A/N:-
So here's the thing, it's my mates birthday on the 29th, so I'm dedicating this chapter to her.
I was planning on posting this chapter on her actual birthday but I couldn't resist posting it now
I thought this would be an ideal early birthday present, a little bit of smut because I know how much she enjoys her lemons
So happy birthday Charlotte for the 29th– this one's for you
Enjoy!!!!
Chapter 4 – Flashback
BPOV
I couldn't get back to sleep, as I already knew I wouldn't. I kept having flashbacks to my time in Phoenix, to the time I spent with Edward.
I flicked through the diary I had kept while I was there, and then I found the page which detailed my most intense encounter with Edward.
Dear diary,
Alice must hate me for what I did today, I didn't listen to all the warnings she gave me about Edward. She has been telling me for the last 3 weeks he's nothing more than an arrogant, self centred bastard, who only cares about number 1; and yet I still let myself get involved with him. I can't believe what happened. Everything happened so fast I didn't even know what was happening; I'd like to think that I couldn't have stopped it even if I tried. Though, I know I should have been stronger. This is how it happened:-
And with that my flashback hit me.....
I had arrived early at Alice's house, and it was raining – in Phoenix! Must be one of the few yearly rainfalls. Maybe this was an omen of things to unfold. I knocked on the door hoping that Alice had got back early from her lunch with her mom. Edward answered the door.
I got all tongue tied but eventually managed to coherently say "Is Alice in?"
He leaned casually and sexily against the door frame, running his long, luscious fingers through his all too sexy sex hair. How I wished they were my fingers. Swoon!
After a few moments he replied, "No, not yet, she's still at lunch with mom."
"Well, errm, can I come in and get out of the rain," I stuttered.
"Why the fuck not?" he replied. A devious smile playing on his lips.
I stepped into the foyer of their gorgeous over sized house, and made my way to the living room.
Before I had chance to make it any further than a few steps, Edward snaked him sexy, gorgeous, beautiful arms around me, and pulled me into him. He cupped his hand under my chin, and kissed me passionately on the lips; our tongues battled for dominance and as always I let him win. We stayed like this just kissing, while one of his hands caressed the small of my back and the other slowly entwined in my locks, for 5 minutes, 10 minutes. Who cared, all that mattered was that he was here and I was here, and we were locked in a strong, passionate embrace. I could have stayed like this forever.
After a few moments he whispered huskily in my ear, "Let's get you out of these wet clothes."
It took me until his arm had snaked around my waist and started leading me up to his room where he started kissing me furiously and passionately, to realise what was going on and by then I was too far gone to care. I had crossed the line of no return
We slowly and sensually discarded each item of clothing, throwing them carelessly on the floor – ever so slowly nearing his bed. Our passionate kissing became more and more intensely hungry with need by the second.
Edward, lowered us to the bed slowly, and started to tease me kissing my collar bone, and then without warning drew my right nipple into his mouth while he massaged my left one, I moaned in pleasure – he really knew what he was doing. More than anything I wanted that tongue in my mouth, but there was just something about the way it felt.
I moaned loudly, and that only seemed to spurn Edward on even more
Edward continued his teasing, and moved onto my left nipple. I caught a glimpse of a smug grin on his face. He winked at me before teasing me further. He moved further down, continuing his teasing by placing feather light kisses on my stomach, finally reaching the place I ached for him to be.
I was in heaven; Edward and I in this perfect moment – it felt so right.
Edward began to tease my entrance with his tongue, sweeping it up and down along my folds before it quickly darted in. I moaned loudly and my hands found themselves in his hair, pushing him closer.
In between licks Edward stated like a question, "You're.. so.. wet.. and .. it's.. all.. for.. me."
"Yes," I breathed. "All for you now keep working."
His tongue continued to work its magic, and I moaned Edward's name in ecstasy.
I knew I wouldn't last much longer, and Edward seeming to sense my imminent release, added two fingers into the equation and began to rhythmically thrust them in an out in sync with his tongue.
I could feel my walls contracting, and Edward licked and pumped harder and faster.
"EDWARD!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, "I'm... I'm going to ......."
And with that my orgasm took over me, again and again I cried out Edwards's name.
Edward continued to lick my folds, lapping up all my juices. I couldn't wait to return the favour.
After lying on his bed in Edwards arms, I wriggled free from his grasp and straddled him.
This would be the first time I ever did this, but I wasn't about to go and tell him that. I leaned forwards; my breasts pressed against his chest and whispered seductively in his ear "It's my turn now."
Edward let a low groan escape him and I felt rather smug, knowing that I could have this kind of effect on Edward Cullen.
I began to place feather light kisses all over his stomach, like he had done with me; teasing him a little first.
I moved further down, and his big cock was twitching, I stuck my tongue out and licked the tip, before taking him into my mouth.
"Fuck Bella," he groaned. That only spurned me on to do more.
I cupped his balls and started to play with them, while slowly and sensually moving my mouth up and down his length.
He felt so right in my mouth, but I knew there was a place I wanted it even more; ever since the first moment I locked eyes with him.
I sped up my movements, and moved one hand from his balls and began stroking him.
I took him further and further into my mouth, eventually deep throating him. When his dick hit the back of my throat I knew I could do this forever, I knew he was it for me, the one I wanted to be with forever and ever. It felt so right.
I continued my movements, stroking him as well as playing with his balls. I knew he was close to climaxing.
