Unknown Feelings

It was the day before the anniversary of the day Chuck first landed on Planet 51. A large party was being planned in his honor. Everyone was a part of the preparation. Glar was helping the General set up city hall, Skiff, Eckle and Neera were in charge of decorating the heart of town, and Chuck and Lem were in charge of the planetarium. It may have been the day that an alien first invaded them, but in the process everyone on the planet learned, over the course of the year, that new things weren't always bad. While the two had awkward moments, they've had their share over the year, they still tried to act like friends. Though what they thought was normal behavior made it all the more clear to those around them that something had happened.

"Hey, I found the last one!" Lem came running up the rounded stairs to where Chuck was in the observatory, holding a small white, glowing star between his small green fingers. Chuck looked like he had just been told that all of the galactic pudding in the world was gone. Lem couldn't help but laugh at his expression.

"Are you serious? I just put the ladder away you little troublemaker!" He reached out and ruffled his hair affectionately, laughing along. His fingers brushed one of the small antennae atop his head and pulled his hand away as if burned. His eyes averted, the two stood in silence. Lem couldn't help the small shiver that passed through him, but he tried to act as if it never happened.

"Well, how is it supposed to get up there?" A short, rounded finger pointed up at the string dangling from the ceiling, a small hook on the end. All of the other stars that were hanging were glowing like the sun except the one in the palm of his hand. Lem looked down at the star sadly. "I guess you can't join them this year little guy..." The star seemed to dim even more and Lem frowned. Everything on the planet had some sort of life source. The stars used in the planetarium were made from small glow worms. They glowed the brightest when they were together in groups.

"Alright, then there's only one thing left to do." Chuck sighed and Lem looked over at him sadly, but was taken aback at how close he was. Before a single word left his lips, Chuck had picked him up, large hands holding his waist tightly as he lifted Lem's green body up to where the string was swaying. "Are you high enough?"

"Y-yes...thank you..." There was a short stutter as he spoke, red touching his cheeks at the feel of his hands against his skin. The star held onto the hook eagerly before letting out a small burst of light to express its happiness. Lem smiled, tapping it gently before Chuck lowered him, holding him level with his face before placing his feet on the ground. They smiled at each other and Lem couldn't resist looking into those blue eyes. They were happy but still reserved. He wanted to see those eyes burn hotly like they had the other time they had been in the observatory, sitting over on the ledge. Chuck seemed to know what he was thinking. He turned away and cleared his throat.

"Lem...don't look at me like that. Is everything done here?" Chuck looked eager to leave and Lem nodded solemnly, looking down at the floor boards beneath him. The human left rather quickly after that and he slumped down onto the floor. Whenever they did get to spend time together it was short spent. Chuck always left in a hurry whenever he found himself alone with him. How come things couldn't go back to the way they had been before? Why couldn't Lem take back everything that he had done? He was willing to forget about the feelings he had felt as he was caressed by his large hands, just so long as their friendship was saved. Looking up at the ceiling the stars twinkled around the room, giving the facade of the real sky that expanded high above the ceiling. They shone brilliantly, trying to share their happiness but all Lem could do was sigh.

It felt like he was outside, gazing at the actual stars there in the observatory, just thinking that there were other things in the universe made him feel all warm inside. That there was so many things that he didn't know.

The thought of the universe caused Chuck to rise into his thoughts. It's already been a year since he first landed...how fast did time really move? Over that time, Chuck still hadn't learned much about his species. Or so he said. Thoughts shifted around in his head as the memory about what Chuck had said about them came forward. About Lem's people.

"I have no idea what I'm doing! I know almost nothing about your kind! Even if I do want to do something with you, I-I have no idea where to put it or what to touch or anything!"

An idea found its way into his cranium and he smiled brilliantly, looking up at the stars with hope twinkling in the depths of his eyes. Chuck needed to know more about his kind in order to receive a better understanding of this planet. It was the perfect thing to do. With that same goofy grin on his lips he went running down the stairs and quickly out of the planetarium. He had to get to the bookstore before they closed. Surely they would have it.

Later that evening, Lem spent some time preparing the gift that he had bough for delivery. It was wrapped in soft, shiny paper that changed color depending on where the light came from. It included everything, meaning everything, that Chuck would need to know about his species. It had cost a small sum, but he was willing to spend it, after all, it would save their friendship. Once it was wrapped he kept it on his bed, staring at it in thought.

How should he give it to him? Should he just hand it to him and watch his reaction as he opens it? Or should he hide it and let Chuck find it by himself? Give it to his parents to give to him?? No, that was out of the question. So how was the present going to get to him...

