TRAITOR
Plot: After your brother betrays you do you love him or hate him? Forgive him or leave him to rott? Or do you meat the choices half way and do a mix of both?
Chapter four: Failure.
Leo's POV
"Why Leo?" they were simple words words that even a third grader would comprehend but to me they were a complex equation that would somehow show the true meaning of life. I could say anything I was feeling right now about the new tattoos on my forearms but I didn't want to share the pain with one of the few people who genually cared for me all the time now. Raph was looking me intently in the eyes silently asking the words over and over but I couldn't break the contact. After a few moments I admitted one of the reasons I could think of for doing it...
"Because..." I finally said eyes down cast not daring to look either brother in the eye,"That's what I am. Isn't it?" I didn't need to look up to know Raph was grinding his teeth and finally letting his anger break free.
"What is that s'posed to mean?" he snaps making both me and Don jump slightly to the bluntness of the question. I stayed still looking at the wall before me fingers pinching against the thick bandages.
"I betrayed you," I went on feeling Don shake his head from his spot telling me not to go on but I had to they didn't understand,"Master Saki," my fingers managed to snap open the bandages open at that, why did I keep referring to him like that? I didn't go on for a few seconds or maybe minutes, fingers tracing against the letters on my right arm. I only stopped when I left Raph's firm grip held my right arm away from my left but I kept my head down wanting to go on.
"Told me to steal for him and I did. He told me to kill and I did. He asked me to tell him my secrets and I told him. He wanted me to die that night and I was willing to do so...I am a failure to my father."
I seemed to have hit a nerve, I didn't even voice to him that he was absentmindedly applying too much pressure to my wrist as my words sunk in. I only slightly winced as I felt the bone snap which made Don begin to panic as he began snapping Raph's name and yanking at the tightly wound fingers.
"Raphael!" he bellowed finally managing to throw my brothers arm away from mine,"What is wrong with you?"
"You did what for him?" he snared ingnoring Don who had somehow managed to squeeze between us blocking me from him. I didn't need to ask for clarification, I knew he meant 'kill'. I remained silenet picking at my wound once more making the F on failure begin to bleed again. Don instantly grabbed my left hand holding it away from my right arm gently eyes fully on Raph now daring him to do anything. I could laugh, Don was protecting me from Raph. But I sided with Raph, whatever he did I derserved, so I casually added to the already lit fuse.
"Six times," I said plainly watching his face contort with anger once more,"And each time I believed him when he told me the death would be for the greater good."
"Six?" he snapped standing now making Don lean closer to me completly blocking him from my line of sight,"You counted? What is wrong with you?"
Don shot me a look daring me to say anything, I didn't say another word just focused on my sight on my limp right wrist feeling a deep satisfaction to the pain twinging from it...it hurt badly and made me shake and those annoying black blotches formed slightly around my vision but I just didn't care. I could relish in it forever.
"So what if he did that," Don barked at him rising as well standing directly in front of him now with his finger in his chest frankly scaring me now at how protective he was acting,"So have you and it wasn't his fault, you know as well as I do Saki was using him. So don't you dare sit here and put every single amount of blame of him...if you want to do that, go do it somewhere else. I won't sit here and allow you to do it here."
Raph didn't seem calm but he didn't seem to want to leave either so he took a seat at the desk Don had previosly been in, while Don remained where he was standing between me and him before he finally took a seat on the bed looking my right arm over. I cringed as he grabbed the broken wrist giving it a tender squeeze and looking it over thoroughly now. We sat in silence once more but being the wonderfull turtle Don was he broke it after a few more moments.
"Its just a simple fracture," he said smiling to me still holding the broken wrist gently,"Nothing too horrible that I can't fix."
I watched him work in silence my eyes more focused on Raph who looked like he could kill an innocent puppy at the moment. No words were spoken as Don tightened bandages around my wrist making me wince but still nothing was said. After it was finished Don rose going through one of the cabinets hanging above his desk before digging out pain medication, Raph watching him halfheartedly still trying to keep control of his temper and the urge to shake me until he got every answer he needed to get.
"How badly is the pain?" I snapped from my thought of being shook around by Raph like a rag doll and brought my attention back to Don.
"Not bad," I answered but even I didn't believe myself so it was no surprise that he gave me a critical look and dug out the strongest pain pills he had on hand.
"No," both of us paused looking back to Raph who rose from the chair for the first time in awhile,"I'm not sayin ya can't give him them, he probably needs em but we're going to clear some matters before he has a chance to pass out and not want to speak another word about it."
"Raph," Don growled setting the medication on the desk and once more stepping between us. He said nothing further but just by how tense he was and how his eyes slit I knew he was telling Raph not to start anything.
