The day's writing and recording session went as smoothly as the sister's morning had gone. Which is to say that reality didn't match expectation, communication was misinterpreted and one of them was left with hurt feelings. This afternoon though it was Tegan who was upset with how things ended as they marched up the basement stairs, both dragging their feet exhausted from the day and not having eaten yet. It was 5:20pm and they had been working in the basement for well over 6 hours straight.
Tegan had a much faster music process in general but in particular that day she moved too fast for Sara causing her to snap at Tegan for having no patience for her slower pace. Tegan also found the lyrics and music her twin came up with so quirky and different to her own and the few times she mentioned it, Sara became insulted quickly defending her music writing style.
Although they did finish a fourth song, they were unable to make any significant progress on the other two as every chord progression or back up vocal suggestion one twin made was rejected by the other. Several times during the day, Tegan and Sara's eyes locked and even though both would flash sly grins to each other, it always led to diverted glances and an awkward moment or two until their strongly felt opinions about the music caused the uncomfortable tension to pass.
Sara held the door of the basement open for Tegan then shut it close announcing "Ok, I'm going to start on the pasta so we'll probably eat around 6pm-ish. Ok?"
"That's fucking perfect! I am so hungry right now" Tegan spoke as she walked towards the hallway.
"Where are you going?" Tegan's actions had caused Sara to stop in her tracks as she waited for her sister's answer.
"Going to my room to call mum n Linds. Just call me when dinner is ready or if you need help" Getting near the door of her room, Tegan continued talking over her shoulder with more focus on the phone in her hand than the door and walls she was stepping towards.
"But we're still going to talk during dinner?" Sara wished to confirm.
"Yes, we're still going to talk during dinner. Let me know if you need any help, ok? I'll come out n help you." Tegan had stopped with one hand on the doorjam and one on her hip smiling sweetly before holding up her phone gesturing to it. "I'm sorry! I gotta call them back but didn't want to until we were done downstairs. Is that ok?"
"Go! Go call them! I'll let you know when dinner is ready" Sara was adamant and waved Tegan into her room.
Tegan called Lindsey first and she spoke with her while lounging on the bed until spotty cell phone reception forced her to stand on the bed close to the headboard and window where she could hear her girlfriend's voice more clearly.
"I mean. Yeah, I'm happy. I'm happy I came and even if nothing we write makes the album then that's okay because hey, at least we didn't kill each other."
"Yet." Lindsey joked.
"Yeah, yet. We haven't killed each other yet and hopefully we don't but no. And like even though our styles are totally different, we're respecting each other's processes n approaches to making the music." Tegan fudged the truth shutting her eyes momentarily as she thought to the handful of times that very afternoon when the sisters did not in fact respect each other's different processes.
She has no idea. She has no idea I cheated on her last night. That I'm the world's shittiest girlfriend. Oh, she also has no idea she's with a fucking freak who sleeps with her sister. I mean if she ever finds out, it'll be worse news after bad news. 'You cheated on me?! With your sister?!' Tegan imagined Lindsey's face saying these words to her. It was distracting her from the call but, fortunately, she had the poor cell phone reception to blame for her scatterbrain. Lindsey was agreeing with her that she thought the trip to New Orleans was a major step in the sister's relationship regardless of the success of the songs they would write when Tegan abruptly cut her off.
"You know what, babe? I can barely hear you. Can I call you back tomorrow? Sara is almost done with dinner and I'll call you tomorrow when I come back from my run. Okay?" Tegan dropped to her knees on the bed then lay back down on it with legs and arms spread apart.
"Sure, babe! That's fine. We'll talk tomorrow. Call me after your run and tell Sara I say hello, ok? Love you, babe."
"I will tell her and I love you, too, baby. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Okay, bye." Tegan put down the phone staring up at the ceiling and flashing a grin happy that the first call her gone better than she had imagined and feared.
The next call was going to be harder to make. For some reason, Tegan believed that once her mom heard her voice, she would instantly recognize something was wrong. She loved her mom and told her everything so keeping this secret from her would be going against every instinct. Sara was private and kept many things from her mom but for Tegan? This was going to be a difficult and lifetime thing.
A lifetime thing. Holy Christ! You're going to have to keep this a secret from her for the rest of her life. Well, and your life, too. This shit. No one can know about this shit like ever. Tegan put the back of one hand over her eyes momentarily masking her face and contemplated how only 24 hours ago her life was radically different. A flash of resentment at Sara came to her mind for having put her in such a quandary but when Tegan pictured the moment last night when Sara came and cried out her name, she decided her sister truly was brave for telling her about her feelings and happy she said spoke up about them.