"Bellllllla," he screamed. "I..I..."
And with that he came into my mouth. I swallowed everything he had to give me, enjoying the taste of his cum in my mouth. I rejoiced in the fact that I had done that to him.
"That," Edward breathed, "Was the best orgasm I have ever had in my life."
I smiled smugly in satisfaction.
I moved myself upwards so I was level with his mouth and began kissing him fiercely and passionately on the lips. Within seconds he had manoeuvred himself on top of me and was thrusting his huge cock inside me. It felt like heaven, complete and utter perfection.
He continued to thrust away and we were both so engrossed in complete bliss that neither one of us heard his bedroom door open.
"EDWARD!" Alice screamed. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?"
We both looked up and saw Alice standing there in the doorway, with a look of utter disbelief on her face. We quickly moved apart and I slid under the covers, showing only my face, which was bright red with embarrassment.
I felt horrible, Alice had told me what Edward was like and I hadn't listened to her. But everything Alice had told me about Edward, he had proved her to be wrong, he was the sweetest, most amazing guy I had ever met.
"Alice, what the hell are you doing in my room," Edward shouted as I slid even further under the covers.
"I was late arriving back from lunch with mom and came up her to ask if she stopped by." Alice screamed back.
"Well as you can see she did," He stated.
"I can fucking see that, this is like the Tanya situation all over again Edward. As soon as you chuck B to the side like she's yesterday's news, she won't want to know me. YOU RUIN ALL MY FRIENDSHIPS! I HATE YOU" Alice spat.
"Alice, that won't happen," I said timidly. "He's not all that bad."
"B, you don't even know him. I do!" Alice said calmly. "Just grab your clothes and get dressed and then we can go shopping," she ordered. Tears threatening to burst from her eyes. Alice was strong, and this made me wonder how often this situation had happened.
"Okay, I'll be down stairs in a few." I said nervously, but at the same time desperately wanting her to leave the room so I could talk to Edward.
Alice left the room and the second she left I clambered out of his bed and started collecting my clothes which had so carelessly been discarded.
As I pulled my panties on I turned to Edward, who was still led naked on his bed looking like a sex god, and said, "So what does this mean now? For us?"
"What do you mean?" He demanded.
"Well, we can't go on like this never happened, it was special, we shared a connection," I said as I pulled my jeans on.
"Bella, it was a heat of the moment thing," He said ignorantly.
I put my bra back on and pulled by light blue sweater over my head, contemplating what he said.
After a few moments silence I said, "What do you mean, a heat of the moment thing?"
"It meant nothing, Bella. It was a mistake," He said with a bit of pain in his voice, avoiding eye contact with me.
"It was more than nothing, you, you, you" I couldn't quite find the word, and when I did. I screamed it at him. "Bastard. We had a connection, surely you felt it too." I said my heart breaking with every word of lies he spoke.
He turned away from me, and said coldly, "You can go now,"
I turned on my heel and left the room feeling like a cheap whore, my eyes full of tears, my heart shattered into millions of pieces. He used me. For sex. And I willingly gave into him, just like he knew I would.
Alice was right, and I'm the pathetic fool who believed he was different, believed he wasn't the arrogant, self centred son of a bitch that Alice had told me he was.
I was drawn back into the present by the sound of my alarm clock going off signalling that it was 6:30am.
My eyes were damp from the tears I had just cried, I hadn't even realised I was crying. I wiped my eyes dry as I made my way to my bathroom, for a nice hot shower, dreading what today would bring at school. But most of all dreading seeing the face of Fuckward Cullen, the one face I both loved and hated the most.
EPOV
I woke up from my dream; it wasn't really even a dream, it was a memory I had long since forgotten.
It was the day I told the biggest lie of my life, and the most embarrassing day of my life too.
Basically, it was Alice's new friend, she had arrived early and Ali was still out. One thing led to another, and to put it bluntly we had oral sex, and were caught in the middle of having sex by Alice.
I felt horrible about it, and I didn't want to cause Alice any more shit; I had already been the cause her losing one friend, I couldn't risk her losing another.
I lied to her, told her it meant nothing; I knew it would hurt her but I knew Ali would be there for her, comfort her and be the friend she needed her to be.
What was her name? Her face came to the forefront of my mind, and I knew instantly who it was Bella; but when I met her she had been Bella Dwyer not Bella Swan.
So that was why Bella hated me. Oh shit! The one girl I had ever truly cared for was at the same school as me, sitting next to me in Bio. Oh my God she must hate me so much, and now she has to see me every day. I have to find a way to make it up to her. Talk to her, get her to listen and understand that that day meant everything to me; it was both the best day and the worst day of my life.
I should have known it was her when I felt that tingling sensation when she was close to me; I had only ever experienced that feeling with her. The second I laid eyes on her I knew she was the one for me, and always will be the only one I ever want.
I had to find a way to make it right.
I couldn't let her hate me.
It was time to confess what I truly felt that day; regardless of the fact that she has a boyfriend.
A/N:-
So I hope you enjoyed that! It's my FIRST EVER LEMONS!!!
Charlotte aka MyGirlsUnicorn, my beta, that was for you.
Hope it's the best birthday present ever!!!!! (even though it's 2 days early)
REVIEW!!!!!!
And in other news I am proud to say that I got my GCSE results earlier today
I got 5As, 4Bs and 1C.
St Mary's college here I come!!!
