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The Truth Behind the Scare
Kakashi looked at his charge surprised. He didn't expect the blonde to want to kiss him much less ask to kiss him.
Naruto's eyes shot open realizing what he had just said. His brain had shut off and those words came out of his mouth without his permission. The blonde was terrified that he had just ruined his 'relationship' with his bodyguard.
Quickly Naruto got up. "Kakashi i'm so sorry ... I ... don't mean to. I will leave you alone. Please forget I said anything." The blonde walked past his bodyguard not looking or making eye contact.
Finally the silver haired man caught his breathe and tried to grab his charges wrist as he passed. By the time it registered Naruto was already halfway up the stairs.
Sighing the older man got up and followed the flustered blonde up the stairs. When he got to the now closed door he knocked trying to get Naruto out of his room to talk. "Naruto come out ... I didn't mean to not answer you." Kakashi knocked again but he didn't hear any noise coming from his charges room.
Knocking one more time Kakashi turned the handle and noticed the door was locked. He was getting worried now since the room was completely silent.
Reaching his hand into his pocket Kakashi pulled out two metal things. He put one in the lock and picked the lock. Opening the door quickly and looked around.
The room was empty.
Kakashi's heart dropped when he saw the window open and a breeze blowing the curtains.
Frozen his eyes caught a tree branch outside his window. Running down the stairs and out the door Kakashi's eyes darting around trying to find his blonde. Looking around in the front then moving to the back he couldn't find him.
Soon the silver haired man thought he was going to have a heart attack because he couldn't find Naruto. Tsunade had said that people might be after him and to stay with him. Now he ran away because I was being stupid and couldn't answer him.
Sighing Kakashi decided he could handle this problem on his own without calling Tsunade or Jiraiya and started walking around the city looking for Naruto.
Then it dawned on Kakashi. He dug in his pocket looking for his phone. Frantically he opened it and searched for the number that would help finding Naruto so much more easier.
Putting the phone to his ear he waited for the ringing.
RING
RING
After the second ring he thought he heard a ringtone somewhere around him. He looked up at his surroundings and noticed he was in the park.
Looking around he hoped that it was Naruto the noise was coming from. He would give anything to see that mop of blonde hair, to see that sparkle in those bright blue eyes, to see his beautiful smile on his sun kissed skin.
Then he saw it, blonde hair hunched over sitting where they had been a couple hours ago throwing the football back and forth.
Kakashi started to walk to his blonde in the distance. Silver hair was moving faster starting a jog then he was full out running trying to get the the blonde as fast as he could.
He was now standing behind Naruto, his chest heaving. Kakashi couldn't tell whether his heart was beating fast because of the run he had just done or because he had finally found his blonde charge. Taking a deep breath to steady himself he moved around to the front of Naruto and sat in front of him.
What he saw nearly broke the silver haired mans heart. Naruto was sitting with his head down. Blonde bangs covering his face. As soon as Kakashi sat down the blonde lifted his he slightly in order to look at his bodyguard. Those blue eyes that took everyone's breath away were dull and dead. The light that usually shown bright with life was gone. Naruto's sun kissed tan skin was pale. The only thing that had shine to it were the tears running down his cheeks and over his scars.
Slowly and as gently as he could Kakashi moved his hand up to Naruto's chin. Lifting his hand making his blonde look at him he locked his grey and red eyes with his soft azure ones.
Sniffing Naruto tried to not look at his bodyguard. "Why are you here? Why didn't you just stay at the house?"
Sighing Kakashi didn't break eye contact. "What do you mean? I'm your bodyguard I am supposed to protect you all the time."
"... Yeah I forgot i'm just a job. I understand i'm sorry I am causing you so much trouble."
"No Naruto you aren't just a job. You aren't causing me too much trouble. You didn't have to run away you could have just talked to me."
"I just needed to think and I knew you would be coming to my room. Instead of staying I just wanted to leave for a little while ... I didn't think you would come after me though."
Sighing standing Naruto up. "Please don't do that again. You scared me half to death I didn't know where you were."
Naruto looked into mismatched eyes. He didn't see that Kakashi was annoyed or mad he saw that he was sympathetic and scared. "You were ... worried about me? You don't hate me or you're not mad at me for asking ... to kiss you?"
Looking into those blue eyes Kakashi saw they were full of insecurity. Smiling gently he looked at him keeping his eye contact. "I definitely am not mad I am actually quite honored for you to want to kiss me." Kakashi's eyes grew darker as he thought about his past. "Come on I need to tell you a story."
