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Reid shuffled in unwillingly, the last place he wanted to be was at a hospital, the last person he wanted to see in this state was Penelope but he sucked in a breath, closed the door, and took the still warm seat, as he sat there he contemplated taking her hand and decided he'd be stronger not taking it so instead he looked over her face, the one that usually held a smile, the one that was now cut up and angrily covered in bruises.
'You do realise you're like the big sister I never had Garcia. The one that's just there, whether or not we ask, or at first don't want you, you're there and I can't live without that. I'm sure you've heard that from Hotch and Emily so far but it's true, you're such a dynamic being to us all, and you're good at stress relieving. Each day one quarter of a million people are off work due to stress, but not us, no, not the BAU team and that's because of you Penelope. Stress doesn't have time to build up for us because you're always there to defuse it from our systems even if it is over the phone.' He found his hand nearing her hand but was too scared to take it so retreated to his comfort zone. 'Most people dread going to work like ours because stress gets too much for them cope but I love it, I always want to know what you're going to come out with and you never disappoint.'
'I don't want to go to work if you aren't there Pen, I really don't.' He said and found his hand in hers as he felt like a little boy all over again. 'I mean, who's going to enjoy my physic magic? Or allow me to be my age when I want to be? Or embrace my stupid facts even though you don't care? I need all of them. They're a comfort me. It was like when I got that anthrax poisoning and I rang and you weren't your normal self, you were far from it and that scared me, I promised to come back and you gave me a little joke and settled back to being you, you never disappoint.'
Reid then let his eyes wonder. 'Why didn't we just shove you and Derek together? You wouldn't be here, you wouldn't have been in the situation with Battle either, you would've been with Derek and happy, less drama. I want you two happier and if you skip out you drag us all with you Penelope, and Derek isn't going to get back up, he needs you just like we all do.' He sucked in a shaky breath. 'It's all selfish traits but you haven't been that talkative to us these last couple of days, you need to come back to us and tell us what you want from life, what makes you tick, how we can make you happy. I want my big sister back.' He finally admitted and stood and then left.
