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Chapter 4: Destruction


At the end of the week, Neji and Itachi were sitting in the living room, watching a movie. Neji still felt bad for what happened and for his lies. He and Sasuke had acted very strange around each other. Sasuke had more like... been angry. And he had all reason to. He had to hide things from his brother. Neji sighed now.

"I love you Itachi." He said, smiling a bit at Itachi. He wanted him to know. Itachi would find it out in the end. The best Neji could do was telling Itachi that he loved him... and that he didn't cheated with Sasuke because he didn't love Itachi.

Itachi looked at Neji a little surprised and then smiled. "I love you too." He said. "Come here." He signed for Neji to come and sit closer.

Neji smiled as he moved closer to Itachi, so he was sitting against him.

"Thank you.." He said, looking at Itachi lovingly.

Itachi looked back the same. "You are absolutely the best boyfriend I ever had." Itachi said and moved his hands into Neji's hair, kissing his face softly.

"Thank you Itachi..." Neji said. "That's sweet of you.. I'm glad that I can say the same.." But he knew that he wasn't the best boyfriend Itachi ever had. What kind of boyfriend cheats with your brother...?

"Thank you." Itachi said and kissed down Neji's neck softly and pulled Neji closer. At that moment they suddenly heard something drop in the floor from Sasuke's room. It sounded like glass and they could hear Sasuke swearing.

Neji frowned as he looked at the stairs.

"...I think we should go to him." He said as he looked at Itachi again.

"I think we should too." Itachi said a little worried and then hurried himself upstairs. "Sasuke are you ok!?" He yelled upstairs. There came no answer, just more swearing.

Neji hurried after Itachi upstairs. Would Sasuke be ok?

Itachi ran into Sasuke's room now, and started to swear as he saw the blood. Sasuke had cut himself by accident and was only making it worse by trying to clean it.

"Keep sitting there Sasuke, don't touch something." Itachi said and then hurried towards the bathroom, grabbed the first aid kit and then walked back towards Sasuke. He knelt down next to him and started to clean the little wounds on Sasuke's hands. "Neji can you clean up the glass?"

Neji nodded.

"Sure." He said and started to gather the pieces of glass. Sasuke had let an empty bottle fall onto the ground, so it seemed.

"..I'm f-fine." Sasuke said as he almost fell back as he tried to pull his hand away. In his free hand he was holding another bottle of beer and poured some of it down his throat. He was obviously very drunk right now.

"Oh come on." Itachi said, as he put the bottle away again. He grabbed back Sasuke's hand and bound it with some bandages.

Neji was now putting the pieces of glass in the trashcan.

"Is he ok?" He asked.

"Yeah he is." Itachi said and stood again when he was done. "Can you perhaps watch him while I get some more bandages from the shop? We probably have to change them soon."

Neji wanted to say no but then he guessed that would be too.. obvious.

"..Alright." Neji said, nodding.

"Thanks." Itachi said, nodding. "I'll be right back." With that, Itachi quickly went out of the room, ran off the stairs and then left the house. Neji heard the door close now and looked at Sasuke.

Sasuke stared back at him with a drunken look. He then stood up shakily, suddenly launching forward and pulled Neji with him on the bed. He then turned Neji around, sitting on top of him and started kissing Neji, like he had done a week ago.

Neji gasped and was so surprised by this that he immediately started kissing back. His instinct told him to. It felt good, so he kissed back, with his mind numb, for a moment.

Sasuke pushed down onto Neji, grabbing Neji's hands with his bloody one and pushed them above Neji's head. He was so drunk, he didn't even remember his brother was gonna come home soon.

Just as a moan came up out of Neji's throat he realised what he was doing. What he was doing again. Oh shit... And Sasuke was drunk, again. They were together on this bed, again. It was feeling good.. again. Shit! He tried to absorb this all, while he kept kissing back.

Sasuke kept kissing Neji and pushed Neji's shirt over his head, for a moment pulling back from the kiss, then continuing it as soon as the shirt was gone.

Neji now came into action as he gave Sasuke a huge shove.

"S-Sasuke we can't do this again!" Neji said now. Shit, he had to get out of here, else his feeling of guilt would even get worse and Sasuke would even get more angry at him.

Sasuke didn't listen though as he pushed Neji's hands down again and kissed down Neji's jaw line. He wasn't hearing much of what Neji said, nor was he thinking.

"Sasuke!" Neji snapped as he started to struggle. "It's not funny anymore." They really had to stop now. That shop was really close and no one came there this time of the day.

Sasuke still didn't listen as he kissed down Neji's neck down, travelling down to his nipples and pushed his hips onto Neji's. He wasn't listening and he didn't care that Neji called to stop. He wanted it and he would get it.

Neji let out a moan of protest, although it felt good. Damn it. He started to struggle really hard and roughly now. He tried to kick Sasuke off him and tried to move his head away. He couldn't hurt Itachi. He had to stop this before Itachi came home.

Sasuke wasn't budging though. He was just continuing as he kept Neji pressed against the bed. He licked over Neji's nipples, then moved up again and kissed Neji in his neck, sucking and licking over it too. His hips started to slightly rub against Neji's now.

