Ryuk said that there is no heaven or hell for me. He was right. Where I am now is much worse than any hell could be.
I saw how the world ended up without me to rule it, and the poor pathetic people that are still alive have not changed their ways from before I came. Those fuckers forgot who their god-damned GOD was! My nails dug into the palm of my hand and what would normally cause it to bleed just left an indent and went back to normal.
The dead cannot bleed after all.
I would have attempted to punch a tree, there was no one who could see me vent the anger I had bottled up, but I already knew my fist would not collide with the wood, and instead go through.
I am not real now. The only people who believe in me are crazy.
I am not used to this, from having the whole world bow at my feet to having no one understand.
I wonder if L is a spirit too.
I like to think of different words that can be used describe me now. I used to be a human, a ningen, which also can be referred to as homo sapiens. Now, I can have a wide choice of words to choice from; ghost, spirit, phantom, Yurei, demon, apparition, ghoul, poltergeist, or banshee.
At the moment, I prefer ghost, the word has German roots in the words anger and fury. Which is what I feel towards the world.
I punch the tree in frustration, although I already know what will happen.
I will find a way to become God, even in the state I am in.
A/N I am not really sure if this seems like Light or not. I think he is a bit too...angry at the word. Like I said before, getting into his head and trying to be like L and Light is really hard...because I am not really all that similar to them. I think I may end up sticking with Mello and Matt oneshots from now on, hahaa I can understand them. Well this is the end of this odd muliti-chapter story. I hope you enjoyed it.
