Suicidal Mikan... Oh My Gosh... I guess some people really don't like angst at all much for Gakuen Alice... I don't have many reviews... Meh, I don't care, it's better than 0... Right? Nah, as long as I write, I'm happy... But, I have written worse angst, people, like, when I was ready to kill myself due to problems in life...
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Don't Drown in Your Tears
Four: New Alice girl, Risa...
It was their Chemistry
class in room B for the 16 year old students, and Mikan Sakura was
working on her own again, because she had just shoved Natsume away
like before, and then again he was skipping classes just like he used
to. Mikan was currently adding some red substance to her green
coloured liquid, it was true, Mikan had become quite good at her
Chemistry class, although she was always spilling her finished work
on another students, on purpose.
Mainly Sumire Shoda.
Jinno was their substitue teacher half the time because Misaki was growing things. Today he was grading all of their work.
"Okay, now Mikan Sakura, I want to grade your chemical. So this time, try to bring it to the desk full and not empty, and don't 'accidentally' trip and throw it all over Ms. Shoda again, please." Jinno said as Mikan frowned, and stood up. She still detested Jinno's guts, and he disagreed with her even more nowadays since she turned into a rebel, her new attitude was not up to his standards.
"Whatever. I'll try not to." Mikan said, rolling her eyes and picking up the beaker that contained a now satisfactory pink coloured liquid. Mikan was careful not to get Sumire out of spite, and she placed the full beaker on Jinno's desk as he sighed, and then stared at it, testing it before gradingf, ticking a small list and nodding as Mikan yawned, impatient. Sumire was folding her arms and glaring in utter anger. Mikan Sakura had succeeded yet again!
"Okay, that's fine. Now go to your desk, Sakura, and be careful!" Jinno snapped at her as Mikan sighed and roughly picked up her beaker, starint to walk back to her desk, and as she walked, she heard Sumire whispering about her, so that Mikan could only just hear the comments.
"No wonder Natsume rejected her, she's a fucking gothic emo freak! Suicidal and depressing, sigh, she puts me in depression. As far as I know her social life is down the drain, she'll die with scars and no one to love. Natsume shouldn't even go near her, she's dangerous, deathly ugly and isn't meant to be alive! He is way better with me, seeing as I can give him what he wants." Sumire said in a low hiss to her friend as her friend giggled and Mikan glared at the two populars, then threw her work over Sumire without warning, and the perm-haired bitch started screaming.
"Oops." Mikan replied curtly as she stared at the bitch then glaed and shrugged as everyone gasped, Sumire's skin was comin out in red blotches, and her eyes were turning black and then murky yellow, her eyebrows were burned off permanently and there were new, fresh bald patches in her ugly hair.
"Argh! My hair, my face my CLOTHES! Mikan Sakura, you ba-rat! Now Natsume will never love me!" Sumire wailed, but once she mentioned Natsume's name outloud, Mikan grew angry and she suddenly pushed Sumire hard against the wall and slapped her, Mikan's eyes were full of rage, and maybe something else, but no one knew.
"Don't you even dare... You can talk about me all you want, you pathetic bitch! How can anyone love a heartless slag like YOU!? Natsume would never give you his time of day. And never, I repeat, never bring that un-loving bastards name into the subject ever AGAIN!" Mikan hissed darkly, throwing off her work apron and flinging her shoulder bag over her shoulder, read to walk out of the silent classroom,until she heard Sumire's shaky, angry voice...
"And do you think anyone would love you!? A cold hearted twisted bitch who is so suicidal! No one would want you, no one!" screamed Sumire as Mikan shrugged and walked off, nothing really mattered any longer...
"So what, I have no love for anybody." Mikan hissed as she walked off, leaving everyone to try and help Sumire who was crying because she was even uglier than before...
Natsume was currently in the library, skipping all his classes and almost dieing from boredom. He had practically nothing to do and the only reason he was in the library was because he knew fan girls would attack him when the bell for next period went. Even if he was in boredom, he wouldn't go near Mikan because he knew that all she would do was push him away coldly and scream abuse at him. He hated the new Mikan. It was like she had killed his old love interest and replaced her with a colder, more bitchy woman. Natsume sighed, sitting back in his seat and tilting his hea dslightly. He looked ready to sleep, but he wasn't. He was deep in thought.
About Mikan.
Then someone passed the library window and Natsume looked up auddenly to see a girl was walking past. This wasn't Mikan, though, but she seemed curiously mysterious. Natsume shuddered as she passed and he stared at her, he sensed that she was somewhat different somehow. Her hair was long and black, swaying past her backside. Red streaks were obvious in her midnight locks and her eyes were wide awake and magnetic in their golden colour with a few blue specks dotting the iris of her eyes. She was beautiful, yet, she kinda creeped Natsume out.
Natsume had never seen this girl before, but clearly she was a 16 year old, like he was. It was evident because she was tall, had a kinda huge chest and she was wearing the uniform half his classmates wore. Who was she? Was she a transfer? Natsume seemed to not like her much, at all. She gave him this eerie kind of feeling and a chill ran down his spine whenever he looked at her. She didn't look back, but she knew he was looking, and this girl knew who he was. She smirked as she pictured him in her mind and like what she saw.