Neji now started to panic. Sasuke held him really tightly, he couldn't get away. And Itachi would be home very soon. He kept tugging at Sasuke's hands and kept kicking and bucking beneath Sasuke, but it had no use.

"Let go of me Sasuke!" Neji yelled now. "Fuck off!" Perhaps anger would work. Perhaps that would wake Sasuke up. Made him realise what he was doing.

"...What are you doing!?" Came Itachi's voice suddenly. He was standing in the doorway and stared at what was happening. His little brother was...on top of Neji.. kissing him.. ravaging him...with his lover? Was he trying to..? Neji wasn't looking very willing. Itachi moved to the two and pulled Sasuke off of Neji roughly and helped Neji up. "Are you ok? Did he hurt you?" He asked worried and confused.

Neji looked at Itachi, still panting a little and then nodded. He himself was confused too, he couldn't really think straight at the moment.

Itachi now turned around and stared at Sasuke, before pulling him up and pushing him against the wall.

"What in heavens name do you think you are doing?!" Itachi snapped, looking at Sasuke furious.

"Let go of m-me! I can d-do what I want!" Sasuke yelled. He really hadn't forced it onto Neji, he just forgot what he had done for a second. He was just to drunk to listen to Neji and too drunk to watch what he was saying. Sasuke pushed against Itachi, but it had no use.

"Do you think you can just ravage my boyfriend like that?!" Itachi yelled, now slapping him. "Have you lost your mind?!"

Neji was looking at it with his hands before his mouth. Shit... he should say that it wasn't Sasuke's fault, that they did this before and that he only struggled because of Itachi.. But... he couldn't... he really couldn't...

Sasuke grabbed to his cheek and stared at Itachi angrily. "D-don't hit me!" He yelled. "I didn't d-do anything bad!"

"YOU FUCKING RAVAGED MY BOYFRIEND!" Itachi screamed now. He'd never felt so angry in his whole life. How dare Sasuke. How 'dare' he.

"..I-Itachi calm down.." Neji said, trying to make Itachi stop. But Itachi didn't listened. He was glaring at Sasuke furiously.

"STOP YELLING AT ME!" Sasuke yelled back and pushed Itachi away, only to fall forward, feeling some of the glass Neji had failed to clean up go into his hands. He was too drunk to care though and grabbed to a half full bottle of beer.

Itachi growled at Sasuke now.

"Yes go drink again!" Itachi snapped. "I don't fucking care. Come on Neji." With that he grabbed Neji's hand and dragged him with him, out of Sasuke's room. Neji bit his lip. Shit. Shit, shit, shit. He was such an asshole for keeping quiet.

Sasuke pulled himself up a little by the bed, tears streaming down his face. He threw the bottle against his wall out of anger and put his head on the bed. He couldn't think anymore as the alcohol was rushing through his veins.


The same time, Itachi was storming down, holding Neji by the hand. "I can't believe him! Are you ok? Dammit! How dare he try something like this!?" Itachi yelled as they got downstairs and he turned around to Neji.

"I'm fine Itachi..." Neji softly said. "Calm down." He looked a bit worried. He'd never seen Itachi this angry.

"How can I calm down when that drunken brother of mine decides he wants to ravage my boyfriend and goes on even when he says he doesn't want it!? He could've fucking raped you or whatever!" Itachi yelled, pulling Neji into a sudden hug, trying to make sure he was alright.

Neji hugged back and bit his lip.

"...He couldn't help it, he was drunk." He said after they stood like this for a while.

"He has a brain even when he's drunk! And he should stop when you say no and start to kick him! He should know better! He's just a bastard." Itachi mumbled, still angry as he stroke through Neji's hair.

Neji was silent now. God damn it... now Itachi was mad at Sasuke and Sasuke just... was drunk... and Neji had been so stupid to kiss back and let Sasuke grab him. He should've pushed him away in the first place, the first moment Sasuke started kissing him. Shit. SHIT.

"Let's sit down." Itachi said and pulled Neji with him on the couch. "I will just talk to Sasuke once he's sober and tell him what I think." Itachi said. He had never been this angry with Sasuke in his entire life.

Neji nodded. God damn it. He screwed up. Really bad.


The next morning, Sasuke had dressed and he could hear Itachi and Neji on Itachi's room. He remembered what had happened the day before, he had the wounds to prove it and had decided he wanted to apologise. At least to Itachi, because Neji.. well...Neji had just given him the blame. And that was not worth any type of apology. He walked to Itachi's room and knocked, waiting for an answer.

"...Come in." Itachi's voice came from behind the door.

Sasuke opened the door, having poorly bandaged his own hands the other night, he had to be careful with them. He looked at Itachi, ignoring Neji. "..I'm sorry about yesterday." He said.

"You're 'sorry'?" Itachi spat. "You have to shame yourself that you even dare to show your face now."

Neji was standing up from the bed now and put on his pants, frowning. He really wanted to tell the truth now. But he just couldn't...

