I'm sorry that the chapters always have different length. I'm really not much of an organizer, but I'll try my best! It surprises me that it really can take some time to write just one chapter, but it does. Now here it is!
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EPOV:
"Edward, we have to go, or we're missing the party" Emmet shouted from down stairs.
"Yay, party in Forks" I muttered to myself. I really didn't feel like going, what could a party in Forks really be like? Not good if you compares it to the ones in Phoenix.
But I still went. I told myself that it only was to satisfy my brothers; they seemed pretty exited about it.
But I knew the real reason.
Bella.
Maybe she would be there and maybe I would get a chance to talk to her.
She'd been avoiding me this whole week. It was like I didn't exist. If she were there I would go talk to her, ask her if she had a problem with me or something.
But something said me that this wasn't about me at all. The sad expression on her face and the emptiness in her eyes told me that this was something else, a heavy burden on her back. Maybe that just was an illusion, maybe she just thought I was really annoying.
That was exactly why I needed to talk to her. If it wasn't me, then maybe I could help her.
Bella, she seemed so fragile, so breakable. I felt a strong need to protect her.
I had to remind myself that I only had spoken to her once. She would probably just think that I was a weird creepy type.
I ran out the house and jumped in Emmet's car.
When we arrived, the party was already started. Maybe I had underestimated it a little bit. Everybody was already crazy and drunk. People danced at the tables.
But I didn't see Bella anywhere. I really didn't feel like being here anymore but I couldn't go home, since it was Emmet's car.
"Stucked on a party in Forks, great", I muttered.
"Helloo sexyy! Do you want to join meeee in the beeedroom" A drunken Jessica Stanley started to giggle. Ugh, I needed to get away from here. I ran down behind the house and down to a little lake. I sat down on a little bench and just let the thoughts float free.
BPOV:
I sighed as I sat in the car. I really didn't feel like going to this party. But when Alice has decided something, you can't change that. No matter what you do. She really thought that I should live as much as I could the short time that was left. But I really didn't feel like that. I was too sad to pretend.
When we arrived Alice dragged me to the middle of the dance floor and started dancing. I danced half-heartedly and tried to smile, but I don't think I fooled anyone. Of course it all just ended with that I fell right on a guy that stood and made out with his girlfriend, all three of us falling to the ground.
After that I just walked away. Alice didn't stop me now. It seemed like she stood with one of the new guys Jasper. She really seemed to have a good time and I didn't want to bother.
One of the new guys. My heart started bumping faster. Wasn't that Edwards brother? Did that mean that he also was here?
A part of me started jumping up and down of excitement.
A big part.
I knew I shouldn't see him, but I still wanted to.
I looked around but didn't see him. Maybe he wasn't here after all. I felt disappointed. I tried to control myself, to block Edward Cullen out of my mind. But that was just pathetically impossible. I wanted to go home, but I couldn't. I regretted that I hadn't taken my own car.
I sighed and walked down to the backside of the house, looking for some private place.
Down the hill was a little lake with a few trees. That seemed perfect.
Too late, when I were already were down there, I realized that someone else sat there on a bench.
Edward turned around and faced me.
He was so beautiful in the dimly moonlight; my heart started beating double speed.
"Bella." He said. Oh I loved the way he said my name.
"Hi Edward" I said, shaken.
"You didn't enjoy the party?"
"No, eh…not so much. Dancing is not…the best thing for me. I just falls down…and takes people with me" I stuttered.
"Oh, so you're a real klutz?" he laughed.
"I'm afraid so. But how come you didn't like it?"
"It wasn't so many interesting people. The people I wanted to talk to wasn't there."
First I felt all warm inside, he wanted to talk to me! I t felt like I cold ran around the world of excitement. Then I remained myself that this wasn't good. I was just going to turn around and go back when he started speaking.
"Bella, please sit down" His tone was soft and he looked into my eyes
"Just for a while" He continued in a soft irresistible tone. I sat down without thinking. It was like my body took over. And my brain blocked out the part that wanted to run away.
We sat and talked there for what felt like hours. He asked me a lot of unimportant questions and I felt like I just babbled on, but he seemed truly interested. I got to know a lot about him. He was really musical and played the piano, though he'd never taken a single lesson. He liked a lot of music and we found out that some of our favourites were the same. I really enjoyed being with him, I could really be myself and still feel special. He seemed honestly curios.
Suddenly a song that none of us had heard before started playing.
Let's dance little stranger
Show me secret sins
Love can be like bondage
Seduce me once again
Burning like an angel
Who has heaven in reprieve
Burning like the voodoo man
With devils on his sleeve
Won't you dance with me
In my world of fantasy
Won't you dance with me
Ritual fertility
Edward looked with intense eyes on me. I looked back into them. I had to remind myself to inhale and exhale. My heart started racing.
Edward stood up and took my hand.
"Dance with me" He whispered.
"But I can't" I said, now starting to shake.
"I'll hold you in place" He smiled a smile that literally took my breath away.
I wasn't hard to convince, not when it was with Edward. He lifted me up and placed me on his feet. Then he started moving. I pressed myself closer to him, inhaling his delicious scent, feeling his hard chest. He tightened his arms around me. I looked at him and suddenly got a lust to kiss him. He looked at me with intensity, leaning his face closer; I felt his sweet breath on my face.
I leaned closer too.
And our lips met, it was like fireworks exploding inside me. Butterflies in my stomach went crazy.
I felt his tongue on my lower lip and opened my month, making an entrance.
His taste was like…not describable.
When he didn't kiss my mouth, his lips was on my throat, on my ears, on my neck, in my hair…
But the kiss had to, like every other kisses, come to an end. He slowly pulled away.
When I stood there, looking at him, I realized what I had done. I'd done what I promised myself not to do. I was going to hurt him. I was an awful person.
"I, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that" I said with a painful voice.
"Bella, what are you talk…"
"I'm so sorry, I got to go" I interrupted and then ran away.
Again.
I ran up to the party.
"Alice, Alice, I need to go home" I realized there were tears in my eyes.
Alice stood and made out with Jasper, but I'd interrupted her.
"I'm sorry, I'll call you." She said and ran to me.
"What happened Bella? Are you okay" she asked, worried.
"It's nothing like that, I just need to go home, you don't have to come, but I was just going to tell"
"Of course I'll come with you, now let's go"
So we walked to her car, me sobbing, Alice with her arm around me. The whole party stared at us in wonder.
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