Yuki: Wow, Lauren... Now I'm even mad at you too T_T
Lauren: ...
Yuki: You know Zero is so mad that he decided not to even show up...
Lauren: I get the point, I'm sorry. Listen everyone I'm really sorry its been a while since I last updated. It just I'm always busy durring the holidays. To top it off, I have to juggle my son and my job. So I hope you can all forgive me. I also hope you can forgive some of the grammer in this chapter. I already get the feeling its not too good, but frankly I'm way to exhausted to go over and review it all. I promise the next chapter will be much more better then this one. I'd like to thank all the people who have been commenting on my storys and giving me support. I also like to thank all the people who have subscribed too me. And now, I hope you enjoy Chapter 4!
Yuki: Lauren does not own Vampire Knight!
"We cannot change our past.
We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way.
We can not change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have,
and that is our attitude" ~ Charles R. Swindoll
I didn't think it would hurt so much when Yuki pulled away from me, but it really did. It was more painful than any anti vampire gun bullet, no where near its comparison of agonizing pain. Not only do I feel hurt, but angry. Not at her, but really at myself. I've tried hard lately to distance myself from her, and cut my last strings of emotions with her. I realize now it's harder than it seems, especially when I see those eyes. The eyes that gave me a sense of sanity when I thought I would lose myself; the eyes that gave me hope. And now when I look at those eyes, blurred with her sorrowful tears… I feel as if any moment my heart would shatter into a million pieces, and scatter amongst the winds. Those eyes that she posses… those are the last attaching strings that are the hardest to cut. My more cowardly weak side tells me not to, but of course I know better. I must make my heart cold… So that her eyes can never warm it.
"My my Zero-kun… You really need to work on your skills with women" Said a voice behind me. I sigh and turn around and of course it's Kaito. His arms are crossed against his chest, and he wears a smirk that makes me tempted to slap him.
"Shut up, Kaito" I growl at him.
"Ohhhh, so scary" he chuckles.
"I'm assuming you were completely ease dropping on our conversation" I say, trying to control the anger in my voice.
"Sorry, It's just I find you and your little purebloods act highly entertaining" he teased.
"Fuck Off, will you? I'm not in the mood for your smart ass remarks" I say, almost practically shouting now.
"Ah, so touchy you are Zero, as is your little pureblood. Tell me, what made your little blood sucker cry? Did she find out your letting another chick suck on your neck?" Kaito egging me on.
"SHUT UP!" I yell at him, throwing a punch at his face. I sickly enjoyed the crunching sound as my fist made contact with his nose. The punch threw him off balance, making him fall backwards. His hand grabs his nose, most likely broken.
"Geez, there is no messing around with you, huh? Know wonder all the day class students are scared of you" he murmured, wincing at the pain.
"Any way…" He continued, "I actually wanted to inform you, before you broke my nose… That Yagari's daughter just arrived an hour ago here" Kaito says, heaving himself up off the ground.
"What? I thought she was suppose to arrive next week?"
"Well Like father, like daughter, she probably just wants to get her mission over with. Anyway she wandered off and I need you to go find her. We need to find out what her mission is that way we can help her finish the job more quickly. The sooner we help her get this mission done the sooner Yagari will stop being an ass whole… Scratch that, he was an ass whole before she came along" he says, still being able to chuckle despite the throbbing pain in his nose.
"Fine. Go get your nose fixed, along with your annoying attitude. I'll call your cell when I find her" I say, turning around into the direction which Yuki ran from me.
Kaito then began to walk into the direction of the infirmary, but not before he said one last thing to me.
"And Zero… You know that pureblood is going to become the queen… so stop being her knight in shining armor"
Kaito's words made me tempted to punch him again. But really, he was right. Yuki was to become queen of the vampire world, the human society, and the hunters association. And getting my feelings tangled with hers would just cause trouble for the both of us. Yuki was to marry in order to take the throne, and I was not the person she could marry. I had my own duties as the future president of the association, not as the king of the throne. But yet, it still hurt my heart whenever I imagined her marrying someone else. For her to sit next to a person she probably hardly knew; but this person was now the King and her husband. A person who probably loved the throne more than they loved her. A person who would make her bear his children. But those children would not be made out of love… But only out of lust for power. But like I keep trying to tell myself… She is not my concern.
Because… She is not mine.
I look up to hear footsteps approaching my way. Its Yuki of course, only a blonde hair girl walks along side her. The blonde girls walk isn't a casual walk, but almost like a solider being told to march. She also looks like she is ready to jump in front of Yuki if a bullet was shot at her.
This makes me uneasy.