A lightbulb turned on in his head and he slipped off his bed quietly, grabbing the present as he did so. Chuck would get it in the morning. A surprise gift on the celebration of his arrival. It was the perfect plan! He sneaked out of his room and moved silently down the hall toward Chuck's room. He could hear him snoring lightly and he held back a chuckle as he quietly clicked the door open. Chuck's room was modeled after space. It had dark blue walls that were black in some areas and he had hundreds of the stars from the museum on his walls. They moved around during the night so each night they looked different. Like the actual sky as the planet rotated on its axis. His room was also larger then the rest of the house because of the size difference, but it was just perfect for him. Not to mention his bed. Lem went over to stand by it.

He looked so peaceful when he was asleep... He placed the present at the foot of his bed where he would see it when he sat up in the morning. As it touched the bed sheets before hovering, Chuck made a rather weird noise before rolling onto his back. Lem's breath caught in his throat. The blanket had shifted to reveal his upper body, large, pale muscles exposed for green eyes to see. The stars let out a burst of light in happiness, each going off at a different time, and the light expressed played with the muscles on his broad chest, almost as if dancing with them in the night. Lem wanted to touch his skin, see if it was as soft as it looked...see if it made him feel as good as it did with him.

"Mmm..." Chuck softly sighed and Lem hurriedly left the room in case he was about to wake up. He didn't want to get caught watching him sleep. He didn't want to seem like a 'pervert' as Chuck called them and he didn't want to make Chuck dislike him anymore then he already did. If he even did. Lem took one last look at the human before he shut the door, going down into the kitchen to make a sandwich. He wasn't going to be able to sleep after that.

A few days passed since he had given him the book...Chuck was avoiding him. Had he gotten the present? Did it have the opposite effect? What was he supposed to do now? Their friendship was ruined because he tried to fix it! It was all his fault! Why did he think that something like that would fix the problem? Why did he even want to fix it anyway! He'd be returning to earth someday so why...did he...even....bother...

He had to get his mind off of Chuck. It wasn't helping him at all, it was only worsening the condition that his brain was in. To get his mind off of it, he went to see Skiff at the comic book store. Surely he could help him avert his thoughts.

"Rover!! You are such a good dog, yes you are! I am so glad that Chuck let me keep you...oh? You are too? You are the best dog ever!!"

Well...maybe not...

"Hey Skiff, you on break or something?" Lem went up to his friend smiling. Rover was in front of him, wagging his little antenna like he normally did, but today there was a stack of comic books piled up on his back. "What...are you doing?"

"Rover's helping me stock the shelves. The new Humaniac volumes are selling like crazy so I've been needing to restock them about every 3 hours. What are you doing here?" Skiff looked at him curiously and Lem smiled nervously.

"Me? Oh, just coming to visit my best friend, you know, hang out like we used to do." A nervous laugh followed his statement and he leaned against one of the racks, the comics resting on the shelf scattering onto the floor. "Woah, sorry! I-I'll clean it up!" Lem got down onto his hands and knees and started to pick up the volumes that had fallen. Of course he had to do something like that to embarrass himself! He couldn't just be like a normal kid and converse with his friend!

"Lem...hey, don't worry about it. It's fine." Skiff bent down and grabbed his upper arm, pulling Lem's green eyes over to him. "I'm more worried about you. You've been acting strange lately, are you okay?" He was genuinely concerned but Lem smiled a goofy smile and brushed his friends hand off.

"Weird? I'm not acting weird. Nope. There's nothing wrong with me." Nervous laughter followed and he continued to pick up the books, lining them along the shelf in any way he grabbed them. He knew that he was acting strange, everyone he knew had noticed. He just...didn't want to admit it...he didn't want to believe that Chuck had that much of an effect on him.

"Oh no...the alien...he..." Skiff's eyes started to water as he looked at his friend. Lem looked at him in confusion. What was wrong with him? The next thing that he did was break down in the middle of the store, crying things about aliens and their ability to control their prey and the side effects of being used and crazy stuff like that. Lem grew more nervous as each second passed and more people started to gaze onto the scene, curious as to what was going on. Lem grabbed his friends arm and dragged him into the back room, shutting the door behind him.

"What is wrong with you?!"

"The probe Lem! What have I told you about the probe! You need the cork! You can't let him win! Fight it! Don't let him get inside you!!" Skiff took a hold of his friend's shoulders and shook, holding him close as he started to cry. Lem awkwardly patted his back. He didn't know what to do...did Chuck really have a probe? Why would he need to use it, Lem was already his friend. He couldn't possibly get any closer to an alien then he was with Lem. He was living with him for glorg's sake! Lem would have known if he had been probed...wouldn't he?

