From: Logan Echolls [l. frost. e#mailtome. org
sent: monday January 24
th 2017 11.55 AM
To: Veronica Mars [vmars#marsinvestigation. net]
Subject: Toxic…

V,

I realize that our relationship back then might be described as toxic. Or at the very least, unhealthy. But you're right, the time apart allowed us both to become somebody without the other. I know that I would have never figured out I wanted to be a pilot if we were together all through college. I wouldn't even have thought about it, because it meant, it means, being away from you for months at a time. It's not that it's not hard right now, and… I miss you like crazy. But at least this time you'll be there when I come back, right?

The way you left, even though it broke my heart, was probably the right thing to do. I would have begged you to stay or I would have come with you. But it wouldn't have worked. We were to screwed up back then. But, I fell deep. You know what I was like back then. I never felt worthy of love, and those abandonment issues were crippling at some times. And then you left… and I lost it.

I'm not trying to open old wounds, but like you said, honesty is key. After a few months, right about the time I heard you weren't coming back to Hearst, I decided that if I wanted to be worthy, lovable, I would have to start loving myself first. I pulled myself together and decided on a history and English major. You know how I love my Frost and Keats.

Hearst wasn't the same without you. And everywhere I was reminded of you. And you know the kicker? In like 4 of my classes, I had to face Piz! So, not only was I reminded of you everywhere, I had to share a classroom with your boyfriend. It wasn't until Christmas that year I found out you'd actually broke up with the guy. We could have started a club together. Because, getting over Veronica Mars might very well be an impossible task.

You were always in the back of my mind. I maybe shouldn't tell you this, but I drove up to Stanford once, that same Christmas I learned you and Piz had broken up. I sat in my car for hours, trying to get the nerve to find you. But I didn't. And I learned to live for myself, I'm pretty proud of that.

I always hoped that one day you'd come back, and see the me I became. And we would be like before, with less emotional distress. Just you and me, like I said that prom night long ago. Spanning years and continents. Lives ruined. Bloodshed. Epic. The murder charge wasn't part of the plan though.

L


From: Veronica Mars [vmars#marsinvestigation. net]
sent: Sunday January 24
th2014 4.38 PM
To: Logan Echolls [l. frost. e#mailtome. org
Subject: I'll be here…

L,

I'll be here.

And you were always lovable. Me leaving was to keep you safe, to keep us from destroying each other. But it was never because I didn't love you. I know I never said it back then, but I did.

Be safe out there! I miss you too…

V.