Authors notes:

Again, thanks to everyone who's left reviews, favourited and followed. You're all awesome, and I appreciate each and every one of you. To my girls, I think everyone knows who you are now; I love you all to death!

Disclaimer: Edge & Christian are STILL not mine. This is unacceptable. For goodness sakes I've KISSED EDGE! HE SHOULD BE MINE! Oh well. I'm gonna have to write a strongly worded letter to Vince McMahon. Although after Raw this week maybe I should be writing to HHH instead...

Note from the Beta Reader: This is the second chapter uploaded today. If you haven't checked Chapter 3 out yet, do it now!


Chapter 4:

Two hours after getting home, Jay and Adam were happily curled up on the couch watching a movie, a large pizza and side dishes demolished by the hungry pair. The box hadn't been mentioned since earlier on in the evening and it was starting to play on Jays mind. Obviously something in one of those books had got Adam all upset, and he didn't like it. He had never really seen Adam cry before, not properly anyways. Adam cried at sappy movies but that wasn't real crying. Not the way Jay thought anyway.

Adam was curled into Jay, enjoying the movie, but he knew there was a giant elephant in the room. He figured Jay was just letting him have an uneventful evening after earlier, but Adam was just waiting for his opportunity to talk. The two sat in comfortable silence, until the credits started to roll. Jay reached for the remote.

"No wait! There's a mini scene at the end of the credits!" Adam cried.

"What?"

"Leave it a minute, you have to watch it otherwise you can't say you've seen the whole movie."

"How could I forget how much of a Marvel geek you are?" Jay laughed, looking over into the corner, where Adam had spent hours constructing his glass display case, painstakingly putting his Marvel statuettes in [just] the right place. Jay remembered fondly the first time Adam had dragged him to a comic book store and told Jay to pick one out to add to the case. Jay knew nothing about comic books, or the characters, but picked out one he liked. He was immediately shot down by Adam who said he couldn't have Wonder Woman because 'She's a DC character'. In the end, Jay settled on Thor, saying he thought he looked a little like Adam, but that Adam was hotter. That earned Jay huge bonus points and a scorching hot blow job when they got home from the store. It also led to tonight's movie night, with Adam picking 'Thor' for them to watch. Finally, the after the credits scene done with, Adam let Jay turn off the TV.

"I love that movie." Adam said. "Avengers next week?"

"Sure, sounds good." Jay reached for his beer and took a sip.

"So I guess, you wanna talk..." Adam said, glancing at the box containing his diaries, sighing softly. "We should talk."

"Only if you want to baby boy. Like I said, I'm not gonna push you to talk, I know when you're ready, you'll let me know." Jay played with Adams hair gently, enjoying the feeling of the golden strands weaving through his fingers.

"I want to. I guess I've been leading up to it for a while. I figured that, since we took this huge step and moved in together, you should know everything about me. We promised no secrets right?"

"That we did baby boy, that we did." Jay nodded solemnly. "Start with a good memory though."

Adam smiled and extracted himself from Jays comforting arms, and reached for the box. Opening it slowly, he let out a breath he didn't know he'd been holding, and rummaged around for a while, before pulling out an old school exercise book, and flicked through the pages. Finding what he wanted, he handed the book to Jay.

"Read this one. Start here..." He pointed to the start of an entry. "And finish..." He flicked through a few pages. "Here. It's a nice one. Promise. You read that, and I'll make coffee." Adam smiled as he stood up and headed for the kitchen, leaving Jay alone with his old diary.

So today I finally talked to Jason. But he likes Jay better. William, Jason, Jay, how many names does one kid need?! He's in some of my classes and we had Biology together today and Mr 'I know everything about Science' Jones told us we all needed lab partners and instead of letting us pick our own he paired everyone up instead. Which could have been totally lame but he put me with Jay. He was wearing another Hogan shirt today. (I don't have that one he wore today). So the lesson was all about labelling parts of the heart. BOOOORING. I knew it all already. So did Jay, cuz he's totally smart. So we did it all super-fast and then kinda goofed off for the rest of the period. Which Mr Jones was cool with cuz, summer vacation starts tomorrow! NO MORE SCHOOL TIL SEPTEMBER! SWEEEEEEET!

I'm so stoked cuz Jay's a massive WWF fan which is my favourite thing in the world EVER! We just talked and talked about all sorts of stuff, and he's really cool. Like, über cool. So he's coming over tomorrow night to hang out and watch wrestling on TV. I best book cuz mom is calling me for dinner. Laters!

