I was out, and I was never coming back. I tugged at the scarf covering my mouth and gently ran all the way to the bus stop closest to the mountain. Hopefully nobody would notice my absent until morning. Even though I had told Asriel my plan to leave, I knew he didn't believe me. I didn't know why I told him exactly, maybe I felt guilty for not telling anyone. Either way, what's done is done and I made Asriel promise not to tell anyone where I was going, he may not have believed me but he did keep his promises no matter what. I knew I could trust him.
}{
It was sunrise by the time the bus arrived at the small bus stop I had sat down at. I had purchased a ticket beforehand and entered the small, empty bus, handing the driver my ticket before finding a seat near the end of the bus. Before long, I had exited Underground and was on the rough road traveling around the rocky mountain that I had climbed all those years ago. I didn't really have a plan from here other than to go to the city. I refused to go live with my actual parents. They disowned me and I disowned them, simple as that.
'Your really doing this?' I didn't want to chat. Especially to the reason of my leaving, I didn't care if he cared or not I didn't want to chat, so instead, I pull my phone and plug my earphones in, maybe listening to some music could help me. 'C'mon Frisk, don't shut me out! I know I've been a little mean the past timelines but I care about you ya know?' I shuddered at how much he sounded like Sans.
"I don't wanna chat Chara." I whisper to the demon-like-childe quietly as I stare out the foggy window. I watched the snowflakes fall past the sky as I wait for the town on the other side of the mountain to come into sight. I feel the presence of Chara slowly pull away to leave me be, leaving me with my questions. Did Chara actually care about me? He never showed any care to me when he took over me. I tell myself begrudgingly. Truth be told though, I was pretty pissy since I didn't get much sleep.
I turn my attention to the emptiness of the bus, there was nobody in it but the bus driver. It'd be weird to see no other monsters for a while. I promised Asriel I'd come visit in a few months times and that I'd write to him but first I had to do some stuff.
"Excuse me sir, how long is the trip to the town?" I ask as nicely as I could muster, my exhaustion getting the better of me. I rub my eyes to try and get rid of it but I doubt it worked.
"'bout an hour, get some sleep if your tired, I'll wake you up when we get there." Through the review mirror, I can see the man smile warmly at me. He was probably in his late forties to early fifties, he seemed nice enough to trust, so I laid my head down against the window and mumbled out a quick thanks before drifting off to sleep. Before I can dream though, I see Chara staring at me, smiling. Not like his wicked or malicious ones but genuinely happy to see me. I guess he did care about me, on some level. That's when the nightmares kicked in though.
}{
"It's a beautiful day outside," I shake my head, I didn't want another nightmare. Not again. "Birds are singing, flowers are blooming. And kids like you…"
"Please, Sans!" I beg. I fall to my knees, my legs failing me, tears sting my eyes as I cry and face the floor, my pleas no more than mere whispers. "Please…"
"SHOULD BE BURNING IN HELL!" Sans screams as a gaster-blaster appears in front of me and gets ready to fire when a blinding red light fills my sight and everything disappears.
I shoot my head up and stare around confused, the judgment hall fades away and turns into a sea of buttercups and sans figure falters and disappears along with the gaster-blaster. My eyes look around for the my savour only to be met with Chara kneeling before me, his red eyes looking at me soothingly. His hand on my shoulder, as if to comfort me.
"C-Chara?" He laughs at the confused tone in my voice, not the malicious one he usually does, but a warm, caring one. He stands and helps me up. "Why are you helping me and…and being nice?"
I make a small gasp sound and point at him before he can answer.
"Who are you and what did you do with the real Chara?" He snickers as I half-heartedly smile. He beckons me to follow me with pleading eyes and I oblige, curiosity taking over my body.
"Like I said, I wanna try and change, I'll probably get really strong urges to kill every now and then but like you said to the comedian," He pauses and we cross a small bridge over a stream. "Anybody could be a good person if they just tried. So, I'm trying." I didn't really believe him at first but the desperateness in his eyes gave it away that he was telling the truth. So, I believed him. I knew my mercy would get to him one day. I smile at him happily telling him that I believed him. How could I not after he saved me from my nightmares? I follow him until he leads me to a bright light.
"What's this?" I ask, curiously. I never really explored my mind when I was trapped in it so I didn't know as much as Chara did.
"This'll wake you up. Please, don't shut me out." I couldn't believe this, Chara not only saved me from my nightmare, but now he was begging? "I wanna learn to be more merciful so teach me how? Pease?" I nod warmly before entering the white light and slowly, I am sucked back into the reality of my life.