"..I was drunk.." Sasuke said as he looked at Itachi. He wanted to tell Itachi the truth but.. something was stopping him.

"You still have brains Sasuke!" Itachi yelled now. "You could've raped him! Do you even realise that?!"

He felt furious that Sasuke was using that stupid excuse again. That he was drunk. He'd had it with that.

"..It's not like you haven't done anything similar before." Sasuke snapped angry. He wasn't angry at Itachi though. Just that he had to take the blame. Why should he take the blame? Why wasn't Neji just honest?

"And we already spoke that through!" Itachi yelled, glaring at Sasuke. "That's no reason to do the same! God damn it! And you weren't with her, I didn't even knew that you liked her! You 'do' know that I like Neji, I love Neji!"

"Well that's not mutual anyway! Besides, you 'did' know because I told you that!" Sasuke yelled furious. Why would he keep it a secret? Why did he have to bleed and cry and get yelled at for it? Neji didn't say no to him when Sasuke was drunk.

Neji's head snapped up now. Shit.. Was Sasuke going to tell it? No, he couldn't. He wouldn't. Right?

"What?" Itachi asked while his eyes narrowed. "What are you talking about?"

"Oh you heard me! He never said no to me! He kissed back before he started pushing me away! Because he didn't want to make the same mistake again!" Sasuke yelled. He couldn't keep it a secret anymore. He just couldn't.

Itachi stared at Sasuke, dumbfounded. He then turned to Neji. "..Is that true?" He asked in disbelief. This couldn't be true...it couldn't...Neji could never cheat on him...with his brother.. right?

Neji stared at Itachi now, silent. God damn it... he couldn't lie now.. that would be terrible. He moved his eyes towards the ground while he bit his lip. He knew that Itachi would understand what that meant...

"..So you're saying..." Itachi grabbed to his head, feeling a massive headache coming up. "And you just let Sasuke take the blame for it? He was drunk, he didn't really knew what he was doing!" Itachi yelled. How dare Neji do this? How dare he cheat and then blame it on Sasuke like that?

"...I'm so sorry..." Neji whispered.

He didn't knew what else to say. He even hoped that Itachi would beat him up. He deserved it. More then ever.

Itachi just stared at him for a while. He was confused, hurt but most of all, furious. Neji was not at all what he thought he was. "..Out." He finally hissed.

Neji looked at Itachi now while he felt tears come up in his eyes. He had to go back to the streets again. And even worse.. Itachi didn't wanted him anymore.

"...I-Itachi, I only didn't say it because I didn't wanted to lose you..." Neji said as he softly grabbed Itachi's hand. He bit his lip.

Itachi pulled his hand away and then slapped Neji. "I said out! Out of my house! I took you in because I thought you were a nice honest guy! But you're not! You're a bastard who sleeps with people and then makes the other, who was drunk, get the blame for it! HOW DARE YOU!? OUT!" Itachi said as he pointed his finger to the door, glaring at Neji furious.

Sasuke stared at the two. Itachi was kicking Neji out? Why? He thought he would never do something like that. On the other hand, Neji deserved it. Neji was dishonest and just a bastard. But even through all this, Sasuke felt bad for Neji.

Neji looked at him as he started to cry now.

"..C-Can I get my stuff t-then..?" He asked. He deserved the slap. He really did. It didn't even sting, the only place that stung was his heart. "..I'm s-so sorry..." He whispered. He didn't even wanted to try to say that it wasn't his fault. It was true that Sasuke forced it on him, but he hadn't stopped Sasuke... and that made it his own stupid fault.

Itachi turned around, grabbed the tiny backpack Neji had, pushed all his stuff in there and then pushed it into Neji's arms. "There! Now leave!" He yelled as he gave Neji a push to the door of his bedroom. Sasuke stared at Neji angry, but somewhere, somehow he felt so sorry for Neji.

Neji looked at Itachi for one last time and then nodded as he really broke down now. He shakily left the room and went off the stairs. He was such an idiot. So stupid...

Sasuke looked after Neji and then turned to Itachi, worried. "..Are you ok?" He asked.

"...I'm going to the city..." Itachi muttered now, as he heard the door close. Damn that Neji. That fucking bastard.

"..Are you sure? Itachi I'm really sorry...I should've never done it.." Sasuke said. What would Itachi say? What would he do?

"...You couldn't help it, you were drunk.." Itachi silently said, as he walked out of his room now. He had to go to the city, to buy it. He had to buy it. He needed it.

"..Itachi please.. just sit down and take a drink.." Sasuke said as he walked after Itachi. He wouldn't really..? He shouldn't have said anything. Neji was the only thing keeping Itachi from it.

"..I'm not going to drink Sasuke." Itachi said. "..You know that I need something else." He walked off the stairs now.

"I know, that's why I don't want you to go now.. Itachi please.." Sasuke said as he kept following Itachi. It must be his fault. Neji just...didn't say no, but he never had to if he would've never jumped on Neji like that.

"Shut up, you are doing the alcohol too." Itachi snapped now, as he put on his jacket and grabbed his wallet.