Kakashi grabbed Naruto's wrist. He wanted to hold the blonde's hand. To entwine his fingers with the soft tan ones. To feel the warmth of another person. But, the silver haired man knew better than to show any type of attraction so he didn't lead his blonde on.
Silently they walked back to the house for the second time that day.
Finally they got in the house and Kakashi sat Naruto down on the couch. The blonde was watching every movement his bodyguard was making curious as to what he was talking about when he said he had a story to tell him.
Kakashi finally sat down next to Naruto taking a breath to steady himself for the story ahead. He didn't want to let Naruto down without giving him the reason why he couldn't get too close to the blonde.
The older man looked his charge in the eyes. "Naruto ... I was surprised when you asked if you could kiss me. You just caught me off guard. But, sadly I can't kiss you or get too close to you ... romantically. A relationship between us wouldn't work out for two reasons. One, even though I don't personally think of you as just a job. I am working. A relationship with the person I am trying to protect would be unprofessional."
As Kakashi was trying to explain all this to Naruto gently without trying to hurt him his charge was still sad. Naruto looked down and fidgeted with his hands wanting the conversation to be over.
"Reason two is that I don't want what happened last time I got too ... close to a charge to happen to you."
At reason number two Naruto raised his head to see a haunted look in his bodyguard's mismatched eyes. "W-what happened?"
Kakashi kept looking at the blonde in front of him. "That is what I want ... no need to tell you."
Sighing the silver haired man leaned back closing his eyes for a couple minutes. "It all started when I was called by a man named Iruka Umino. He was having problems with guys that he was mixed up in and they weren't good guys. I went over there the next day to help protect him. Since I was only protecting him and no one else it was quite easy. There wasn't anything happening for a few weeks and we were starting to get comfortable with each other. When I went out with Iruka as in following him around while he shopped for groceries or other things we simply talked and got to know each other. The more I got to know him the deeper my feelings went to just wanting to protect him for the job to protecting him because if anything happened to him I didn't know what I would have done. Iruka started to have feelings for me in return. He was curious with what was behind my mask as most people are but the difference was at the time it didn't bother me if he saw behind my mask. More weeks passed as we were getting closer. Then one night something had startled Iruka and he came running into my room scared that the men hunting him had finally tried to kill him. When he was in my room he was in complete hysterics. I was trying to talk to him to calm him down but he wouldn't stop talking and freaking out. So I did the only thing that I could think of I pulled my mask down and I kissed him. Sure enough that got him to shut up. That was the first day of our relationship."
Naruto was blushing a bit he had never heard this story ... obviously since his bodyguard didn't talk to him much. The blonde was also wondering why he was here protecting him when apparently he had Iruka.
Kakashi saw his charges face blush slightly then he noticed that Naruto was thinking something over. Then frustration flashed through his eyes like he was upset with something he said.
The silver haired man smirked as his charge's frustration shown through like he was looking through a window. "Naruto hold on i'm not done with the story. Don't get so worked up yet."
"Anyway we were in a relationship for a few more weeks and still Iruka's life wasn't in harms way. I was then taken off guard duty but I was staying in his house anyway. Just this time not as a bodyguard but as his boyfriend. We were comfortable as a couple and since I was dating Iruka I didn't work as a bodyguard for his sake. He didn't like me putting myself in danger.
Then, everything went downhill. One day we were walking back to the house and Iruka had forgotten something in his car. I went into the house to start dinner and all of a sudden I heard a loud noise. I simply thought it was my boyfriend closing and locking the car door so I didn't think anything about it. After the loud noise I heard a bang and being an ex-bodyguard I knew what gunfire sounded like. I dropped everything and ran outside to Iruka's car to see if he was ok. I already had my phone out and dialed 911. I got around to the back and found Iruka laying on the ground and a puddle of blood quickly surrounding him. I ran over to him and tried to stop the blood but he was shot in the chest and that wasn't the first time I had saw that kind of bullet wound. All I could do was put pressure on his chest and wait. He kept trying to tell me things and he kept saying let him die because as long as he could die in my arms he was content with death."
Shakily sighing Kakashi tried to finish his story without tears. "Soon the ambulance was there and he was taken off in the red and white vehicle. Iruka had spent hours in surgery. The doctors were trying to fix all the vital organs that were hit by the bullet. After about five hours he was in a hospital room and all I could do was sit by his bed and hope that I could see his eyes again. So I could see that smile I liked so much. After a few more hours he finally opened his eyes and he told me the guys I was supposed to be guarding him against came and finished their job."
