Chapter Summary: A continuation on Chapter One, Xion is tired of being in the Organization and not knowing if Axel and Roxas are really her friends. She wants to think yes, but inside she knows that it's not true. Takes place during that time when Xion disappeared to… moving on.
Friends [in this story and to me] = People who accept who you are and love you for it.
Xion's friends = People who have no idea who she really is other than who they want her to be. BTW: Inspired by Breathe No More AND My Immortal (Band Version)
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I set the mirror shards on the table in front of the old man, working all alone in this mirror shop. My hood conceals my face, but I can still see my reflection who disapproved of what I was doing. I ignore her and bite my lip nervously.
"Grandpa, what are you doing?" a brunette girl of about fourteen asks from the door, warily eyeing me. I scoop the mirror shards, but her grandfather stops me. I press my hands together to stop my odd and inhuman bleeding. My reflection is smiling beneath the hood of her cloak, mocking me, daring me to break her to prevent them from seeing who I am.
And what I always will be.
"Olette, why are you yelling? I have a customer." her grandfather replies, gesturing to me. Another person walks in, and his voice has a bored tone to it.
"It's probably Fuu in disguise, she's trying to spy on us!" Olette insists.
"It's not Fuu, the old man would recognize him don't you think?" That makes three people in this store besides me. I scoop up the shards and tuck them in a pocket inside my coat, backpedaling towards the wall where nobody was standing.
Emptiness, the last sign of a lost cause.
After Roxas and Axel, I couldn't stand to be around too many people. When they say the more, the merrier, I say the more, the scarier. The shards in my pocket are jabbing me through the fairly thin material of the pocket I had attached inside my coat. They hurt so badly and the bleeding… never… "Stop!"
"Huh? See, I told you it's not Fuu." My hands cover my mouth, and the odd blood stains my face. My skin was cold and sticky with the clear liquid and crystals.
Not happening to me, I'm not me, I left me…
My relfection in the crystals smirks at me and mouths to me, "I told you so." Yes, she told me so yet I didn't listen. At least now I know the truth, and we know who you are and who I am. A crooked smile forms on her lips. We agree. I am a monster, I—
I was never meant to exist.
My life is a lie, and I devoted it to Roxas and Axel. However, I got nothing in return. I wiped away all the tears when he cried in his sleep. I fought all his fears with hope and the simple reassurance that everything would be okay as long as Axel and I were there. All of the wonderful days have turned into years, some painful, some regretted.
They're better off without me.
I ask him to fix it quickly, tucking my arms inside my sleeves. He pieces the mirror together as a hand mirror—not all the shards could be salvaged. I thank him and run away, not bothering to show my face or pay for the mirror. My reflection laughs shouting "Coward! You could never do it! Riku was right, your Keyblade is a sham and so are you!" I cry out when I slip and fall in the woods. The mirror is safe, to my dismay. I lay in the grass for a while, letting my hands relax. I take my soaked gloves off and let my hands drip over the ground. So much,
So much,
So much,
So much,
Too much.
I can't breathe, and my face turns red with the effort. My reflection is quiet, no longer mocking me. It's a comfortable silence, and it makes my hands slip from my chest to the grass as my head hits the softness soon after. I see the sky above and turn green with envy. So free…
When I'm so trapped.
Chapter Four is done, and in only two days! Worked on most of it in school, so I just lost a few pages in my Music notebook (hate that class, no KH or BioShock music). I have some review replies, which I haven't done before but I decided to do now.
Shadow of Malice: Yeah, I'll update soon. Chapter four and five are almost done for Worlds Beyond Our Own, and I'm still taking song requests for this fic.
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