That didn't take away from the fact that no one can know about this shit ever. Tegan let out a heavy sigh slowly becoming aware that if no one else was going to know about this, it was going to be the two of them dealing with this alone. No help from mum. Obviously their dad or even Bruce couldn't be shoulders to cry on or sources of support and words of wisdom about the situation. Tegan decided she couldn't handle talking to her mom right then and trying to put on a happy or calm face for her. She'd avoid the nerve racking and possibly uncomfortable call now and would call her in the morning after she talked to Lindsey.
Even though having a talk with Sara was scary, Tegan figured at least it would be easier to deal with Sara than her mom since her and her sister were in this together. They had both been bad and done things the night before but it was their secret and they couldn't judge each other. Tegan left her phone on the bed and opened the door to help out Sara with getting dinner ready. She had a plan for tonight to make up for upsetting Sara in the morning and she was giddy to eat so her plan could be put in motion.
"Hey! It smells good. Do you need any help?" Tegan asked as she walked over to Sara to wash her hands at the kitchen sink. Spaghetti noodles were softening in boiling water and pasta sauce was barely simmering while Sara stood a few feet from the sink chopping celery. Tegan eyed 2 carrot sticks and gestured to them with her chin. "Are those for the salad?"
"Hey! Uh, yeah, you can help me chop them. There's a knife over there." Sara pointed to a larger knife than the one in her hand.
Using the knife and a nearby plate, Tegan began to peel the carrots clearing her throat in a loud, exaggerated way.
"Sooooo. Anything new going on in your life?" A sly smile crept upon Tegan's face but she kept her focus on the carrots in front of her. Sara chuckled putting down the knife to face her twin who was only 4 feet away.
"Very funny. Are you ready to talk? Is this your way of saying you want to talk now?"
"Yes, I'm ready to talk." Tegan had also put her knife down and turned to face Sara, a smile lighting up her face once their eyes locked. "And first off, I'm very sorry that you had to wait so long to talk to me. I know you really wanted to talk in the morning so I apologize for that."
"Apology accepted" Sara nodded her head with a faint smile adorning her face. "And I apologize to you for getting upset that you left this morning for your run. I just thought we were going to, ya know…" Sara trailed off looking and the sliced celery on the plate next to her.
"You thought we were going to cuddle and wake up in each other's arms."
"Yes. Yes, I admit that's what I wanted." For what seemed like the hundredth time the last 24 hours, Sara was physically unable to meet her sister's gaze and instead settled on her familiar forearm tattoos.
"I know. You already told me this morning and I blew it and I apologized. Bu-ut" Tegan sang out the word "I'm going to make it up to you. I have a surprise." Tegan winked at her then pointed behind Sara with her chin warning "Watch it! Your sauce is starting to boil."
"Oh shit! I completely forgot that I'm cooking." Bubbles were forming on the sauce and Sara quickly turned down the flames then stirred it for a few seconds. "So you have a surprise? What is it?"
"I can't tell you." Tegan wore a shit eating grin as she turned to begin slicing the carrots in thin slices. "It's a surprise for after dinner. You'll hafta wait until then."
"Tease!" Tegan laughed off the accusation popping a carrot slice into her mouth. "No, but look another thing I want to talk about n I think if Joanne were here she would tell us to talk about this-"
"Uh, if Joanne were here, she would've told us not to do that" Tegan interrupted with an empty chuckle raising an arm and pointing her index finger towards Sara's bedroom where they had been intimate the night before.
"But that's not the point, Tegan. What's done is done and it's just spilled milk at this point. What I was saying was that if Joanne were here with us right now…after that" Sara gestured to her room with a nod of her head "I think she would tell us to talk about what happened n talk about how we feel. You agree, right? I mean you were the one who wanted to talk about things last night."
"No, I agree" Tegan looked down in embarrassment remembering that indeed just last night, she was the one trying to coax Sara into talking to her saying that she thought their therapist would agree. Sara saw the sauce needed stirring and was happy she could focus her gaze on that while she told Tegan how she felt.
"Part of the reason I wanted to wake up with you was because I thought maybe there was a chance we could be together again. And then when I saw you were gone, I was so sad. I mean last night was amazing but I just don't want that to be the only time we're together like that."
