An: Still don't own them still not making money. Song is Have you ever by Brandy and it belongs to her.

I woke the next morning at Ranger's apartment and he was already gone. I threw on some yoga pants, t shirt, and flip flops I had there, grabbed my dress and left to go home. I got home and grabbed my small stereo, hooking it up in the bathroom for my shower. I grabbed some panties and a bra out of my bedroom and went back into the bathroom turning on the radio to an r&b station. Have you ever by Brandy came on and the beginning words made me cry.

Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry

Have you ever need something so bad, you can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

As much as it hurt that Joe cheated I knew I had never been in love with him. I stayed with him since I couldn't be with Ranger. Ranger was who I was in love with. I know he loves me in his own way of course. I wish there was some way I could make him understand how much I love him. He has my whole heart and has for a long time but I'm pretty sure I don't have his whole heart. I don't even know how to explain my love for him.

Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad

You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away, you'd give anything to make them feel the same

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say and you don't know where to start

The chorus washed over me again and continued to cry. The nights I wished I could sleep securely in his arms, the nights I too and turn all night thinking of him. How do you describe that to someone? How do come up with the perfect words for them to truly understand how you feel and how much you love them?

Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry

Have you ever need something so bad, you can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

As the second verse started I just let the shower try to wash away my tears. He held me last night and it probably meant nothing to him when it meant everything to me. He is the man I've dreamed of, looking into his eyes gives me comfort. He gives me comfort. I gave him my heart but he refuses to give me his. Sometimes I find myself dreaming of him loving me completely like I love him. Hoping Someday comes but not knowing if it ever will or if he cares enough for us to have our someday.

Have you ever found the one, you've dreamed of all your life

You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait for the day that they will care.

As the chorus started again I rinsed my body and the tears and got out and started drying off. I heard the locks tumble and felt the tingle on the back of my neck that alerted me to Ranger's presence. I wrapped the towel around me and opened the bathroom door. He was standing out side of it. I smiled at him and grabbed my brush and began to brush my hair with him watching me intently.

Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry

Have you ever need something so bad, you can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

I started singing the last verse and looked at him. We locked eyes as I sang and I only hope he understands that I mean the words. They are exactly how I feel. I pulled my bra and panties on with the towel still around me so he didn't get a free show.

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby

What do I gotta say to get to your heart

To make you understand how I need you next to me

Gotta get you in my world, cuz baby I can't sleep.

I continued singing the chorus to him. No matter how much I tried I couldn't hold back the tear that escaped my eye. Our eyes still locked he lifted his hand and wiped away my tears with his thumb. I smiled well as much as I could. I walked around him and into the bedroom to get dressed, he followed behind me and watched as I grabbed a pair of jeans and a t shirt.

Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry

Have you ever need something so bad, you can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

I finished getting dressed and walked into the bathroom unhooking my radio and putting it back in the living room. I sat down on the couch and Ranger cupped my face in his hands

"Yes." He said, confused about what he was talking about it I just looked at him.

"Huh" I know eloquent right.

"Yes I have been that in love" He replied. I looked at him and then looked away

"Oh" I knew he wasn't talking about me and I didn't want to hear his love for someone else. I kept my face turned away.

"Look at me Babe" I shook my head no "Please" he said which he knows I can't resist. I slowly looked at him and he cupped my face again and leaned in so gently when his lips were against mine he spoke again

"I am that in love with you. Only you Babe" And then he kissed me sweet and full of love. My heart felt like it could explode with love.