Ezra Pov
"Kanan"
I sensed that Kanan was in pain, no fiscal pain it was a mental pain. I tried to stand up but slipped and landed hard on the bed. I tried it again and this without slipping. I ran immediately to Kanan and didn't see Zeb beating Chopper in a game and Sabine washing the dishes. I didn't hear how Hera said that they were about to land and didn't hear how chopper lost and shocked Zeb. My mind was fixed on Kanan who was about to give up. His mind had one thought and this was death. He wanted to die, but why I didn't know, I only knew that I must try to help him.
I stood for the bathroom, but it was closed, that was an obvious cause when somebody is washing no one wants to see him\she naked. I wanted to shout to him that he should open the door, but my voice was quiet and raw so I could only whisper and this didn't change something, in fact, he got more scared than before. I got anxious and wanted to break the door open, but this wouldn't go so well and then I remembered something Kanan did when my door was closed and he had to come into my room, I stood in front of it concentrate on the door and used the force to open it. And what I saw was unbelievable there was Kanan on the floor, around him were many pieces from the mirror, which hang above the sink, in Kanan's hand was one of the pieces and his face was full of dried tears. I ran to him and got him into a hug and whispered as loud as I could that everything would be fine, that he had nothing to fear and that he shouldn't end his life. He asked "Are you real? "
I was slightly confused because of the question but answered "Yes, I'm and I won't leave you soon. You have to bear with me some time longer!" at this he laughed a bit.
"Yes, this would be great!"
After I knew he was ok and wouldn't try to kill himself, my vision became fuzzy and the whole adrenaline which was in my body rushed out and I fainted.
Kanan Pov
I feel how Ezra fainted again, but it was ok. I knew he was ok. I picked him up and brought him back to the med bay. I checked if he had injured himself as he ran out of the room and was relieved as I didn't see anything! I was relieved that he came because of I truly wanted to die. I couldn't forgive myself for this. Even yet I couldn't it was a so big mistake.
As I saw Ezra so eased my own eyelids became heavier, I dropped on Ezras side and began to sleep.
(dream)
I was standing on the place from our last mission. Everything around me was black from the explosions and in the middle stood Ezra.
I went to him and as I saw him better I was shocked. His skin was full of bruises, some wounds which were bleeding and as I looked into his eyes...This was the most horrible thing on this planet. His normal electric blue eyes were white, with only a hint of blue. As he saw me his emotionless face became an angry one. "You! You did this!" he screamed and pushed me to the edge. "How dare are you to show up and look into my face!" he pushed me again and I couldn't answer him. I wanted to explain that this was a misunderstanding, but my voice was gone. He pushed me as far as he could and shortly before I could fall he said:"You are dead to me!"
I shoot up from the place I was lying and looked at Ezra he was sleeping peacefully. I gripped his hand to look if he was mad at me or if he wasn't real but I felt the warm waves come from him. It could become like it was before, or not? this was a terrible thing to believe, some things nobody will forget!
It is longer and I hope it is better!
Two perspectives are easier to write then one!
May the force be with you