"Alcohol isn't drugs!" Sasuke yelled, desperate to keep Itachi home. Drugs was so much worse then the drinking. It was so much more dangerous.

"It's what I need." Itachi muttered and then opened the door. "Go to your drinks again Sasuke."

"I don't want to, Itachi please.." Sasuke said. He didn't want Itachi to fall back into this routine. To have them fall back in it.

Itachi walked out now and closed the door. He felt betrayed. By Neji 'and' Sasuke. Sasuke did have sex with Neji. As he concluded from what Sasuke said. God damn it. He lost Neji. Itachi felt tears prick in his eyes now. God damn it. He had lost Neji.

Sasuke stared at the door and felt tears spring to his own eyes. He had ruined everything for Itachi.. everything. It was all his fault. He sat down on the stairs and waited. All he could do was wait for Itachi to return the way he was after their parents had died. And he had wished for so long he would never have to see that again.


Three hours later, the door of the house opened again and Itachi came in. He didn't say anything as he walked towards the living room and sat down on the couch.

Sasuke was on his room now and heard Itachi enter. He immediately ran downstairs to his brother. "Itachi...Itachi are you ok?" He asked, seeing that image again. He was now by Itachi's side and stared at him. Dammit.

Itachi just stared at his knees now. He didn't even react as talked to him. He didn't feel anything, didn't think of anything.. He was just empty.

"..You said you wouldn't do this to yourself anymore.." Sasuke said as he lay down Itachi on the couch. He felt tears in his eyes again, but blinked them away.

Itachi stared at the ceiling at the moment. He could hear some vague echoes of Sasuke's speaking, but didn't recognise the words. It was too soft. He was very calm at the moment and almost fell asleep.

Sasuke sighed as he got up and got a blanket, then covered Itachi with it. He stroke some strand out of Itachi's face and stared into his bloodshot eyes. "..I'm so sorry...you have no idea.." He softly said.

And Itachi again, didn't react. The only thing that happened was that his eyes rolled back now, together with his head. His face was getting paler too.

Sasuke stared at Itachi's face in shock now. Shit...had he overdosed? Sasuke quickly got up and shot to the phone, dialling the alarm number. Itachi was in danger.

In the mean time, Itachi's heart beat was getting faster and faster. He really had had an overdoses.

"Itachi stay with me. Don't fall asleep. Itachi!" Sasuke yelled as he waited for the phone to be picked up. They had to move quick. Itachi was slipping away. He couldn't lose Itachi.

Itachi tried to stay awake but then his head rolled completely at the side and his eyes closed. He had slipped away into unconsciousness.

Sasuke screamed for his brother now, but it had no use. He screamed for the ambulance. They came ten minutes later. Itachi was rushed to the hospital. All Sasuke could do was watch and stay by his side.


A few days later, Itachi was slowly waking up. Everything sounded a bit numb.. dazed... like something was covering his ears. He could vaguely hear two voices.. it sounded like they had an argument. Itachi tried to focus a bit better.

"...Then what's wrong with him, un?" He could hear one strange voice say. "Would you shut up?" Another voice asked. That had to be Sasuke. Itachi opened his eyes now and moaned against the light he suddenly received. Damn it. He felt like his head was going to explode.

Sasuke's head snapped towards Itachi. He was awake. Finally. "Itachi? Are you ok?" Sasuke asked as he jumped up and put his hands on Itachi's arm.

Itachi nodded softly. He moaned as he tried to move his head up. There was Sasuke, looking at him very concerned. And there was some... blonde dude looking at him too. The guy had a blonde ponytail and big blue eyes.

"Hello un." The guy said as he noticed Itachi looking at him.

"Itachi are you ok?" Sasuke asked again, sounding concerned.

Itachi looked at the guy a bit confused and then looked at Sasuke again.

"...I guess..." He whispered. He had lost his voice a little. "...What happened...?"

"..You.. well...you overdosed.." Sasuke softly said as he looked away a little. Deidara looked at Sasuke shocked.

"...Oh.." Itachi said now. He was silent for a minute. "..Oh shit.. N-Neji..."

"...Neji's gone Itachi." Sasuke said as he stroke over Itachi's forehead, removing the sweat a little.

"...I know.." Itachi said, biting his lip. "..Damn it..." He missed Neji already. He wondered if he was ok. And somewhere, he hated Neji too.

"..It's ok Itachi..." Sasuke said as he now stroke through Itachi's hair. "Who's Neji un?" The blonde guy asked.

Itachi frowned as he looked at the guy.

"Who are you?" He asked.

"Oh, my name is Deidara un. You're Itachi right?" Deidara said and gave Itachi a smile. Sasuke rolled his eyes. "Ignore him, he's annoying." He said.

"...Yes I'm Itachi." Itachi said, with one eyebrow pulled up. "...When did you join Sasuke?" Itachi asked as he saw that Deidara's wheelchair was practically standing next to Sasuke.

"I don't know un. Just now. So who's Neji?" Deidara asked. Sasuke shot him a glare.