"I want us to be together like that again, too." Tegan softly whispered looking at the carrots in case Sara tried to look to her in the eyes. "At least once more"
"So, just one more time and that's it?" Sara questioned doing her best to mask her level of concern as she kept stirring the sauce.
"I don't know, Sara! I don't know!" In a moment of exasperation, Tegan threw her head back and brought both hands up to rub her face then temples. "You have to see where I'm coming from. I cheated on my girlfriend. Who I chased for years! I cheated on her last night and then I just lied to her right now."
"Lie? What lie did you tell her?"
"I didn't actually lie to her. I cheated on her. That's lying." Her head hanging in shame, Tegan pressed her lower back against the counter. "At least in my book."
"Oh, Tegan, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for getting you involved in this." Sara padded a few steps over to Tegan putting a comforting hand on her shoulder so that they were nearly standing in front of each other. "If it's any comfort. She'll never know. I'll never tell anyone about last night."
"We'll know about last night. We know. And I was thinking when I talked to Lindsey how we'll know forever. I mean, we hafta keep this a secret forever. The rest of our lives. This is gonna suck" Tegan stared blankly ahead still coming to grips with the repercussions she was already dealing with after her clandestine night with her sister.
"Ya know, a few weeks ago when I started to have the dreams n thoughts, I thought that even if I could make them go away, I'd still hafta deal with having them in the first place. That would never go away, too. Even if you got in my bed last night and we just talked, we still would've had to deal with what I told you and how I'm feeling." Tegan hooked a finger around Sara's belt loop pulling her close until their hips pressed against each other.
"C'mere" she ordered Sara, sliding her hand from the belt loop across her stomach to rest on her hip. "I told you this morning: I don't regret what we did. I'm glad I got in your bed n what happened happened but it's just a lot to deal with. You don't have a girlfriend right now. I do. I'm the one who cheated. I mean you n I have to deal with the same thing now but I have the whole cheating thing on top of everything. It's just tough."
Sara hugged Tegan, their breasts touching each other while she whispered "I'm sorry, Tegan. I really am. Just tell me what to do to make this better."
"I need time to think. That's what you can do. Give me more time. I know I liked what we did last night and I know I want to do it again. But I also know I'm cheating on my girlfriend so I don't know what to do. I just, I just need more time."
Sara pulled back from the hug looking into Tegan's brown eyes reassuring her softly "Of course, I'll give you more time. That's okay." Sara wrapped one hand around her twin's waist pulling her closer to that their hips crashed together again with a devious grin growing across her face. "Maybe we could be like Franny and John but instead of one night, we have 5 days."
"Franny and John? From The Hotel New Hampshire? The book that for years you talked about on stage saying the two incestuous siblings were inspiration for one of our albums? That book?" With each question, Tegan's exaggerated tone increased.
Sara guiltily nodded her head and her devious grin returned. "Yep. The very one. Tegan, it's kinda perfect: We can keep doing what we're doing n ya know writing music too n then we'll get it out of your system like they did in the book."
"I really don't want to make major life decisions based on what characters from a book did but that's not a bad idea. Maybe we-" Tegan's reply was interrupted by Sara as something in the corner of her eye caught her attention.
"Shit! Tegan! The sauce" The sauce had bubble all over its surface and the boiling water in the nearby pot of spaghetti was dangerously close to spilling over the edge. "Maybe we should worry about dinner n talk later."
"That sounds like a good idea. I'll get the salad ready n you handle the pasta. Do we have any garlic bread?" Tegan walked towards the fridge to get the head of lettuce and salad dressing while her sister kept her hands busy over the stove.
"Wait! Hunter did or the guy did?" Sara asked Tegan in between bites as they sat on stools eating at the island in the kitchen. Tegan had been telling her the story of an encounter her friend had at a restaurant.
"No, the waiter said it. Can you believe it? All over Hunter asking if the dish was vegan. There's no reason to be a dick like that." Tegan's plate was nearly empty but she shrugged it off blaming it on having worked up an appetite from her run plus a total lack of food since the previous night.
"That's pretty bad. No reason to get hostile like that especially to a paying customer."
"Right?!" Tegan excitedly nodded her head in agreement. "This is really good by the way. I'm like scarfing it down. I'm almost done with my plate."