}{
I'm pretty sure I passed out on the couch after everyone left, it was an exhausting night after all. Papy probably walked home after I collapsed himself so I would need to head back home soon. I look at the grandfather clock and noticed it was around ten in the morning. I groan, it was late. Papyrus was probably already up. I'll just take a shortcut back.
'Ugh, I was meant to check on Frisk!' I beat myself up in my mind for forgetting. She did seem pretty out of it yesterday, well, after the dance. 'I'll just quickly check on her before I leave. Easy as pie!' I smile happily at myself. 'I wonder if Toriel has any pie…' I shake my head lightly to remind me of the task at hand.
I get up and am immediately greeted by a headache and the dizziness that follows. I groan again and rub my skull gently. After a minute or two I get up and continue to make my way to the girls' room. When I finally make it up the stairs and to the door of Frisks' room, I silently open it to see the perfectly made bed.
"Huh, she probably went out. She usually leaves a note, I'll check the kitchen just in case." I talk to myself as I head down stairs, not bothering to try and stay quite anymore. Once I reach the kitchen, I immediately noticed the lack of a note. I start to panic, where would Frisk be? Maybe waking up Asriel or in the shower? I listen for any sound but the house is dead silent. Other than the loud snoring of Asgore. I teleported back up the stairs and entered Frisks' room. A few of her clothes were missing and her backpack she used for school was gone. If I had skin, I'm almost certain it would have paled. Before I can stop myself, I scream out Frisk's name. Less than a moment later, a fully awake Toriel and a hungover Asgore rush into the room.
"What's going on?! Where's Frisk?" Toriel speaks rapidly, worry in her eyes as Asriel stumbles into the room as well, not that shocked to find the room empty. I try to say the words but they can't seem to form in my mouth. After being calmed by Toriel, I am finally able to manage to say the two worst words in my life.
"She's gone." I listen to my hoarse voice fill with depression as it echoes through the small and empty room. Somehow, the three white monsters pale and their eyes widen.
"W-what?" Toriel squeaks as Asriel just runs out of the room and down stairs. I just sit on the bed and repeat the words over in my head. 'She's gone. Frisk is gone. Why did she leave? Was it because of me?' Toriel was calling the police while Asgore was searching the house and Asriel just stared at the barely visible tracks outside, I had moved to the couch, tears streaming down my face. Why did she go? Where did she go? I didn't know, I didn't care. I just wanted her back. My left eye shone blue. 'Of course. It wasn't her. It was him. He can't ever let us have our happy ending.'
"Sans? Sans!" I am forced out of my thoughts when Asriel starts to shake me and I feel the anger slowly drain away. My eye stops glowing as I stare at the goat son of the old King and Queen of the Underground. "It's gonna be alright. We'll find her." He was right. We would find her, than I would never let her go again. But to do that, I had to stay calm and not jump to conclusions.
"The police will arrive soon. Sans, why don't you go home?" Toriel enters the room, clearly trying not to cry. She was leaning on Asgore's arm gently. I nodded and teleported home, straight to my bedroom where I flopped onto my bed, I was no good to Frisk tired and hungover. 'I'll find ya kid, I'll find ya. Just you wait.' Before long, I was asleep again.
I didn't know how long I was asleep for, but it was long enough that my hangover was gone and for Papyrus had figured out, or been told most likely, that Frisk was gone.
"SANS! WE MUST GO AND FIND THE HUMAN! SHE COULD BE IN DANGER, OR WORSE! MISSING MY DELICTABLE SPAGHETTI!" I try to hold back my snicker, it was no time to be laughing but really, how could you not laugh? As I go to get up, I am returned to reality by my depression. I sigh as I stalk downstairs and into the living room where Papyrus was ranting about Frisk's disappearance. I plop down onto the seat and hang my head down.
I close my eyes, trying not to let the tears escape the darkness of my eye sockets. Why did every 'happy' ending end in depression? I open my eyes when I am started to shaken by Papyrus. The glowing tears I was trying to stop from escaping landed on the floor with a soft thud. I stared at the small tears as their glow began to fade as more tears slowly make their way down to meet with the other wet, colourless tears.
"OH BROTHER! DO NOT FRET, FOR I, THE GREAT PAPYRUS, WILL FIND FRISK!" Papyrus's yells echo through the room as I wipe my tears away. He was right about one thing, we would find Frisk, we had to. I couldn't lose her again. I had watched her die in front of me to many times. Buried her before the reset took place to many times. Cried to many times. I would find her, and when I did, I was never letting go of her again. I would hold her tightly when she had her first kiss, when she had her first time, when she had her first child, well if she had one. I didn't care if it was weird but I wasn't going to lose her. I refused. At those thoughts, you could say, I was filled with determination. Determination to find Frisk.