"Go away Deidara." He said, not really being a people person.

"My ex." Itachi muttered. "And come on Sasuke, he's just being nice."

"Yeah Sasuke, I'm just being nice un." Deidara said and smirked at Sasuke. "He's just awake, he doesn't need you bothering him immediately." Sasuke snapped.

"Hmm." Itachi hummed as he laid down a bit better. "...I'm a bit hungry. How long have I been out of it...?"

"Three days." Sasuke said. "I could get you something to eat if you want."

"..If it's possible, gladly." Itachi said. "I feel a bit well, weak." He looked away. He never liked admitting something like that. But his stomach started to make serious noises.

Sasuke smiled. "I'll get you something.. and Itachi...I'm really sorry.." Sasuke softly said as he looked away.

"...You were drunk Sasuke..." Itachi muttered.

"..I still should've never done it.. can you forgive me?" Sasuke asked, afraid Itachi would say no. Deidara stared at the two of them confused.

"...It doesn't matter now anymore anyway." Itachi said, shrugging. His stomach protested again and he looked at it frustrated. He didn't wanted to think of Neji anymore. Of the image that he had seen.

"..I didn't ask that.." Sasuke said as he looked down. He had screwed up.

"...I have to think of it Sasuke." Itachi said. "Can you understand?"

"..Yes..." Sasuke said. "..I'll get you something to eat.." He then said, turned around and hurried outside. It hurt him to see Itachi like that.. it hurt him that he couldn't say he forgave Sasuke.

Itachi sighed as he looked at the ceiling. Damn it.

"Are you ok un?" Deidara asked, a little worried over Itachi. What had that conversation been about?

"Yeah I am." Itachi said, nodding. "...I just.. caught my boyfriend a couple of days ago with someone else." He kept looking at the ceiling.

"No really? Who would want to cheat on someone like you un?" Deidara asked shocked.

"...Well my ex-boyfriend hm." Itachi muttered. "...With my brother." He didn't knew why he was telling this. But he had to throw it out.

"..What? No wonder you can't forgive him un. That's horrible. Why?" Deidara asked as he looked at Itachi sympathetically.

"He was drunk." Itachi said, shrugging. "..It's hard for me to forgive him just like that."

"Of course it is.. although you can do stupid things when you're drunk un." Deidara said and laughed a little, trying to ease the mood.

"So it seems." Itachi muttered. "I do want to have a good conversation with him about this. Don't let him know that you know about this ok, I just had to let it out and tell someone."

"Of course. That's what hospital partners are for un." Deidara said and half smirked, half smiled at Itachi now.

Itachi snorted.

"Oh?" He asked.

"That's what the last person who was here said, but he was a moron un. I just like helping people." Deidara said and smiled.

"That's nice of you." Itachi said, smiling a bit. This guy was nice.

"I am nice un. If you need to talk, I'm there. Literally, I can't go anywhere so yeah. Un." Deidara said and laughed.

"Alright, thanks." Itachi said. "How come you are here?"

"I broke my leg. I just tripped over my leg and it happened. I can be very clumsy." Deidara answered.

"Hmm so it seems." Itachi said. "Over your leg?"

"Yeah, I'm clumsy." Deidara said. "But I can handle it most of the time. I just got unlucky un."

"I guess." Itachi said, sweat dropping a little. "So how old are you?"

"I'm 21. And you un?" Deidara asked and smiled at Itachi.

"You are?" Itachi asked, surprised. "I'm 21 too." How could this guy ever be 21? He looked like he was... eighteen or something. But that would mean that he was only one year older then Neji.. Hm.. that wasn't right either.

"Yeah why? Do you think I look old or something?" Deidara asked offended and raised his head. He then smirked at Itachi.

"No you look young." Itachi said, smirking too. "But on the other side, perhaps I look a bit old. I think that's it."

"You don't look old, you look good." Deidara said bluntly.

"Thanks." Itachi said, a bit surprised about the compliment. "Who'd say that to someone who just woke up after an overdoses."

"Yeah well that just means it can only get better right. If I had just woken up you probably would've run away screaming." Deidara joked and laughed a little.

Itachi snorted.

"Now it's almost like you wear make-up or something." Itachi said. "I bet it won't be that worse. Damn, did Sasuke get a heart attack or something?"

He looked around to see if Sasuke was already arriving with the drinks.

"I think he might be scared to come back." Deidara said as he looked at the door.

"He has all reasons hm." Itachi joked now.

"Yeah." Deidara said and joked. "No but seriously. It's not everyday you have to face your brother who you kind of betrayed and who isn't sure whether or not he wants to forgive you." Deidara said in one breathe.

"Yeah true." Itachi muttered. "But well, he said he was going to get something and it takes him very long. Do you want to see a picture of Neji and me?" He didn't knew why he asked this of Deidara, but he just wanted to... share it.

"Oh...sure." Deidara said. What a weird guy. Well, he might as well look at the picture.