Then the mysterious student saw a figure sitting under the lone Sakura tree and once she looked at her face, she found out that the girl was Mikan Sakura, and she frowned upon that name, then forced a smile on her face. She started to walk towards the sakura tree, and gave Mikan her brightest, and fake, smile. Mikan looked up at the girl, coldness and hurt evident in her brown eyes. The girl loved to see hurt in other people's eyes but her own.
"Hello, may I sit with you if you don't mind." the raven haired girl asked ever so politely as Mikan simply shrugged and let the girl sit down, tilting her head back and breathing in the scent of the cherry blossoms. Mikan didn't look at her. She had a feeling this girl was just interfering, somehow.
"You must be Mikan Sakura, am I right? Nice to meet you. I am Risa Mikota, a transfer student. i happen to be from brazil." she said suddenly as Mikan looked up, and stared at her. Who the hell was she? How would she even know Mikan's name when Mikan had never told, let alone, met her. Mikan looked kind of confused, and the Risa girl smiled.
"Oh, I confused you, sorry. I hav a rare Alice that let's me know who you are, when your birthday is, what your alice is etc when I look at you. All I do is picture you in my mind and Boom! You life history and information all on you is there, although, I only got your name." Risa said as Mikan shrugged, and gave her an awkward look, saying, 'Who the heck are you?' Risa wasn't best pleased.
"Probably because I have the alice to Nullify it." she growled as Risa smirked and looked Mikan up and down. She didn't even like the girl, one bit, but it was fun to try and befriend her. She could torture this girl, it would be her favourite pass time.
She didn't like Mikan, one bit, because she knew that the Hyuuga guy like Mikan, and Risa only liked her things on a silver platter when she wanted it. And she wanted Natsume Hyuuga.
"She isn't even pretty... Plus it's obvious she's goth, evidently suicidal. I wonder what the hottie see's in her? She is so ugly." Risa thought, instantly judging Mikan, who was reading a book all about fighting and death. Risa turned away, sickened, folding her arms. She needed to play it cool. Risa had more than one alice, she grinned, and she loved both. Then she turned back to Mikan and smiled sweetly, so sweet it disgusted Mikan.
"Hey, now that we have introduced ourselves," Risa said, grinning toothily as Mikan stared at her, more like Risa introduced them both, "Let's be good friends" You're so pretty and you are obviously a kind, caring and gentle..." Mikan knew the girl was lieing through her pearly white teeth, and she glared at her and stood up, staring at Risa who was secretly punching Mikan's face inside her head.
"Whatever. Just stop smiling like the fake you are, I'm kinda recieving a headache, and please, cut the sweet talk, I'm in no mood today. I can see right through you, little girl." Mikan said grouchily as she stalked off, her long hair blowing in the wind as Risa stared at the brisk Mikan, then stood up and oput her hands on her hips, pouting. She didn't look very pretty. (Risa)
"So... The gothic bitch is smarter than I thought. Yucky, who would like that ugly duckling? I have to get rid of her, so that Natsume has me. I'll make her sad or... I'm gonna make a plan." she grinned, saying everything to herself as she ran off in the direction of the dormitry building to find her new room, which she shared with her twin sister...
Mikan sat under another Sakura tree, writing up some homework, undisturbed because everyone else was in their Math classes, and Mikan had decided to finish the homework from a month before. Mikan soon put her pen down and stared at the work in her scrawly writing, and she then stuffed it into her shoulder bag. She sat back, her hands behind her head. Mikan closed her eyes, breathing in deeply.
It was breezy and quiet, just how Mikan liked it. She detested noise, now. Mikan sighed and lay back, resting her eyes when someone started to speak from behind the tree with their manly voice.
"Nice time to sleep, although, most people would be in lessons, why aren't you?" asked a certain boys voice, and Mikan opened her eyes, turning to stare at Natsume, and she glared coldly, he just simply stared ta her and Mikan turned away in disgust, folding her thin arms.
"You're a fine one to talk, bastard. And next time, don't sneak up on me! Can't you just, leave me alone And I thought I specifically told you to never talk to me again after making me fall into that stupid fountain, whilst publicly humiliating me." Mikan snapped as Natsume recoiled, looking deeply sad. The problem was, he couldn't leave Mikan alone. She was just too damn pretty, he thought, mentally.
"I said I was sorry! Mikan, it was a fucking accident. Can't you just act normal for once and smile! You know how much I liked your smile, no, loved your smile. Show me your smile." Natsume cried, pleading as Mikan's eyes widened suddenly and stared into space unknowingly, her cheeks suddenly burning as she felt a slight twist in her stomach, a blush threatening her pale face. She used to feel like that back when she loved Natsume...
But Mikan instanly snapped
out of it, and shook her head vigorously. Mikan would not give in,
yet. She would never
give in to him. He had hurt her so much in the past, so now, it was
payback time.
She glared at him ever so coldly.
"Why would I smile for you. Bastard, you are an even bigger jerk than before!" she snapped, and walked away hurridly. Why, why was she starting to like Natsume Hyuuga all over again? After what he had done to her...
End Chapter Four
Ooooh... Mikan loves him still, it was actually noticible through when she threw the chemical over Sumire's head. Review if you wanna, and sorry for the ones I made cry, but, it kinda gets worse as it goes through chapter after chapter... Have a nice day...
Love Blue -Niagra
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