Jay smiled, he didn't remember that day so well, but he DID remember going to Adams house the night after. He heard Adam pottering about in the kitchen, the coffee percolator making its pleasing sound, and Adam, singing along to the Foo Fighters on the radio. Badly. Jay smiled to himself and started the next entry that Adam had told him to read.

Hey, so I'm having to write this in the bathroom, which is FREEZING by the way, because Jay is still here! He came over after lunch and he brought his ninja star so we threw that around for a bit in the back yard before we headed to my room to read comics. We did that for a bit but Jays not as into comics as I am. Then he showed me that he'd brought over a load of wrestling action figures, so I got mine out and we made a ring out of Popsicle sticks, string and glue and stuff and did our favourite matches until Mom said it was time for dinner. After dinner we watched the wrestling (Hogan won his match!) and when that was done we had our own wrestling matches in the living room, we did best three out of five but when we won two matches each we gave up as neither of us wanted to lose. I kinda wanted to carry on cuz it was kinda cool wrestling with Jay. Before we knew it, it was like really late and dark outside so my mom called Jays mom and now he's SLEEPING OVER! My mom got out the porta-bed and made it up. That bed is SO uncomfortable though, so I gave Jay my bed and I dragged everything off the porta-bed and just crashed on the floor. Which is nowhere near as uncomfortable as that damn bed. I waited until Jay was totally asleep before I came in here to write this. He's kinda cute when he's asleep. He has really long eyelashes. I looked at myself in the mirror and kinda squinted to see what my eyelashes look like and Jays are definitely longer than mine. This has been one of my best days ever.

Adam came back into the living room just as Jay closed the book, laying it gently on the coffee table. The entries were a little bitter sweet to Jay. He remembered having such a great time that day, and although they had hung out a little over the next few weeks of summer vacation, it had all changed when they got back to school. Jay joined the wrestling team and Adam found a new set of friends who took up all his time. They hadn't spoken again until they met again all these years later.

"Did you read it?" Adam asked, handing Jay a steaming mug of freshly brewed coffee.

"I did. We had a great time that day. What happened Adam? Why did we stop hanging out?" Jay sipped at his coffee as Adam sat down next to him on the couch, tucking one leg under him as he cradled his own coffee in both hands, staring into the rising steam from his favourite coffee mug.

"That... That was all me. My fault." Adam said as he took a mouthful of coffee from his Thor decorated mug. "I knew. Even back then. That I felt something for you that wasn't just...friendship. I got, scared I guess." Adam picked invisible lint off his jeans and took another sip of coffee. Jay remained silent, letting Adam get out what he needed to say. He placed a reassuring hand on Adams thigh, and Adam continued.

"You remember the kids I hung out with? Well they heard a rumour that Charlie, Charlie Dawson, you remember him?" Jay nodded and Adam carried on. "The rumour was that Charlie was...was gay. They picked on him mercilessly. Like, totally mean, evil stuff. They tagged his locker and stole his lunch money, and that was just the little things. It got worse. It was mostly Punk. He was the ring leader." Adam took another mouthful of his rapidly cooling coffee and set in on the coaster on the coffee table. "Charlie wasn't actually gay, and I know cuz I asked him. He was just a nerdy kid y'know. I tried to give him the heads up if I knew Punk was planning something bad. I didn't want anything to do with helping him beat kids up. I was just..." Adam broke down and started to sob. He put his head in his hands and just let go. Years of pent up sadness burst from him like a damn opening. Jay pulled Adam onto his lap and into his arms and let Adam cry against his chest.

"I was so fucking scared Jay! I was such a coward and so fucking frightened that if Punk knew, if he found out I was actually the one that was gay he'd beat up on me instead!"

"Shhh, it's okay baby boy, it's all over, it's all behind you. It's done now. Punk was a nasty piece of shit, you did everything you could to help Charlie. Even back then you had a big heart. You still do. I love you so much Adam."

"I love you too Jay. I wanted to talk to you so much at school. I came to all your wrestling meets, I hid. Way up high in the bleachers. I don't think I missed even one home meet. I even managed to get to a few out of state meets when I finally got my license." Adam sniffed and wiped his nose on his sleeve. "Like I said, I kept your picture in my locker. Well hidden. The other one I put in here..." Adam slipped off Jays lap and retrieved another book from the box, this one a black hardback notebook, and flicked through the pages. He opened the page and showed Jay. There, tucked in between the pages of the book, inside a plastic wallet of the type used in ring binders, was the article from the paper. Adam grinned as he handed it to Jay. "Told you I bought two copies."

Jay grinned, pulled Adam back onto his lap and kissed him deeply, the carefully wrapped newspaper article falling to the floor as Jay tugged Adam's shirt over his head.