"Yeah, I can see" Sara deadpanned looked at the 2 noodles and bite of salad left on her sister's plate.
"Shut up! I didn't eat anything all day and I didn't have 7 cups of coffee like you did."
"I had 3 cups of coffee and besides I'm just teasing you. You've been running, burning calories so you're going to be hungry. Makes sense." Sara calmly defended her previous words before inserting a forkful of spaghetti into her mouth.
"You had 4 cups." Grabbing her nearly empty plate, Tegan walked to the sink scraping the remaining food into the trash can below then placing the plate at the bottom of the sink with a loud thud. She laughed turning around to face Sara who was about to take another bite of spaghetti.
"I had 4 cups" Sara agreed with a smirk causing a similar smile to spread to Tegan's face. Both were happily surprised by how the evening was going and though both feared that dinner would take on an uncomfortable tone, it was remarkably normal interactions between the two and possibly more upbeat than they usually were. Neither one knew whether that was the result of their recent months of intensive joint therapy or their rendezvous the night before but both were happy with the positive changes in their relationship.
"Ok, how about this? I do the dishes, clean up this mess blah blah blah. And you…take a nice hot shower after slaving away cooking dinner and then when you're out, I'll show you the surprise."
"Hmm, I was planning on taking a shower after dinner anyway so... Ok, that sounds good!" Sara was excited about the surprise her twin had for her and she didn't attempt to hide the smile it gave her.
Tegan finished the dishes then raced to her bedroom bringing back her blanket and 2 oversized pillows which she flung on the couch in the living room. She went back to the kitchen to get the wine bottle she had opened moments before and grabbed one wine glass from the cupboard. Her last touch was to dim the lights so low that the lights and colors from the tv almost made it seem as if there was a strobe light in the room.
Tegan poured a tall glass of wine setting it on the coffee table near the couch and tucked the wine bottle against the closest leg of the table. She sat with her legs on the couch, her back propped up against one armrest cushioned by the pillows and she spread the blanket around her body from her stomach down waiting for her sister to emerge from her bedroom.
Taking a sip of wine with one hand and flipping the channels on the tv with the other, Tegan saw that an episode of The Dog Whisperer was on and turned the volume up to a comfortable level. She heard Sara's door open and turned her body and neck behind her towards the hallway yelling out "Holy shit! Sara! The Dog Whisperer is on."
Sara emerged from the hallway wearing red sweatpants and a band tee, running her fingers through her wet fringe. "That's the surprise? That The Dog Whisperer is on?"
"No, silly, the surprise is this" Tegan held up the glass of wine in one hand then gestured to her lap with the other "…and this."
Sara stood at the couch next to Tegan accepting the wine glass being offered her before taking a big gulp. "Mmm, that's good." She held up the wine glass savoring the flavor left on her tongue.
"But I don't get the other surprise. Watching The Dog Whisperer with you and drinking wine? Is that the surprise?"
"No." Tegan chuckled grabbing at Sara's hand that was not holding the wine glass. "Put that down on the table, come get under the blanket with me n I'll explain the surprise." Tegan held up the blanket and spread her legs so her feet were on either side of the couch cushion. Sara attempted to put her knee between Tegan's presumably to lay down on top of her but she was stopped by her older twin.
"Ah, ah, ah! No, just like take a seat in front of me so we're both facing the tv." Tegan yanked down on her arm causing Sara's bum to drop in between her legs draping the blanket over both of their legs. Arms from behind encircled Sara's tummy pulling her bum closer to Tegan's core until there was no space between them.
"Jesus! You're pretty fixated on The Dog Whisperer. I thought that was my show."
"I told you. That's not the surprise." With arms still hugging Sara's waist, Tegan pulled her back again so that Sara's back was pressed against Tegan's breasts and her head rested on her right shoulder. She smiled at the body heat she was feeling on her chest and inner thighs and leaned over to softly press her lips on Sara's cheek whispering. "But I think you're gonna like it."
"The surprise is this" Releasing Sara from her grip, Tegan held out her hands up in front of them leaning her head into Sara so they were cheek to cheek admiring her hands. "My hands. My hands are gonna make you come right now. I'm going to touch you and make you so wet that it drips down my fingers and my knuckles are covered in your cream. That's your surprise."
"Sara?" Turning to face Tegan, Sara saw her sister grin then shut her eyes as she leaned over to kiss her. Sara moaned into the kiss trying to twist her body to face Tegan causing her to break the kiss and pull her head back.
