Sometimes Life Just Sucks

Summary: Kendall, confused on his feelings for Logan, leaves the apartment on a walk, and ends up possibly ruining his life.

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Micah's POV

As I climbed in the car, Noah, started to bombard me with questions.

"So how was the date? Did you guys fool around? Did you kiss him? His is friends nice? How about his family?"

"The date was fun. We swam and played games. No we didn't fool around... well... we made out in an elevator... but that's it. I kissed him in the hallway after I called you. His friends were very nice. Even if they didn't know Kendall and I like each other. Uhm..." I paused, as Noah started to rant.

"He hasn't told his friends about you and him yet? Why not!"

"Well he just hasn't found the right time. I think his friend, Carlos, knows... but I'm not sure." I shrugged, as we pulled into the driveway. "But anyway. His mom is very nice! And his sister is the same age as Leah. And... Noah... today was the best! He is like the perfect guy! He told me yesterday, that he was in a band... but I'm not sure what the name is." I sighed, and walked up the stairs to our room.

"Hey brothers." Leah bounded past us and to the door.

"Where you headed?" Noah asked.

"Just to the mall with some friends." She said, as she slammed the door shut. "Oh... and mom and dad aren't home." She said, poking her head in the door again.

"Okay..." I sighed. "Noah... why do we even live here? Mom and Dad are never home..." I said once we were in the bedroom.

"Do you think I should change my hair color?" Noah asked, looking in a mirror, and running his hands through his light brown hair. "To maybe the same color as yours? So then we might look like twins."

"Heh. Noah we do look alike. We have the exact same eye color. And face shape. And body type." I chuckled, laying my chin on his shoulder. "Even if or hair is the same, and I'm taller than you... doesn't mean we aren't alike." I smiled, hugging him.

"Maybe you should get a hair cut." He laughed, pulling on my long hair.

"No way! I enjoy my long hair!" I swatted his hand away.

"Just a suggestion." He smiled. I grabbed my i-pod and flopped on my bed.

"Where you headed?" I sat up, and saw Noah getting ready to leave.

"I have a date." He giggled.

"Oh... be safe. Have fun... you know all that good stuff mom used to say." I waved.

"Yeah when she used to care..." He sighed. "Bye Mic..."

I collapsed back on my bed, and drowned in my music.

I must have dozed off, because my phone vibrating, woke me with a start.

"Hello?" I asked. trying to shake the drowsiness in my voice.

"M... Micah..." The voice asked out.

I pulled the phone from my ear and saw who it was.

"Hey Kendall... are you okay?" I asked.

"N... not really..." He sniffed.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Well... I guess my friend, Logan, he saw us kiss... and well... let's just say, I found out he's homophobic." He said, then I could hear him start to cry again.

Before I could say anything I could hear the phone being passed off, and running stomps.

"Hey. Micah, its Carlos."

"Hey... Is Kendall okay?" I asked, the Latino.

"Well Logan is his closest friend, and now Logan won't even let him in their room. Kendall has to sleep in my room. And Kendall is super upset." He told me.

"Should I come over?" I asked.

"No... That'll just get Logan even more pissed."

"Well can you drive him over here?" I asked.

"Yeah. Just give me your address." Carlos said.

"810 Linden Drive." I told him.

"Okay. Be there soon." He said.

"Okay." I hung up and looked around my room. It was a complete mess. 'Shit...' I stood quickly and hurried to pick everything up.

I started to pick up the dirty laundry, and random items that littered my floor. I was really worried about Kendall's friend. I remembered how my sister and parents reacted. 'Let's just say it wasn't to pretty. I didn't want Kendall to lose a good friend because of me, but I wasn't gonna end what we had. I cared for that blonde way too much. I stopped cleaning, to rub my hand over my face. Maybe I was being too selfish… if he wants to have a friend over a boyfriend. Then I'll agree to that… No… I want to be his boyfriend… I really do! I just don't want…' I paused.

The doorbell rang, and I rang down the stairs faster than I could fall down them.

"Hey..." I opened the door, and saw Carlos, James, and a sobbing Kendall standing on my porch. "Come in..." I motioned.

They walked in and instantly their jaws hit the floor.

"Whoa!" James yelled out. "This place is MASSIVE!"

"James!" Carlos hit the other.

"Sorry. I just didn't see you as the rich type." James apologized.

I chuckled, "It's my uncles. He's the rich one. My dad is just his favorite brother." I told them and took Kendall's hand.

"Hey..." I bent over to catch his gaze. "You okay?" I asked.

