Edited 11-22-2009

Disclaimer: I don't own it, sad times sad times.

I was listening to Feel this, by Bethany Joy Galeotti, look it up it's all about love and my story is a bunch of lovey dovey cheeriness.

Ch. 4. Feel this? (I am making this chapert 4 because the prologue counts as a chapter and it drives me nuts so I decided to catch up.

I was awakened by someone jumping on my bed,

"What the fuck?" I grumbled in my pillow.

It felt like I just passed out.

"Watch your mouth young lady or I will be forced to wash it out with soap, we need to get ready to go, you smell like se- OH MY GOD ROSE YOU OWE ME LUNCH!" Alice shrieked.

"What the fuck Alice?" I asked again.

"Oh she and I made a bet about your date with Edward and if you two were going to get your freak on last night or not, I should of known not to bet against Alice, but what can you do?" Rose explained.

"Wait you two bet about my sex life? You have known me for a total of 2 days and your betting about me?" I asked increduesly.

"Well Emmett is my boyfriend you will learn fast that he likes to gamble, some of it rubbed off on me I guess." Rosalie shrugged.

"So how was it?" she added.

"No, Bella get in the shower we are riding together to Seattle, the boys are riding together, so we can catch up." Alice informed us pushing me into my bathroom.

"Bells your outfit will be on your bed we are going downstairs to order the tickets to the movie tonight, I hope you like bowling because after we get some lunch we are going disco bowling, then a stroll down the boardwalk, after that we will eat dinner and hit the movie." she said as I waited for the water to warm up.

"Wait, Alice I am going to a movie with Edward after we hang out." I said.

"Oh no we are hanging out all day I asked Edward this morning before I left and he said he didn't care, so get cleaned up and hurry." she demanded walking out of the bathroom.

'He doesn't care? What the hell, I though he was exited to take me to the movies just the two of us. He got home and realized how incredibly boring you are. Shut up. Am I supposed to act like nothing happened last night? How I'm sure your more than a little sore Mrs. Encore Encore!' I thought over the dilemma while showering, still arguing with myself while I blow dried my hair. I was heartbroken and so glad that Alice decided the girls were taking a separate car.

"Bells are you ready yet, I want to do your hair?" Alice said knocking on my bedroom door.

"Yeah Alice come on in." I was still in my towel.

"I thought you said you were ready? What's wrong Bella?" she asked.

'Okay I can go and be the party pooper, or I can fake sick.

"Alice I am really not feeling well I think I'm coming down with something my stomach hurts." I lied while silently praying she would buy it.

"Oh ok, do you want me to call your mom? I could go get you some medicine?" she offered.

"No, we have some downstairs in the kitchen and I don't want to bother her she never gets out. You guys go and have fun I'm just going to go back to sleep." I told her.

After she and Rose left I crawled under the covers.

'Damn your such a damn cowered. I know I just can't look at him right now, I mean he told me that he had feelings for me, we gave eachother our virginity for christ's sake, and now he just doesn't even care. Well you hoe-slut it was your first date, you have been in town for a whole day and you already gave it up, of course he went home and realized how easy you were.' and cue the tears.

I woke up at 3 o'clock I couldn't tell if it was am or pm because of my black out blinds, my mouth felt fuzzy, and my stomach was grumbling. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth before heading downstairs to find something to eat, it was dark outside, so that meant the am. '

God your so depressed you slept the whole day away' my conscious laughed at me. I was going to have to do something about this, how can your inner thoughts make you feel like crap?'

I ate a quick bowl of cereal and was making my way back up the stairs when I saw an extra car in the drive way. It was covered in snow like it had been there for a while, I couldn't make out the color, but I could distinctly see a figure huddled up in the drivers' seat. I put a coat on and walked down the drive way, it wasn't until the door opened that I realized the car was a shiny silver Volvo.

"Bella. God I have been waiting for ever, I thought you would never wake up." Edward said as he walked up to me with his arms open.

"Don't touch me Edward." I snapped taking a step back.

"Bella what's wrong I can't hug my girlfriend, I don't care if you get me sick I haven't seen you all day." he sounded hurt.

"Well how can you even call me your girlfriend after telling Alice that you don't care weather we had a date tonight-last night what ever, that really hurt me Edward it's day two in out relationship and that hurt me really bad." I sniffled.