We stop in front of each other. Yuki stares at the ground, her long hair covering her face. The blonde girls' eyes interrogate me. Instantly her body goes rigid at her realization of what I am. Then suddenly, I'm on thrown on the ground with an anti vampire gun pointed right at my face. The blonde girl weighs her knee down on my chest so I am not able to escape.
Instantly I know this is Yagari's daughter.
"Stop it, Masami! He's my friend!" Yuki shouts at the blonde hair girl, pulling her arm to get her off of me. The girl doesn't budge, and keeps her knee firmly pressed down on my chest.
"Yuki-sama, he is a threat. His aura is not welcoming, I can sense it" she says coldly, her glare not wavering from my face.
"Well… Zero sort of always has that to him. Now please, get off him!" she pleaded.
Masami immediately jumps off of me, offering me her hand.
"Please forgive me; I did not realize you were Zero Kiryu. I am incredibly sorry, president" says Masami, her voice now pleading for forgiveness.
I don't take her hand, and stand myself up.
"Apology not accepted" I said with my teeth clenched.
"Zero..." says Yuki, her arm reaching out to comfort me. I pull away from her touch, my face becoming grim.
"Masami… come with me. NOW" I say, trying to control the volume in my voice.
"Ah yes, I forgot that good old dad would want to welcome me" she joked weakly. She turned to Yuki and bowed saying "I shall return, your highness".
Masami walks to my side for me to lead her away, her walk now more casual. Before we walk off, I turn to face Yuki. I look into those irresistible eyes; and attempt to cut one of the strings attaching those eyes to my heart.
"By the way… You and I are not friends. We never will be… Pureblood" I say, My voice as cold as ice. She flinched from the tone in my voice and how I was referring to her. Her eyes tighten, and send off a rare feeling of coldness towards my heart. I couldn't bear to look at her, let alone be in her presence. I walk off with Masami to the headmaster's office, feeling Yuki's eyes on me as I walk away.
"Wow… You must really love Yuki-sama" murmured Masami.
"What? Were you not just listening to what I said to her? I hate her!" I snap at her, anger filling the features of my face.
"You say that… But your eyes, and her eyes… Your aura and her aura… They match. I've never seen in my entire life a more perfectly identical aura" She said in admiration.
"What nonsense are you spouting? And what do you mean you can this so called 'Aura'?" I shouted at her, my anger getting more vicious by the second.
"I'm not surprised you don't believe me, since its sounds so strange. But it's true, I can see aura. Aura is almost like a storybook of that person. Tells what they are, who they are, what they feel, and many more details about that person" She explained calmly, not bothered by the slightest of my outburst.
"You must be joking, right? Well then tell me oh so amazing aura reader, how the hell do I match towards Yuki?" I ask sarcastically.
"Well... When you two are around each other, your aura's both turn green. Green means a balanced state of love and hatred, but your greens are so light, it means there is almost not a single feeling of hate. Only love" She replied.
"Your… wrong" I say painfully. I wanted her words to be true, but they were wrong. Yuki and I are meant to be bitter enemies. And if there is such a thing as Aura, we would be dark green; more hatred than love.
"Funny… both you and Yuki's aura's are the same right now too, you're both blue" she says softly.
"Blue?"
She nodded, she smiles sadly saying "Blue is the simplest one of all. It means sadness, only Yuki's blue is darker. Meaning, she is much sadder than you are. Probably still hurt from your words. But your blue has a slight tint of brown to it"
"Brown?" I snorted. Am I really buying in to this aura crap?
"Yes, you are not only sad, but you are feeling pain. I assume this pain is here from you hurting Yuki. Making me correct on my statement: You must really love Yuki-sama" She says softly. We were so deep in conversation that it took us a minute to realize we had finally made our way to the headmaster's residence.
"No offence, but I really think your insane. And full of shit" I say bluntly. All this aura shit sounded like she was pulling it out of her butt as she went along.
She merely laughed at my disbelief in her, simply saying "I had a feeling you weren't believing me"
"Of course I don't believe you. After all, you did almost kill me. And we just met and you're telling me stuff like we've been friends forever" I say anxiously.
"Sorry, but I'm very not very shy. I'm a straight forward person" She says with a smile.
"I can see that" I snorted.
"Well, I better go inside and say hi to the old man" she says, her smile now fake.
"Before you go, tell me real quick. Do you and Yagari have a bad relationship or something?" I ask. It had been really bugging me lately, and its obvious Yagari was trying to hide something from us.
"Well… We really never had a relationship to begin with" She whispered, her eyes no longer meeting mine. She attempts to open the door to escape me, but not before I grab her hand.
"How can you not have a relationship with your own dad?" I ask, desperate for answers.
"Well… Let's just say… Just like you… He didn't believe I could see aura... And when my mom did believe me that I and this so called "sight"… She-" But she didn't finish. Yagari slammed the door open just as she was about to finish. His glare was directly at Masami, he looked as if he was trying to pierce into her soul.
