. All throughout dinner a pleasant conversation was held. From what I could tell my parents didn't tell him about my misdeeds.
After dinner everyone gathered in the family room and watched some TV. I listened to my iPod while coloring with Ashley. Eventually it was Ashley's bed time. I took her to her room and got her in bed. I told her to lock her door and not to open it until morning. She questioned me, but I told her it was the best thing to do if she didn't want the boogie man to get her. And she believed me.
Once I got to my room I decided to take a hot shower to take my mind off things and relax. I was in there for over an hour. Just letting the hot water burn me as I let my mind wander. Ashley was my main priority in this house. I would never let anything happen to her. I would die for her. And I defiantly don't want her to turn out like me. So I basically have to protect her from everyone including myself.
I got dressed in a tank and boxers and made my way to bed grabbing my iPod. I put it on pretty loud and snuggled in to my blankets and fell asleep.
When I woke up it was 2 in the morning and Jerry was standing at the end of my bed. I was scared. I haven't been in this situation for 3 years. And now, it was going to happen again. I backed up in my bed, my back hitting the wall my bed was up against. He came toward me and reached out and touched my hair. He closed his eyes and let out a small moan. He grabbed my hand and pulled it towards the bulge in his pants.
"Do you see what you do to me little Bella? do you feel it? You still have the same affect on me as you did when you were 8." Whit that said he pushed me down on my bed and got on top of me. I was fighting. I didn't want this.
"Please! NO! DON'T!" I yelled as he held my hands above my head in one hand while his other hand was exploring my now developed body.
"SHhhhh, you've grown in to such a beautiful young woman. I'm glad I had you first." He pulled my boxer shorts down, exposing my lower half completely to him. He ripped away my tank-top and got to work on his own clothes.
At this point I was crying. I don't understand why he had to come back into my life. I don't know why he hurt me the way he did. And I surely don't know why my parents trust him to be around their daughters.
He wedged himself in-between my legs and thrust forward. As always pain shot through me. Not once in my life have I had consensual sex. It's always been rape, and it's always been him.
He was rough, and he didn't give me time to adjust, he just kept going, in out, in out. He picked up his pace, while one of his hands found my breast and squized my nipple hard and pulled. It felt like he was trying to rip it from my body.
It felt like he was on me for hours. When it was really only 20 minutes. He got off of me and gave me a kiss on the lips before he went back to his room. I laid there till I was sure he wasn't coming back. I slowly got up and made my way to the bathroom. A soon as I got in there I shut and locked the door. I sunk down to the floor and cried. I wish I had a lock on my door. My parents didn't trust me enough for one.
I sat there crying for a while, but decided I need to shower again. And this filth off of me.
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