Itachi took his wallet from beside his bed and opened it. He took a picture out of it, where he and Neji were on, both smiling. Neji was standing behind him and hugged him, so that his face was next to his own. Itachi looked at it for a moment before giving it to Deidara.

"...Does he look like a guy to you who'd.. cheat on you?" Itachi asked. If he just saw Neji's face, he just.. couldn't believe it. It couldn't be true.

"..No...You look good together." Deidara said as he looked at the picture. That Neji guy looked sweet.. At that moment the door opened and Sasuke walked in, giving Itachi a drink. He didn't say anything, just looked at the floor.

"Thanks Sasuke." Itachi said, nodding to Sasuke. Then he looked at the picture again. It was so hard to believe that Neji would actually do something like this. And damn it, why in heavens name did he throw him on the streets again?

Sasuke bit his lip and then pulled up a chair, sitting down on it, face away from Itachi. He couldn't stand this. Couldn't stand not knowing what to do or say or how to act. It was horrible.

"...What's wrong Sasuke?" Itachi asked as he stared at Sasuke for some time. He understood why Sasuke was upset but... that wasn't a reason to act like this. On the other side.. It was Uchiha Sasuke who was doing this.

"I'm wrong." Sasuke snapped. Dammit, how was he supposed to act right now? Should he be angry, offended, hurt, should he even care? Relationships were so complicated.

"Of course not." Itachi said with a frown. "Look, I'm not mad at you, but I do feel betrayed. I lost someone I really care about and I know he made the biggest mistake and that you were drunk but you did do it. And if you do it when you are drunk, it means that you would want it when you are sober, but just don't do it. And that's what irritates me. Did you like Neji?" He really wanted to know. He couldn't help it. It was just so vague. What did Sasuke feel for Neji?

Sasuke stared away. "I didn't like Neji.." He snapped, not sounding as convincing as he hoped it would sound. This was just all so messed up.

"Sasuke please, I have the right to know.." Itachi said, looking at Sasuke.

"I don't want you to get mad." Sasuke said, still looking away with an angry look. He really was angry. At himself. Most of all he was confused though.

"I'll only get mad if you won't tell me." Itachi said. He wondered if Sasuke really liked Neji.. perhaps lusted after him. The last thing wouldn't surprise him, Itachi knew that Neji definitely was the type Sasuke liked.

"...Fine I liked him ok. Happy now?" Sasuke snapped. Dammit, why did Itachi always have to know him so well? Why did he never give up when something was going on? It was so annoying. It made him feel weak.

"..Alright." Itachi said, nodding. "Then I just know why this happened. I already thought something like that since you almost acted.. jealous when Neji and I were together."

"Well it sucks. I'm a terrible brother for even liking your boyfriend and then I get drunk and make him cheat on you and I betray you and it's just all fucked up and we'll never be the same again." Sasuke ranted as he turned his chair away from Itachi, facing Deidara's bed.

"...We didn't change the other time Sasuke." Itachi said. "I guess this was the best payback you could give me. But, tell me... did I do the right thing with kicking him out and breaking up with him? Did he even.. have a choice those times with you? I know you remember everything what happens if you're drunk.."

"..I don't know." Sasuke said and carefully turned around, still not looking at his brother though. "He had a choice.. he protested first but then he wanted it.. told me that he did...So, well.. he just didn't stop me...Not like the second time." Sasuke said, feeling even more guilty.

" ..What happened the second time then?" Itachi asked. "And he did protest the first time?" He really needed to know. Just to know. He wanted to know how everything happened so he could think about it.

"...He protested first.. kind off.. well he kissed back every time then changed his mind and I kissed him again and he finally caved I guess...the second time...well I mean.. you saw what happened right.. he started kicking and screaming and stuff..." Sasuke said, feeling bad about the last part. Feeling bad about it all.

Itachi slowly nodded.

"..It seems that he liked you too Sasuke.." Itachi muttered.

"..No he didn't...he liked you. He loved you. I was just...for lust...as always.." Sasuke softly said, pulling up his knees and looked away.

" ..Oh Sasuke..." Itachi softly said, looking at Sasuke full of compassion. "Come here.." He spread his arms now, wanting Sasuke to come closer. Wanting to comfort him. He was Sasuke's big brother after all.

Sasuke hesitated for a while, then jumped up and launched himself into Itachi's arms. Both didn't even notice Deidara had left them alone for a while.

"..I'm so sorry..." Sasuke whispered, holding onto his brother.

"..Don't be... I made the same mistake.." Itachi whispered. "...I know you liked Sakura.. I know you did... And I know how many nights you cried over it.. Shh... we did the same.." Itachi pressed his eyes shut as he hugged Sasuke tightly.

"...But you were in a relationship with Neji...and I ruined it.." Sasuke said. He knew Itachi was right somewhere. And that he hadn't felt bad about it before, because Itachi really did the same kind off. But he still felt too guilty to admit it.

"...He liked you too.." Itachi muttered. "...I could see it. He.. god damn it he really liked you.." Itachi bit his lip now. Damn that Neji. He knew that Neji had felt attracted to Sasuke from the first moment they saw each other.