Kakashi closed his eyes wishing that none of it would have happened. "After he told me and talked to me for hours he went into cardiac arrest. There was too much strain on his heart since he already had problems with it in the first place. I was waiting outside and when the doctor came out and told me he had passed my heart dropped. He was gone and it was because I couldn't save him."
Naruto saw how responsible Kakashi felt when he looked into his bodyguard's eyes. The blonde man's heart went out to Kakashi because his boyfriend had died basically in front of his eyes. Now he understood why his bodyguard was so hesitant with getting closer to the people he protects.
"If I would have kept the relationship strictly platonic then we wouldn't have gotten together and I wouldn't have been distracted by Iruka. He wouldn't be dead right now."
Looking at Naruto Kakashi hoped he got threw to him. "Do you understand why we can't go any farther and why I can't kiss you?"
Still depressed but now understanding the reasons Naruto shook his head 'yes' in silence. Even though he understood he didn't really want to look at his bodyguard. He did have a question though regarding Kakashi's appearance.
"Hey Kakashi?"
"Yes Naruto?"
"I have been wondering ... how did you get that scar on your eye and why is it red?"
Kakashi looked back at Naruto who had a curious gleam in his eyes. "Well, it actually happened a few weeks after Iruka's death. I had been off duty for a while to get my head back into my job. I was in charge of protecting a little girl. She was from a very rich family and they were worried that someone would try to take her and ransom her. Someone in fact did try to take her but my head wasn't 100% in the job and I ended up facing a guy with a knife. He swiped the knife over my eye, pretty deep, thats where the scar came from and when I was at the hospital the doctors said that blood vessels had popped in my eye. That is why my eye is like this."
Naruto looked at Kakashi surprised. He now saw his bodyguard in a new light. At first when the blonde saw him he thought he was lazy and hadn't really had any action on the job. Now that he had heard that Kakashi's boyfriend was killed and he himself got himself put into the middle of a knife fight, everything changed.
"Oh ..." Naruto looked away thinking about what he should say to his bodyguard. The man had hurt, sadness, and depression in his eyes. He obviously still thought it was his fault that Iruka was dead.
But, from what Naruto heard it wasn't.
The silver haired man stood up stretching. He looked outside and noticed it was now dark outside. He didn't think he had been talking very long but apparently he had. "Well, I am going to bed it has been a long day."
The blonde looked up at Kakashi. "Don't you want anything to eat before you go to bed?"
Thinking it over for a couple seconds the older man simply looked at his charge and shook his head 'no.' He wasn't in the mood to eat ... he was just tired.
Naruto watched his bodyguard walk up the stairs. He didn't blame him for not caring to eat at the moment. He had just retold the worst part of his life.
Sighing the blonde stood up and went into the kitchen opening the fridge and rummaging around grabbing food to make a sandwich.
Now Naruto understood why Kakashi was so frantic in looking for him earlier today. He didn't want anything to happen to him. "I wonder since he was so frantic if he actually does care more than he wants to."
Sitting down the younger man turned on the t.v eating his sandwich. He wasn't going to be down there long he just needed to think. Soon Naruto's eyes started to close as he dosed off to sleep.
The silver haired bodyguard got up and looked at the clock is was three in the morning he had went to bed 6 hours ago but the blonde he shared the room with wasn't in his bed.
Thinking the worst Kakashi shot up and went downstairs looking for his blonde hoping that he had just fallen asleep down stairs. Which what he saw made him sigh in relief and smirk to himself.
His blonde was laying on the couch facing the t.v. He was a complete mess from being in such an uncomfortable position for so long. Smiling the bodyguard went over and shut off the television and set Naruto's plate on the table.
Kakashi took in the sight of the blonde. He wanted to touch him, to love him, for his smile to be completely his but he couldn't. He didn't want to make the same mistake he made years ago. The silver haired man's heart couldn't take losing another person close to him.
Smiling to himself but with a sadder smile he gently picked up his blonde bridal style and slowly went upstairs to their room carful not to wake him up. He laid Naruto on his own bed covering him and tucking him in with his blankets. Soon the silver haired man went over to his cot and climbed back under the warm covers.
His new charge is definitely going to throw him through a loop while i'm here protecting him. Smiling to himself he fell into a dreamland he hoped was filled with Naruto.
