The Imprint Of Love Chapter 4
By HPFangirl71
A/N: So far this fic has been about feelings and character exploration, sorry if you were hoping for more smut but I decided to delve into the characters inner feelings more with this story instead of my usual smuttiness!! I do hope though that everyone enjoys it and I'm sure that sometime soon we will get to some smutty goodness!! Thanks for sticking with me and reading this story!!
Compromise… It was the key to their relationship now. Somewhere between friendship and lovers was their purgatory. Jacob wished for more than friendship while Renesmee battled her feelings for Jacob. She was hesitant to call them love. They had decided to continue as friends but had agreed to a more intimate physical contact. Nessie enjoyed Jake's kisses, yet they also frightened her and sometimes made her uncomfortable. This made their peaceful purgatory flame up into an unbearable hell.
A couple months had passed since Jacob had come home. His relationship with Nessie had changed drastically. It felt more intimate, yet at times he felt her pulling back from him. It frustrated him incredibly.
Their physical contact was also hard on Jacob. The way Nessie's body made him feel filled Jacob with guilt. He knew she wasn't ready yet it was hard for him to stop. He finally understood how Edward had felt with Bella. Always wanting something you couldn't have. Constantly being careful and in control. He sometimes felt like Nessie was teasing him, but he knew she was only innocent to his desires. She would be the death of him yet...
Renesmee found her relationship with Jacob to be confusing. They were just friends, yet they shared a level of physical contact and emotional intimacy that was often shared by lovers. She couldn't bear it whenever Jacob wasn't around but was frightened to place a name on her feelings for him. She enjoyed his kisses. They both frightened and excited her. She sometimes wondered about letting the kisses go further. This thought had upset her father when he'd seen it in her mind. He had promptly insisted that her mother talk to her about things like morality, propriety, and self respect. He had also banned Jacob from the house after midnight. She vowed never again to think such thoughts around her father in case he were listening in.
Jacob understood that Bella and Edward were only acting in their daughter's best interest. It hurt him though to know they didn't trust him, especially Bella. He needed them to realize he had only good intentions towards Nessie even if his libido sometimes disagreed. His private fantasies would never get the best of him. He was in control and would never allow Nessie to do anything she'd regret later. His fantasies would only come true if Nessie was truly ready for them to. Right now she was too confused to make that kind of physical commitment and Jacob understood that.
The time had come… the time they had long dreaded. Bella and Edward had known that someday the effects of the wolf imprint would culminate in this. Jacob's feelings for their daughter were no longer simply platonic. Jacob's intentions towards Renesmee were always clearly defined. The wolf imprint gave him no choice. They had often wondered if Renesmee still deserved a choice. That's why they had denied her knowledge of the imprinting. They were very protective of their only child and knew of only way to insure her a true choice in the matter…
It was an unusually sunny day for Forks. Jacob and Renesmee were strolling hand in hand along La Push beach. They walked along in silence, each lost deep in thought. Jacob was thinking about how good it was to be alone with Nessie. Far away from the prying eyes of the other Cullen vampires. Renesmee was thinking about something far more serious. She had something to tell Jacob and was dreading how he was going to react. She was hesitant to bring up the subject but knew she had no choice.
Finally, she broke the silence. "Jacob, we need to talk about something…" He stopped in mid step and turned to face her. She looked serious which worried him. "What is it Ness? What's wrong?" he questioned. She looked away, afraid to face his gaze knowing what she was about to do to him. "I got a letter last week. Nehuel's coming for another visit… he'll be here in a couple days.", she blurted out. Jacob let go of her hand and started to back away. Hesitantly she looked up… his face was filled with anger, his fists were tightly clenched. She met his gaze which was stormy and full of hurtful rage. She knew he was trying hard not to phase, especially with her so close. "Jacob, please calm down. We need to talk about this…" she whispered quietly knowing it was in vain.
Jacob could feel the heat rising within. The rage inside was hard to control but he willed himself to try. How could Nessie have kept this from him? She knew the difficulty he had concerning her friendship with Nehuel. Jacob took in a deep breath, trying desperately to calm himself.
He wanted to be supportive of Nessie but he felt such a jealous rage inside. He felt threatened by Nehuel. He wanted Nessie as much as Jacob himself did. This thought frightened Jacob. Why did he have to come now? When Jacob was making such progress in his relationship with her… Jacob knew Nehuel would be competition and that was the last thing he needed. Especially from another half human vampire. Nehuel and Nessie were one and the same, how on earth could Jacob compete with that…?