"..He didn't...It was just lust.. it's always just lust.. He loved you." Sasuke said as he stroke his hands through Itachi's hair softly.

"...He told me that he'd never laughed so much with someone then with you Sasuke." Itachi said as he felt tears coming in his eyes. "I knew that he liked you.. I just.. didn't wanted to believe it and told myself different things.. He loved me indeed, but he liked you. I've seen his face as you came in. It... became happier."

"..Not true.." Sasuke as he pulled back a little and looked his brother in the eyes. "He loved you...he didn't wanna lose you for me. Don't you think that if he wanted me more then you, he would've done exactly that?" Sasuke said. He just couldn't believe that Neji would like him at all. Not that way. Not really.

"..I didn't said that he wanted you more then me.." Itachi muttered, looking away. "..He wanted me.. but he wanted you too."

"..Just for sex. Or a good laugh. He wanted you for all the rest. And for the sex too...Itachi don't get yourself down." Sasuke said as he grabbed Itachi's face and wiped a tear away that had escaped Itachi's eye.

"Sasuke god damn it when do you ever see that you're a guy everyone would fall for?" Itachi snapped. "You are everything they want, especially for ukes! Neji longed for you, I could see that. And not only in sex or for a good laugh, but for everything. He was sad when you went upstairs and happy when you were downstairs. He asked me where you were if you weren't at home, he even waited for you with breakfast!" Damn it, it hurt so much. He loved Neji so much. And he had just lost him like that.

"I'm sorry! It's just hard ok! It's hard to accept that people would want me! Not just for my body!" Sasuke yelled back, frustrated and confused. He didn't know what else to do.

"Just do it damn it!" Itachi snapped. "I can't stand it that you can get more people to like you then me and still say you don't."

"...You wouldn't believe that either if you were me." Sasuke snapped and stood up from the bed, walking towards the door. Dammit, he needed a drink. Or a smoke. Even a smoke would be welcome at times like these.

"I'm sorry Sasuke." Itachi muttered now. "It's just hard to accept."

"..You can have anyone you want...Neji's just one person.. You got Sakura from me right.. and it never happened before.. You had bazillion boyfriends, I had none." Sasuke said as he stopped walking, but didn't turn around.

"That was because you never accepted anyone." Itachi muttered. "..And that time, I didn't knew that you liked Sakura." Itachi sighed. They had spoken so often about this..

"Well you still got her and I didn't...Just shows you that I don't get more people then you.. She didn't want me and I knew her for years and then you met her and you got her.. just like that. So you can have anyone you want, all your other boyfriends didn't want me." Sasuke said as he now did turn around to Itachi.

"That's because I told them to stay out of your way." Itachi muttered. "...I wanted to ban out every possibility that something would happen to you."

"..Oh.." Sasuke said. What else could he say? He didn't wanna talk about this. He didn't want his brother to be jealous of him. He didn't want any of this. It was far too confusing.

"...I'm sorry." Itachi muttered.

"..No I am..." Sasuke said and looked at his brother.

"...I guess we both are..." Itachi softly said. "..I just want to know one thing Sasuke... did I.. make a good choice..?" Itachi asked and looked at Sasuke.

"..I don't know Itachi...I think you did.." Sasuke answered as he walked back to Itachi and, for no reason at all, just launched himself back into Itachi's arms.

Itachi hugged him back again, happy that Sasuke didn't shy away from him. That was the last thing he'd ever want.

"..Ok.." Itachi said, relieved.

"...I'm really sorry.. I am..." Sasuke said as he held onto his brother.

"..We're even now Sasuke.." Itachi said with a sigh. "..I forgive you. Just like you did with me."

"..Thanks.." Sasuke softly said. "..I won't do it again...ever.."

"Me neither.." Itachi softly said. "..Thank you."

"..For what..?" Sasuke asked confused and pulled back a little to look at Itachi.

"For still being here, with me." Itachi said, smiling softly. Almost sadly. "I know I'm not the easiest brother you can get."

"..We can't say that of me either.. I should thank you for staying...You always take care of me.. it's probably making you crazy." Sasuke said, still holding onto Itachi slightly.

"I love it Sasuke." Itachi said, smiling. "Because it's you. I really love you, like a brother should. You're the best thing in my whole life."

"..Thank you.." Sasuke softly said. "..You're the best thing in mine too…" Sasuke was silent for a while before hugging Itachi again. "..I love you too.." He whispered. It had been far too long they had said it to each other. Far too long.


A few days later, Sasuke went to his bar. Yes 'his' bar, he practically lived there on Fridays after all. He walked inside and dragged himself to the bar. He didn't feel really well. "Hey Kiba, give me a beer." He said as he sat down behind the bar.

"Hey man." Kiba said as he gave Sasuke a beer. "What's up?"

"..A lot." Sasuke said as he drank his beer. "We can see that. What's with the long face." Shikamaru said as he came walking towards Sasuke.

"Did something happen?" Kiba asked while he passed someone else another beer. He looked at bit concerned.