"Ah, ah, ah! Stay where you are. No moving, that's part of the surprise. It's all you tonight. I want to find out what your body likes n what makes you come so you hafta tell me, ok?" Arms wrapped around Sara again to make sure she stayed seated as Tegan nuzzled her face into her neck and gave a quick kiss to her earlobe.
"I don't want to be touched at all tonight and all I ask is two things in return. Number one: You tell me what you like, ok? The only way I can do what gives you pleasure and what turns you on is if you tell me."
"And the second thing?" Sara let the weight of her head rest against Tegan's shoulder, a grin born of curiosity adorned her face as she waited for the answer.
"Be loud. It's kind of a turn on. Not like fake porno star screaming but you know…Just do whatever you did last night. Like you yelled out my name n it was so fucking hot. That's why I came so quick the second time, I was so turned on by that." Sara's fingers were tracing up and down Tegan's forearms which were resting in her lap above the blanket. "Really?"
"Oh my god, yeah! Such a turn on for me. So please show me what yours are." Tegan leaned towards Sara until her lips were touching her ear and instructed "Take off your bottoms."
Pressing her weight back against her sister's body, Sara reached under the blanket to slide off her sweatpants and underwater letting them fall off the couch to the carpet below. Tegan slithered down on the couch a bit so their upper bodies' were more horizontal enabling easier access to Sara's sensitive folds and pulsing clit.
"Much better. Ok, what do you like? Where do you want me to start?" Tegan wondered as her hands slipped under the blanket each one grabbing onto one of Sara's knees and spreading them apart.
"I like everything. I like being fingered n eaten out. Pretty basic stuff, Tegan."
"I was afraid of this. It's okay. I've got plan B. Fear not." Tegan brought her hand to Sara's pussy and lightly trailed her middle finger up and down her wet slit a few times. Using two fingers, she spread her lips apart gently stroking up the inside of one lip then down the inside of the lip on the other side. Tegan continued making these movements for a minute as the only sound in the room came from the tv. Using her middle finger, she dipped lower checking Sara's entrance to see how wet she was then brought the moisture back up to her now swollen clit.
"Oh my god!" Tegan exclaimed.
Momentarily stopped from enjoying the pleasure her sister was giving her, Sara's eyes opened and she rolled her head on Tegan's shoulder to see what the matter was.
"Baby, you are so fucking wet right now! You're like juicing." This embarrassed Sara who rolled her head again on Tegan's shoulder facing away from her and nuzzled her face into one of the pillows that surrounded the twin's upper bodies.
"Sara, no! Don't be embarrassed. Why are you embarrassed? We already shared last night together." Tegan placed a lingering kiss to Sara's neck while 3 fingers gently played with her wet folds.
"I know we did and I don't know why I get embarrassed but I do. I'm not surprised I'm that wet though. I was thinking about this in the shower." Sara's final tidbit sent Tegan over the moon and she pressed her lips against the corner of her sister's jaw.
"Oh yeah? Now we're getting somewhere. What were you thinking about?" Tegan wanted to know.
"Nothing. I mean I was just replaying last night in my head and hoping we did it again. I was hoping your surprise had to do with it."
"Well, you were right" Tegan spoke as her middle finger again inspected Sara's entrance only to find the fluid dripping down her leg and with a few sweeps of her palm, she brought the tangy goodness to wipe on her folds. "Yeah, you are so wet right now. You're totally gonna come hard tonight."
"I hope so but I might not. Don't be disappointed." Sara warned her.
"No, you're definitely coming tonight. You're super wet and I can tell you're loving this. If you came last night, we can get you to come again tonight." Tegan waited for Sara's protestations but they did not materialize and to soften the blow of her words she deadpanned "If worse comes to worse, we can always go get your vibrator to get the job done." With a feigned look of shock on her face, Tegan turned her to see her sister's reaction.
"You heard?" Sara sheepishly inquired. Tegan silently nodded her head with a grin.
"You couldn't wait? We had only gotten here like 5 minutes before and you're whipping out the vibrator? What were you thinking aboutthat morning?"
"You. What we did in the dreams. I don't know. What I wanted us to do."
"And what do you want us to do? What do you want me to do to you?" Tegan's whispered questions were met with silence by Sara, who was hiding her face against the pillow. Fingers that had been massaging her pussy suddenly disappeared and Tegan shifted her weight underneath so their bodies propped up a bit. "Here! Let's take a wine break" Tegan suggested as she grabbed the glass from the table and offered it to Sara.