"Well we'll leave now." Carlos said, taking James by the elbow and yanking him through the door. I waved bye before turning back to Kendall, who was looking around at the house.

"They were right... It is huge!" He said.

I smiled and walked over to him, taking his hand in mine. "Wanna talk about it?"

"Yeah." He nodded.

"Okay then." I smiled and pulled him up the stairs with me. "We can talk out here." I said, pulling him into my room, and out to the balcony.

"Wow... you're view is incredible!" He gasped, leaning on the railing.

"Enough about my house... more about you... and what happened." I said, wrapping my arms around him, hugging him.

"Well... after you left, and I went back up to the apartment, Logan was freaking out, and he blew up in my face, obviously mad that I was gay, and never told him. Then he kicked my out of our room, and now I guess I'm gonna crash in James and Carlos' room." He said.

"Well... that's it?" I asked.

"Yeah..." He sighed. I felt more tears fall from his cheeks to my hands.

"Wanna cry on me?" I asked.

I felt him nod. He turned to face me and laid his head on my chest. I shushed him, and ran a hand along the back of his head. "It'll get better. Promise."

"H... how do you know..." He asked, his green eyes rimed with red.

"Because, it's the initial effect that pisses people off." I said. "It's how my parents reacted. It's how my sister reacted. By now they all care. Well my sister cares..." I trailed off.

"Your parents still mad at you?" He asked, his voice muffled by my shirt.

"Well. My parents, they are never home. My mom is always with her other lover, and my dad is always on major trips with his company." I sighed.

"Tell me about your life, and your sister and brother." He said.

"Well..." I paused, and we moved to a lawn chair. "My brother Noah, is 8 minutes younger than me." I paused, as he snuggled to me. "And even though the doctors claim we are identical, Noah has light brown hair, and mine is blonde..." I said, pulling at my hair.

Kendall smiled and threaded his fingers through my hair.

"And I'm not even sure why I have my hair color. Both my parents have the same hair color of Noah and Leah. But I guess my grandparent has the same hair color..." I shrugged.

"Well I like your hair color..." He whispered. "Micah... I like you... alot..."

"I like you to Kendall." I told him. He smiled, and stretched up to meet my lips with his.

We stayed like that till air was a must.

I coughed slightly from the fast inhale. Causing him to laugh.

"Oh so my choking makes you laugh?"

"N...no... just the face you make when you get embarrassed." He whispered in my ear, before standing and looking out over the railing.

I stood next to him, and heard faint music floating up from the street below. I ran inside, and turned my i-tunes on. As the first song started, I ran back out and held out my hand to him.

"Wanna dance?" I asked.

"Really?" He chuckled. "Sure." He nodded. I smiled as we started to dance around the balcony.

Songs played through, and soon it was dark out.

"Oh... this last song is my new favorite!" I smiled and pulled him to me.

"Get a call on a random afternoon, pick it up and I see that it's you."

"Hey..." He gasped, smiled, and began to nod along to the song.

"I love the chorus." I said, as the song started to pick up. I took a deep breath to start singing along, but then I stopped.

"Dance hard, laugh more, turn the music up now
Party like a rock star can I get a what now!
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about;
Jump up, fall down gotta play it loud now
Don't care, my head's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you!" I watched in awe as Kendall sang and dance to the song.

"What... you know the song?" I asked shocked.

"Yeah... heh. I..." He stopped as my bedroom light turned on and the music paused.

"Hey Mic... I can't wait to tell you about... oh..." Noah blushed. "I didn't know you had company."

"Oh Noah... this is Kendall." I told my twin.

"Oh hello Kendall! It's nice to finally meet you."

"Nice to meet you to." Kendall smiled. "Well I should call Carlos... so he can come get me..." He sighed.

"I'll wait with you." I said, and we left the room. "You know... Logan may seem mad now, but that doesn't mean that he hates you." I told him.

"I know. I'm just was shocked. He's the nicest person I know, besides Carlos, but still. And he has never been mad at me." He sighed, and sat on the bottom stair.

"No need to worry now. It'll get better." I kissed his nose. "And I'll be here for you."

"Thanks Micah..." He smiled, and leaned in to kiss me. He paused, as headlights flooded in the room from the windows. "That would be Carlos..." He sighed.

"Well don't make him wait." I stood with him. We walked out to the porch, and Kendall gave Carlos the one minute sign.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow. Right?" He asked, and hugged me.

"Of course. You can even come over, if being at your house is to painful." I whispered into his hair.

"Good night Micah." He smiled up to me, and kissed me.

"Night Kendall." I waved once he ran over to the car.