"Bella, have you met Alice? She wouldn't shut up about how we needed to let you meet Emmett and Jasper too because they were part of the gang I didn't have a choice, she was driving me crazy how can you believe I don't care about you, after what happened the other night?" he choked out.

I looked up and saw a tear running down his cheek.

'Damn I feel like a fucking idiot I should of known not to take Alice's words like that. He is probably going to think I am psycho, I can't beleive I made him cry.'

"Bella talk to me please?" he said.

"Oh, Edward I'm sorry I just I-I've never done this before and god I feel like a damn fool I lied and said I was sick because I thought you weren't going to want me, I'm sorry I thought that maybe you though I was easy and realized how incredibly not worthy I-" he cut me off by grabbing my face and kissing me with so much passion it felt like we were floating. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I shivered causing him to pull away.

"You should go inside, can I come over later or do you go to church?" he breathed.

"No I don't go to church, why don't you come in? Or do you have to go home?" I asked.

"No my parents think I'm at a friends, which is true they just don't know your a girl." he chuckled.

"Well come on, we can go back to sleep." I assured him leading him into the house.

'God you just made him cry and now your going to try to get laid? Hell yeah I'm sure we could both use it.'

"I'll just take the couch so your mom doesn't freak out." he whispered.

"Don't be silly you can sleep in my bed, and you don't have to whisper because she won't hear us, the attic is her room." I assured him.

We entered my room,

"Wow kind of Gothic don't you think?" he chuckled.

"Hey my favorite color is red, and black trim just fit." I sat on the edge of my bed.

"I like it alot." he said as he shrugged out of his jacket.

"Do you mind if I sleep in my boxers?" he asked shyly.

'Well it doesn't look like Bella is getting any, or is she?' I laughed to myself.

"No that's fine." he shed his clothes and we laid under the covers, he was as far away from me as my queen size bed would allow.

"Edward?" I whispered.

"Yeah?"

"Will you hold me?" I blushed.

"Of course." he scooted over and wrapped his arms around me. It was like we were pieces to a puzzle, his arms felt like home.

We were quiet for a few minutes just looking into each other's eyes before I broke the silence.

"I'm really sorry I jumped to conclusions Edward." I whispered.

"Don't be silly, I'm sorry you were hurt about what I said." he rubbed my back under my shirt, I gasped at the contact.

"Edward?" I whispered again.

"Yeah?"

"Will you kiss me again?" I asked.

"Bella you never have to ask to kiss your boyfriend." he answered before pressing his lips to mine.

The kiss started out sweet, and soft until I twisted my fingers into his hair. He moaned and shoved his tongue into my mouth. We ravished each other until we had to break apart for air, he trailed open mouthed kisses down my neck. I ran my hands across his back causing him to shiver and kiss me again. I broke apart,

"Edward I want you." I moaned into his neck.

"Bella what about your mom?" he whispered.

"She won't hear I promise please." I replied as I tugged his shirt over his head, I ran my hands up his bare back feeling the electric shock.

"Do you feel that?" he asked me.

"Yeah, what do you think it is?"

"I don't know, but I like it." he smiled as he took my tank top off.

"Me too, I've never felt this way before." I breathed as he cupped my breasts in his hands.

"Me neither, god your so beautiful Bella." he kissed me on my lips before ducking down and taking one of my nipples into his mouth causing me to gasp. He twirled his perfect tongue around my aureole and I moaned. He started to pull my shorts down and I realized that he was going to see me naked for the first time, quing the lovely famous Bella blush that didn't go unnoticed.

"Bella what is it?" he asked.

'Oh god what do I do? What if he doesn't like what he sees and leaves me.' I felt like crying.

"Bella if your not comfortable we can turn the lights off but I would like to see your beautiful body." he said passionately.

"No, I'm just nervous it's fine." I answered him truthfully,

'Is it normal to fall in love after 2 days? Well Einstein is it normal to do a stranger after half a day? Well no but I think I love h'

"Bella lets just go to sleep, Ill get your shi-"

I kissed him, with all of the new found love I could muster. He pulled my shorts and panties off at the same time, and allowed me to discard his boxers.

"Bella, your so beautiful." he whispered against my lips causing me to blush.

"Bella?"

"Yep?"

"Can I make love to you?" I stopped breathing,

'Oh! Maybe he loves me too. Don't push it, he probably just wants to be gentle. Which would mean that he cares. Bingo loser.'