Both took a few sips until Tegan refilled the glass and set it back down on the table. She nestled her body into the couch and slid their bodies back to the position they were in moments before. Her hand snaked under Sara's arm and the blanket back to its rightful place on her mound. Two fingers slid up and down Sara's slit a few times then glided up one lip and down the other until her movements and the sensations they caused to Sara's core became familiar.
"Do you like that or do you like this?" Tegan wondered as she pressed two fingers against Sara's engorged clit making clock-wise circles. Sara needed to think about this. Both felt good and both sent what felt like bolts of electricity down her spine much like Tegan's kisses did. However, she was so horny and worked up from her sister's caresses that she chose the one she thought would make her come quickest.
"The second one. The circles. Yeah." Sara's eyes were closed but one could still see from her furrowed brows that she was concentrating on something.
"Ok, now do you want them like or like this?" Starting with wide, slow circles then switching to tighter, quicker rotations, Tegan kept her fingers pressed against her button while the fingers of her other hand snaked up Sara's shirt to lightly scissor an erect nipple.
"The second one." Sara responded as soon as she felt the added pleasure erupting in her core from the faster movements. Upon hearing this, Tegan slightly sped up her circles and brought her hand on Sara's breast down underneath the blankets where two fingers traced circles around her wet entrance before plunging in. Sara brought her head back to rest on Tegan's shoulder and she splayed her legs against Tegan's so she would have better access to her warm pussy.
Keeping a steady pace, Tegan fingered her twin and continued making tight fast circles on her swollen nearby bud. She could feel her getting juicy around her fingers which were deep inside wet walls searching for any and all pleasure zones. Tegan marveled at how open and vulnerable Sara was and the sheer intimacy of the moment struck Tegan in ways she didn't think possible. She placed a gentle kiss on top of Sara's shoulder then slipped her fingers out and under her t shirt to hug her closer with one arm. Tegan's hand searched Sara's torso and stomach just as it had explored her walls a moment before. Her hand slowly glided across the flesh and tweaked her nipples one by one.
Sara brought her hand under her shirt and at first Tegan thought she just wanted to clasp her hand on top of her own but Sara grabbed a wrist bringing the hand back to her entrance. Tegan got the hint and inserted familiar fingers into Sara then sped up actions of both hands on her wet center. Sara immediately began pooling into Tegan's palm and sounds resembling soft moans left her lips. Sensing her sister might be close to her climax, Tegan finger fucked her as fast and deep as she could. Sounds from the friction of fingers inside slick walls and creamy knuckles slamming against folds filled the air and Tegan smiled to herself knowing how good this must feel to Sara.
"Do you hear that? You are so wet, baby!" Tegan excitedly whispered placing a gentle kiss on Sara's neck. Tegan felt Sara's body tense up and her walls started tightening around the two pumping fingers. She arched her back pressing extra weight against Tegan's front before panting breathlessly "Oh! Oh Tee Tee! Oh! Oh god!" Sara's orgasm had knocked the wind out of her and she rode Tegan's fingers filling the room with her beautiful moans and gasps for air.
When she knew she had finished climaxing, Tegan slipped her fingers out and played with her folds for a few seconds before quickly bringing up both arms to coil around Sara for a hug from behind.
"Tee Tee, huh? Where did that come from?" she teased her sister then quickly placed loud kisses to her cheek to let her know they were teasing questions. Sara let out a giggle then blushed but this time she nuzzled her face into the crook of Tegan's neck instead of away from her gaze.
"I don't know. It just came out."
"Well, I liked it. It was fucking hot" Tegan growled, her voice thick with lust. Sara's body was still buzzing and limp from the poking and massaging her center received and although she just wanted to cuddle with Tegan, her previously silent bladder was shouting at her for relief. Using one hand planted near Tegan's hip, Sara tried to lift herself up and over Tegan's thigh to get to solid ground. With her arms already wrapped around Sara's waist, Tegan tightened her grip forcing Sara's bum back down in between Tegan's inner thighs.
"Where do you think you're going, missy?" Tegan quizzed with a playful tone in her voice and a mischievous grin on her face.
"To the bathroom. Tegan, let me up!" Her giggly answer was sufficient for Tegan to release Sara from her clutches and she waited until Sara stood and started walking to the bathroom before quickly grabbing her closest hand.