Those were questions that he needed to ask Chuck...well, if he'd listen to him anyway.

When he got home after the 'incident' at the comic book store, he went right to Chuck's room. He pushed open the door as he started to speak, eyes aimed at the floor. He wasn't used to expressing himself so it was rather awkward.

"Chuck...please don't be mad at me...I've just...I've never experienced stuff like that before and...what are you doing?" He stopped speaking as soon as he looked up. Chuck was lounged out on his chair, a book in his hands. Those blue eyes looked over at Lem and grew tiny as his eyes widened.

"L-Lem?!" They moved from Lem's face to a bulge in his suit where his antenna was before covering it with the book, cover up and open to hide as much as possible. "Haven't I told you to always knock first? Jeez, look at what you've lost without me." He laughed nervously, adjusting himself in the chair to get comfortable.

Lem stepped into the room and closed the door, leaning against it while he watched the human across the room. His eyes moved over his entire body to land on the book that he had been reading. It was the book that Lem had gotten him. He was reading it...Lem smiled at the thought, looking down at his toes as he crossed his feet, green toes feeling around the carpet on their own. Then he thought of how his antenna had been bulging beneath his uniform. Was their something wrong with it? Well, answers didn't come out of nowhere.

"What do you do with that?" A finger pointed at the area that Chuck was covering and those blue eyes grew stormy as they tried to comprehend what Lem was saying.

"With...huh?" Chuck looked completely dumbfounded and Lem went over, lifting the book to much objection.

"Your antenna. Why were you touching it last time?" Lem placed his hands on Chuck's well-toned thighs, looking into his eyes. He wanted answers...he wanted the truth. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. It was as if he couldn't speak. Lem looked down at the bulge and touched it tentatively. Chuck sucked in his breath sharply.

"Lem...wh-what are you doing...?" His voice was higher then it normally was and he swallowed loudly.

"Do you use probes like in the movies? Is it something that I need to be worried about?" Lem's eyes were focused on what they were doing between his legs. His breath was shortening and Lem could feel his body tensing.

"Uh...n-no...I-I don't use...probes..." The last word was squeaked out, even higher then what it had been before.

"Well...what about this? What is this for?" Lem's fingers somehow found the zipper to his uniform and unzipped it. Revealing his chest, abs and most of all...his groin. Lem jumped slightly as it sprung out of the confinements before sighing in amazement. He looked at Chuck's eyes. They were darker than normal and his cheeks were a deep red, breathing somewhat uneven. He suddenly looked nervous and he gave Lem a warning look that was too pitiful to even be called such.

"L-Lem...do-don't touch th-that..."

"Then tell me what its for..." Lem stopped what he was doing to stare into Chuck's face. He had no idea what he was doing...he just felt like he should keep going. There was something about the look in Chuck's eyes that made him want to please him... Chuck seemed conflicted about what to do. He looked like he was enjoying it...so Lem continued, grabbing the antenna with one of his hands. Chuck's body jerked.

"Haah...st-stop it..." Chuck's eyes were closed tightly and his breathing was only getting faster. His antenna started to throb within his grasp and Chuck attempted to speak. "Its...gaah...for ma-mating...yo-you should kn–ohhhh..."

"But...that makes no sense..." Lem gave it a little squeeze and white fluid came out, covering Chuck's stomach. His body was shaking and Lem felt something race through his body at the expression on Chuck's face. He bent down and tasted it. It tasted somewhat sweet and he tilted his head to look down at the now limp antenna. Lem's antennae accidently started to touch the warm liquid and Lem felt heat race through his body. He gripped Chuck's thighs for support as his legs gave out, toes curling so tight that they hurt. "Oooohhh...what...Ch-Chuck..." He lifted his head and looked up at Chuck with needy eyes. His body was on fire...it felt so....good.

"Lem...don't look at me like that...guys don't--" Chuck was cut off as Lem moved up and kissed him, hands propping him up on the hard muscles of Chuck's stomach. His antennae started to feel out Chuck's spiked hair to find it softer then even the fluffiest flower. Green pointed ears moved back in pleasure as a shudder went through his body. Everything felt so....so...good...

"You...have no idea...what you're asking...me to...do...Lem!" Placing his hands on Lem's shoulders Chuck pushed him far enough to breathe. Blue eyes looked into green ones as Lem shuddered, his antennae moving restlessly. Lem couldn't even focus enough to see his own reflection in his eyes. All he could see were those baby blue eyes looking at him hotly like he had the other time.