"Of course Edward I would lo-."

"Bella I think I'm falling in love with you, I know it's too soon but I just really want to make love with you." he stared into my eyes, and I knew he meant every word.

"Say it, please." I whispered.

"I love you Bella Swan." he exlaimed loudly. My heart swelled,

"I love you too Edward." I told him before kissing him with all the passion I could muster.

"Make love to me Edward?" I asked.

"Of course."

He positioned his erection at my core, and told me he loved me before entering me.

"Oh god I love you too," I pulled his face to mine and our tongues clashed as he slowly thrust into me.

It was nothing like our first time, I was in control then but I let Edward take control. He would push all the way in, kiss me, and pull almost all the way out. I could feel my stomach tighten,

"OH GOD EDWARD I'M SO CLOSE OH GO-UNG." I shuddered but kept meeting his thrusts knowing he wasn't finished. He moaned into my neck.

"Oh Bella, oh I love yo- I'm cumming." he groaned as he quickened his thrusts, his release caused me to scream out as I came for the second time.

"That was incredible." he gasped as he rolled over and pulled me to his chest.

"Amen to that." I yawned.

"We should go to sleep it's like 4 in the morning and we are supposed to meet up with the group at noon if your feeling better." he said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Well you weren't feeling up to go out, Alice didn't want you to miss out so they decided we would just go out today." he explained.

"I feel so guilty for jumping to conclusio-" he stopped my guilt trip by kissing me.

"Just go to sleep Bella, it's over now. I love you beautiful."

"I love you too Edward." and we drifted off to sleep.

I was startled awake by a knock, and my door swinging open. Edward and I were still cuddled together in our birthday suits.

"Bella honey Alice is here she wanted to know if your feeling" Renee said as she turned the light on.

"Better what do you wan- what in the hell is going on in here?" she demanded realizing I had a guest, Edward was about to stand up but I guess he realized that he wasn't wearing anything.

"Mom don't be mad this is Edward Cullen my boyfriend." I explained.

'Dude where the hell did this confidence come from?' I wondered.

"Well like I said Alice is here, you two should get dressed and come downstairs for breakfast." Renee smiled as she closed the door.

'Okay I so saw her like grabbing Edward by his ear and throwing him out of the house stark naked, but she is smiling? Somethings up.' I thought to myself.

"We should get up baby I don't want your mother to have to home back up here." Edward said coolly.

"How can you be so nonchalant about this?" I laughed.

"Well your mom could of called the cops on me and she didn't so I'm happy, get up get dressed." he demanded.

Ten minutes later we walked down the stairs to find Alice and my mother pulling some very burnt muffins out of the oven.

"Well if I would of known this was what you were talking about when you said breakfast I would of stayed in bed." I joked. Renee blushed and Alice glared at me.

"Well we were talking and lost track of time, have a seat you two." my mother told us.

"Well I am going to go see what the rest of our crazy friends are doing meet us at Phil's at 12 o'clock sharp." Alice demanded holding back a smile as she made her way to the door.

"So, Edward tell me about yourself?" Renee said.

"Well Mrs. Swan I am Edward Cullen, I'm 18, a senior at Forks high. I was adopted when I was a baby by the Cullen-"

"And do the Cullens know where you are?" Renee asked.

"Well I told them that I was going to a friends house." he answered truthfully.

"Alright, I can't take it how stupid do you two think I am I come home this morning from Phil and Hal's and there is a mysterious car in my driveway?" she laughed.

"Wait, why did you get home so late?" I asked.

"Well mother, I drank a little too much and thought I would be an adult so I passed out in there guest room, only to come home and find my teenage daughter in bed with her boyfriend-naked as well." Renee laughed.

'Oh god why is she laughing?'

"Bella you should of seen your face when I opened the door I mean, Alice told me that it was Edward's car but I seriously thought you two would have clothes on." she continued to embarrass the living hell out of me.

"We will talk about this later Bella you need to go meet your friends, I want you home at 7 o'clock, we will order Chinese. Do you think that's a good time I mean is Chinese food okay to have the birds in the bees talk?"

Was she freakin crazy?


My heart is breaking you guys only one person reviews, and I see all of the hits. I am begging just one little review. I know the lemon kind of sucked but I wanted them to make love. The next chapter is going to be Renee trying to discuss where babies come from with Bella, this is Renee we are talking about so you know its going to be good.

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