"To fall in love awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful" Bess Myerson
Chapter 4
Finn walks toward her still not believing this is really happening. He never actually thought about this. Sure, he'd break up with her and that was already really bad. But see her standing on his room holding that box makes thing so much more definitive. He really hates all that. How did they get on that situation? He thought in all the things that happened with them in the past, when he was with Quinn and she was having his baby, and the moment he discovered the baby wasn't his, how he'd lost Rachel for being afraid to lose his popularity, when he found out about Jesse and how they managed to overcome all that and be happy. They're happy, like really, really happy, anymore happy and they'd be on one of those movies Rachel loves. She was the love of his life and he thought they're going to be together forever. They're supposed to go the long distance. Get married and have Jewish children. But somehow that is not going to happen. And now he is there, looking at her trying his best to not crawl to his bed and start cry like a little baby.
He can see that she is just as miserable as he is but that doesn't make he feels any better. He hates what she did to them but hates even more see she's sad, because he loves her and wants her to be happy all the time. He remembers the way she looked after Jesse turned her into a human omelet; she looked fragile, devastated, broken, like she didn't have energy to walk, to talk, to breathe. And in that very moment he swore to himself that if he ever made Rachel his he'd never let her feels that way again because she was the most amazing creature of the world, she was perfect and nothing should make her feel like that. She was Rachel Barbra Berry. But now she looks exactly the same, or if it's even possible, she looks worse. She's wearing a pair of jeans and a T-shirt. She hates jeans, not even when they performed "Empire state of mind" she wore jeans. Her big brown eyes aren't shining and her sadness is all over her. The only difference between now and then is he is the responsible for her pain now.
His mind, heart and arm were fighting right now. He knew that he had to pick up the box from her hands but he also knew he would not like that as much as he knew just by look on her face the time they were on school on the day he told her "no more lies" that everything that'd happen after that moment would make him suffer.
Finn looks inside the box and smile as memories take over his mind. He gave her that teddy bear last summer in their first official date. She was so happy that day. She had never been in a carnival fair with anyone but her dads and she smiled the whole time, even when they're on top of the Ferris wheel and she placed her head on his chest because she's afraid of height. When he got her the teddy bear she was beaming so much that he too started to smile like the Joker played by Jack Nicholson on Batman and, in that moment he realized he didn't care what people would think about the fact that he was dating Rachel Berry.
He realizes that she is still there, looking at him, like she doesn't know what to do now either. It's really over and they are not "Finchel" anymore. He really liked that nickname.
"You made me so happy Rach." He said staring into her eyes.
His words were like a sharp knife cutting into her skin. As the words reach her ears she instantly lost control of herself and the tears starting rolling down her face.
A/N: Since last chapter was very short, here's another one. Thanks for review and please keep telling me what you think.