Raph chose to ingnore him looking straight to me and I gave him my full attention ignoring the pain hoping it wouldn't make me pass out again.
"How long were you with him?" he asked casually as if asking when I left for the store, I looked away not wanting to say but maybe something deep in me wanted to feel his wrath.
"Two months," I answered picking at the bandages again but Don was there to hold my left hand comfortingly as he sat on the edge of the bed next to me once more.
He clunted his fists and I knew he must be wondering how I could be with someone so long and not realize they weren't any good but in all truth I did trust him. I did think he was good...I was...I didn't want to admit even to myself that I was wrong and stupid, even now that I knew I was. Maybe it was the perfectionist in me.
"I did genuinely trust him," I said looking off,"He had a way with words...I can't describe it..." as soon as I started I wanted to stop thinking of all my stupid mistakes and how stupid I was...how I had done things for him without question betraying my sensei. I didn't even realize I started crying as I realized somewhere deep down in me I still slightly trusted him. What I would give for a time machine to go back in time to make certain I never met him...
Don pulled me into an embrace wiping my tears away and glaring to Raph,"We can interrogate him later can't we?"
Raph glared back but didn't say more I put my eyes down as he turned his attention back to me,"What did he say?" I wanted to answer him but I was too busy shaking my head trying to figure out how to forget what he had told me to.
"Leo," he went on but Don was already pulling me close to him telling me I didn't need to say anything. Soon their words were blending together in my head making me dizzy.
"Answer-don't listen to him-why?-he needs rest-fine-leave-no." I could go for some pain pills now, even if I didn't deserve them.
My eyes snapped open as the lamp next to the bed crashed to the floor, Don atop an even more angered looking Raph. I opened my mouth to tell them to stop before one of them killed the other but their screaming interupted me.
"GET OUT!" Don screams shoving him towards the door after both of them jumped from the floor.
"I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE!" Raph screams back shoving Don back who quickly regained his balance. I would have smiled if I wasn't so shocked, Don didn't break his promise to keep up his training...I've never seen him take on Raph this well before.
I blanked out for maybe a moment but that moment was good enough for it was already over with Don shoving Raph out the door. I watched him slightly stumble over the threshold and then with a flash the door slamed shut on him.
"OPEN THIS DOOR DONATELLO!'' Raph shouted from the other side of the door but Don didn't budge from his spot as he pushed harder on his side of the door. I felt strange watching Don hold Raph off, Don was strong don't get me wrong... but in terms of musle and strength Raph had always been the strongest so I don't know where he got the strength to hold him back and keep him out after he slid the lock in place. But maybe Don's next argument made him give up.
"GO AWAY RAPHAEL! YOUR MAKING THINGS WORSE!" And that was it, maybe Raph didn't care enough anymore. The roof shook slightly as his feet pounded up the stairs and upstairs and finally all went quiet once more as his door slammed shut. I knew at that momet the interrogation wasn't over, it was just done for the moment. Don glared at the ceiling for the longest time before taking a deep breath regaining his composure picking the pain killers off the ground where they must have ended up after the shoving fight. Silently he scooped them back into the bottle just leaving two on the desk and proceeded to walk towards the fridge he kept in here (for reasons that I didn't want to question fearing it would have something to do with stolen medical supplies he got from poor unsuspecting ambulances that might have lost a patient or two after losing them) and took out a water bottle. Even I didn't know how he managed to keep a soft smile on after all that, even I had to admit after my big fights with Raph I tended to have a twitching eye alongside my forced smile.
"Here," he said gently handing the pills and water to me,"It should help you sleep."
I just stared at them after taking them from him and asked him something that had been in the back of my mind,"Why do you still care for me after all I did?"
His smile dropped but his face didn't harden much. He sat on the bed next to me and urged me to take the mediaction and I did so without complaint then swigging down half the bottle of water not realizing how thirsty I had been. He took it from me as I began to feel very tired and made me lie down on the bed then slid in the bed next to me pulling the blanket tightly over both of us then snuggled beside me. It was ironic, I used to do the same thing on nights when one of my younger brothers had a particularly bad dream when we were young and had continued to do so with Mikey until about five months ago.
"Because you're my brother," he said pulling me closer as I began to sink into slumber,"And you would act the same no matter what heinous act I did."
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Au: Thanks to all those who have reviewed so far! ^^ You guys make me not want to give up on this. And sorry for not updating earlier but I've been doing allot of last minute christmas shopping lately...and it sucked! Do your shopping early people! People will knock you down for useless items!So if this chapter sucks, blame shopping! I was kinda tired writing and editing this chapter...
Oh and before I forget...Happy Holidays and hope you have a sweet new year!
