Note: Third prompt of Nalu week! I don't own Fairy Tail. Sorry for grammar/spelling mistakes. I don't own Black Veil Bride. Enjoy!
How? was all he could think of when he saw her again. She had black leather jacket with tight black skinny jeans with black combat boots, and a black crop top with a band named Black Veil Bride. She had piercings trailing up her ears. She wore black makeup, and she dyed the tips of her hair black. It was like she had a transformation.
What had happened to her while she was away? What happened to the sweet little Lucy? The one who was so bubbly, and would wince at the slightest of cuts. The one who loved wearing bright colors, and loved to smile.
When he asked her what happened, she would only reply with, "Life changes us," and in a monotoned voice too. Her eyes didn't have the happiness that they used to have, now they were a dull brown. She had this pained look in her eyes, she always smiled a fake smile.
I seen her with her friends, and I saw that happiness in her eyes, even if it was just for a moment, I was going to make that happiness come back into the life of her eyes. I had to, after all I love that girl.
I loved her for a long time, ever since we became close friends when we were fifteen, I felt a connection towards her. I felt the racing of my heart, and how my hands would get sweaty. Man, how my face would flush when she smiled or touched me.
But, what happened in a year that would change her whole life, and break the happiness she held? I was determined to find the answers I needed to bring the happiness back to her. Gray and Gajeel would always tease me about her, and then, I would tease them back about Juvia/Levy.
I knew they noticed the quick change of her when she first came back after all that time. Gajeel considered Luce a sisterly figure, also Gray too, but when they saw her, they were utterly crushed. But, what I felt when I saw her was a broken heart, and determination to seek out what did this to her.
I confronted her about it, but she didn't say anything but, "You'll have to get into the walls again, if you would want to know," then smiled a smile that didn't reach her eyes. She walked away, and went to sit with Levy, Erza, Cana, and Juvia.
I was trying to break down the walls she set up again, and I knew it worked since she started talking back more when I tried to talk to her.
Dam, I thought to myself after realizing Natsu had broken down a wall I put up. I knew that I couldn't hide behind these ways forever, but I didn't want him to discover. I didn't want to get hurt again, I didn't want to experience that pain I felt.
I knew he was going to get in, he was Natsu, the dumb idiot, never giving up bastard, carefree, and happy person. I was happy once, before that incident changed me for good. I hated myself for not being strong enough.
I laugh a broken laugh, and curse myself for being so weak, so pathetic. I knew I could never go back to being who I used to be. I check my wrist, and see the scars. The pain that I inflicted on myself because I needed to feel this, for what I did.
I needed to repent on my sins, the thing I did that caused that. I shook my thoughts of that away, it was too painful to remember it. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes, and so, I willed them away. They gone away eventually, and I felt myself sigh in relief.
I couldn't cry here, no, not here, I can't cry in front of other people. It would make me look weak, and the weak were useless. Juvia, Levy, Cana, and Erza were the only ones that knew about that, my pain resulted from that, and why I changed. They didn't know about the scars though, nobody needed to know about the scars.
Crying would only result in pity, and I hated pity. I got a lot of pity when that happened. I would act like I don't give a fuck about anything, but really I care about things too much, and that results in me getting hurt.
Right now, I'm just here alone in this empty park on a empty swing. I swung around, and thought about all the things that happened. I wasn't the bubbly blonde anymore. I wasn't the girl who made friends easily, and was nice to everyone.
Suddenly, a sound of walking feet come to me, and I look up to see a salmon-haired male. He didn't say anything, but plup into the swing seat next to me.
"Hey Luce, if you need someone, I'm here," he said softly.
"Natsu...you don't understand."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that you wouldn't understand what I'm going through."
"Bullshit. I understand perfectly fine what you're going through, and I just want you to let me in. To help you, and let you know that your not alone."
"Natsu..."
"Lucy...I know its hard for you to say whatever is bothering you, but we're here for you, I'm here for you. There are people who care, but you have to let them in to ever experience happiness again. You have to in order to move on, to get pass whatever is holding you back."
"Goddamit, Luce, why can't you see how I feel about you? I love you! I know you probably don't right now, but I will make you fall in love with me. I will make the happiness glow into you're eyes again. I will make sure you won't experience whatever your going through again. So, please. Give me a chance. I want to help you. No. I need to help you." he added.
"Natsu...I can't." I could feel the tears welling up into my eyes, and sliding down my cheeks before I knew it.
I burst into sobs, and I used my hands to cover my face. I was so humiliated, why did I have to burst into tears right now? No one should see me cry, and give me that same look I always saw when I cried.
"Lucy! I'm telling you! Let me in! I want to know, I need to know what caused this. Please." he growled out.
"M-My father, you know how he is, cold and distant. But one day when we were at a party, people burst in with guns. They started a homoicide. They killed lots of people, and one of them aimed a gun at me, and was about to fire. But, my father pushed me out of the way, and got shot instead. I ran to him, and asked him why he did that if he never loved me. He said, "No, Lucy, I've always loved you, and always will. I'm sorry for acting cold to you. I was going to make it up to you soon, but now this happened. I know I won't survive. So, Lucy. Remember I love you always." Then he coughed up blood, and went still. The people who killed people were gone, and the ambulance was called, but it was too late, my father and a lot of people died, only some survived with bad injuries. I didn't have any though."
"I never thought that he loved me and still has. I always thought he would be cold, and sell me off to marriage to one of those rich guys. But, he never did. He died before I could even tell him that I love him too, and I still do. I regret not being nicer when he was alive still, and try to see the dad that was there when my mother was still alive. I feel like I failed both of them..." I trailed off.
"Lucy...I know what it feels like to be without parents. Igneel left me when I was still young, remember? I told you, and my mom died when I was still a baby. I was left alone when I was only five, and I wandered the streets before Gramps found me. He took me in along with the others. I am very thankful for that, and you never failed your mom or dad. I know they would be very proud of you right now even if you changed. Your still alive, and well. Your not dead, and is eating properly. I know they know your suffering, but I know you can get through it."
"Lucy, let me help, I will and can help you. I hate seeing you in pain. I feel the pain too, and the others are suffering too. I can see that. Please, let us help you." he pleaded.
"Natsu...thank you for all you have done. For not giving up on me. For not pushing me away when I did. For being there when I needed someone." I smiled at him.
"Luce! That was a real smile," he flushed, and beamed at me.
"Natsu, I have to go, I'll see you later," I say quietly to him.
"Okay! Bye, Lucy!" he says while waving at me.
What has he done? He broke down my walls, and I felt electricity coursing through me when he grinned at me. What was that feeling? That idiot. I shook my head and smiled.
He's getting into me. I know tomorrow would be great. But, I didn't know what was going to happen when I opened up to him.
I'm done! DONE! I GAVE YOU A LONG ONE! Review your thoughts!
-KawaiiPotatoSenpai