}{
I paced around my room, carefully listening to any and every sound I could hear. Just in case… I shake my head.
'She won't come back. She's too stubborn to return.' I tell myself as I sigh and flop onto my bed. I stare at my overly average room and try to hold back tears from escaping my eyes. 'It's all my fault…'
I close my eyes and stare into the black void of my mind. Frisk saved me, nobody really knows how but she saved me. She somehow gave me a soul again, and now she's gone. Because I didn't believe her. I slowly open my eyes and pray that this was all a dream, that I'd wake up and find Frisk still asleep in her bed. I shake my head as the tears threaten to flow down my cheeks.
I wish I could go back in time and stop her from going, but only Frisk can do that. I couldn't even remember if that's how it worked. I just wish Frisk would come back home. I sigh as I stare out the window and towards the grey clouds covering the sky. It was raining anymore but it was still cloudy.
"I shouldn't have left to play poker." I throw my hands over my face, letting the tears fall down my fluffy cheeks as I force myself into a sitting position. "I didn't think she was actually serious! I mean, if she was going to run away why would she tell me?!" I almost scream from frustration as I remember back to last night, the conversation that I didn't really take seriously until now. Suddenly feeling sick and claustrophobic, I stand and head out. I needed a walk. I needed to get out of this house. I couldn't bare it without Frisk here right now. I didn't bother to grab my scarf or my beanie, it was still warm enough for my white, fluffy fur to keep me warm. I quietly close the door behind me and look at the sight in front of me. Monsters all over the place where running around, some wearing the purple police uniform and others just normal civilians. I head towards the edge of town to were to the bush-walking routes were and headed down the one that was the most protected from the sun.
It was a nice sight. The trees were awfully large and moss and fallen trees were everywhere. The place was crawling with life as well. Birds chirping, singing, flying around everywhere, it was beautiful!
'I wish Frisk could see this…' I shake my head, I went on this walk to forget the drama, not make it more painful! I continue to walk down the pathway until my legs where too tired to walk. I still continue though.
Once I'm far enough into the forest not to be seen, or heard, I scream as the tears quickly stream down my face and onto the mossy ground underneath me. I collapse to the soft, fluffy ground, my legs failing me. My eyes sting from my tears that are still flowing, I lost her, I lost my second sibling. I could only imagine how mum must feel, her third child, gone. And worse of all, it was all my fault. I was the cause of Frisk's disappearance. If I had just taken her seriously she might not have left. I watch as my tears hit the ground and listened to my surroundings.
Birds where chirping a soft melody as the sound of rushing water echoed through the small forest. I look around and find a small stream flowing past the giant trees that was covered in vines and moss. It was stunning, the trees seemed to go up forever and the leaves covered enough of the sun out that nobody could ever see this place from the sky but it let enough through that small rays of golden light broke through and made this small area feel like a secret hideout, which it most likely was. From the look of the path, nobody has been near this area for decades, centuries even. It was the perfect little hideout that nobody knew about. I started to hum along to the soft tune the birds were singing and laid down, I had stopped crying by now and closed my eyes. It was so peaceful, and surprisingly warm. I'm guessing the sun had come out as well, for what little snow was here was not only starting to melt, but glistening lovely in the rays of the sun.
"Mum is probably getting worried, well, more worried. I should head home." I sit up and force myself to leave the beautiful secret garden that was all my own. Usually if I found someplace like this, I shared it with Frisk. Even though we were sixteen, we loved quite hanging out places to play and study in. I walk back through the forest, only now realising that I had accidentally left the path, my heavy paw prints would forever show the way back though, once I finally reached town again, the sun had started it descent beyond the horizon and I quickly made it home before the snow would come. I make my way to my room, not really hungry as I flop onto my bed.
'Everyone will probably sleep with heavy hearts tonight.' I think as my mind flutters over to all our friends and family. 'Especially Sans.' It wasn't a secret that he loved her. He wasn't as good at hiding it as he thinks. Though did it really matter about hiding it? It was plain as day that Frisk loved him to, I guess it was too late for confessions now. I closed my eyes and imagined what it'd be like for everyone if they did confess, if Frisk didn't run away, if their happy ending could stay happy. I start to doze off to sleep, still thinking of our true happy ending, smiling happily as I dream of our family.