"..Yeah. Everything happened. Itachi's in the hospital. He's fine though." Sasuke said as he finished his beer. Shikamaru handed him another one.

"Drugs again?" Kiba asked with an eyebrow pulled up.

"Yeah, he broke up with Neji.. threw him on the streets too.. dammit." Sasuke said, annoyed with himself and poured the beer down his throat.

"What?" Kiba asked, shocked. "Itachi threw his boyfriend on the streets?" What the hell? What happened with the Itachi they knew? Yes, they knew Itachi. Itachi had come to pick Sasuke up so often. Lately they asked him to stop doing that and offered him to do that. He'd agreed on it.

"..Yeah well...Neji, he cheated on Itachi.." Sasuke said. Dammit, did he have to tell the whole world about this?

"What?" Kiba asked, his eyes big. "Why? With who?"

"..With me." Sasuke said, making Shikamaru choke on his glass of water. "..W-what?" He asked, coughing.

"Noooo..." Kiba said, trying to search any trace of humour in Sasuke's face. But he didn't find it. "..Really?"

"Yes really..I was drunk and.. well. It just happened." Sasuke said, gaining another beer from the still slightly coughing Shikamaru. "You're an idiot." He said.

"Damn man.." Kiba said, frowning. "And he's on the streets now? Isn't that a bit hard?"

"..I don't know...I do feel bad about it but.. well it would be horrible if we let him live with us.. It wouldn't work anyhow.. I don't know." Sasuke said and stared down. Somewhere he just.. missed Neji...

"Yeah true." Kiba said, nodding. "But the thought of being all alone on the streets.. I don't know. Was he handsome or something? Can be that you told us about him before, but then I forgot."

"I told you about him.. that he was pretty, but he smelled...And I know.. I think maybe it would've been wiser if we let him stay until he could find a new place. But I mean, I don't blame Itachi for being angry." Sasuke said.

"...Yeah true, but well... it had indeed been wiser to let him stay if he truly is pretty." Kiba said, frowning. "There are some crazy people roaming the streets you know."

"..I know.. It's not like I don't feel bad about it ok. I just can't blame Itachi either. I'm sure Neji'll be fine.." Sasuke said, though he didn't even believe it himself. Thank the lord for alcohol, or he'd feel awful every day.

"Alright.." Kiba said, nodding. "So how came that you guys had sex? You were drunk, but does that mean that you like him?"

"..Yeah it does." Sasuke simply answered as he finished his beer again. Shikamaru waited for a nod, then passed Sasuke another beer. "So you like him. But he sure as hell had to like you too for not stopping you." He said.

"Indeed." Kiba said. "Didn't he refuse or something? That's what I'd do you know. Or did he jump on you?" He grinned after this.

"No, I jumped on him...and he first stopped me.. kissed back, stopped me, that's how it went for a while.. until he caved in and wanted it.." Sasuke said. "..I don't know, I guess I'm just a good kisser."

Kiba snorted. "I can believe that, hearing this." Kiba said. "He probably did wanted to do it with you but didn't because he's in love with your brother. And in the end the pleasure was too heavy to ignore." He nodded now, proud of his own conclusion.

"Wow, what a master brain you must be to figure that out." Shikamaru said and smirked. He figured it out the second Sasuke told them he was the one who made Neji cheat. "Anyhow.." Sasuke started. "I was drunk again and tried once more, then Neji 'did' stop me and started screaming and stuff.. that's when Itachi walked in...he got mad at me."

"Neji screamed?" Kiba asked, ignoring Shikamaru's comment. "Why didn't you stop then?"

"I was drunk, I barely even heard it.." Sasuke said. "You know how I get when I'm really, really drunk."

"Yeah true." Kiba said. "But if Itachi got very mad at you it must have been something heavy to see."

"Yeah.. It was...he just walked in at the wrong moment.." Sasuke said.

"So it seems." Kiba said, frowning. "Damn that must be something to see your brother on top of your boyfriend." He gave Sasuke another beer now.

"Yeah.. Well he forgave me...We had a good talk.." Sasuke said. His mind was getting blurry now. Good, the alcohol was definitely kicking in now.

"Alright." Kiba said, nodding. "That's good. At least the two of you can talk again then."

"..Yeah.. Thank god we do.." Sasuke said. He then stopped talking as he drank his beer. Soon he would forget about it. Soon he would feel good again.

"Indeed." Kiba said. "Perhaps you should sit down now. You look like you're going to fall of that chair."

"..I am sitting already." Sasuke said as he held himself up on the counter.

"Yeah true, but you can easily fall of that chair." Kiba said. "But well, you can stay here."

"Yeah true, but you can easily fall of that chair." Kiba said. "But well, you can stay here."

"We'll pick you up from off the floor once you fall down." Shikamaru said and sighed. This would become a typical Friday night with Sasuke.

"Of course." Kiba said while he shook his head, sighing too.

Sasuke just drank another beer, more then ready to forget about it all for a while.

Kiba gave Shikamaru a look and shook his head again. It would be a typical Friday night indeed.


Bwah... and now it's destroyed for ever. Or not? Review please!