EreMika Week Day 4 Prompt: Cruel World

Title: At Least for Now

Theme: Angst, Romance

Rated: M

Summary: He knew since he entered the military that he had to be prepared to lose someone. But now as the possibility was baring itself in front of him, he found himself still shaken by the thought of losing her. This was the cruel truth that they all must face.

Notes: Slight smut. Occurs the night after Scouting Legion's 57th expedition outside the walls.


"Eren….," Mikasa sighed, trying to get his attention but he wasn't listening. His breath was hot on her neck, his hands caging her in roughly, demandingly, as he pinned her on the surface of his bed. Mikasa tried to wriggle herself out of his grasp but to no avail, so she stayed still instead and let him roam herself as much as he pleased.

It had been just like any other usual nights, they would slip in quietly to each other's company when they were sure their other friends had been fast asleep. But where his kisses used to be gentle, now they were rough. Where his hands used to touch her softly, now they gripped hard, leaving red marks contrasting against her pale skin. With one quick move Eren placed his knee between her thighs, separating them, quickly shoving himself into her with more force than what she was prepared for. She let out a small gasp, trying to ignore the pain, as she held her thighs open for him to enter. He immediately stopped. Her gasp seemed to have brought back his usual senses, his eyes now stared at her regretfully.

He brought his hand up and caressed her face, silently apologizing for making her uncomfortable. He knew he shouldn't have been so rough, but he was barely able to control himself. He was falling and he desperately needed to cling to her. He needed to embrace her within his arms, to touch her, feel her with all his skin and everything within him, to stop him from falling further into the darkest pits of hell that he was going into.

Mikasa didn't say anything. Eren wasn't usually rough when he made love to her and she knew, of course she knew why he was behaving this way tonight. Slowly she ran her fingers through the strands of his brown hair, kissing his forehead quietly to let him know that she forgive him. "Eren," she said again, her arms circled around him to soothe his feelings. "It's not your fault. There's nothing you can do about it… Let it go." He buried his face on her shoulder and even then she could feel him shudder as he answered.

"It could have been you….," he said. His voice was heavy with pain and sadness. Memories flashed in front of his eyes as he recalled the terrible scenes he was forced to witness. The female titan, ripping Erd's body and spitting him in half, swinging her hand to smash Auruo, and stomping at Petra, effectively killing them all even before they were even able to scream. And he couldn't stop himself from thinking. It could have been Mikasa on the titan's feet, dying quickly and having her body abandoned like a piece of trash in the titan's territory. It could have been her. And he could have done nothing to protect her.

"Eren. You were the one who told me once, right? This world is a cruel place," Mikasa's voice brought him back. He halted. He knew already when he entered the military that he would have to be prepared to lose someone. But now as the possibility was baring itself in front of him, he still found himself shaken by the thought of losing her. How long will he still be able to have Mikasa by his side? She could be gone tomorrow, or the day after. He never knew.

He brought his trembling lips to her, meeting her in a long, carnal kiss. She was right. This world sure was a cruel place. They were all just mere people, trying to survive while carrying their own scars, into the unknown tomorrow. That's why he desperately needed to feel her now, to know that she's still with him, moving, breathing, and alive, at least for now.

"Stay…," he said after a while. "Stay with me tonight." Mikasa said nothing but her grip around his body tightened slightly, and by then he knew she had quietly agreed to his plea.


Author's Notes: This entry was kinda late (again). Sorry, it's just I need to think really hard of how to better picture the prompt 'cruel world' from Eren's side and not, like the canonly-famous scene, from Mikasa's side. I would like to thank Anorable, StormyInk, and Kuro-Shinozaki for this story. You guys are wonderful and without you I'll never have the inspiration to write Eremika. As always, I hope you enjoy and if you do, please drop rate & review as they always make me happy! Until next time and I hope you can continue to enjoy my work!^^