"Hey! C'mere" Tegan instructed pulling her twin back down closer to where she lay on the couch. Their eyes locked and conspiratorial grins were carved into their faces while Sara knelt down to give Tegan a chaste kiss on her lips.
"Thank you. I really liked my surprise. It was better than I imagined in the shower." One more kiss was placed on Tegan's lips while Sara stood back up to find relief for her bladder. With one hand, Tegan slapped Sara's bum just before it was out of her reach. "Hurry up so we can cuddle and watch a movie! Or I'll start it without you."
"You better not!" Sara joked over her shoulder as she disappeared into the hallway.
Even though they had missed the first 20 minutes of the movie, the girls settled on watching Forrest Gump, a fond movie for both as they saw it in the theater along with Jeremy a few months after meeting him freshman year. They lay on the couch their lower bodies entwined under the blanket with Sara resting her head on Tegan's chest and Tegan propping the back of her head up against her bent arm on the pillow. For long stretches, the pair were silent and it was unclear to the twins if this was because the other twin was watching the movie or replaying the night in their mind. Of course, the girls talked over nearly half the movie excited to watch the memory-inducing classic and both girls had a slight buzz from the bottle of wine they shared.
A particularly dramatic scene in the movie caused Tegan's body to tense up, her breathing momentarily stopped before she consciously relaxed her body's muscles against Sara and the couch. What struck Sara as curious was the nature and dialogue in the scene that seemed to unnerve her twin.
The pair watched the tv as Lt. Dan violently assaults Forrest Gump in his hospital bed accusing him of forever changing his destiny. Being twins and identical twins to boot, destiny was a common topic and theme in their lives but the fact that they had ended up in a band roaming around the world with each other for two thirds of the year really made the scene hit home for both of them. In the early years, Sara had often accused Tegan of altering and on other occasions ruining her destiny making it a touchy subject.
As if the characters on the screen weren't relatable enough, both sisters saw the nearly identical position of Lt. Dan resting his head on Forrest's chest just as Sara was currently resting her head on Tegan's chest. Tegan had been resting her left hand on her stomach over the blanket when she slid it towards Sara's hand on her chest and interlaced them just below her breasts. They looked at each other briefly and acknowledged the grateful contact with sly grins before turning their attention back to the gripping scene.
Lt. Dan worries he'll be looked at as a legless freak and Sara noticed Tegan's body tense up again at the f word. Light and shadows danced across their faces as both directed their gaze towards the tv where the scene ends with Lt Dan chuckling to himself and wondering aloud twice "Look at me. What am I gonna do now? What am I gonna do now?" Sara noticed that right after those lines, Tegan let out an empty chuckle with a soft puff of air out her nostrils and she wondered if Tegan's reaction was one of empathy or sympathy. She did her best not to think about this the rest of the movie but when the credits began to roll, she realized she had failed miserably. At moments like this, she wished twin telepathy was true.
"Ok, c'mon. Let's go to bed" Sara lifted her head up off Tegan's chest and started to get up off the couch.
"No! No! No!" Tegan protested shutting her eyes at the thought of such an idea. "Five minutes, we'll watch the credits then we'll get up. I'm too warm and snuggly to get up" Tegan pressed her body against her sister pulling her closer with one arm.
"No, because we'll just fall asleep and I want to wake up in a nice, warm bed with you."
"Five minutes" Tegan repeated and Sara saw that her eyes were still closed.
"Fine. Five minutes." Sara acquiesced with a loud, defeated sigh. She rested her head on Tegan's chest again and nestled the rest of her body against her. Try as she might to stay awake, the pair drifted off to sleep, warm in each other's arms.
Nearly an hour later, Sara was whispering Tegan's name and tapping her fingers on her chest to rouse her. "We fell asleep on the couch again. Come on, let's go to bed. Don't you want to wake up in a warm bed next to me?" Sara coyly inquired.
Tegan lifted her legs with a groan and got up off the couch stepping aside so Sara could as well. Sara turned off the tv as Tegan stuffed both pillows under her arm then grabbed the blanket and turned around holding her other arm out searching for her twin's hand. Sara took her hand in hers leading the way to the hallway stopping a few feet before the doors to their bedrooms asking "Which room? Yours or mine?"
"Mine. My sheets are cleaner than yours" Tegan said with a yawn as she was led into her room by Sara.