"Get in here. NOW" He says enraged, grabbing her by the wrist to pull her inside. Before I knew it the door slammed right in my face. I sighed.
This day literally sucks.
I begin to walk off to the headmaster's residence, not really caring that I was probably going to get in trouble later for skipping class again. I lock the door once I get into my room, falling face down onto my bed.
…
Strange…
My bed... It smells… Well, clean. This was odd because I hadn't had a lot of time to wash my sheets, let alone my own laundry. Who would of…?
But I didn't even really have to ask myself that. Of course, it was probably Yuki. After all, Yori wasn't here enough at the headmaster residence to do it, and headmaster has been busy all the time. And lately, it seemed like Yuki was lounging around all the time in the headmaster's residence. My thoughts get cut off, when I hear the front door open and slam close. No doubt, Yuki had decided to come back to. She was probably tired, especially since she was still adjusting to a human schedule. I listen carefully as her light footsteps made their way into... the kitchen I think? I wasn't sure, but I was curious to find out.
No, leave her alone. What part of distancing yourself do you understand?
But of course, I give into my weak side to go see what she is doing. I walk to the corner leading into the kitchen, my head peeking out to look at her.
Wonderful Zero, you have completed the steps on becoming a stalker I thought mildly to myself.
She sits at the kitchen table, looking at one of the headmaster's old scratch book. I'm not sure which scratch book, especially since the headmaster basically documented everything we did when we were kids. But I know for fact, she was looking at pictures of us as kids. The days when we seemed innocent, and life was simple and enjoyable. Looking at life now, everything seemed difficult and hard to enjoy. I realize I really am being a stalker by just secretly staring at her, so I deiced to head back to my room. I'm about to pull my body back into the hallways towards my room when suddenly… I hear her singing. I turn my head back to look at her, and listen carefully on what she sings. I recognize the song, as it was a song we heard sometimes when we were kids. I feel my heart tighten, for she is signing "You are my sunshine"
"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping. I dreamed I held you in my arms. But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken so I hung my head and I cried" she sang sorrowfully, her own tears falling from her face when she sang the verse 'so I hung my head and I cried.' Even though I wasn't crying, my heart defiantly was. I knew her words, were meant towards me. I listened intently as she continued to sing.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away" She sobbed, no longer singing. I then quickly jerk back into the hallway where she could no longer see me. I hear her push in the dining room chair, and walk to her room sniffling away her heart wrenching tears. When I hear the door close, I felt like someone had just shot me in the heart. For some reason, I was curious on what picture she was looking at. I go into to the dining room, the scratch book still open on the table to the page she left it at. Then to my own disbelief, I feel tears slowly fall down my cheek as I stare at the picture. It was a picture of our first Christmas together, with me sitting on the ground with an unwrapped present from Yuki in between my legs, and with Yuki wrapping her arms behind me with one of her beautiful smiles. The picture sends back a thousand memories that I had tried so hard to forgotten, as each memories was about her. I put the scrap book back on the shelf, along with the tons of other scrap books of Yuki and me in a simpler time. I should tell headmaster when he gets back to get rid of them. But at the same time... I don't want to get rid of them. I decide to go check on her to make sure she is ok, and slightly pear my eyes through her cracked open door. She lies on her bed with her face stained with tears, becoming even more stained as new tears fall miserably over the rims of her eyes. I feel the desperate urge to comfort her, to tell her everything I felt inside for her. But Kaito's words ring through my head.
"You know that pureblood is going to become the queen… so stop being her knight in shining armor"
Feeling exhausted from all the change of events and emotions inside me, I head back to my room. I walk over to the window of my room, gazing up at the sky. The sun is bright, but in the distance rain clouds approach. I think metaphorically that Yuki is the sun which brings me warmth, and the rain clouds will be the hundred of suitors who will try and marry Yuki for the crown.
…
Please...
If there is a god...
Please...
... Don't take my sunshine away...
You are my sunshine: Popular song created in 1939 by Jimmy Davis and Charles Mitchell.( If your all wondering, I was thinking of the Johnny Cash version when Yuki was signing this... Also this is my husbands favorite song ^_^ )
Yuki: Why the hell would I sing that song? I'm not american! Why couldnt you find a japanese song?
Lauren: I tried! BUT GOD DAM ITS SO HARD TO FIND THEM AND UNDERSTAND THEM! X-O
Yuki: Zero is right... You are stupid T_T
Lauren: ... Shut up... Anyway I hope you all enjoyed the story! Please forgive me with all the grammer mistakes! IM SO TIRED! I will update the next chapter ASAP!
Yuki: See you guys next time! Comment & Subscribe! ^_^