"Chuck...I don't know what this is...I... feel so weird..." Lem closed his eyes, hands coming up to feel Chuck's arms, the sensitive tips picking up on the goose bumps coating his pale skin, the fine hairs that stood up as the green pad moved over a patch of skin. Chuck let out a shaky breath and Lem looked at him, really looked at him for the first time. There was uncertainty in those blue eyes, and need, and...what was that other glow in his eyes? Was it one of the stars above them glowing brightly or was it an emotion of some kind? He was even more lost then he had been before. Chuck looked down before speaking, breaking the eye contact.

"...I can't promise you anything...I have no idea how its going to work out alright?" Chuck looked back at him with deep concern in his eyes but he didn't object. Lem nodded fervently, gripping the thickness of Chuck's wrists tightly, looking into those eyes intently.

With his answer, Chuck pulled him onto the couch, laying his body on top of the smaller green one. Lem was slightly taken by surprise when his hands started to slide up his sides, pushing the shirt up until his arms kept it from going any further. His lips, warm and moist landed on his stomach and Lem gasped, grabbing onto the material of the couch tightly. Those gentle kisses moved up the middle of his stomach up to his chest before moving over to kiss the nubs of his nipples. Lem's back arched at the pain and pleasure, moaning softly. Looking down he saw Chuck sucking at it like a newborn and Lem could only shiver, his salivary glands overworking. Chuck's hands had disappeared from view and he felt the large palms on the inside of his thighs, carefully nudging them apart. One of his hands moved between his legs, searching for something, while he did that, Chuck leaned up and licked one of Lem's antenna's, pulling it into his mouth to nibble. Lem's body couldn't stop shuddering and there was a strange feeling in the way that he was handling his body. Suddenly, Chuck stopped everything and Lem jerked as something was removed.

"Huh?" Chuck held the cork up where they could both look at it. Those confused eyes turned onto Lem who could barely even find his own breath. The cork was covered in a thin layer of liquid and Lem blushed even more as he looked at it before turning to look at those eyes.

"To...keep out the probe...." Lem bit his bottom lip nervously. Chuck had told them that there was no need to worry about a probe, but then why was he trying to get in there? He had to have a reason... Chuck tossed the cork off the couch before kissing Lem's forehead, hand going down to feel the small opening where it had been. Lem's body twitched as he probed it lightly with one of his fingers.

"Lem...are you sure you want me to do this...?" Chuck asked softly but Lem could see it in his eyes that he couldn't stop himself. He nodded, trying to adjust to the intrusion that he was soothing with light kisses on his lips and feelers.

"Chuck...I ...I love you...I don't know what else it could be or...or even when it started...but...isn't this what people on your planet do to show it...?" Lem looked up at him, small tears in his eyes. There. He had finally said it...he couldn't even remember if Chuck had actually said that but he believed it. He couldn't stop his emotions and there was no way that he could ignore them. Chuck looked at him, eyes sad before he leaned over him, removing his fingers carefully. Those warm lips touched his antenna in silence and Lem moved his head into it. Chuck looked down into those eyes. Lem smiled at him before pecking him on the lips. He wanted to be with him...

Chuck readied himself for penetration, kissing Lem's shoulder as he held one of his legs up with his right hand.

"You weren't supposed to..." One of Chuck's hands covered Lem's mouth when he cried out in pain. He didn't move right after, he could feel him tightening around him, trying to adjust, he could feel the stream of tears rolling down his cheeks and his hot breath against his fingers. He didn't dare to move yet. He wasn't ready. Four fingers gripped uselessly at the uniform on his back as his entire form shook as pain raked through his body. "I know...it'll feel better soon...please...don't cry..." Chuck lifted his head to look into those pained green eyes. He kissed his forehead before paying heavy attention to his antennas, already knowing that they helped to ease the pain.

It hurt...but...he loved him...so it shouldn't...but it did...Why did it hurt so much?

What hurt?

...his heart....it felt as if it were being squeezed until it popped. It was just about to burst and he couldn't handle the pressure. He wanted him to love him back...how hard was that to ask?

Just...say it...please...ease the pain....lift the burden on my heart...say you love me and I'll be fine....

"Lem...I love you too..." Blue eyes looked passionately into his own and he smiled, tears rolling down his cheeks as he closed his eyes. He pulled Chuck close as he started to move, slowly at first. He could feel the pleasure now...he could feel the love...he could feel Chuck. That was all that he had wanted. Someone to love and someone who loved him, even if it was just accidental, it was still love.

THE END